Am I being gaslighted?
Well, my wife grew up with narc parents. Her grandfather was a Nazi. I'm not kidding. I found a old swastika pin in her mothers keepsake jar. She grew up as the youngest of three kids. This family bullies each other constantly. Her sister used to call her up just to make her cry and then say "I don't want to fight anymore". She was damaged. This treatment tore her soul apart. You understand why I still have compassion for her. You would too.
She had another breakthrough yesterday. She now wants to get rid of the demons. The ones feeding on her fear. She admitted it's her fear that brings them back. She asked God to take them away. This is a good step in the right direction, but when you stop feeding them they attack harder. She'll need help. I have to help. I'm going about this in a different way this time. I have to get out the way and let her help herself. What she is is a recovering narc. The insecurity doesn't allow her to see herself as she is, or whats happening. She is draining me and her daughter with her "need". She didn't believe that until now. I hope this sticks. I have no expectations this time. I'm not excited about it. I'm staying neutral.
Yes, I am the target. The entities have tried to use my daughter against me and my wife, friends, coworkers, Christians. It's been happening my whole life. They want me broken and to keep me that way, but there are other forces at work here too. The ones that want me to fulfill my purpose. They protected me during the worst times. They still do.