Am I being gaslighted?
Ok, Hop, here you go:
1) Was your wife always a narc since you've known here?
-I didn't know what a narc was back then, but I can see that she had always been manipulating and controlive in very subversive ways. We moved close to her mother after her dad died. This is when she changed dramatically.
2) I don't know how long you have lived at this property. But have you noticed things have gotten progressively worse with your wife since living there?
-I moved her to get away from her family. I haven't talked to them since. Things have slowly gotten better actually. She didn't see her family for a few years after we moved. The last 5 years she has been visiting her mom on her own and comes home with a different attitude. Now she goes every weekend.
3) Have you in the past year travelled out of town with your wife and noticed that she is easier to be around when away from your property?
-Yes. This summer I wanted to travel. I brought the family on a few of those trips. Others were for work or to be alone. When she came with me, she was always pleasant to be around. Even in a tent while it was raining.
You mentioned that you think an entity there is making things worse. I've seen this first hand in my own life. There have been periods when it feels like a black cloud follows us around causing depression, anger between some of us, and financial strain. I wonder if this entity is causing you to be at odds with each other and is bringing out the worst behavior with your wife? I personally believe and have witnessed that narcs are very easily manipulated/directed by negative entities.
-YES. I've seen the shadow figure out of the corner of my eye at times. When we were at church we both saw this restless spirit outside the window. She said It was mine. I say it's hers. I know the spirits are there. I just don't care. I don't feel anything for them. I don't hold anything against them. I just don't want to be drained by them. I know full well that she is being influenced, because she finds those moments that I'm at my weakest, or when I'm about to do something really good for us. She disrupts the flow and I have to start over. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.
Have you taken @womanwhowalks advice and tried to sage the home or hire a professional to try to cleanse it?
-Yes. My Mother did a cleansing last year. I did a smudging though the house a few months ago. I may need to again. I have another sage stick on the kitchen table.
The house across the street had been a major issue. The owners sold it to a woman that rescues animals. She smudged the house and has been rebuilding it. This house has had some seriously bad energy for the 7 years I've been here. On my first day after buying the house the feel from it was so bad that I thought about calling the police to go check it out. Since then I learned about all the horror that happened there. At least it's over now, or at least moved on.
I think what you're suggesting is happening. One more thing. If you remember, I was working at a church. I quit because they turned against me. I broke away from the church completely. I cut those cords. It was painful. I mean them no harm, but I had to get away.