Talking Weird Stuff
Psychic and Paranormal
Yes, I've heard that before about enduring a life of pain, but never in reference to prophets. Even Gabriel said I'd go through many trials and heart breaks, but the light will always be with me.
Well, I'll probably start backwards and end at my weirdest or strangest paranormal encounter. So lately, I've been seeing my reality change. Everyone in my life just does not listen to me. I struggle most with my dad who I can tell something to over and over and over times a million and he will carry on like this has never been discussed or I never mentioned it. I gathered that it's not a case of senility or forgetfulness, this happens with just about everyone in my life. My observant nature sees that they don't listen worth a damn and it is just so maddening. So it makes me feel like I am in this world alone. Like why talk about something that's bothering me, it's only gonna be forgotten type of thing. The way it is for me tells me that this has less to do with me being an empath and more to do with something else. Something I am not aware of.
I've also seen how people make me the enemy in many situations. The most shocking was at my former volunteer job. One minute I was on top as in "Jonny's our volunteer superstar". Their words. Next minute I'm looking crazy because I am trying to tell the boss about a volunteer who is unstable who has a tendency to blow up in the store in front of customers. The boss just never happens to be around. She is always at meetings or upstairs ignoring what's going on downstairs while I handle everything. I wasn't the store manager, but people sure made me the manager. She just didn't want to hear a word I said. Oh, and because I am an empath and people talk to me because I have that feeling of "I can trust him" that I emit, the boss decided she wanted to pull me to the side while this other volunteer issue was being discussed to tell me she doesn't like all my personal conversations on the site. It looks like "I am talking about people" Her words. I told her that's paranoia. She also spied on one of my conversations with a volunteer about a store issue and pretended she was waiting for the bathroom. She was sooo obvious about it. At that moment, I knew it was time for me to leave. They were making me out to be the enemy, the shady guy, the one who has issues with other people. In my mind, I'm like, WTF! Are you for real?? This is humanity? I was glad to leave after 3 years of unpaid service. The turnaround was very weird indeed. I still question how it all went down.
Now for my craziest paranormal experience, after meeting my two soul brothers on this site, like a month after meeting my little brother, Archangel Gabriel channels through him with a message for me and the "Three Brothers". Up until that point, I had never really discussed archangels. I just knew that I liked angels. On my favorite cartoon called Digimon there is an angel monster that I adore. He just emits such divinity for a cartoon character. Well, turns out my angel fascination for was a reason. Archangel Gabriel channeled through the little one with a message for me revealing that I am destined to be a prophet. At that moment, I didn't know what was going on. I had heard the word prophet before but I just didn't understand the sheer importance of what I was being told. Also, I didn't know if Ben was playing a joke on me. First time I ever experienced a channeling experience. His first message told me that he was here for me as the one who sees(referring to me and my gift for seeing) and he will guide my way and that he will ALWAYS be here for me. The message was so powerful and I could feel the love from his wording. Capitalizing ALWAYS to show emphasis that he was for me. That is how he phrased it.
Another day while I was in class, I was on my phone being a bad student talking to Ben when Gabriel came through again, this time greeting me with this "Blessed be the one who sees for his way will be blessed by the light. He will shine and show the way to the answers. He will see the truth within and be the prophet he is meant to be." Again, back then, I wasn't grasping the sheer importance of what was being said to me and by whom. I was being given a divine message. Twice for little old me. His mentioning of being a prophet does go along with my experiences of having dream visions. Powerful ones that showed me something and one time told me when it was going to come true. Back then, I simply thought I was psychic. I had no idea what my future was gonna be like.
If that's not all, since Gabriel says he was for me and will always be with me, he should know that I would still be a little skeptical because all this--channeling, divine messages, archangels, prophets--this was new to me. One day on my way to class, I was compelled to look up at the sky and that is when I saw a golden streak of light shoot down then dissipate. I went through all the possibilities. Couldn't have been a piece of an airplane because there was no fire trail nor was there a sound of impact. Meteorite, something. It was not that. It was golden light. It dawned on me that I saw Archangel Gabriel's divine light. He revealed himself to me and if that actually happened to me, I had better take those messages seriously. He said "Your job is by far bigger than you know." I've been trying to interpret what job he means ever since. Y'all, I'm a prophet. Still dunno how to make sense of it all. But I gather the reason why people react so alien to me has to do with what I am. All I have is biblical stories of prophets and how people either followed them(which I had a huge following when I worked as a volunteer) or were against them, and one thing I try to make sense of is why people show me such hate when they don't even know me. How I left my volunteer job still perplexes me because suddenly, all those people I worked with for 3 years showed me they had no respect for me to even listen to what I was saying. Just automatic disbelief and I am the problem. So I feel like I'm living the stereotype of a prophet--crazy. My reality is crazy. People treat me like I am that when I'm probably the sanest person they know. So instead of fight it, I just say to hell with it. Got better things to worry about.
In addition to the prophet stuff, I've been seeing what could be more messages from Gabriel but this time through print. I was blown away when I logged into Facebook one morning and saw a friend's boyfriend's post. It was right on my newsfeed and it said "You Can't Stop the Prophet" which was a song, and it was posted by my friend's boyfriend whose name was Gabriel.............................................................
lol one day at the bus stop, I was simply standing waiting for the bus. I don't even think I was smiling. Had no reason to, when a guy standing behind me says that I am beaming. He went on to say I had the power to help light up the world. I don't know where these words were coming from. What was he sensing from me that made him say this. His words were a lot eerie considering everything Gabriel told me about myself. To me, this was the first time I encountered a soul reader who was basically reading my soul. Whether consciously or unconsciously, because the things he was saying had to do with my message from Gabriel.
This happened a second time in the ICU when visiting my now deceased mother(may she RIP). When we came back to the ICU to thank the nurses for all they did for my mom, one nurse singled me out and asked me if I was a pastor in training. Puzzled, I said no. Why? She said that she saw something in me as I prayed over my mother that shows that God speaks through me. I kid you not, this was her line of wording. Standing there with my sister and my father who don't know my secret or even know I am an empath, I was basically being outed as a prophet by this nurse. Again, like the man at the bus stop, she used wording that pointed to my being a prophet. It was again like someone was reading my soul. After the second time, I was FREAKED OUT. I immediately told my older soul brother who is a powerful psychic that I met here. He told me that, yes, people are going to read me and they don't know that they are doing it. So now, the fact that I have people, total strangers coming up to me reading my inner secrets, it's another thing to make me uneasy in a world full of people. What is next is what I often ask myself.
