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Zacharias
@zacharias
11/18/19 03:49:14PM
197 posts

Seeing Faces And Numbers Everywhere


Psychic and Paranormal

@cheshire-cat -i don't blame you. I stopped watching commercials for the same reason. We have to keep our vibrations high and not let anyone or anything pull us down. I learned recently that my emotional attachments can draw me back into old habits of dwelling on the negative. We don't need to be afraid of how things are, but we need to know. If it brings us down, you should get away from it and focus on good things for a awhile. Thanksgiving is coming up. When we are grateful is raises our vibe. Black friday is coming too. If you're anything like me, you dread the Christmas season. I'm not giving myself over to to dread this time.


@hop-daddy - The masks I see on those I believe have a spirit in them is like the mask that was worn by the magician on that old show where he was giving away the secrets of magicians. I can't remember what it's called. It's black with white lines. It isn't that scary. The faces I see are distorted and shifting. I also see flashes of light in strange patterns along with loud buzzing. I chalk it up to being half in half out of dream mode. I can't make sense of it. It's only been happening recently. This has been going on with you for awhile now. I'm interested in what conclusions you draw from what you're seeing, if you have any. Maybe not now, but in the future. For now I think we're all speculating.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/17/19 10:37:24PM
197 posts

Seeing Faces And Numbers Everywhere


Psychic and Paranormal

My energy has been very low. I'm being drained more often. I know how, but I don't know why. I also see these strange evil looking faces and figures right before I fall asleep. At those times I sense a presence of something not right. It isn't clear to me what's happening. I identify with what you are all feeling. That something is happening I don't know enough to know what, but it is motivating me to find out. I also feel the need to rid myself of negative emotions and remain neutral. Hold on to my goodness so to speak as the world around me is falling apart. It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it, but the puzzle pieces are starting to form a picture I can understand.

Hop, when I see spirits, I watch them move around and "see" where they go. I sense their energy like I do from humans. I can read them and sometimes they communicate, so know I am perceiving them, but I also know that I am not seeing them with my eyes. In my memory I do. We remember things in images mostly and my mind is constructing an image of what I perceive. I think you're doing the same. The random patterns are showing you visually what you perceive. It's like your sub conscience is trying to tell you something your conscience mind doesn't understand. I'm sure you already know this. Please, keep pushing through the fog. We need to understand this. Knowing is half the battle. Right Michelle?

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/17/19 11:40:58AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

When you gave me the link for Gnosis months ago I had started reading it and was distracted by everything going on. I didn't get back to it. In order to get through it I'll have to focus on it. I thank you for giving me all this information, but the overwhelming amount of it is daunting. It's going to take time to absorb it all. I'm only human. 

The most important thing I got out of quest for 'the holy grail' was a deeper understanding of why we need to love our enemies and what it means to turn the other cheek. This is golden! We are to love what they do for us. They give us this negative energy in hope that we give it back. I didn't know what to do with that energy before. Now I realize that if we transmute that energy we can use it to help others, the grateful. I'm going to practice this for a while and see what happens. Thank you all for your help. 

 

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/14/19 12:55:28PM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

It's a family secret. One of many. Her mother won't talk about it. My daughter wants to know the truth about it. She also wants to be an investigator. This a great opportunity to show her how we find these things out. When we do I'll let you know what we find.

I remember a satanic group in St. Louis called Golden Dawn. This was back in 1985. I learned about them through a friend that was being recruited. I talked him out of joining. It's interesting to know where that group originated.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/14/19 12:23:26PM
197 posts

Validity of Twin Flames


New Age

"If I love her enough and just accept the abuse I can change her and save her!" This is the lie I keep telling myself when I know deep down to my core that this isn't true. She will never change as long as she believes there is a chance that I'll forgive and excuse the abuse. I keep doing it. I did it again last night. I absolutely hate this. Hard truth just sucks.


Thank you for posting this @michelle I needed to hear it.


Zacharias
@zacharias
11/14/19 07:16:07AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

Hop, I remember that happening. When both our daughters were having these similar issues at the same time. I hope your daughter is doing better and learning how to cope. I'm sure she is a strong girl. Probably stronger than us. They are our weakness. I had a hard time staying positive through out that ordeal. By going after our family these things think they can break down our defenses. So if anything you're coming out of this a stronger man and a better leader for having gone through it. 

We need to keep a check on our emotions. Be aware that their power is limited to what we give them. The attack tell us that they see us as a threat. This is actually a good thing. It means we are doing something right. Your daughter is lucky to have you to protect her though this. Don't expect the battle to end. It's just our job. These girls are more important that we are.

Yeah, I think it's time to clean house. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/13/19 02:31:58PM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

Makes perfect sense. I will from now on

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/13/19 09:35:11AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

Thank you, @michelle I value all the information you have given me. I stay open to what they say in these videos because I know so little. The alien thing would be easy to dismiss, but there is something to it. I don't want to miss anything by closing off to it just because I hear something I don't agree with or understand. So no, I won't let it throw me off. You've been a God send. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/13/19 05:03:05AM
197 posts

A revealing look inside the life of a sociopath


Empath

Also, the genetic link. Our ancestry is very important. Mine is rich with warriors that did things out of the ordinary. They fought against forces that were greater than themselves. They were imprisoned and died for their beliefs. I'm even related to Mary Queen of Scots. I have a lot to live up to If I am to fulfill the legacy. I know that empathy is genetic, so psychopathy has to be as well. I think our ancestors actions actually changes DNA. Just a thought.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/13/19 04:37:42AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

Well, my wife grew up with narc parents. Her grandfather was a Nazi. I'm not kidding. I found a old swastika pin in her mothers keepsake jar. She grew up as the youngest of three kids. This family bullies each other constantly. Her sister used to call her up just to make her cry and then say "I don't want to fight anymore". She was damaged. This treatment tore her soul apart. You understand why I still have compassion for her. You would too.

She had another breakthrough yesterday. She now wants to get rid of the demons. The ones feeding on her fear. She admitted it's her fear that brings them back. She asked God to take them away. This is a good step in the right direction, but when you stop feeding them they attack harder. She'll need help. I have to help. I'm going about this in a different way this time. I have to get out the way and let her help herself. What she is is a recovering narc. The insecurity doesn't allow her to see herself as she is, or whats happening. She is draining me and her daughter with her "need". She didn't believe that until now. I hope this sticks. I have no expectations this time. I'm not excited about it. I'm staying neutral.

