All in My Mind
Psychic and Paranormal
I started a message to you the same day I received yours but I never finished it and now I can't find it
Didnt forget you it's hard to get time to work on these as it causes a riff
Just a quick note. I have so much still to read from your messages. I want to take time to really digest it all but wanted to tell you...
The Ouija Board incident was a lifetime ago. I was a young adult. I was playing with it with my stepmother who I had idolized as a teen and came to realize she was "evil". We were fooling around with it one night. I don't even remember the question but she kept asking it and getting a negative reply. She insisted on continuing until it shot off the board. A pure EVIL black figure arose to my right. Almost like a genie from a bottle attempting to loom over me. I stopped it dead in it's tracks and sent it away. NEVER EVER touched or allowed a board near me or mine again. I did not doubt for one second that that the movements were not human driven.
I did check ley lines at someone's suggestion but did not locate any near. I have heard the term shaman but really dont know what that is. These whatever they are follow me even to my son's house 100 mi away
None to my liking people have now started to build in this development. The Property Market took a header back in 2006 when everyone felt that just had to buy a house before they were all gone, Didn't take long for them to realize they couldn't afford the homes ergo foreclosure & "short sales" Florida took a VERY BIG hit.
Food for thought - almost 20 yrs ago my stepmother died. My father who was estranged due to her forbidding contact with me reached out. For a brief but wonderful time we connected. My adopted sister who I practically raised with my son of same age as toddlers apparently harbored resentment toward me because my stepmother always threw me up to her (I never knew it) did her best to drive a wedge. A few years later he died. For 3+ yrs after her death I had the worst luck ever almost to ruination. I insisted she was causing it. Everyone thought I was being nutty saying it. I didn't so much believe it (because that kind of stuff couldn't really happen, right?) as I felt it.
And for a touch of the ironic - I am part Cherokee
Thank you so much for all your help and time you are putting in I really appreciate it
Suggestions: Quit trying to get hubby to believe you.
I gave up on that after he helped with smudging and it had no effect. Actually it made them angry. It's like they have a temper tantrum and exhausts itself and needs a few days to recoup. So anyway he couldn't give me benefit of doubt after that.
Be aware of the emotions/type of energy you're emitting.
At this point in the game. I am exhausted both in physical & spirit. The Empath part is strongly kicking in and I have pretty much removed myself from humanity. I can't deal with all the pain & negativity of life. I can't change it but I can no longer accept it. It's too much to tolerate. So I am quite low key. I have always been calm and level headed anyway. The only thing I get hyped up about is current politics and the idiocy of it all
Try and locate any breeches in your aura, where you'd be leaking energy and repair.
Also Esoterically Challenged. I really haven't a clue what that means. I have heard the terms but it "does not compute". As crazy & intense as all this has been I still can't relate. I lived too many years denouncing to be able to fit.
Strengthen your aura and eat a clean healthy diet.
Once again I wouldn't begin to know how to do that. But I can tell you how to do a spread sheet, calculate markups, merchandise a floor for maximum traffic, make an inventory floor plan and network etc (not associated with the internet) LOL See what I mean? This has been my world. Concrete, Brick & Morter
My diet is whatever tastes good. I am into sugar laden salty treats. I skip meals, to be fair I always bave. I usually have 1 meal a day anywhere from 12:00 p.m. and 7:00 p.m. whenever I feel hungry or remember to eat. I am a plain Jane picky eater. I
ts a little late in life to change now
Ground yourself thru out the day, many times.
Never figured that one out either. Nor can I meditate.I can be counting something and before I know it my minds is off on a tangent and then I have to start the count all over again. Sometimes several times.
Ask spirit to remove the cobwebs from you 100% I'm talking about your higher self
I am sorry to be so ignorant about all this. I had someone try to help me with this kind of thing... maybe?. I guess you could say it was like praying. Epic Fail. I tried to speak to Angels but it fell on deaf ears. Probably because i couldn't relate to them either
That's why I can't understand. Why me?