That's my story.
This I definitely know. Six years ago, I heard something to the effect of "In order for your abilities to grow stronger, you must go through much pain." And so far, it's been accurate. Over the past six years, I've gone through some things and I'm changing. Stuff is happening to me. But I know it's gonna get so worse. I wish I could recite my entire 2016, but it would be a long post. Suffice it to say, it was just bad thing after bad thing which included the deaths of my mother and best friend. I feel like I haven't had the chance to properly mourn because I'm also going through other stuff, spiritual stuff that also has me a wreck. My birthday is coming up next month and I want to get away. I'm thinking a sight-seeing trip on Amtrak. Something I've never done before. Just take pictures of the scenery and enjoy my solitude.
I began last year happy because I was turning 33 which is an angel number and also my favorite number to the second power(3). So I automatically felt lucky because I got to be 33 for a whole year. I was so wrong. It was the worst year I have ever lived so far. I just hope 34 is kind to me. I can only take so much before I start feeling crazier than I normally feel.
Hi Jonny, Good to see you Friend:) It's been awhile and I'm glad your still here :)
I'm really sorry about the girl it really sucks what she did but there alot of people in this world that suck! It's hard not to take it personally since they come into our lives and become such an important part of it. I don't think people intentionally, for the most part come into our lives to destroy them, I think, that most of them just don't think. They don't think about the effects of their actions, how it effects the people they are doing it to, or the damage they create because of it.
My ex was like that. I spent many years hating him because I could never figure out how a human being could have children and walk away as if they never exsisted, even after spending two years with them. One day it's "I love you and will never leave you" and the next, their gone. I e-mailed him recently to let him know we moved and have a current address for the kids. Even after 15 years he wrote back " I don't care, don't ever contact me again!" So if the kids die, you don't want to know? This is when it solidified my belief that most people don't think, but alot of them just don't care either. My daughter is more effected by it then my son. Probebly because she was older and remembers him more. But I told her, you can't control people, you can't make them feel emotions or love. You can't make them feel guilt or or even have a heart. So, it's pointless to try, instead of wasting time trying to control what is not in your control,, you should channel that energy what can be controlled. You don't your biological dad's love, but you do have a dad that made the choice to be your dad and has spent the last 11 years loving you raising you and standing by your side through everything. Instead of giving your love to someone who isn't worth your love, channel that love towards the one who does love you and will appreciate the love you return.
I'm going to advise you do the same, my Friend. I know it hurts and I know how hard it is to accept that people are capable of doing this to another person, by I'm sending you energy to help heal your heart. But what you have to know is that you are not a buiscut. You are more then that and you deserve more so don't let this girl dictate who you are because she clearly doesn't know! With that said, you are obviously looked after by the higher realms. It sounds like the truth was found out before it was to late and somehow fate intervened and for this, you are blessed! She wasn't the one, which means the one is still out there somewhere , so don't give up!
As far as feeling cursed...GOD!do I KNOW this feeling!!! hahaha. But over the years, I started gaining a different perspective. If there is light and there is dark, and we are the balance of both light and dark, then that means that within ever shadow there is light, and within the light, somehwhere there is a shadow. So Maybe the purpose of the dark is to find the light within it. And I've kind of made it a mission to do that. Yes, when it rains, it pours like a freakin hurricane, but it reaps so many rewards. I think we started this forum around the same time and you have been through so much, but you have overcome so much, both with stregnth and with dignity. You've held you head up high and you have battled so much. Though the path has been brutal, you have brought inspiration to alot of people, and that is all light, your light! And you will continue to do so. Not everyone in the world will see or appreciate it, but there are people here that do :) So hang in there my friend and know that you are thought of and cared for,both in the heavens and on earth :)
It's been a long time. Good to see you. Glad to still be here. I think about people just not thinking. I hear that a lot, but for me it's hard to give them the benefit of the doubt because if the tables were turned, especially with me being empathic. They would rip me a new one for being flawed, incompetent. Just not care that I have feelings. But those same humans expect me to still talk to them after such things that were done to me and I am not a forget about it type of person. I always remember and that is what makes it hard for me to be around them again. I read everyone's positive messages to me about what I had to say and I am thankful for them. But I feel like I've been through this game for so long now that I should almost expect it from people. I have MAJOR trust issues naturally because I've been hurt so much.
I really have the mentality that I cannot or should not be in one place for too long because people are going to get used to me and take advantage and as soon as I can't help them anymore, they'll show me how much they ever cared for me. At my FORMER job for example, the boss, Roy, he added me on Facebook and was all happy about it and he would say things like "We love you, Jonny!". And a few months later, look at what happens. He can't even face me to tell me the truth about what's going on.
I will be honest with you Angel, most of the time, I cannot help but feel like a freak that causes this. All I have to do is just be present, and people just want to take from me and use me. It's hard to cope with being an empath in addition to many other things I learned about myself that are more important than being an empath that I feel together, make me this big freak that people want to be around and use while they can. I know I shouldn't think of myself as that, but it's hard not to see myself as that when so many people in my personal life, it's not that they treat me differently. They do so and don't see a problem with what they are doing. As if they are oblivious to firing me without telling me while I was out sick. Or letting me be intimate with a cheater. Something I personally would NEVER do.
One thing is for sure, the more I go through the worst of the worst, I never give up. I wasn't made to surrender to someone or give up on life because of how hard it is for me. I just keep it moving while still being hurt. That is difficult, but possible. I do it all the time.
I wake up some days with the utter disbelief that I have a life that I do. And that God sees little old me for such a big purpose. What inspires me is hearing how I changed the life of, or helped someone who needed it. Even if I didn't think I was helping. I've heard such heartfelt responses to me and that is what keeps me going.
It's good to see you again, Angel and thank you for your words. I appreciate them.
Thank you. I appreciate your words. I would not want anyone doing to me what I wouldn't do to them. Unfortunately, that is not always the case.
