Gratitude for I Can Feel Your Pain
I met my first Empath in August this year. He is a wonderful man, and has helped me emmensly. In my personal opinion I am also an Empath and have been since birth, but was un-aware; no really I didn't have a clue, I'm forty five.
As a confused child I heard 'I love you' and felt hate and disdane. When I said 'I love you' I felt a feeling of dis-belief and doubt. When I am close to a person, touching them I feel their craving, as if It is my own.
If these things are true what more could be true. I was alone, I have no contact with my family. I thought they just didn't love me, but how must it have been for them to have their deepest fears reflected to them whenever I was there. To know that I could see every lie they said.
I would arrive with joy in my heart, to feel revulsion and fear behind my mother's false smile. If you attempt to show someone the truth, and the acceptance of that truth will cause pain, they will refuse to accept that truth, and actively fight it. I represented truth so they fought me.
Everything I knew about myself has to be re-evaluated. The possibility that almost all my past emotional connections have created false mirror image, emotional fractures, from the person that I was closest to at the time, is a real possibility. I am not seeking pity. In this moment I feel stronger than I have ever felt in my whole life. I am not alone anymore.
I have always asked the question 'Why' ? And never had a satisfactory answer. Now I have my answer, because I am an Empathic Human. Now I must build a new life. Thank you for listening. I hope in the future I can listen to you too.
I love your book Elise, it was in many ways a revelation and I can highly recommend it. The volume dial visualisation is proving very effective, as is the snow plough. Thank you for righting it.
updated by @matthew: 06/14/20 09:29:02AM