Yes, I am the target. The entities have tried to use my daughter against me and my wife, friends, coworkers, Christians. It's been happening my whole life. They want me broken and to keep me that way, but there are other forces at work here too. The ones that want me to fulfill my purpose. They protected me during the worst times. They still do.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/12/19 08:46:40PM
197 posts

A revealing look inside the life of a sociopath


Empath

I've had friends that are psychopaths. I used to run with these people. They were all really screwed up, and so was I. The narcs are a blessing in comparison. 

Growing up I thought I was insane, so I hung out with insane people. I was lucky I didn't end up in a barrel. I saw them do horrible things without a thought. The stories they told were even worse. I think the number is higher than 1%. There are many more serial killers and rapist out there than we know about. 

The narcs are trying to hide. Sociopaths don't seem to care enough to try. I know of one that lied to the entire VFW about being a prisoner of war in Vietnam. He told this story to me first. So I looked it up. His name was not on any list I could find. I didn't have to tell the VFW commander that this guy was a liar. He already knew. That was bold. He still acts as though he was never caught. He had no fear and no shame.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/12/19 10:43:20AM
197 posts

So easy to forget: You Are So Loved


Library of Light

Thank you, at this moment that is exactly what I need to hear.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/12/19 10:37:31AM
197 posts

A revealing look inside the life of a sociopath


Empath

That sociopathic stare she talked about. I've seen it hundreds of times. I wonder whats going on in their minds. It's disconcerting and can't feel anything from them at that moment. Actually, I can't feel much at all from these people(except when they get angry). They are easy to be around because of this. All I feel from them is "need". I want to give them what they want. They are looking for fulfillment of that need. It's like they can't feel anything from another person without inflicting pain in order to get a strong emotional reaction. They want to feel this emotional connection we feel naturally. They don't seem to care what that emotion is as long as it's strong enough. She talked about giving her brother $10,000. That would be another way to get a strong reaction. Sex is another. I see why psychopaths tend to torture people in the worst ways. They go to that extreme eventually when nothing they do works. They just want to feel that they are not alone. There is more at play here, but I think this is the basis of the disorder. We need our parents to be on our side. We need connection. A psychopath is created by generations of neglect. 

Back to that SP stare. Of course, I see it in my wife when I confront her about what she is doing. As I explain the situation she'll give me that stare and I know that nothing I say is penetrating. What she hears at that moment isn't what I say. The mask she wears is also a filter for what she hears. The interesting thing about that is what she thinks I'm saying is actually what her conscience is telling her. She'll reject it thinking that it is criticism coming from me. The stare IS the mask.  

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/11/19 05:36:28PM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

Ok, Hop, here you go:


1) Was your wife always a narc since you've known here? 


-I didn't know what a narc was back then, but I can see that she had always been manipulating and controlive in very subversive ways. We moved close to her mother after her dad died. This is when she changed dramatically. 


2) I don't know how long you have lived at this property. But have you noticed things have gotten progressively worse with your wife since living there?


-I moved her to get away from her family. I haven't talked to them since. Things have slowly gotten better actually. She didn't see her family for a few years after we moved. The last 5 years she has been visiting her mom on her own and comes home with a different attitude. Now she goes every weekend.


3) Have you in the past year travelled out of town with your wife and noticed that she is easier to be around when away from your property?


-Yes. This summer I wanted to travel. I brought the family on a few of those trips. Others were for work or to be alone. When she came with me, she was always pleasant to be around. Even in a tent while it was raining. 


You mentioned that you think an entity there is making things worse. I've seen this first hand in my own life. There have been periods when it feels like a black cloud follows us around causing depression, anger between some of us, and financial strain. I wonder if this entity is causing you to be at odds with each other and is bringing out the worst behavior with your wife? I personally believe and have witnessed that narcs are very easily manipulated/directed by negative entities.


-YES. I've seen the shadow figure out of the corner of my eye at times. When we were at church we both saw this restless spirit outside the window. She said It was mine. I say it's hers. I know the spirits are there. I just don't care. I don't feel anything for them. I don't hold anything against them. I just don't want to be drained by them. I know full well that she is being influenced, because she finds those moments that I'm at my weakest, or when I'm about to do something really good for us. She disrupts the flow and I have to start over. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.


Have you taken   @womanwhowalks   advice and tried to sage the home or hire a professional to try to cleanse it?


-Yes. My Mother did a cleansing last year. I did a smudging though the house a few months ago. I may need to again. I have another sage stick on the kitchen table. 


The house across the street had been a major issue. The owners sold it to a woman that rescues animals. She smudged the house and has been rebuilding it. This house has had some seriously bad energy for the 7 years I've been here. On my first day after buying the house the feel from it was so bad that I thought about calling the police to go check it out. Since then I learned about all the horror that happened there. At least it's over now, or at least moved on.


I think what you're suggesting is happening. One more thing. If you remember, I was working at a church. I quit because they turned against me. I broke away from the church completely. I cut those cords. It was painful. I mean them no harm, but I had to get away.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/11/19 12:25:29AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

I re-read all the replies here hoping I could get some incite on what to do next. It's been 7 months now of hoping. Everything was going very well over the summer with my wife and family. I quit my job and focused on them. I was so excited about this new start and I guess I got complacent thinking everything was peaches and cream from now on. I see how what you all have been saying has been right on target. 

I keep thinking I can save her from herself. Like I have so much knowledge now that it would be easy. She made progress. She's been reading the Course in Miracles over and over again. I talk and talk thinking she's on the same page I am. She went back to a few of those narc tendencies she had before. We talk about it and we get past it. I didn't expect her to change over night. I knew this would take time. I see that spirit in her every now and then and think she'll get rid of it. I don't think so anymore.

I've had to do some serious soul searching trying to find those parts I've lost. It takes major effort considering those parts have been missing since early childhood. I have a plan on getting them back. So far it's going well. I'm getting there. At least I know what I need to do. The biggest obstacle in my way is now my wife. 

I still wonder about the relationship between Empath and Narc. I thought I had the answer. She pushes me to better myself, I push her, and we all get along. Except that isn't what happened. That spirit that controls her blinds her. This influence makes her go back to being that mean person that fights for control. It's a constant battle and I am tired. This soulless person has drained me completely. It's time to cut the cord.

I am always tired. I'm having a hard time getting anything done. It's not just me. My daughter is having the same issue. I left for a week to do a job and had plenty of energy. I even faced that fear of being overwhelmed and overcame it. I came back a new man, ready to take on the world again after checking out for a few months. Then I came back home and am immediately drained again. I want my life back.