I feel your pain. It is very easy for any of us as empaths to lose faith in humanity and want to pack up and live alone in the woods by ourselves. But if you did that you would not be sharing your gifts with others that need help. And at the end of the day I think that’s what we are here for. I think the key for us is that we have to be careful who we share our gifts with as the selfish narcissists out there are the first to shove themselves to the front of the line to benefit from us. You sound like a very giving person with what you do and who you let into your life. But it sounds like it has backfired a few times where you were used up and discarded. This is going to happen when you open yourself up to everyone. You will attract some people who are bad for you. And those are the type of people who I think you need to try to identify and screen out of your life. I think most of us have been through this. People like that use you up and leave you drained, depressed, and weakened.
It sounds like you are on the right path keeping that girl at an emotional distance until you can sort out her intentions and decide whether she is good or bad for you. And check out that book I recommended and see if it helps you separate the positive from negative in your life and choose your path to happiness.
(Sorry for the long response but I hope the details will help you).
Back in 2010 when I discovered I was an empath, I feel like I had awakened, and I did. I was helping people more and those who saw my light came straight to me out of many people they could have chosen from because they knew I would be able to help them. As the years went on, I was confident in what God made me. I am a very spiritual person and I always believe things happen for a reason. When people used to tell me I had the potential to teach, I thought about it in a small literal sense. Me, a teacher? I couldn't imagine myself as such because I have very little patience and people don't usually listen to me. But I understand know it was in the broader sense. I see myself teaching those I come in contact with and most don't wish to listen to me. I get that a lot, but later they see that they should have because something in me knows what I am talking about. There's a wisdom that goes a long with me and some people see it in me, others don't take me seriously.
I began feeling negative about myself when more and more people were needy and selfish instead of cautious and gracious. My overall view on humanity has changed so much based on what I witness with my eyes everyday. I try not to judge because it's not up to me to judge, but I don't like what I see and my opinion on humanity as a whole has become very negative. But how they treated me was something that factored greatly in my view of them because I began seeing more selfish behavior and more apathetic behavior and it baffled me so greatly because humans boast they are the most intelligent species in the universe. Why would they not have the common sense to treat people with kindness or help those instead of take from those? It's a question I ask myself everyday and while I try to be positive on what I am and where I am going, humanity brings me down. MY sensitivity to what I experience and whom I experience it from is what makes me depressed.
I am in many situations where people I let into my life and my heart take full advantage of me and don't bother to give back instead of take and it hurts me because I thought humans were better than this. I'm going through a big change in my life that I don't understand. I pray for wisdom and understanding but there is a reason why I am not seeing it at the moment. I have my good days and my bad days, but what I needed to see was that even though I loathe humans at times, I also love them very deeply, and it is that push and pull on my heart that confuses me by their behavior toward me and others. I am very cautious of who I get comfortable with because I don't know if a smiling face can be a back stabber, and that is usually the case for me.
It's a long and rocky journey, but I am learning a little bit along the way. But I thank you for your advice. Since writing this post, the girl I've been seeing has reached out to me, but I confronted certain issues. I want to make clear that we aren't in a relationship. We are friends who eventually found ourselves having feelings for one another. But just because we aren't in a relationship does not mean I appreciate being made a homewrecker. I have my morals and my ethics and being with someone intimately while they are in a relationship with someone else is not something I have ever found myself thinking about because that is simply not something I would do. She said that she would get back to me after Christmas because I confronted her about her confusing statements that hint she likes me more than what she is letting on. I told her I am not in this to be played, friend or no friend. If you are in this to play and toy with my feelings all for the sake of your fun, it is best if we are not in each other's lives.
I am sorry to hear what you are going through. Do you feel like you are constantly dealing with bad luck and are wondering "what's going to go wrong next"? Do you also lie awake at night worrying about this stuff and have trouble sleeping? The reason I ask is I'm trying to better understand your situation to see if it relates to what I went through. If so, I may be able to help you with some suggestions to reverse your course.
Yes, I often worry about my constant bad luck. I question the Universe. What amount of bad did I do in a former life why my current good life is so messed up. Why do people take obvious advantage of me and act like it's ok, and more importantly, why do people feel they can walk all over me and I'll just take it? Pretty much sums it up. I often have trouble sleeping but not because of this. It's a different issue.
Wow... that all sounds so painful! I'm really sorry to hear about everything you've been dealing with. It kinda reminds me of what I've been dealing with = selfishness and narcissism. People can be super heartless.... and yet I still can't help but live in my own personal dreamland/haven thinking that people are generally good-hearted deep down. Broken maybe, but not always good-hearted is the truth, and I guess I've had to slam into this truth like a concrete wall once again by dating a narcissist.
But anyway. Just wanted to say I can relate and I really do hope that things get better for you soon <3 You're not alone! & you deserve far better...
Light to you,
Thank you kitkat. I struggle with the same. I have a love/hate relationship with humanity. On the outside, I detest them because too many of them show me their true colors, but deep down I love them and wish to be among them. Friends with them, partners with them.
You know what, I had a strikingly similar experience with my childhood school friends on Facebook that left me baffled. I looked up one friend from school and we reconnected, then I saw that she was friends with everyone from our mutual circle back in the day. I felt alone and left out. All these years, from teenagehood to adulthood, you guys have gotten married and had kids and kept in contact with each other, including hanging out with each other and I was left out of that? The friend I reconnected with began deleting my comments, no matter what comment it was. It could have said "Hi." and she would delete it. So I wound up deleting her. I should mention another friend of ours who was friends with her on FB, accepted my request but said not a word to me. Not a word! I felt like a freak. Why were people treating me this way?
I've heard many things but part of it is due to the fact that subconsciously, they know we can read them, or get a read on them. Basically we know the truth and not speaking to us is their way of protecting themselves.
Thank you. I feel like I am so much more than an empath. I've experienced so much strangeness because of my nature. But the humans around me whether family or friend they treat me like I don't exist. I have long time friends who don't even address me anymore but we're still friends on Facebook so yay for that. My mother died back in April and I was really distraught and sad over it. Still am. I couldn't believe the enormous amount of friends and family who all knew about it but chose not to interact with me about it. I was baffled by those who chose not to approach me for some unknown reason to offer me condolences. When I talk about it people tell me well maybe they're not good with knowing what to say. No I see what's going on. They just don't want to talk to me about anything and that hurts the hell out of me. What is it inside me that makes people so scared of me? I mean I was fired without actually being told I was fired. People are so afraid of me yet they want to carry on the illusion that we're still in some form of a relationship.