I could kind of understand why "visitors" came to me. I am a "helper" not a "helpee" but that role sure got me in trouble!
Truly not frightened but aggravated, frustrated, over it...
OH YEAH! I never show anger to them; stern maybe and laugh sometimes. I refuse to fuel them with my anger.
I try my best to ignore but they make it hard to do. Can't tell you how many times I try to clean something where they have created it; maybe a black spot on the carpet or a mark on the floor. Open a closet door the inside draped Try to drink out of a cup, nope, it's full of them. I'm sure this is thier merriment... NOT laughing guys.
They like to reach out and connect to me. It's like I walked through a cobweb only thinner and they connect and attach somewhere else. Right now I am in my office. I haven't bothered to turn on lights because the screen on my tablet is enough light. Well, they have completely surrounded me and are closing in on me. I don't know what they think they can do
I just raised my head and looked at them. I told them to get out of here. They retreat. If only I had more power to make them all go and stay away
The webs that fill my bedroom at night are too dense and connected to care what I say
I enjoyed your response. Its interesting how many different unique stories are out there
If you've read my past posts you probably noticed that I am wordy. Try as I might I can't seem to be brief. I have a compulsive & borderline perfectionist way that creates the need for explaination. LOL
This often leads to redundancy so bear with me.
I am a very down to earth realist. I rely on science rather than faith. I certainly believe there is a higher power but I can't (nor do I believe anyone can ) claim to understand. I rely more on logic and common sense.
This is what made this saga so difficult to accept. Mine wasn't a cultivating experience. It was literally OH! HELLO...
One night I just looked up expecting to see my daughter and there she was but not my daughter. It began a nightly continuance of what I later referred to as "visitors". Acceptance was slow coming and even now I have doubts because it just doesn't make sense. If it doesn't make sense it can't be true, right?. I still struggle with the concept.
If maybe it was a once in a while thing or one or two types of things I could have been more accepting. Instead I was plunged into a world I didn't understand or know what to do about it.
It was like a smorgasbord of unreality.
"Visitors" no one I knew or were there ever
repeat performances. I could describe in vivid colorful detail. Each interaction different. All pleasant, some emotional. Well except for the woman who ran up to me and violently shook me. Like she was trying to shake some sense into me. I saw her but never felt her.
Men, women, boys, girls, babies, white, black, as well as animals wild & domestic. There was no fear or unpleasantness.
Beginning with basic visitors and progressed. First person direct attempt at interaction, next I guess it was Astral. I could see others they could see me but neither of us understood why. The third situation I could see and observe others they never knew I was there
I can make things move but only in my observance. They don't physically move
I had a couple premonitions.
Everything was really cool until something from the other side I guess took over.
Whole nother story... Lol
Still haven't finished this but it's more about time because this stuff has my husband convinced I should reserve a room at the funny farm. It really worries him so "it's the elephant in the room".
I had no thoughts about it as a child. My grandmother claimed to have seen ghosts in a kitchen and she read tarot cards. She would never read them for me.
The followed is the only military interaction
<I had a visit one night from a very young boy; maybe 6 or 7 yrs. I was startled by him which frightened him. He started to run away. I called him back and told him it was ok. He was dressed in camo like a little soldier. He even had a cap. He just stood there smiling. He then left. I felt such a surge of emotion. He was so cute. I still think about him today>
<Much time and many visitors later there came another little boy dressed in camo. He appeared to be about 10 yrs old. I did not feel there was a connection to the other boy. He came running up to me smiling and threw his arms around me; well he tried to anyway. I felt that same surge of emotion. He was so impulsive and happy>
<The last interaction was just a face of an adult male Army solider. His face suddenly changed and appeared as a fighting soldier then quickly morphed to a wolf>
YES, I have made it perfectly clear in everyway possible. I have NEVER felt fear or danger.