I broke all connection with just about everyone. Even the good ones. I'm tired of being manipulated and used. I wanted to think on my own for awhile. I went to the mountains and traveled around talking with my best friends, total strangers. I got the idea that if I gave up all fear and emotion I wouldn't be manipulated any longer and could get back to being a part of society again. I'm still working at it.

I had a bad fight with my wife. I told her it's over and I don't want to work it out. Can't wait to see what she does next. I can't say that she's a NARC as in diagnosing her condition. She may be BPD. Doesn't matter, she'll react. Probably already has. This is spiritual warfare.

Zacharias
@zacharias
09/06/19 11:36:08AM
197 posts

Change of Seasons


Empath

It hit me two days ago. I could feel excitement in the morning breeze. I've been extremely depressed over the summer. i feel surrounded by death and misery. It gets to me, and of course it's still hot, dry, and miserable, but It's a relief to know that my favorite holiday is coming up. It also happens to be my birthday, although, that isn't why I love Halloween. I grew up in snowy Missouri. To me the fall is my time. It's when I feel most alive and empowered. I need that right now.    

Zacharias
@zacharias
05/27/19 02:50:06PM
197 posts

In need of some kind words


Empath

Most of my life I've felt the same way you do now. What you need is someone standing by your side. I never could find a person that would. They always wanted to tell me what to do instead of just empathizing with me. Well, I know what your going through, and I think that by being the way you are you make the world a better place. I wish everyone was like you! We all benefit from you existence so thank you for being who you are.

Zacharias
@zacharias
05/23/19 09:00:24PM
197 posts

Am I an Empath? how definitive are the online tests?


Empath

@tonyrn - I was re-reading your posts about being too close to the city. I moved away from houston about 7 years ago just to move closer to Austin instead. People are more liberal, generally, and at that time they kept their energy closer to their body. This has changed. They let the political environment get to them. The anger level is much higher now. This is a major challenge, but it just pushes me to consider myself more and pull back from trying to help them as much as I would like. This, evidently, is what I supposed to be doing. I've been at such peace by pulling away. My focus is now on my home and building my spirit. 


No matter where I go people are going to be draining and effect me. If I allow it. I keep my shield up and can ground out anywhere now. It's easier to be in contact with the ground, but it isn't necessary. I've put the weed aside and feel good no matter how many people are around. I think i'm turning the corner and can function much better. I did have to get away from some very toxic people. The people I considered friends hate me now. I really couldn't care less. They were tested and they failed. I know in the future they'll come back around once they understand what really happened. At least the good ones will. The toxic ones I leave to their misery. 


I just want encourage you that you are on the right track and that it does get better. Much better. When we choose to be on board with our divine purpose instead of trying to follow our own plan, things work themselves out in amazing ways.

Zacharias
@zacharias
05/22/19 04:45:17AM
197 posts

Am I an Empath? how definitive are the online tests?


Empath

I was hoping you would see, @tonyrn , that we don't have to avoid the world. My income was less than half what I make now while I was hiding from it. It's still hard, but life is hard for everyone. We have to be stronger than they are. I believe the reward is greater because of our struggle. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
05/01/19 09:11:53AM
197 posts

At times confused, often simply overwhelmed


Empath

Japan, China, Scandinavian countries. I suspect that people will be people no matter where in the world you go, but I sure would like to take a long break from the American experience, if you know what I mean.

Zacharias
@zacharias
05/01/19 07:09:02AM
197 posts

At times confused, often simply overwhelmed


Empath

Yes, it's very difficult to reconcile something you know to be true that no one else seems to understand. People are very dismissive of things they can't get their mind around. This is something I had a difficult time believing fully, mostly because no one else did. When I found out that in other countries the empath is known and accepted, it became easier.

The term "Sensitive and emotional" does not have good conentations. It's considered such weakness we would rather hide it than admit to it. I suspect your father is covering his own sensitivity with alcohol. This empath thing is genetic. 

I understand what your saying when you said you knew you were meant for conflict. I didn't go the military route even though my interest were in that direction. I trained in martial arts and weapons my whole life. I never could avoid the conflict, so I had to prepare for it. 

My cousin was a beat cop for 10 years. One of the best cops I've ever known. He was one that would be extremely reasonable and understanding and was still able to put people on the ground when they were being unreasonable. He used conflict as a way to get through to people. It was never his choice, it was theirs. He was pushed out of that job by people that thought he was to sensitive. Now he's a mailman and is still trying to avoid conflict(until it comes down to it). If civil war breaks out here in the states, I want him standing next to me. An empath can be a brutally effective warrior.

You should appreciate all the violence you've had to experience. It shaped your character. It was inevitable. For some of us it can't be avoided. I regret not joining the military. It would have been a better way than the one I chose. I'm still in a war. It doesn't end. It isn't my choice, It's theirs.

I would recommend that you not take the drugs they prescribe for PTSD. They take away certain emotions you'll need to get a better understanding of what it means to be an empath. It gets extremely complex. Those emotions are not meant to be eliminated. You use them to become better at what you are.  

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/29/19 01:57:37PM
197 posts

Introducing new dog to pack


Animal Empaths

My husky use to chase the cats when he was young. I had to show him how much I disapproved of that behavior.  It was in play, but the kittens would get hurt and slobbered on and I didn't want them running through the house. Nikki was trainable in the respect that he's an extremely empathic dog yet he was never fully controllable. He has his own will. He's to much like me. So I gave him room to do what he wanted within limits. He stopped chasing cats after the first time I scolded him. He's been a friend to them all ever since. Even the other dogs we bring in from time to time. Once they understand it's wrong, they stop. It's getting them to understand it. That can be tough. 

It's easy to give dogs mixed messages. Especially when food involved. You can train a dog to bark by giving them food, or train them to be quiet by giving them food. It's all in when they receive the reward. For a dog, food is always a reward, even at feeding time. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/21/19 03:20:36AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

@michelle - You said you saw the demon on the psychopath that hurt you. My mother saw the demon that hurt us. I see them out in public now and then. They wear a mask. I see the mask too. Is this what you saw? 

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/21/19 03:14:22AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

@tigerlily - I understand where you are coming from. If I were to document every offence over the years I'd run out of paper. If I was given an indication that she would physically injure my daughter I would leave before that happened. The hurt she has caused psychologically and spiritually is worse. It has caused deep wounds that take longer to heal than meer physical damage. I had reason to leave years ago. My daughter would have came with me without argument. It makes me look weak and stupid not too, but your question was "Why post this?". 