Life just keeps getting more and more strange. My reality is twisting into a place where people do stupid things to me and it's perfectly okay. Literally. I have lost count with the amount of crazy, asinine, unbelievable, foolish things people do to me that they have no moral implications with.
EG : I fell in love with a friend who I've been seeing for 2 years on and off. I just found out 2 weeks ago that she's been in a relationship for 8 months with someone else, officially making me the side piece. I'm a biscuit, y'all. A biscuit, fries, cole slaw. That is what I've become with this news. I feel betrayed and as a very spiritual man, I feel like I broke God's law somehow even though I had no clue I was being duped. Just before that, she told me that she cares about my well being and doesn't wanna see me hurt. I am SOO glad I chose not to profess my love because when I tell you I was this close to doing so, I was THIS close to doing so. I would have made a fool of myself. It's been more than 2 weeks since I last heard from this person which in itself is unusual. I would hear from her every day to every 2 days. Haven't heard a thing since. So I guess I've been thrown away.
EG : I was out sick from work for over a month. A skin condition I caught from someone, most likely from work as I work around a lot of homeless people who help out by using skills they have. Or it could have been on the buses I ride every day to work where someone is always coughing behind me or sneezing. Anyway, I caught a skin condition that broke me out in a full-body rash. My face looks like I am alien in nature. I have spots. Light spots that appear to be going away but then kinda not. Moving on, I am dealing with severe anxiety issues and it resulted in having my first panic attack. I felt like I was having a heart attack and was so scared. I called 911 and was told my heart was fine but I need to go to my doctor and tell him about my symptoms. 16 days later at the doctor, that's when I found out it was a panic attack.
In addition to those two things, I was in severe pain for over a month as I live with a chronic pain condition. I did my responsible duties and called out sick. I also sent emails to the people in charge and got no replies. I dealt with all this for over a month and when I finally came back to work which was on my day off, I couldn't help but notice every trace of me was erased from my office, including my hours, files, personal compilations that I made for the company to celebrate volunteer and staff appreciation, which was my idea btw. My name was erased from the In/Out board, in addition to my desk drawers being re-arranged. My ex friend who was also the boss greeted me with a very sarcastic greeting "Oh, look who it is. It's Jonny". I didn't appreciate her tone so I had nothing to say in response to that. The 2-3 times I came back to work after being sick, she was unusually quiet around me and giving me the cold shoulder as if I had did something wrong.
I emailed the main boss and asked him directly why my office appears to have been cleaned out of all things me. I got no response. I am so tired of people ignoring me like I am some thing to be ignored, but when they need me, that's when they know I exist. I worked in admin for 9 months so I know that when he's on the computer, 9/10 times he's on Facebook. So I'm not buying the "Perhaps he was busy" line people often tell me. It appears I was fired without being told I was fired. Mind you, this was a volunteer job so no money lost. My volunteer jobs are long term. Usually working 3 days a week. But it was a job I invested 9 months of energy and time into. I was out sick and this is the treatment I get. Fired. If it was a paid job, they could get a lawsuit brought against them. You don't fire people because they are out sick. Reminds me of 2009 when I was in the ICU because school had stressed me into an almost fatal pain crisis. I called my math instructor from my ICU bed and told him I wouldn't be back for the rest of the semester. He failed me over the phone. Technically, I pass or fail once I take the exam. He failed me for being absent too many times even with doctors' notes which all professors tell you is the only thing that will excuse you from excessive absences. For all he knew, I would be back in 4 days. I fought the board to be able to take that final and I won.
I get treatment like this normally. It's not once in a while, it's basically everyday and I don't know how to live as a human when my life is anything but human. I see the truth because of my nature as a whatever I am and it's hard to hide it from me. But that's not always true as I didn't see that I was a biscuit for 8 whole months. But I knew I wasn't the only one in her life. My intuition told me so. As for the job, it took that day that I came back after a month to see all the changes. I picked up on it quick so I knew what was going on. BTW, I didn't give them the chance to tell me I am no longer needed. I just chose not to show up again. If that's the respect they gave me, I'll give it right back. I was so hurt because, yet again I invested time in helping people because that is my nature. It feels unnatural to not help someone and I get used up and tossed away like I am scum under someone's shoe. Right now I am focusing on my art business which I've neglected for 3 years because I was so busy doing volunteer work. It's time I worry about me for a change. I wouldn't think the world is collectively selfish if they would stop showing me that when dealing with me.
It's even happening with insects. Granted, my new bed is right by an open window, but it's an open window that I took an hour to seal up the cracks from which they invade my room from. I thought I sealed it up good and woke up to a stink bug atop my window frame and a spider that cocooned itself like 6 inches from my head on my headboard. It was not there last night or even this morning when I went back to bed. That spider could have been inside my ear or my nose, that's how close it was while I slept. Never happened before. It's apparent that they are extra attracted to me as of lately and that doesn't bode well with me when insects freak me out!
I'm glad to be here on the new EC. I go back to July, 31st 2010 and every year, I celebrate the anniversary of when I discovered I was an empath, the day I joined EC. I don't post very much anymore but I always read the topics and see all the new members joining.
I thought over the years I would learn a lot and grow. Don't get me wrong, I have. I've gained a ton of knowledge just from being here, but my problems with grounding/shielding have made me this uptight ball of bitterness inside and while my bitterness comes from many different sources, it is mostly due to my nature as an empathic being. Since 2010, my life has gotten so strange and the things I experience cause me to question my sanity, asking myself if this craziness that I experience is real or is this some dream that I haven't yet woken up from.
The way people treat me is my number one gripe. They say people treat you how you allow people to treat you, but in this case, that isn't correct in the least. People are just so attached to me and want me 24/7 to be there to talk to or be around and sometimes people cross a line by crossing boundaries with me by not knowing how to leave me alone. The problem I have is I expect humans to have logic and realize what they do but that is never the case. This being empathic thing causes the strangest reactions from people, and apparently when in the presence of an empath, they don't pay attention to what they are doing. It's leaving me feeling ultra smothered and I want to escape it all. Empath Community is like Xavier's Institute for Gifted Youngsters. It's a school for growing empaths and those learning about themselves. If there were a real place where different people could join and be amongst each other, I would give up my life and career in the human world so I could be there and learn with them.