APPARENTLY, I have brought these "guests that won't leave" upon myself. I have this compulsion to help. I came upon an opportunity to (and how stupid is this??) Allow "Mind Travel". It was very detailed and I observed what I thought to be a situation needing my help. I foolishly got involved with what seemed to be the perpetrator. I more or less gave an ultimatum; demanding an explanation or a "show me" ... I was accommodated. It was fun and interesting at first. I then realized I was being appeased and now he wanted more. That begun the infiltration.
I started off reasoning but to no avail. I have emphatically stated I would never be a party to whatever it was he wanted. I have literally said and done everything I knew. Many on this site have offered suggestions and help. Unfortunately the problem persists
All in My Mind
I know I am not making anything up. I know the difference between when something looks mysterious and it turns out to be a lamp. I always assume what I see is simply explained. So, when I see things I know there is something really there but ONLY visable to me. It really IS ONLY in MY mind.
I fight constantly to not look or think about it because something will appear. It is like it sits there waiting for me; I guess it's like I summon it. A thought will pop into my head that I haven't seen anything in a while and they start, both visually and mentally. The moment I start thinking about writing I get hit with all their wrath. I will barely be able to see or feel where I am in the house or outside especially at night. Every room and everything thing is draped with the burgandy patterned whatever it is - more like a waving curtain. The webs still hang around. They start to crawl along walls where it meets the ceiling; spreading as proceeding. Nights are hellish because if I open my eyes it will look like a very perpetually moving dense snowy fog. Sometimes a group or the man's face will be in front of me waiting for me to see them. It's SO creepy. How can something live inside of my brain but not be a conscience or unconscious thought that I have no control over? I can't predict.
I still see a burgundy pattern in anything black and a yellow pattern on white. I spent almost a week at my son's house 100 miles from my home. No reprieve; it all came with me.
2/8/19 still procrastinating...
The other night I saw a man with a young boy standing in front of my dresser. He seemed to be combing the boys hair.
It was an odd vision because although it was formed by what appeared to be web formed shapes there was more solidity. I didn't actually see details of the forms; yet I had a strong impression leading me to believe what I described
I have been turning off the TV at night. Once I close my eyes I don't want to open them again until daylight because I know the moment I do they will start swarming the bedroom.
Occasionally if I need to use the bathroom I get up quickly and avoid looking around. I hold my arms up with my palms facing out. I make a pushing motion and the webs will move backward. I quickly turn on a light. The light makes them retreat. They are not gone but they are not readily visible. I usually pull the sheet over my head. Once in a while I awaken and peek out from beneath the sheet. I will always see 1 or more groupings within the massive snowy foggy cluster. They immediately advance toward me. Sometimes the man's face will be waiting in front of my face. I need to retreat quickly.
Last night there were 2 faces actually with an nondescript partial body. As they advance I quickly hold my hand up to stop them. This time the man was not disguising himself. In his anger he neglected to create an interesting and vulnerable face. His face was angry with teeth bared. Now that I think about it these forms have been an overall red. I retreat back down under the covers not out of fear but in avoidance. I do not want to find out what will happen if I don't. Its SO CREEPY.
For a reason unbeknownst to me they can not do anything unless I allow or invite.
On a previous night I did actually see a woman to the left of my bed. The vision was still a fuzzy static, however, it was clear enough to know it was a middle age woman average in size. She had short curly hair. The webs have suppressed the visitors and once in a while the webs try to appear as a person but their attempt is still primitive.
I was in my (home) office the other day. My desk faces the wall on the right side. Across the room my husband's desk faces left. I turned to briefly look out the window which faces the front yard. As I turned back toward my desk I saw my husband's chair make a deliberate quarter turn. There was no one there, no air movement. Nothing to explain the turn
Fast forward (because I STILL haven't posted this) I always plan to then but then I resist Why?? I don't know
Last night the webs were very bad; forming large black groups and rushing me if I peeked out. I could see them through the sheet, waiting. I gave up and went to the living room and laid on the couch. I turn the light to the brightest on my tablet and ignore. That usually keeps them at bay.
Tonight, TV doesn't deter them. They are more dense to my left. A glance is taken as an invite.