I got what I wanted out of it. I wanted her to see what she is and turn away from it. All indications are she has finally understood I will not tolerate another incident. She has been coming to me to admit things she's still doing that I had asked her not to do anymore. We are working through this in a way that isn't so final. I give her grace if she gets out in front of it and asks me to forgive her. If not, she will be alone. That did sink in deep enough that she has changed the way she behaves. Although, it's only been two weeks. Lets see what happens long term. 


It's very difficult to see this life as something to enjoy. There is always suffering. We suffer through it and must accept it in order to move past it. There is a much larger issue here. It's what happens in the next life. That is what I'm concerned about.


Forgiveness isn't for the weak hearted. It seems like a sacrifice to give up our animus and open ourselves up to more hurt. It looks like were just duped into allowing others to run roughshod over us. That isn't what is really happening. If I were to react to every time I see another suffer I would be a very prolific serial killer. I would love to put down every human that harms another. Being an empath means I see what they are capable of, and worse, what they have done. I trained for many years to be the toughest mofo in the room no matter what room I was in. I do stand up and stop it when I see it, but I can't stop all of it. There is a purpose to suffering beyond our feeble understanding. 


I hate to get into "The Purpose of Suffering". It's a subject that won't be fully explained here. C.S. Lewis has explored this topic well, if your interested. The main question you want an answer to is why suffer a narc? It's selfish, actually. Like I said, I want to be the toughest mofo in the room. There are many narcs I'm dealing with. Some are on the level of sociopath and I see what damage they doing. Other people don't see it and they would target me if I simply pulled my knife and ended them. So I choose another way. I want to save them from themselves. As Empath, at our core we all do. We just don't know how to go about. Now I do. I apply these lessons I've learned from this experience to new confrontations. It feels good to have new weapons in my arsenal. I'm ready for battle. In fact, I've already begun the fight. I stand in place waiting for the attack to come. Once movement happens I can redirect the energy back at the attacker. This is our gift as Empath. We are warriors. All we have to do is stand. 


Let's use another example just so you get a full understanding. I have a pet raccoon I call Edgar. I have a few, but they are all named Edgar. I call them pets because I feed them. Not because I pet them. Edgar just came up to me asking for food. So I said yes, again, even though he just went through the trash. He walks all over my tables and knocks thing down. He's a menace. I should pop him with my slingshot until he leaves, or just kill him, gut him, eat him, and make a coonskin hat out of him. Instead I let him eat the cat food which he is doing right now. Why would I? I think this is something you understand without me explaining. 


 

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/19/19 09:47:04AM
197 posts

Am I an Empath? how definitive are the online tests?


Empath

Wow, @hop-daddy , once again you have a great way of explaining things I can't quite pin down until I hear you say it (so to speak). I'm about to go to the church council and call them all out on what they're doing. It's corruption and it affects the entire church. I won't have it anymore. I may end up losing the best job I've ever had, but I just can't let it stand. Thanks for the pep talk.

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/18/19 07:20:24PM
197 posts

Am I an Empath? how definitive are the online tests?


Empath

I'd say you fit the profile pretty damn well. I wouldn't worry about what kind of empath you are. We all have all the gifts. We're strong at the ones we practice. Even if we don't know we're practicing them. 

I think we get a little defiant because of all the lies we are told. They still tell the same lies to kids today. I see it from the parents perspective now, but in watching other parents do the same things adults did in my day, I so want to take kids aside and say to them "It's all bullshit". It really is. I can only deal with for so long before I resist and call them out. 

Oh yes, you definitely have abilities you don't know about. Your a mech. I bet you have what is call analytical awareness. You know machines intuitively. Think about it. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/16/19 10:46:23AM
197 posts

Am I an Empath? how definitive are the online tests?


Empath

Most male empaths don't discover it until latter in life. I fully relate to what your saying. I just drove through the Davis mountains down 60 wishing I could stay there. I plan to take my bike there this year. Something about it is drawing me. My brother was talking about Telluride. Sounds wonderful.

I haven't given up the dream of a cave. I've carved out this cave in my mind 1000's of times. It's in a forest in the mountains. Just me and my horse. I'm one these people that can walk into the woods with a pocket knife and stay for a month. 

I don't like having friends. It's a responsibility I don't want. I really only have one true friend. A fellow empath who's dream is to live in a cabin on the ocean shore alone. After all the difficulty being around people we just want a rest. I wish people were not so critical as to believe I'm anti-social. It's not really true. I just need to be alone to recover. If I don't get one day a week in my sanctuary I go a little nuts, like I am right now. If I could I would stay for years. I did in the past. I want to make a living carving stone, metal, wood, stuff I can sell, and have as little interaction as possible. I'm getting more sensitive as I get older. I'm close to 50.

The times I've been freaked out in traffic make me weary of driving into town. I get about a 3 hour window to do what I need to do. I had to move away from Houston because of it. I broke down a few times. I just cried and screamed. Houston is a horrible place for an empath.

I smoke a lot of weed. It dulls my senses. Helps me cope. It isn't for everyone. I would rather not because I like being fully sober. I quit now and then for the fun of it, but I always go back to it eventually. Things get way to intense once it leaves my system. I can tell after about 60 days and rush back to it. Well, now we have CBD. I can't believe we just discovered this. My Aunt uses it for Fibromyalgia. She is a big marijuana hater so it took her awhile to find. Now my most of my family uses it. 

The tools seriously help. I have a room full of crystals and carry stones with me. I shield myself around others and ground out the energy that builds up. People would think I'm New Agey if they knew. I'm not, just practical. We do what we have to do.

Yes, we suffer, but it can get better. We can be stronger. It's not about me anymore, it's about them. I rely on God to help me find the strength to continue. I really don't care about this life anymore. I've given it up to be used by Him. I want to be one with the Infinite.

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/15/19 07:59:12AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

@cat-whisperer - Seems that you have found that strength. We have to get to the point where we say "NO MORE". Good. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/13/19 09:43:35AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

@cat-whisperer - As a woman you have an incredible strength you may not know about. I'm always surprised most women have not figured this out. I am in awe of women that have. It's very subtle, yet powerful. Please find it and use it to help yourself. 


True forgiveness doesn't happen without repentance. The word repent means to turn away. Without the other side changing their behavior we have to forgive over and over. The resolution doesn't happen until both sides do their part. We can forgive for ourselves and let go, but we can't make them truly repent. So we forgive, but we don't forget. I don't know what the answer is, other than patience. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/13/19 08:16:45AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

Yes, thank you @tigerlily for making it clear. I've noticed two different types of gaslighters. Those that know what they are doing and those that don't. Denial is a major factor. They lie to themselves the most. This is why they can tell you blatant lies and believe it themselves. 