Day to day is a massive struggle and I can't help but feel like this thing that is made of light that people gravitate toward. Just today on the bus, a very strange man who I see on the bus frequently, got up from the front of the bus and sat in front of me in the middle section of the bus just so he can look behind him, all around like he always does, everywhere. I caught him staring at me and my ID badge which is also my bus pass and it's things like that which freak me out seriously. I dunno what is the matter with him, but the way he stands up in his seat to look behind him and all around him is very disturbing and for him to leave his seat up front and sit right by me so he can do that just unnerves me severely. If people realize how often things like that happen to me, they'd know why I have a problem with it and stop thinking I am being paranoid. I feel like people just want to be around me even if I want to be alone and I just want to turn it off so I can have a moment to breathe without the next person bothering me for something. At this point in my life, people have become so disrespectful of my boundaries and personal space that it doesn't even occur to them that they are being a bit much.
I do feel like I've lost my way. Six years ago, I was more confident and liked when people came to me for help. I still do, but so many people disrespect my boundaries and they don't get that they are being disrespectful. I never thought I would have to verbalize to multiple people that they are being clingy and I need my space. I told my father that and he downright got annoyed at me because I was so bold as to tell him that he couldn't talk to me whenever he'd like to. No matter what I say and how I phrase it, people misunderstand my words and twist what I am saying and it's ever so frustrating to deal with.
They feel like "home" or old friends. This is something I would often talk about when I first joined six years ago. Can't believe it's been six years.
Fellow empathic people feel like old friends and until I joined this site, I've never paid attention to what that felt like and I noticed it happened with just about everyone I met here. Also, some of them feel like myself. Consciously, I know I feel a certain way. People I've met who feel exactly like me I've deduced are either empathic or very spiritual, maybe more. Has abilities inside.
Since I moved to Eugene, OR, it's been so hard for me to differentiate between who is empathic and who is not because everyone out here feels the same whereas when I lived in NYC, people felt different from one another. So I dunno if everyone out here is an empath or not, but one thing is for sure, everyone here is very spiritual. I believe that's why I moved here. I was called here.
I just wanted to discuss the last couple months and things that have been happening to me. Well my mother passed away on April 29th. She was sick for a long time and she succumbed to her illness. I was able to fly back to NYC and spend 11 days at her bedside, even at moment of her death. I prayed over her and held her hand and told her to relax and don't struggle. Me and my sister were at her bedside, her oldest and youngest children. She died peacefully, without doctors and nurses crowding her.
Upon her death, I told her that I'd be waiting for her to make contact with me. 5 days later, the morning of her 71st bday, at around midnight, I dozed off and was awaken by something tickling my foot. When I woke up, memories flooded me of that tickling. That is how mommy used to wake me up when I was a kid. She would tickle my feet as I slept under the covers. When that happened, I knew she was alright and made it safely to where she needed to be.
Since then, I've been dreaming a lot of her. One dream in particular was very violent, but the message was clear--she will always be there to protect me. The dream itself had the two of us ducking for cover under the living room table as she shielded me with her body, there were gunshots coming into the living room from outside, while she threw grenades at whoever the shooters were in retaliation. But she was protecting me from harm the entire time.
Another dream had her revealing to me that she was blind and had been for a while. And the dream was somewhat lucid because I remember feeling like my presence in the dream was of the real me and not a dream me. I remember feeling like mommy already died because she was sick, but she was telling me that along the way, she was blind. Unfortunately, I don't think this can ever be confirmed as there was no way to tell she was blind or went blind during her hospital stay. She was intubated for most of her hospital stay and couldn't speak or gesture to us. It could just be a dream but considering how much I've been dreaming of her, I am not dismissing any of them.
She died with some secrets about her life and these were secrets we heard about but didn't know anything about because she never liked discussing it. I told her of everyone in her family, we, her children, she could have confided in because we come from her. I told her to tell me what she was keeping to herself and that night, she did. I dreamt there was an angry spirit slamming her closet door. That signified anger. The vibe in the dream was over a lost child, which was the secret. When I woke up, it was to Toni Braxton's Unbreak My Heart and that exact line was being sung when I opened my eyes. Summary of the dream: She was very angry at the choices she made regarding children she chose not to have and she was very heart broken because of it.
There's a lot that she's been telling me from beyond, but I'm gonna end with this morning's dream which had her leaving our old home on a stretcher, but even though she was still sick, she looked much better in physical appearance. She acknowledged her demons to me, the demons that took her life and said that she accepts her fate because of how she lived her life. And most notably, her aura. In the dream, she was radiating purity, like her soul had been washed clean of all sin. She was a new woman. When I woke up, I took that as meaning that she acknowledged how she passed away and the demons which took control of her life. And because of that, she is now at peace, which is also what she told me in the dream. And the feeling she was giving off told me that she has been made pure in Heaven.
I guess what I am writing about is to mention that prior to my mom dying, no one who has passed has communicated with me as much as she has. Upon her death, I believe I was awakened because I personally experienced a lot of growth in such a short amount of time and I think she was responsible for that. With all these dreams, I'm wondering if this is some sort of mediumship or if I am dreaming so much of her because of our connection as mother and son. I thought medium immediately because again, she's communicating with me. I'm asking her to tell me how she feels, and shortly afterward I dream of her emotion. As an empath, I have always felt emotion in dreams rather than physically and I am wondering if this is the start to something more.
Loss. The loss of 3 people in my life who I considered best friends. They turned on me very easily and after it happened the final time, I started to question if I was causing this somehow. I didn't know how I was, but it prompted me to ask Google "Am I an empath?" and I found EC and the rest was history.
I completely identify with this. I'm 33 and have never been in a romantic relationship. It has just never happened for me. When I was younger, I was more outgoing than I am now, but the few girls that I did go after, it turned out they only led me on to their advantage. They weren't interested in me in that way and it hurt my feelings. Occasionally, I may run into a girl that I find attractive who may have even been flirting with me, but I'm so clueless that I don't typically notice it until after the fact. When I was a cashier at a local art store, I often had the female customers who were extra flirty with me and while I enjoyed that, I didn't think anything of it and it wasn't til a friend who was totally eavesdropping on our convo told me that that girl was flirting with me. You should ask her out!
I am very much into looks when it comes to a mate or even someone to go out with. I think that is a human quality, but a person's personality can completely tarnish a person's looks and make them unattractive to me. As I got older, I just thought that it wasn't possible for me to find a mate for several reasons. A) I could not be sending out the right vibes for one, B) the empath in me can't be with someone who is unlike me because we will just conflict like oil and water. But there are many empaths who have non empathic spouses. I'm not saying THAT isn't possible. I just feel it isn't possible for me.
