Paranormal Distress Call
Thank you Layla 😊
It seems unreal but it's been over 3 yrs and still it stays and won't leave I dont know what "it" is even if it's paranormal or interestial MAYBE INSANITY
For those who have heard my plight
I know now it has nothing to do with spiders
There are not words to even try to describe it to myself but I will try....
Always when it's dark but sometimes in the day It starts with a slow crawl in groups slipping over walls up down across whatever Sometimes it's dark and foreboding Can be light more delicate or sparkly like a zillion stars are around
It breaks away into smaller groups Especially if I look their way smaller somewhat statically shapes will rush me I don't wait I close my eyes turn away Sometimes they try to emulate a person or animal but I don't buy into it
The man's face is still there wanting to probably take my breath or maybe my life I don't really know He's sneaky & persistant I can send him away but he still tries to come back from a different angle Now that I think about it he's only there when my eyes are closed like in the shower Also when I walk into my bedroom when it's dark I will see a momentarily oval light
I thought they were there only in the dark but I find it's not my vision going I am actually looking through an opaque whispy vapor like whatever? They are all always in perpetual motion
Wherever I am, I am actually encased
I try my best to ignore not think about it but eventually it's just there
It knows if I am trying to think of a way to rid it or try to communicate about it
Example I typed half of this left for a minute come back even the screen I was typing on was gone
Ergo why it took so long to contact anyone I believe it's preventing me in a way because I mean to then I say maybe tomorrow Of course I wil be punished
This is even harder to explain but the worse part
There are curtain like sheets draped over furniture mostly living room When it's really annoyed it drapes over walls and doors Most pretty much everything
I can't see through it I can put my hand through it and not see my hand
In the beginning I did walk through once and it was freaky like an alternate universe
When it drapes I can't see anything because it's pattern and has color
I can't see anything but the drapes It is very disorienting I literally have to feel my way to figure out where I am going I so far have hidden it from my husband He freaks out Wants me to see a doctor Why am I the only one seeing these things when no one else is? etc
It can become panicky when I can't find my closet door in the hallway or I continue to my bathroom but bump into a built-in linen cabinet trying to find the door to the potty All the while feeling along moldings to find the door and then feel the wall for the light switch
I have tried all kind of things others have tried to help but it seems I am the square peg trying to fit in a round hole
I can not do anything that would alert my husband He was bad enough when I had visitors He doesn't know anything is going on any longer
I have not even been anywhere without him because I keep having problems with illness and symptoms without remedies Labs off in general but can't pinpoint cause Just enough to take me out of the game
I often wonder could the "force" be causing it I do feel a gravitational pull when it's near me and sometimes I get weird tingles that goes through my body for a few seconds
I got a new car for my birthday 1 1/2 yrs ago and only driven it once I don't feel I am in control enough to chance it
OK So I always think I'm gonna jot down a few lines and as usual it turns into a book... Sorry 😒
Still trying to figure this out. While it's not a real big deal at the least it's annoying and there's potential for danger in the way of falling. When "it" is rested and wants to be assertive everything in the house can be draped including doors and walls. Trying to feel my way around a dark hallway to find & open my closet doors is a challenge. Especially challenging to do it before my husband gets to the hall before I find the closet. He'll be convinced I am out of my mind.
Ok, so after the big lead in this is what I am thinking/wondering.
If we are on the physical plane and next is the mental plane where everything is identical but has no matter; is it possible I have combined the two on some subdivision of a subplane level and either brought it back with me or I allowed it in or who knows maybe I am there and not here.
The thought basis is I have read of possibilities where there may be a fog or mist and possibly ability to go through doors walls portals and in my case for lack of better word drapes. My world now is always, no matter where I am encased. In daylight there is a barely visible clear yet textured (to the eye) film. At night the webs are more like dense icy and sometimes sparkly heavy mist or fog. They still can gather or separate or form shapes. There are as aforementioned the curtains/drapes. They are sheer burgundy colored and strangely patterned. These are the things I can put my hand through and it disappears. I am acquainting this to a pass through because in the beginning one night a drape was hanging in front of the verticals on the sliding glass door. I experimented putting my hand through and still new to it all walked through. I found myself appearing to be standing in the opening where there was no longer a door. I was on the second level (I now have a one story) edge of the floor looking down at a beautiful large yard. It resembled my previous yard but the grass was lush and green. The trees beyond a perfect wooden fence were full and straight as far back as you could see. The sky a brilliant blue. I turned and went back through to the darkened bedroom.
I have avoided going through again except maybe my hand. I am apprehensive now.
There are other components but I don't want to muddy the water.
The second relevant part is what I named mind travel. I wanted further information from what or whoever. I demanded a tour. I felt movement. I saw things vividly, spoke and was heard. There were levels the highest gold and the very top opened up to a blue sky; reminiscent to the end of Willie Wonka where their capsule broke through the glass into the blue horizen. I did a form of this several times until they got sick of me. LOL
Instead of "Mind Travel" I only find "Astral Projection". There is a big difference though and I can't find anything relating to it.
I am never asleep or dreaming. I am a walking around wide awake willing traveler. From the beginning (don't know why) I always preference it with I am coming back. I can open my eyes at anytime. I am always aware of my surroundings and people.