Those that know what they are doing, of course, are more sinister. These are sociopaths. They like to break people. They want to ruin you for their own satisfaction. I remember hearing a woman talk about this on NPR. She had written a book about it. What it's like to be a sociopath. It was enlightening. 


Confessions of a Sociopath: A Life Spent Hiding in Plain Sight


I wish these people didn't exist. It's hard to understand, although, we have too in order to deal with them. In a work environment they can craft schemes and do some real harm. This is their entertainment. 





 




updated by @zacharias: 04/13/19 08:21:12AM
Zacharias
@zacharias
04/13/19 07:55:33AM
197 posts

Am I an Empath? how definitive are the online tests?


Empath

I'll explain my experience. Lets see if you relate:

As a kid I thought everything was normal. I grew up in a tough neighborhood. We did a lot of fighting. I fought differently than most. I would stop when I saw the panic in their eyes. this was my first clue. I had invisible friends, not imaginary. People thought me quirky for it. I knew when people were lying. Even we no else did. Clue 2. I had issues being around people and would spend my free time alone mostly fishing and being out in nature. As a teen I would hang out with narc type kids that drew me in. In my late teens I started acting more like an empath. I had many parties at my apartment. We had the cops called on us a few times. I loved having so many friends, but at times I had to hide in the bedroom closet to get away. I was getting overwhelmed. Clue 3. At 21 I was watching Star Trek and identified with Deanna Troy, but simply thought this can't be a true thing. It was science fiction, not science fact. I keep this idea in the back of my mind for a while. When Curt Cobain died I talked to people about him being an empath and actually said out loud that I could be as well. Still I didn't want to believe it. I was in a punk band and did not like being on stage. I didn't want to be the front man even though I sang and wrote the songs. It didn't go anywhere because I couldn't deal anymore. I withdrew from the world and ran off to mexico. The idea was to find a cave and live there for the rest of my life. This was a dream I had to live alone and stop being this social person anymore. I came back to the states with a girl I met there and married her. We lived in a small town where she grew up and I did ok there. We stayed for close to 20 years. The town thought I was strange because I kept to myself. At about 30 I actually looked up the word empath on a search engine and was hit with all this information that explained so much. I knew at this point it was real. I couldn't deny it anymore, yet I still doubted it. There were things that happened that I couldn't explain any other way that convinced me. At that time I began practicing defence techniques(shielding, grounding) and was becoming more social again. I felt I had more of a handle on what was happening. It's not an easy journey. It was this curse for so long that I hated it. It wasn't until I fully accepted it that I started to heal. It's like a disability that you have to plan your day around. I didn't want to think about it. I wanted to be "normal".

I now fully accept it and function extremely well. I have 100's of friends. I still suffer through life. I still need my alone time. There are things I simply can't do because I'm Empath. I'm not normal, and I don't care. I like what I am because of what I can do. My perception of the spirit world has been heightened and I have "psychic" skills no one else does. People think I'm super cool because of what I do for them. The truth is I'm no better than they are. I serve them. It's my divine purpose. This fulfills me. I have joy because it. The key was to completely accept it.

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/12/19 08:13:41AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

Gnostic principles are incredibly interesting. I do want to learn more in time. When I went back to church I had difficulty with the baptist theology. Soon after, God lead me to the gospel of Thomas. I was so excited I read it three times. This made sense. It opened up new understandings, and I was able to find those spiritual people in the church that transcended theology. I will study more.


Thank you for explaining. I don't have enough time anymore to study much. I work six days a week. Because of this, I don't go to church much anymore either. Mostly I hate the effect of being drained. I fall asleep every time. After a tough week I don't have anything left to give. I'm the custodian of the church. I clean up after them. On Sunday, I don't even want to look at them. I have to know what they have inside and say nothing. It sucks picking up a half eaten sucker or a piece of gum and know who put it there. Now, what your saying sort of answers the question as to why I'm being drained. I was told "everyone is working out their salvation" well they don't need me for that. I was ok with it as long as it was doing them some good, but I started doubting that it was doing any good at all. So why bother going. I may rethink this.


Now for the serious discussion: I was your son. I did the same he is doing now. You wouldn't have been able to tell that I at 16 was an empath. I hated the world for what it did to me without regret. I acted on that hatred by tearing apart the house. It started with putting holes in the wall and led to destroying mirrors, furniture, anything that would break. I started drinking at 16. I would sneak out at night and tear apart the city. I was living havoc. You could say I did the worst things for the best possible reasons. I was broken. I felt damaged. I couldn't bring myself to care anymore. Not for myself at least. It was self destruction. It led to an incident where by I had climbed a building, after drinking all night, and jumped off. I wanted to kill everyone. Instead I killed myself. 


My story might be to extreme for this or any forum. I was born into a horror show and raised by a demon. This is not just dramatic talk. It really happened. For so long, this was a family secret. No one talked about it til I was in my 20's. My mother is the only one that will discuss it. She was a prisoner of that demon for three years. She fully recovered and so did I. It was her love for me that got me through it. It was God's love that saw her through it. She never gave up on me. I am today who I am because of her. I wish I hadn't made it so hard on her. She was always on my side. Her prayers saved me. Her prayer brought me back from death. I know, it's extreme. 


I believe your son will find his way. He will look back and see what your love has meant to him. I'll be praying for this. Some decisions we make along the way can destroy us. If you can keep him from choosing those things, the rest will be lessons he uses to form his character. He'll be a better man for it. 


Something great happened last night. My wife had read this post and saw for herself what she is! I think she finally accepted it. She had a major break through. She said she'd had gotten angry at first, and felt humiliated. When she came to me to talk about it. She had worked through it. She was ready to listen. She wants to be a better person. I'm going to start showing her love again. This is great! I think we are taking a new road together. Now it's my turn to step up. 


This is a lesson for us all. We all deal with narcs. Maybe they can be turned back toward the light. It just takes brutal honesty and an iron will. Oh, and love. Lots and lots of love.


Thank you for sharing so much, @michelle , we are here for eachother. There are others here that need you. Minister to them now. I'm good.


Zacharias
@zacharias
04/11/19 01:24:21AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

First of all, thank you for your replies. My wife is a narc, yes, but, she's also my daughters mother. I can't leave her and I can't live with her. I can, however, pray for her and forgive her. I'm well practiced in forgiveness, so I will again. I don't have to deal with her BS anymore. I have taken full control of the house. My daughter is with me on this. She supports me. This fact has raised my vibe to new levels.