I would love to find someone to be with who is an empath or who is human and isn't a person that lives their life based on what society tells them to do and think and act and say. As much as I think and feel having a relationship will never happen for me, part of me has some glimmer of hope that it will one day happen.
The thing about the people that responded to me, I know them and have known them for years so I know how they respond and how they write. Additionally, this has happened before. Countless other times where I ask something and they don't answer, rather they answer based on a question I didn't ask. I didn't ask them what they liked or preferred. Their answers were telling me their favorite songs. Notice all of them commented the same. "I like this and that." One of those song replies not even having lyrics, so how is it iconic? He was telling me his favorite song.
It wasn't a different way of answering my question. To answer my question, they would have to say "this song is iconic." not "I like this song". "I like this song" tells me they like a song. That doesn't tell me if they think it's iconic. The first person responds "I always like we need a hero". That isn't an alternate way of answering if a specific song is iconic, that is telling me he always likes we need a hero. The final person is just jumping on the same bandwagon telling me what he really likes and that person specifically is one person who always reads too much or too little into what I post and answers in a whole other direction than what was asked, something he did again just the other day. After I clarified what I meant, none of them except for one person corrected themselves and responded appropriately. That, too has happened before.
It's very irritating to write something and people read only a portion of it or ignore part of it completely.If I write an entire BLOCK of text, I can understand ignoring part of it, but if it's two or 3 simple sentences, that is beyond maddening to me. It happened again this morning. Whenever that happens, I typically ignore it because if they can't answer me based on what I asked them why on earth should I answer or reply to someone that isn't responding based on what I asked?
No, but I want to learn this. I also would like to sharpen my skills to be able to feel for someone. Do you know how useful that would be? If I want to walk into an abandoned building for instance, use my empathy to feel another presence. That seems to not be that far from what I can do now, precognitive "thoughts" I have that tell me I am about to hear from someone and it's right every time.
This is what prompted me to make this topic here on EC. I ask specific questions, one that cannot be misinterpreted, but people reply as if I asked something completely different.
The question was regarding one theme song from a show we all watch that have amazing lyrics which can be seen as iconic. My question was forthright and specific and not only do I have people commenting their favorite fight songs, but after I already clarified what I meant, people are still commenting their favorite songs when that is not what I asked. To me, the fact that they do this and continue doing this after clarification seems illogical to me. It makes me feel like I am not capable of having a human conversation because when I speak they apparently either do not hear me or hear something else.
This is but ONE example of many many many aggravating moments where I ask something and people trail off. Sometimes my question goes completely ignored while everyone carries on in the comments talking about whatever that does not relate to what I asked. I ask myself, "why are they telling me their favorite fight songs? Is this their way of telling me these songs are iconic to them? If so, why can't they simply state that instead of listing their favorite songs?"
Unless it's one person that answered something I didn't ask, I don't feel it necessary for me to ask them personally because then I would feel like I am screaming at someone to understand me, as if I am talking in American English but they hear a totally alien language.
I dunno if other empaths deal with this or if this is just me, but online, people have a tendency to not read what I wrote and go on in response to something I never even said. In my online fan group, the members tend to not read clearly what I write. I could be asking a specific question and all the responses would be about something I didn't even ask. This happens everywhere online and it's happened so often that aside from getting on my nerves, has me wondering what about me causes this?
And not just online, it happens in life where I can explicitly say something and the person I am saying it to takes a whole different meaning from it. It ties a lot into the whole misunderstood thing we empaths go through. What is that about? Why is this a thing? I find it annoying, to be honest cuz I feel people are so quick to respond to something I didn't even say and it makes me wonder if they are paying attention at all. How can you be responding to something I did not say or write or wasn't even thinking about? Do my creepy empathic words confuse people? Do I have people under my spell? What?
I feel like I have to write a preface with everything I write that states before you respond, make sure you have fully read and understand what you are replying to. It happens so often that I don't feel like there's any other way for me to be understood.
Yes, I'm trying to keep up with the replies. I didn't think it would resonate the way it did. Let me explain what made me write this:
I volunteer at a place called MECCA and I am the Volunteer Coordinator there. I'm assuming that since this business has been a thing, I am the first VC to work on the floor closely with the volunteers. So being an empath, I see and observe and hear what goes on in the store. Some is not always nice. So a lot lately, I find myself emailing the Executive Director over things I observe that bother me. Some being personal others being general behavior. I feel like I have emailed her so often that to email feels foreign now.
Anyway, last week my BEST friend who struggles with mental illness and is very honest about it came to work emotional like she has a tendency to do. And she called my name and tried to show me something when I was having a conversation with 2 people. My attention was divided so it appeared that I was blowing her off which I was not. I acknowledged what she wanted to show me, then I resumed my conversation with the other two. Next thing I know, she approaches me at the front desk and says she's disappointed in me and as I'm trying to find out how she means, she accuses me of dismissing her and making excuses and I'm just lost at what the hell she's talking about because what she is saying did not happen. So that turns into a blow up where she's irate at me and emotional in front of customers mind you and here I am being put in a compromising position that I did not put myself in.
I tried to find out what was bothering her when she further blew up and blew me off by dismissing all that I was saying and at that point, I got annoyed real quick. So long story short, because I had observed this behavior in the store before, where she got emotional and unprofessional with customers about, I thought it was time for me to let the Director know that one of the beloved volunteers, who is a friend to us all, can have unprofessional moments. The Director made it a me and her issue and it wasn't a MECCA issue and I'm trying to explain to her that this is a MECCA issue because you have a volunteer working for you that is unstable and is prone to blow ups in the store. Because she chose to blow up at me does not mean it's a personal issue between me and her.
So the entire back and forth just frustrated me because you try to explain something to someone who otherwise is oblivious to everything and they only see something they wanna see and that led me here to writing this topic. So I'm done with trying to open someone's eyes. If they don't wish to see, they don't wish to see. I'm gonna move on and continue living my life. Additionally, it's time for me to leave MECCA. My presence in the store is too relied upon. You know, typical for an empath. People rely on me and it can border on using and there's just too much drama in the store that I am no longer comfortable with and if it's anything I can teach the world, it's to stand up for your morals and your convictions. If something is not right, boycott it, walk away. It's no longer a place I want to be associated with.
