overwhelmed when feeling an attraction
It happens to all of us when we get a crush and at the starting stages of love...
I spent 43 years fighting the empath inside of me until meeting my twin flame last summer triggered so much soul growth and in January I realized that I am an empath then the beginning of March my spiritual awakening. This last year has been about learning to live with the empath inside of me (which I am not very successful at times doing) and learning how to use my empathic energy to send my twin flame healing energy. He has stopped the separation cycles and we have been in a complicated relationship now for a month.
I have always gotten these horrible gut feeling. No it isn't from my heart or my soul, thoughts are different voices/feelings when they talk to me but my gut is like this big huge older brother who is my protector and if it says that a person is going to hurt you I learned the hard way not to ignore it. It will also pick up on negitivie vibes and let me know when someone in my life is going to hurt me. It will set of a negitivie vibe in me and since accepting that I am a empath the negitivie vibes feeling turns into a full blown panic attack where I will cry for hours just knowing that this horrible thing is coming. I don't know what it is I just know that it is.. Before I would just dwell on it like the last time I dropped my husband off at the airport 4 1/2 years ago as I was hugging him good bye I knew that was the last time I would ever see him. 3 months later when he returned from that business trip for summer holidays he asked for a separation even though the day before he had been talking with the kids about making lists for them to do with him for the 2 week summer break. I had ignored the doubt because I didn't want to believe that it could be true. I have so many more examples.
Where everything is confusing me is that even before I was an empath there were signs and this gut feeling and I knew that person would soon be out of my life, but I get them about my twin flame and all bets are off, sometimes nothing happens, sometimes he dissapears for a couple days but comes back with us being more intense, sometimes the opposite happens like him asking me for a relationship. I am so lost and confused. I had this horrible gut feeling of losing him 2 nights ago I finally got the tears to stop 6 hours later and after 3 antianxiety meds but I still can't shake the feeling since then, it has left me in a depression state where I just don't want to leave bed and rather sleep all day than deal with life. My twin flame has no idea that I had this happen and we both have a lot going on in our lives which is why our relationship is complicated but he has been messaging me off and on since the attack trying to figure out when he can visit me again in his schedule or just to say hi cause he misses me.
I don't know what to do about this gut feeling or how to deal with them, least in the past they have always made sence. Sometimes I wonder if learning I am an empath it just complicated matters or not but it doesn't erase the fact that before my spiritual awakening the rules applied to my twin flame also, I could tell when he was going to run and we would be separated for a while.
I don't know how to get over this feeling that he is going to leave me again either, I am tired of being depressed but I can't shake the horrible feeling yet either. Has anyone else gone through this? What did they do? Yes, any one else and my gut feeling is still 100% accurate, my kids hate that I know so much.
For people wondering what a twin flame is, It is said that long ago a soul was broken in half and placed in to people to go through each life time learning and growing until such time the souls are reunited together as one couple. There has been a romantic twist put onto twin flames but trust me they are anything but romantic. Yes there is crazy amounts of desire and passion involved and a feeling of completion when you are with the other Twin but there is also huge amounts of heart break and pain when the one twin flame runs from the intense feeling they have. Running and separation can last from days, to weeks, to months to several years. One twin always appears to be more spiritually awakening than the other one and they realize what is going on faster. It is highly recommend to leave the other twin run and come back and find you once they are spiritual awakening and have found out that they are twin flames. In other words don't chase them and find something else to focus on. There is also a connecton between the two twins where each person can feel the others emotions and over time a telepathical connection is also made. There is an energy than continues to draw both twins together. Like everything mankind likes to put rules on how twin flames work but for me personally I stopped following most all the rules and let my heart guide me. I don't believe in God but in spiritual forces and I don't believe that the rules are made from any other force than man. That each twin flame journey is unique and different and will be influenced by ones faith, culture, way they were raised, beliefs, religion and what will work for one person could be the wrong advice for someone else in their twin flame journey.
If any one has experience where their gut feeling just don't make sense to someone in there life and what they did about that horrible dread feeling please let me know. To date this is the worst one I have had and his words and actions show no indication that I could be right, which is good news but I can't shake the horrible feeling.
I just went through a very painful experience where I thought I was talking to an empath. An empath who I honestly thought was extremely nice, helpful and enlightening but now I am not so sure. After everything that was said it feels like it was a witch hunt. I am still unsure what they wanted but I was taught in school to protect all personal information about those around me, so I was made out to be a horrific monster. Whatever!
I am just extremely sad and disappointed not because of the attack but because I believe they were being sincere in their information about empaths and hopefully help learning to control it. Also I assumed we were connecting as friends which it turns out that I was just a fool to believe a friendship was possible. Lesson learned!
I am still trying to understand empaths as I have only accepted that I am one. Can a Narcissist be an empath? Are there evil empaths? Why would an empath hurt another empath knowing how much we feel? How can an empath supposedly know what another empath is truly feeling when the only thing connecting them is an internet connection at 2 points in the world? The tears have been wiped away and now I just am hopeful that someone has advise on how to protect myself from ever feeling this way again.
I am looking for other methods than meditation, I know that is the most recommended but I need to learn how to control the empath part before I can master meditation or visualization. Those will be on my to do list to learn next.