As I lay in bed I feel a tremendous magnetic like pull throughout my body. I have felt this before but not nearly with this intensity.
Still mostly ignoring. The pull is so strong I feel small jerks throughout my body. I feel slightly faint. Every morning I wake with my left forearm feeling cold and a pressure from my wrist to elbow WHAT IS THIS? Does anyone know?
Looking back at some notes I discovered this web thing has been going on for 1 1/2 years with about 6 months of just the visitors.
I NEED/WANT these webs to go find someone else to haunt because I will NEVER help them.
Yet, still they are here. It is to the point I realize even in daylight no matter what I do or where I go I am or they are my world. I thought my eyes were failing but it is because even when I don't know it I am looking through what seems like very thin swirling almost invisable plastic wrap. I don't know if I am behind it or in front of it. I dont know if I am here or there.
I would like to see if I have other talents but I am afraid to try as long as they are here (or I am there). I am definately going to post this tonight..
But.... One last ironically funny happening.
I have long hair so it is everywhere. My husband found a clump of it with a spider nestled in it (no longer of the living thank God)
Passed my Expiration Date
I think I am done!
I just can't deal with the anger and pain in this world anymore. I feel it all too much. More & more less & less makes sense. Everything seems so primative. I have removed myself from as much as I can. Even family are hard maybe even harder to endure. I don't understand life choices and values. Life in general seems pointless. I mean really, why? What purpose does it serve. Every aspect of human life seems so primal. Human functioning is becoming hard to relate to. I have filled my life with caring and sharing, achievements and accomplishments. I have been a good helpful person. I just feel like I have done all I can do.
I can't perceive what could be next but this just isn't it
I never felt like I belonged here. I used to think maybe I was some alien dropped off in the wrong place. LOL
I don't know if all this was enhanced by being tossed into a paranormal world I had never believed in and still don't understand. I don't know if it is because of excelerated unexplained failing health or the failing health is caused by a paranormal force. I am driven to explore but held back by a feeling of a less than trustful presence I can not be rid of and even with currently being on the upper end of the power struggle it's still incorporated into my life. It is a viewable matrix that surrounds
I was ignorant to "Empathic" most of my life. I thought everyone had the same feelings as I did and couldn't understand why others were not relating.
Fibromyalgia finally explained so much of health problems from earlier on and I embraced it; happy not to have to search for cures anymore. Although not connected I have lived with pain ever since I can remember starting with migranes and expanding. It wasn't until long after I was diagnosed that I realized that feeling some sort of pain constantly wasn't the norm. I still can't imagine what it would be like not to feel pain somewhere for even one day.
Years before I knew about being an Empath I went to the funeral of a teenage girl my daughter went to school with It was a senseless car accient less than a mile from the school
As I went through the viewing line and came to the mom. I reached out my hand and as I looked into her eyes I could feel her deep pain. As her eyes met mine I knew she knew I understood. We stayed that way for several seconds. I always felt like I gave her just a tiny bit of comfort.
It takes a while to understand how this works with you...it took a few years for me to figure things out, although I'm still surprised from time to time. From the beginning though, I understood that I wasn't making things up or imagining things but it was how society has trained us to think that made it difficult to be completely ok with ourselves and the way we are...my ability is mine and no one can make me or tell me that I'm sick or mentally unstable and have me believe THAT...lol...you have to get to that place where you're ok with you...I believe everything you describe...no doubt...what you experience is very cool and interesting...and since you're spiders showed themselves to me I don't question your sanity at all,so you know at least one person and possibly more here don't think you're nuts at all...I myself have experienced my own stuff so why wouldn't I believe you?...I'm responding to your 1st couple of lines.. .lol...the rest is you are on a huge energy lei line and those will enhance your abilities....when I lived at my other place my own abilities burst open 100% like yours. I moved and even though I still have my abilities I feel they've changed. Not as strong.