But aside from how I now feel about working there, my now EX best friend abandoned our almost 3 year friendship over a misunderstanding. More to the point, this was our first fight and like another former friend, from here actually, who was mentally ill as well, there was one moment where she saw I wasn't there for her out of the 50 times I was there for her whenever she called me, and decided to turn on me like I had done something so unforgivable. Unfortunately, with some people with mental illness, that's all it takes and you are suddenly dead to them. Because I have been through it before and tried to make it right for the sake of our relationship, I just have to move on instead of worry about why she's being this way.
We are intuitive beings and intuition comes in many different forms. It could be a feeling you get, something that your gut tells you or you can be the only one paying attention to the truth when it's shown when everyone else is oblivious to it.
If you try to tell the truth about someone or a situation and the person you are telling it to does not want to accept it, the more you push the issue, the more you look crazy. We are far too gifted to have the perception going around that we are crazy because the things we see or know but can't explain because the situation doesn't obviously show what you know. One of the things I have told myself in the past was that I would not let any amount of people make me believe I was crazy because I'm trying my hardest to tell someone what is. It may not be meant for you to reveal the truth to the people in the world. They will eventually come to it in their own time.
Being an empath is hard enough without the world thinking we're crazy. And yes, it does bother us. Why shouldn't it? I'm as sane as they come but I realize the more I push the issue, the less credible I seem. So do yourselves a favor and drop it and move on with your life. Unless the truth will end up hurting someone physically, leave it be and try to be happy in life without the stress of people never believing you affecting you emotionally. <3
I try not to be negative by thinking a certain way and not seeing what I may be doing from another perspective. But on the friendship front, all I can see in front of me clearly is how I have been there for them when they needed a friend and how they are not here for me now when I need a friend. It hurts me and I don't know how to get past it. I'm very cynical when it comes to friendships because in college when I was at the height of my life, I was in a social setting making new friends, hanging out. Being normal and I enjoyed every minute of it. And like a tornado came and swept up all I knew, all I had, just about every best friend I made suddenly turned on me. One after the other and I thought it was because of me. Ironically, that is what led me here. Directly after losing my 3rd friend who I loved with all my heart. I wanted to know why this was happening and I found my way here.
Now more than ever I'm about myself and not others. Especially in a work environment where I feel people there don't take into account my personal life. As much as I love to help people, that is no longer an issue with me. Recently talking to the store director, she asked me to work while I recuperated. Totally overlooking what I just told her about needing to take time off to heal. It's weird stuff like that that make me not want to talk to some people anymore.
Someone on here said that to me before about me projecting negative energy resulting in them treating me cold. All I can say is there's like a clique at work and everyone is all part of this big inner circle. As that grew tighter, my relationships with several people grew more distant. I know when I may or may not have been projecting something negative and it just doesn't add up to me why everyone on a grand scale all treat me the same. This isn't new either. While I may be noticing behaviors more now, this goes as far back as last summer when emotionally, I was in a great place. No negativity to project.
I have so much of the same types of relationships when it comes to friends so I don't go out of my way to befriend people. I try not to be cold or rude to people, but simply, I don't try to make friends anymore. Because I have such a disconnect for why things happen the way they do, it makes me feel that I shouldn't be in one place for too long. I think that's a valid determination when this same thing happens in just about every relationship or situation I am in. I don't know about others, but in situations like this, I come to ridiculous but real conclusions like not staying in one place too long. Just being me makes me feel like a huge freak.
I spend most of my time helping people and I do that through volunteer work. In the 3 years I have been there, I have been elevated to a position of power and respect just by being me. And because of this so many rely on me and need me and can't seem to function without my presence including the Director of the store I work at. I have to remind myself that unlike her or a few of the staff there, I am a volunteer so I can only give so much of myself, my time and energy before i begin to feel burned out and want to get away from it all. As an empath, I have many days like that where I need me time. You would think I'm one of several paid bosses at MECCA which everyone just assumes about me. Volunteers, customers and total strangers. Working there has made me into something more than I am.
As much as I love MECCA as an outlet for helping people, I've grown tired of being around a select group of people, once my friends and people I enjoyed being around. They eventually became people that take my time and energy for granted and not only expect me to be there all the time, but to help them out when they need it without so much as communication from them on any work related subject to me who needs to know things. I've brought it up time and time again that people need to communicate with me but apparently once I leave the scene, everyone's memories get erased and they go back to mistreating me and being disrespectful of my time there. I pretty much stopped giving so much of myself scaling back my hours to every other week since while being frustrated, I am also dealing with health problems. I'm recovering from two stress fractured feet. No one there so much as gives a crap about it. Friends I've made don't reach out via text or call, they don't ask how I'm doing when I do see them and they also go back to acting like nothing is wrong.
So I ask myself, why does this happen in the life of an empath? What is it that makes this happen? Why are we always needed to a fault and people we've grown to like and trust over the years begin acting cold and disregard us? I'm getting to understand light and what it is and how it brings people to us. People of all kinds and they recognize us as someone who can help them. But why in our personal relationships do we get treated like crap like we are not there? What is it about us that can turn a relationship from loving to pure detestable? In my life, I dunno who I can trust anymore based on their treatment of me. It just makes me feel used and abused for the number of years I have been a loving friend to them when they needed me and even when they didn't.
As an empath who doesn't normally sense feelings and emotion from people, I tend to feel a lot of shade and negativity and fakeness toward me when otherwise people smile. This is the one time it pays to be an empath. And the shade that I sense comes from surprising people. People that have stated I was their brother and they'll always have my back. People at work who said if I had a problem, I could come to them.
I don't understand why I get these reactions from people. I didn't do anything to receive such negativity and disrespect. It hurts my feelings and when it happens at work, I find myself always going to the boss to talk about something that happened and how it makes me feel. And I don't want that to be my life.
Yes, yes and more yes. I notice this more now than ever before. People are afraid of me. Afraid to talk to me, reach out to me. All of my friends who used to be close have all stopped communication with me. No one reaches out. Everyone acts as if they don't know what's going on in my life when I'm sure they see my posts on Facebook. They just won't acknowledge any part of me or my life. I dunno what it is about having light that makes people fear us.