It scares me to think she could be a soulless person. I don't want to believe this. I want her with me. I want the connection I asked for 26 years ago. I keep giving up thinking it will never happen and then I try again. I have to. She's all I have. If I left her I would never have a relationship with another woman. I have many female friends. They fill the role that my wife can't. Good enough. 

I have been using her own tactics against her. Except instead of telling lies, I tell her the bitter truth. I stopped holding back to spare her, and she loves me(if she's capable of love) more than ever.  It's that push-pull thing they do. Show them kindness, they use it against you. Show them anger, they back down and want you more. I don't mean uncontrolled outrage. It's more like incredulity mixed with disgust, if that makes sense. This works for me. She isn't very good at being a narc. She just isn't that smart. If she was, she'd be dangerous, yet she has never been violent to me. 

This relationship has actually been very good for me, now that I think about it. It has given me the confidence to fight much harder battles. I had to know without shadow of doubt that I am right. The word "right" is short for righteous, I believe. Being righteous allows me to stand on principle. Tempered with humility, and with God at my side, I can't be moved. I have a power now that can help change the world. I won't be broken. I won't be defeated. I should thank her. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
04/09/19 12:03:24AM
197 posts

Am I being gaslighted?


Empath

I'm still not exactly sure what that means. All I know is that my wife does things no one in their right mind would do, and she will not stop no matter what I say to her. It's as if she can't help it, yet she is aware of what she is. She may not actually believe she is a narc, but as least, she no longer argues about it. I see her agreeing with me as part of the manipulation. The lies and manipulation have no logic behind it. This puzzle of a person is beyond my understanding. You would think I would know her after 25+ years of being together. I can't figure out what motive she has other than to break my will or drive me away. If you want to know a person, find out what motivates them. It's pretty easy normally, but when it comes to my own wife I can't get my mind around it.

No, she is not in any way a genuine person, although, she does have moments of clarity. She had one last week. I saw her true self for about a minute. Once again, I see this as part of another manipulation. It was a way of making me think there is still hope she can learn to be genuine. It worked for a time. Then I had a conversation with my Aunt. 

My cousin is married to an extreme narc. He has completely withdrawn from her and his family. Being a man of honor, he won't leave her. She has controlled the entire family for years by holding her own children over the heads of their grandparents(My aunt and uncle). She threatens to take them away or simply tells the kids lies that they fully believe. She gives her kids anything and everything they want and breaks their spirits with ridicule. She completely controls them and turns them against the rest of the family and their father. She gets violent! My aunt and I had a very long conversation comparing my wife to her daughter-in-law. They are the same! They do the same things. They think the same way. They are in such denial, they both tell blatant lies that are so transparent EVERYONE knows it's a lie, yet they believe they are fooling us. What arrogance! Well, after five hours at the kitchen table we all came to the conclusion that the main issue is severe insecurity. They are both motivated by the fear of seeing themselves for what they truly are. They can't accept it. My cousin is also an empath. Like my uncle. They are two of the most compassionate men I know. They have both given up trying to help her. 

My wife has caused the death or disappearance of many of my cats. Well, last week I came home to my dog tied to a post choking on a leash she had slipped around his neck. Not a to a collar. The leash was acting like a noose that tightened as he moved. I first heard what sounded like a dying turkey and felt his anguish and confusion. Then I saw what she had done. He had peed on the carpet again. He's old and he can't hold it as long as he use too, so she was punishing him. The reason she gave me for doing this was that she subconsciously didn't want me to go to my brother's funeral. I had hoped she wouldn't try to stop me from going. She did this as I was about to get ready to leave. Can she not understand why we have to go to funerals? I went anyway.  

For years now, I thought I could somehow get through to her. I know now I can't and have given up completely. She reads my email and my posts on this forum. I hope she reads this one.


updated by @zacharias: 04/09/19 12:07:11AM
Zacharias
@zacharias
03/04/19 09:43:38PM
197 posts

Is this a sign???


Empath

My wife has been a teacher for 25 years. I know a lot about what your going through. Stress brings out the worst in people that might normally be fairly pleasant. What's ironic about that is the fact that it takes stress to build our character. It's all in how we react to it. So we should be thankful for it if our goal is to become better people. Yet, even though I believe this fully, I still don't like it much. When I'm at that point where I can't handle anymore I get a sign. It happened again tonight. I won't go into it, but It's always a clever coincidence and a message. It's like having emotional support from this overwhelmingly powerful being that created the cosmos and for some unknowable reason cares how I feel at that moment. It's pretty cool. Can you relate?   

Zacharias
@zacharias
01/09/19 10:40:43AM
197 posts

Q&A Article With Amy Allan From The Dead Files TV Show


Psychic and Paranormal

@hop-daddy - You tend to find the best articles. Amy to me is a superstar. This was a good read on many levels. I get what she has to go through to communicate with spirits that are not exactly beneficial. Whatever they may be. I also am amazed that she chose to go to war zone to help others. That is some extreme conditioning! 


My wife had an encounter with our neighbor the night she died. She came to her to ask forgiveness before she moved on. They had issues they didn't resolve. I knew her well, because I talked with her about all the terrible things that happened in her life, which was story after story of extreme tragedy. She shared that with me and we cried a lot. I was glad to know that she had moved on and gave my wife some peace and was able to reconcile before she left. 


My experience with spirits hasn't been so nice. I don't want to connect with them because of the horrible emotions they give off at times. Amy can and is willing to make that connection. That is awesome. I love her for it. My concern is much more for the living than the dead. I just want them to go away. It takes a physical toll on her to deal with the emotions and do this work. I've never been in a war zone, although I can imagine what it's like for an empath to be surrounded by misery. She is one tough woman. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/24/18 12:54:07PM
197 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

@goodenergyhealing - I have not long ago read something about it. Grounding is important through out the day. I take breaks and walk through the woods. Without it I wouldn't be able to function. It just that there is so much more EMF's I've been dealing with over the past six months I haven't been able to get away from it long enough to rest. I may starting grounding my bed, chair, walking around without boots on and such. I'll do more research.

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/24/18 09:38:59AM
197 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

@tigerlily -thank you for posting that article on purring. I'm one of those weirdo's with 16 cats. I know they don't purr for other cats, just humans. they will also purr if they are injured. Having a cat sleeping on my face is the best feeling. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/24/18 09:26:17AM
197 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

Being a carpenter, before I build a deck, I take off every barcode off of every piece of lumber and some times there's two. I don't like to look at them. I think it's strange. I have no idea why, but it's something about the bar code itself. 