As for the trees....they are living beings...calm, majestic and beautiful...I have 3 huge ones beside my house...they're like a part of my family...I talk to them when I'm outside and I've smudged them occasionally to clear them of the energy gunk they pick up while living in the city....I don't bother with telling them to do things...they do it naturally...lol...
Lately, for a month or two. I feel a presence. It's not perceived in the way it feels like when someone walks by or they're just hanging around
The only way I can think to describe it is the opposite of Deja Vu
It's not like "this has happened before"
It's like "I know it will happen again"
Simple every day things and just once in awhile not with everything. Maybe do something a certain way that I should / could have done differently and then I think it's ok I'll do it that way the next time
It's not a conscious thought it just comes over me.
My daughter is in last trimester of pregnancy. The baby is very active
The are 100 miles away
I put my hand on my stomach relaxed calm and projected
I could physically feel another heart beating. It slowed baby stopped kicking and daughter got much needed sleep
Coincidence or Wishful thinking?
Not meaning to offend anyone but for me personally it still seems so unreal. I cant tell where fact leaves off and fantasy begins. I never know if what I see, hear or feel is realistic? Possible?
Does anyone feel like you can control weather to a certain degree. Just little experiments but too many to be seen as a coincidence. I seem to be able to have an effect on rain. Especially if it is hard rain it is like I can make it stop.
Some times when I am in the pool or to be honest floating; it gets real hot. I ask the trees to make a gentle breeze.
Since I can see or make all kinds of things move but nothing actually does move I wondered if this is the same thing. My yard is surrounded by all kinds of trees. I usually ask one at a time but they will all work together.
But the thing is they are moving and within seconds I feel the breeze
This is kind of timely and ironic
For a day or 2 then weeks and now months I have been thinking about contacting you. I wanted to tell you if you were still doing something it was working.
As long as I didnt look at anything longer than a second and tried to keep my mind clear it was (exhausting but liveable).
Still havent figured out shields or how to make one. When I think of a shield it has a man dressed out in a metal suit and helmet with a feather
So the minute i started forming a message to you in my head they would go berserk. Cover every inch of the furniture and walls I couldnt tell where I was. It was like a House of Mirrors.
Then they wound calm down until I thought about it again.
The man's face I thought was all but faded. I could immediately shut him down.
Then I sent a message to someone (not even about that) and it would act up.
I though I would be brave and started turning off the TV at night. Determined to keep my eyes closed and sleep if I did open my eyes I could barely see or breath the web activity in the room was so dense. It extended into other room but not nearly as bad and I can shoo that away.
One night I felt a presence I thought it was my husband next to the bed bending down to kiss me. I opened my eyes to respond but it was that face. Yikes! A real close call.
Still determined to turn TV off. Again, sensing a presence I opened my eyes to find human type shapes floating all around. Any time I open my eyes for a nano second I am rushed by clusters.
The other night - sensing; I look and there is a smiling older short chubby woman. She is wearing a full white ruffled apron with a chef's hat tied in a bow under her chin. She is more than just a shape but still not clear. I look at her trying to decide what to think. All of a sudden she's snarling and a blue flat thick stick shoots out the end of her arm. I pull back quickly. She becomes surrounded by familar faces the man's face prominent and scowling. Covers over my head!
I realize the background I have been seeing for quite a while is not burgundy any longer. When I close my eyes it is almost always red with some kind of black pattern. The color can chance trying to make me more receptive. I try to hang on to blue because the water in the pool is blue and the sky is blue often without a cloud anywhere. That color does not seem to be in his control.
Last night I looked over at my husband and a stream of what could have looked like big black ants were crawling across his face and around his ear. Of course I knew they weren't there but I couldn't help reaching out to make sure.
I felt, I sensed, I saw "Devil" (I don't know what that really is) but this is not "Evil" But NOT good if that makes sense
Still not afraid but more complex
I guess I must be strong to be able to keep the playing field fairly level. I think its killing my health, energy and state of mind.
Still trying to figure out what's the obsession with me?