No matter what I do see or feel I am awake. I wake up (if I am not already) when I sense a presence of what I dubbed "visitors"
They stopped coming when this other whatever took over. I have been suppressing all of it for a long time now. When my daughter-in-law died two months ago. I threw caution to the wind and as she lay on life support. I traveled through the colored tunnels /levels whatever in my mind to heal but I later found out she was no longer there. Upon turning off life support I was able to manifest a goodbye to my son. Her hand moved upward from a straight position. She brought it out from under the sheet and reached for my son. He took her hand and she squeezed his, whoa chills. Since then I have been able to bring about many glaring signs from her. I have let the cows out of the barn might as well pursue.
I just can't (as usual) find anything or anyone like me.
So if I don't Astral Project what is it I do. I've certainly have never seen the silver thread connecting.
Sorry, wrote another novel but to be fair it's been a long time LOL
For those who know my situation, it has remained the same.
Me blocking as much as I can to try to have a normal life. Days are for the most part event free. Nights are still filled with the overwhelming claim to my space of crawling webs and web shapes where they individually dominate and rush me. I ignore and press on through. The sheeting is there but with the exceptions of a burst of strength when they turn dark rooms into a maze of sheeting covered deception I ignore it. When it is dense I get a little panicky; not because I am frightened but because I stumble to find doors and objects to feel my way through before my husband notices and freaks out.
Ok - So the real reason I am posting is because if I had any doubts before they are forever gone.
Of course this will be long (as usual) because explanations and detail are critical to explaining how events unfolded...
Saturday morning my son called hysterical telling me my daughter-in-law was dead. In confusion and disbelief I struggled to understand.
He said she was "gone". I, in an attempt to make sense of what he was saying; thought maybe she left him. Between my husband's and my conversation with him, we basically learned paramedics had taken her. My husband and daughter (visiting from out of state) grabbed her 7 mo old baby and took off for a 2 1/2 hour journey. During the trip we learned the paramedics found a pulse and had her breathing. Since I knew my son had done compressions it made sense. When we got there she was in a medically chill induced coma. Believing I had healing powers I began to put my hands on on her and sort through mental obstacles. I had surpressed the man's face for years; that has pursued me through trickery. He would always try to cover my mouth with his; now he can rarely appear. I can instantly send him away.
Eyes closed I faced him dead on (literally) I damned him to hell and told him he was not going to block me. Difficult, to describe the vision even to myself; I searched through different colored levels of transparent filmy patterned layers down hallways which only I saw and knew to be there. Losing focus for a nano second meant back to the beginning and restarting. I could slowly move my head (but not my eyes) to stay in direct contact with any appearing face or change of direction. I searched for, often interrupted, hours. Sweat dripping down my face barely able to stand erect I (telepathically)screamed her name. I could not get passed the blue level. I am sure my husband, son and grandsons thought I was crazy but so overcome with pain they ignored it.
We left her to rest and repair and went home. The next day no change in condition. Through I began my search again but to no avail. Out of steam and ideas, I called my daughter who had to stay behind because of the baby.
I had only discovered in recent months that she was an empath and had been experiencing paranormal events since childhood. She thought it to be the norm.
At a loss, I asked her if she could get to the light and backtrack to meet up with me. I never really got passed blue except for quick glances of purple and possible hints of gold (that I felt would lead to the light). I would soon learn further details that made me realize she was actually dead before paramedics arrived. It was pretty certain it was a sudden death heart attack.
The Doctor gave little hope but would be doing more testing. At that time they would also begin warming her; which had been delayed 3 times feeling she wasn't ready.
The testing and warming was complete around 5:00 a.m.
I woke around 5:00 a.m. and felt all connection to her lost; later, finding out the Dr had pronounced her at that time.
My son was told they wanted to disconnect the ventilator but we were waiting for his older son to arrive from California.
The next morning we all went to say goodbye.
The previous night my daughter had said she reached Amy but not entered the light. She had a feeling of something exit from her body. She saw Amy and felt a light brushing down her arm.
At the hospital I closed my eyes and began my search. This time it came easily. The color was purple (it didn't occur to me at the time but later it was pointed out) her favorite color
Beings (?) were swirling around and above her bed. A few came to the head of the bed and bent over her as if to kiss or whisper to her. Some seemed cloacked and hooded. Faces swirled in and out of view. I came face to face, yet still separated by a flimsy drape, with many. Although features were apparent not enough for recognition. We each sought out blind trust.
I was asking Amy to give Steven a sign. I lost connection when the team came in to disconnect.
After the team left we stood gathered around as her vitals slipped away. My son stood on the right side next to her bed. I stood next to him. I looked at the sheet and it was moving. Not that unusual. I often see things move that no one else sees or that even actually move. As the movement continued upward I asked my son if he was seeing it and amazingly he was. Everyone saw it. His wife's hand came out from under the cover and I told my son she was reaching for his hand. He grasped it and felt her return the touch. Everyone saw it! This women had been dead for quite sometime. It was not a natural movement of death. Her other hand was relaxed as were her legs and feet. We gave our goodbyes as the color drained from her face.
Since then there had been other signs although not as dramatic. I am convinced my daughter-in-law is trying to help my son get through the devastating lose. She was his world.
I saw the most awesome thing today. (Actually now it's yesterday forgot to send 🤪)
I was floating in my pool and I looked up and saw a HUGE grayish circle with colored rings around it.
I was mesmerized and felt strangely drawn to it. I felt like it meant something but I wasn't sure what. The sun was in the center and quite small in relation to the circle.
Luckily my husband saw it too. I don't need any additional "strange" stuff in my life LOL
I looked it up and apparently it is rare and it appears with cirrus clouds. It is actually hexagonal ice crystals.
It felt like I was looking at the black hole. There is some Spiritual aspect to it as well.