I struggle with a variety of emotions based on people's reactions to me. Ranging from anger to sadness, to loneliness. I dunno how to be anymore because I feel like this will always happen so how am I supposed to live a life amongst human beings? This is what makes us so lonely.
More than a decade ago, I was very precognitive in way of dreams and what I still call thought visions. What, to me, appears to be a random thought is just my precognitive everything going off. It happens so often now that I can barely keep up. A stray thought that winds up coming to life. Some days are easy for me to differentiate, and others are surprising to me. I am learning to trust my instincts more and stop dismissing what is happening. I can pretty accurately predict now if something will happen later on because I thought of it earlier. And they are not thoughts that are initiated by my brain, if that makes sense. It's something that pops into my head for no reason whatsoever. That is what I should be paying more attention to.
On Friday morning, I had a thought of my friend Tessa coming in to work when it was not her normal day to work. An hour into the day, I see her car pull up and I said to myself, I knew it! and when she entered the door, told her that I knew she would be coming in. The things I know aren't just random moments anymore. It's all coming true. Most days, I get to thinking about someone and will hear from them accordingly. When I feel in my bones that it is time to call home to NYC, I do so before my dad calls me and listen to him say in amazement that we(mom and dad) were just thinking about you and were gonna call you. So it's all moments like that, that are becoming routine for me. I dunno if it's a schedule that I am following or if the feeling that I need to reach out that is my special way of telling me I am going to hear from some people in my life very soon.
To say I am new to all this wouldn't be true as this stuff has been happening now for more than a decade, but because doubt got in my way, it hindered my abilities until this point where it is all coming back to me. Trust my instincts and my intuition more and I will see how it will flow instead of feel weird. Tessa once asked me, as an empath, do you feel emotions? And I couldn't quite answer that. Rarely is the truth, but it wasn't until a while ago that I realized, I see emotions in dreams and I feel emotions by way of my visions and precognition. I can't tell you how many unnerving and vivid dreams I had that showed me the emotional state of someone through graphic imagery. I once had a twisted and depressing dream of my sister's emotional state that had her suffering from multiple personality disorder, and her different personalities were her various emotional states. After I awoke from that dream, I saw deep into her being more clearly than I had ever did in the past. And even more recent, I dreamt about someone I know who's a bit of a prick to people and saw why he may be acting this way and after the dream, it only made me want to reach out to him and get to know him instead of disliking him because of his doucheyness.
My psychic intuitiveness has its special way of showing me things. I just need to not doubt myself, which I think I've made significant progress on over the years, and learn to trust what I feel and what I know. Watching Charmed helps me cope and understand more of who I am and what I am becoming. When there are days that I struggle with what is happening, watching a marathon of Charmed episodes can make it all clear to me. if this is just the beginning, I wonder what I will be like 5 years from now, even ten. Will the things I see and feel grow? Only time will tell!
I only seem to have precognitive moments in dreams and the few times I have them in my wakened state, it was only about my seeing or hearing from someone. I knew this word but I had never used it in relation to me and my experiences but using it now, I see things in a different light. It's like a weight has been lifted cuz I guess I relied on seeing in my sleep, but it happens while I am awake now. It makes me prouder to be what I am.
My decision to question what was happening happened after I learned of my grandmother's death. About 3 days prior, I was thinking of her the way that I do when I tend to see people later on and I had every intention to call her last weekend. She was on my mind and I needed to reach out. I got caught up in business and last Saturday evening, I got the call from my sister that our grandma had died. I was in shock twofold because I kept saying how I was gonna call her. I was gonna call her! And the second half of the shock came with the realization that it happened again, though, I wasn't going to hear from my grandmother, I was going to hear of her passing. I was slightly unnerved by the synchronicity of what had happened. At the moment I got the call, I was also in the middle of writing a Facebook status about my precognitive thoughts. As I was learning the news, I erased it and closed down. I was a blank slate and numb. I don't blame myself or feel guilty for not calling her, but part of me wishes I had acted on that precog moment prompting me to call her. I heard that she was reminiscing with my sister and mom the day before she died. A moment I missed out on. This just tells me that I should slow down and listen to what my senses are telling me. I get so caught up in life that I miss out on other things.
That's what's happening to me? I never thought of precognition in this manner as it only happens when I see people or hear from them later on. Huh. Wow. Thank you. Do you have any insight on why I saw Krystal on that bus when it wasn't her? I'm positive it wasn't even someone that LOOKED like her. It was HER.
For the last couple of years, I've been thinking of people and seeing or hearing from them hours later and this happens all the time. So often that I am able to differentiate between what is a random thought and what is me sensing someone I am about to see. I'd simply like to know what it is that I am doing. Is it telepathic in nature? Clairvoyant? I joke at work that I summon people with my thoughts cuz I always seem to bring them to me after I thought about them. I would really like to know the name of what this is. I simply call it sensing people.
If I haven't seen the person I thought about in a while, I know that means I will see them within the next couple of days and this is one of my abilities and it's actually something I have control over based on the fact that I know. When it first started happening, I had two moments that were very supernatural in nature based on the amount of time since I last saw one person and the other who I saw on a bus when she said it wasn't her.
The first friend Nicole, it had been 3 years or so since I last saw her on campus and one day after school waiting for the bus, she crossed my mind. No reason why, she just popped up on my radar. A few minutes later, I see her walking into campus across the street. I was stupefied because I didn't know what was happening and my naive former self thought that was the hugest coincidence ever.
The second time this happened it was about a friend named Krystal who I hadn't seen in years since we last had class together. I assumed she graduated and moved onto another college campus. That day, not only did I see her with my own two eyes on a very crowded bus, but moments later, I turned around to see her standing behind me. I was flabbergasted! I just thought of her AND I'm positive I saw her on that bus. I asked her if she was on that bus just now and she said no. I was so confused because I didn't know what this was or why it was happening. Sensing people is one thing, but what did I see on that bus if it wasn't her? Was it some sort of psychic echo or projection where I saw her someplace before I actually saw her face to face?
Ever since those two days, I have been intent on finding out more of what this is that I am doing, its name and how I can control it better.
No worries. Thanks again. I spoke to whatever or whomever it is and told them to leave me be and that this kind of behavior is not okay.
Not at all, Josette. It's not rude or intrusive in anyway. My maternal grandmother is still alive. But her mother, my Great Grandmother has passed. None of those names stand out to me except Will. My paternal grandfather is named William.
Thank you, Maria. I will.