I have the same EMF sensitivity. I'm constantly trying to condition myself to it. The power transfer stations on the side of the road, the overhead power lines. They all produce a vibration that comes from what I call artificial electricity. The feel of it is vastly different than from thunderstorms. I haven't been able to condition myself to it. In fact, the more I subject myself to it, the stronger my sensitivity becomes. It's a strange feeling that I have hard time explaining, but I just consider it another type of pain. A lot like being overwhelmed by a large group of people. After a period of time, my mind shuts down and I can no longer think. It is definitely interfering with my own electrical system. 

I use to use a backpack vacuum in my work. Having an electromagnet on my back was very painful. I dealt with it for months until I got to the point of not being able wear it any more. I had to stop. Now I carry it around instead of strapping it to my spine and I can feel a difference in my leg. The field around it is pretty strong. I need to stop using it all together. On top of the that, one of the buildings I clean is a "smart" building. It has wifi emitters in every room. Just being in the building will change my mood over time. It has a cumulative effect. I assume that if it effects me, then it's also effecting everyone else. Even if they don't notice. I can feel these strong wifi antennas. I can close my eyes and spin around until I'm disoriented and know exactly where they are. This is a problem.

As far as sound vibration goes, there are rooms in this building that reverberate sound off the walls. it's amazing to be able to track the vibrations. The sound is canceled out when the vibes hit together. I've been installing sound panels to dampen the effect. I've learned a lot about acoustic resonance and the effect on human mood. I can see why people run off to the middle of the desert, or gravitate to salt caves. We need to be free from it to feel good again, yet it's everywhere. If we can't we need sound therapy to cancel out those negative vibes. Your mood affects your ability to heal more than anything else. I about ready to find a crystal cave I can live in for the rest of my life. I hate to leave society, but I know there will be a point where I'll have too.

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/23/18 11:55:57AM
197 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

The sound that comes from crystal bowls is incredibly soothing. To me it's a lot like a fuzzy guitar. Music has been therapy for me all my life, but more as a mirror of my emotion at the time. It's an energy release. It can also be a way of trapping those emotions which causes blockages. I find instrumental music to be much more therapeutic and vocals to be more energy release. I try to choose music that puts me into a mood i want to be in. It's all about the vibration. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/14/18 08:37:33AM
197 posts

Dealing With Health Issues? Your Empathy Is Likely To Blame.


Empath

I have more stomach issues in December than any other time. I attempt to avoid people at this time of year. Last night i had to over see a children's program with another empath. She did most of the work, but was very tired when it was over. She is half my age. I had a different reaction. I was tired as soon as the people started entering the building. My stomach knotted up as well. I thought I might have eaten some bad chicken. It went away after I took a nap and grounded out that energy I picked up. 

My daughter has stomach issues all the time. Yesterday, she stayed home from work because of it. She doesn't do much grounding except in the bath. I can see the correlation of her stomach issues and people shes around.  

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/01/18 08:55:52PM
197 posts

What is your biggest issue as an empath?


Empath

Yes, my prayer today was out of desperation. I feel 100% better than I did last night. God answered my prayer in an unexpected way. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/01/18 07:06:56PM
197 posts

What is your biggest issue as an empath?


Empath

Thank you again,  @michelle . I'm guess I'm more or less an idealistic person. I thought I was a realist. In some sense I am. There is plenty I simply accept about the world with no judgment, but the things that effect me directly I want to change. At this point I just want peace, so today I see the world as is.


This morning I saw the picture of Jesus you have hanging on your wall. The first time was the link you put up of the poster. The second time was the actual framed print. I have it sitting next to me at the moment while I'm thinking about where to hang it. It measures 21.5" by 13.5" with a gold frame. It's an extremely close copy to the poster except the color is darker and Jesus has a halo. He's watching the city by night. He's separated from it, yet the look on his face is compassion. I can identify with this. This is an amazing coincidence that I find this picture in my workroom today of all the days. It must have been in the church for 30 years or so in some back closet, but someone put it in my workroom for me to find. Thank you God. That was a cool one. It reminds me that even though he knew the people of Jerusalem would turn on him, He still loved them. He was looking at the world without judgement. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
12/01/18 08:34:20AM
197 posts

What is your biggest issue as an empath?


Empath

This situation happened very quickly. I didn't stop to pray and ask for God to work through me. Instead I acted on my own. I know what I did wrong. It was pride. I thought I could handle it on my own. I'm still a stupid human. No I didn't get hurt except my ego. 


Normally at these shows I'm able to transmute the energy and use it. I'm filled with energy! That's why I love going. The vibe at this show was different. My mood going in was different. Nothing happened the way I expected. The one thing I normally do that I didn't do this time was pray. Before the show starts I usually pray for everyone and ask God to give me strength to last the night. These show are very physical. I'm an old man. I need that energy. It's a great thing to be able to connect to the entire crowd. The energy from them makes me feel like a teenager again. This time I messed it up from the beginning. I was waiting at the front of the stage for an hour or so for the show to start. The whole time I'm looking around at these people I despise. It was wrong. I fill myself with anger and you can guess what I received in return. 


I haven't been able to shake this feeling of resentment, anger, frustration, despise for the human race. People around me have been extremely stressed lately. The past few months have been very off. I know it's a spiritual attack. I'm using it to work through all the negative emotions I'm holding onto from the past. I know I could be a healer if I would drop this. It's a major spiritual conflict to love all people and hate them at the same time. This is definitely my biggest issue as an Empath. 


Thank you   @michelle , I very much appreciate your input. I see the enemy as weak but not ineffective. These beings are much smarter than I am. I underestimated the influence the enemy has on others. I try to remind myself that what I read from them isn't who they really are. I do the same things they do. I'm no different. I'm no better. It's judgment and pride I allow to get between me and God. Once I do I can't hear that quiet voice. I'm going to meditate on this for awhile. It seems to always come back to forgiveness. I haven't forgiven them all.   


@cheshire-cat - I'm an esoteric Christian. I decided this after listening to Mark Passio. To me it isn't important if Jesus actually existed, although, it's much easier to believe He did than not. It's the example he set that we emulate. Therein lies the power and freedom from the slavery of the enemy. Jordan Peterson put it another way. He doesn't claim to believe in God. He acts as though God exist. 


Zacharias
@zacharias
11/30/18 11:44:02PM
197 posts

What is your biggest issue as an empath?


Empath

I tried to get in between two women at a rock show last saturday. I had to. The aggressor in this situation had no reason to pick on this girl standing in front of her. She just wanted to fight. So I worked my way in the middle of it attempting to block her. It didn't do much good. Instead, her boyfriend and his friends came after me. By trying to stop the conflict I simply made myself the target. I figured it was better for me to take the brunt of the attack than this poor woman just trying to enjoy the show. I left with a feeling that the world is falling apart and there is nothing I can do about it. I can't control the spirits of others. 

I'm compelled to be the peace maker, but it rarely happens. I'm really tired of the conflict.  

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/30/18 07:49:08AM
197 posts

What is your biggest issue as an empath?


Empath

Since we've come back to this topic I thought I would add a little information that suggest some of the difficulties Jesus had as an empath. 

Not even His disciples understood him while he was alive, but John wrote about an incident that doesn't get talked about much in Christian circles.  

John 2:23- But Jesus on his part knew what was in a man and did not trust himself to them because he knew all people and needed no one to bear witness about a man, for he knew himself what was in a man. 

In context, he was avoiding a group of men that wanted to talk to him after a sermon. He had also on occasion had to travel across the sea of galilee to get away from people. He needed rest. Something we can all understand. These people had to have been very draining. The mount of olives is a grave yard. This is where the garden of Gethsemane is. It's a great place to get away from people. John spoke about love. This was his message. He understood it and he had visions. Could have been an empath himself. Mary of magdala was plagued with seven demons when she met Jesus. Once again, her experience is something we can relate to. We are pretty sure that empathy is genetic. Mother Mary might have been one of the last empaths on earth before Jesus was born. Could have been that her husband Josef was as well. He acted like one. Jesus relied on women to support his ministry. Not typical for the time. He very much respected the power of women at a time when men mostly did not. I see the "gifts of the spirit" as empathic traits, all of them. I could go on and on. The Bible explains how to manipulate energy through our thoughts and behavior. God wants us all to be empath. Empathy IS the language of Heaven, and of angels. I adamantly believe this. 

I had a talk with one of my coworkers at the Baptist church. She now knows she's an empath. She had a dream about a friend that went missing. She knew where he was and they found him. I've been watching this woman for four years. Since she was 16. I could tell the first moment I saw her that she was very special. I wasn't the only one. Deacons of the church have been supporting her. One of them asked me to consider her a spiritual daughter and help her as I can. The inner circle of the church understands us. And here I thought I would be shunned if they knew about what I am. This isn't something that is openly discussed, but there are those that can hear the quietest whisper. They listen to what God tells them to do, and they support us. Not typical of most of the congregation. They don't quite understand yet, but they will. 

Healing through prayer is the greatest gift God has given us. Belief is the power behind it. Faith is belief in things not seen. Belief without evidence. He's building our faith by not making the evidence appear obvious, but after you take the leap of faith you see it. Our power is a creative unsertiny that we choose to use, or not. Please, use it as often as you can. 

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/23/18 05:52:14PM
197 posts

Pets


Empath

I love all animals, but the ones I dislike the most are dogs. Oddly enough, the ones I've liked the most are also dogs. I don't necessarily favor dogs, but let's be honest, they are better companions than humans. The dogs I don't like are wild dogs and coyotes, for the most part. 

I have two dogs and 16 cats. My wife takes care of the dogs and I take care of the cats,. I've always had cats growing up. I did have a rat for a awhile that I was very attached to, but mostly cats. They help me ground out the negative energy at the end of the day. Any time I take a nap I wake up with one or two cats on me. It seems the worse I feel, the more they want my attention. 

I've had the most fun this year watching wild life here in east texas. I watch the deer and the foxes and skunks and big texas sized rats. I have a racoon that crawls through the cat door daily for a snack. I call him Edgar. I talk to him and he shows me his teeth. The cats think he's another cat. Now the foxes down here are somewhat unique. They are related to dogs, but they act mostly like wild cats, they're about the same size. I've had stare downs with them where they just keep distance and watch me back. I can sneak up on them rather easy, unlike wild cats. When the males are hunting bugs they are unaware of my presence if I don't make noise or move to fast. The females are very smart. One tried to lure me away from her den. She didn't fool me for long through. I turned around to look for it and found two cubs playing. Then she made a really cool sound and cubs ran into the brush and disappeared. I don't consider them as empathic as dogs are, but I don't see them as true predators(that would kill for fun), either.

Zacharias
@zacharias
11/16/18 05:06:15AM
197 posts

What is your biggest issue as an empath?


Empath

Thank you for sharing  @michelle . It's good to be reminded of the benefit of being an empath. It's my greatest joy to be of service.

Zacharias
@zacharias
10/31/18 10:11:44AM
197 posts

Poll related to chemical and food choices


Empath

Being a male empath my answers are a little different.

1) Sensitivity to chemicals as well as radiation from what I call synthetic electrical generation. This is energy coming from high tension wires and transfer stations. It's very different from electrical storms. It isn't the electromagnetic fields so much as it's the radiation coming from them. Within the field it's concentrated, but it's the radiation that I feel. Wifi is getting stronger and I notice it more now days. 

2) I eat anything I can because I hate going to the grocery store.

3) Daredevil and Aquaman. Daredevils super powers are that he can see better than normal people do because he's blind, and that he can take a beating. Aquaman is just cool. I want to live underwater and talk to fish all day. I have a danger sense like spiderman. This is what has protected me and the people around me the most. No one knows about it because the danger doesn't happen. I see it before hand and do something to stop it. This includes dangers from chemical/bacterial/viral exposure. Having said that, I've also seen a lot of dead bodies lately. I'm not always there in time, or can do anything. I pray a lot. That's my superpower.

4) INFP-T 

Also, I don't LOL, I GTMS.

Zacharias
@zacharias
10/17/18 10:57:57AM
197 posts

Emotional eating


Empath

Wow, you kind of nailed. I went through the test pretty quick but I'm a INFP-T, and no I don't know that means. This what I got:

Mediator personalities are true idealists, always looking for the hint of good in even the worst of people and events, searching for ways to make things better. While they may be perceived as calm, reserved, or even shy, Mediators have an inner flame and passion that can truly shine. Comprising just 4% of the population, the risk of feeling misunderstood is unfortunately high for the Mediator personality type – but when they find like-minded people to spend their time with, the harmony they feel will be a fountain of joy and inspiration.


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