I am not motivated by material things. There is nothing I would trade for
My hands are still tied with being able to try, buy or do anything. My husband is really freaked out. He really thinks its mental / physical. Now everytime his sees me type he wants to know to who.
Way back in the "BEGINNING OF TIME" when man ruled the Earth or at least for me LOL I would have to check back on notes because I am not sure which came first the chicken or the egg - more LOL (because its the only thing that keeps me sane)
Probably webs had begun but in a minor way; when I would be walking through the house I would get stings on my lower legs. It didn't matter which room. They were sharp and instantaneous. I would look but never saw anything. I could be looking at the exact spot feel it but not see anything. Then it started happening to my husband. He was convinced it was fleas. We had no pets. He even went out and bought bombs but we never used them. I knew what it was but no way would he believe that. Then it abruptly stopped.
I would notice if I did or said or even thought about ridding the webs I would get very strong stings.
I'm guessing punishment. I dont react or at least in the way they want so they try some other tactic.
I rarely feel the webs unless they want me to. For a while when I went through my bedroom door they would wrap around my legs and try to trip me.
They seem to have a strong need to keep in phyical contact. I will see almost invisible threads extend to me from all places. The ceiling fan seems to still be the hub so mostly from there. Lately the fan is doing its best to get my attention. It wiggles and waves. I ignore all thier pranks except to maybe shake my head to idicate NO (they do understand what I say, do or think), and firmly say you don't belong here. Your not going to get my help. I don't trust you. I think your intentions are not good. GO AWAY! So yeah, I'm pretty much talking to myself for all the good it does.
Another thing early on; related or not? I used to feel a rain drop or two. I could be outside in a car or a house. It was a definite feeling of wetness but if I touched the spot it was dry.
Mostly now and usually when I awaken I feel a firm wrapping (like an Ace bandage) from my wrist to my elbow.
As I stated much earlier on; they are constantly evolving. They would try to scare me forming ridiculous stick figure Tarantulas. I am terrified of bugs yet as realisticas they have become I can always tell and put my hand up to stop and laugh. One night while lying in bed a tiny spider thread descended from the ceiling.At the end was medium size yellow spider with black markings. I waved it away. Their Tarantulas have become so realistic its unbelievable. Tiny hairs covering and a creepy walk.
I guess my point is watch for subtle changes in behaviors. ALWAYS something new ALWAYS trying to control.
Just a Thank You to all that have helped me try to get a handle on everything. It is much appreciated!
Although still there, these entities (?) seem to be in a downhill slide!
WomanWhoWalks Karen 2 - I dont think I've figured how how to PM yet. I am Social Media challenged. Please tell me how I do it 😉😃
I have been meaning to get back to you but once again Procrastination.
Whatever you did or are still doing is working great!
The chains of spider/webs are laying low. They are not GONE and they know I know that but unless I actively look I don't see them. They still sprawl across doorways but I just push them back and tell them to go. The web has spawned a new member. It is connecting to create a very thin translucent sheet that appears even in daylight. The other sheeting burgundy w/ black checkered tiny boxes and intermittent pattern (I will never in a million years know how to describe what I see) is still there but in less places. Like I open up my walk-in closet Hello! Bye Bye! as I turn the light on It's probably still thier but I can no longer see it draped over everything.
The man is still determined to reach me but he has weakened, not as much zealous. So still have to be on guard when closing my eyes.I wish I could turn my thoughts off but alas, no. I'll be ok then my mind says I havent seen him yet and then there he is. I think to myself "Hey, I haven't been seeing the burgundy color intermingled on anything black and the same goes for yellow on white. Then guess what Whoops! there it is... again
I still hear the music mostly Orchestra playing randomly. I guess I could deal with that but the rest is wearing thin. I hope to one day, soon. to be able to go back to the "friend" visits or explore any talents I might have. More on the sidelines though. LOL
The thing that concerns me most is I am getting weaker with more depressed. I seem to be in la la land. I can't complete a sentence without forgetting a word. Just poof! It's gone. A few seconds later it pops back in but sure puts a dent in conversation LOL
I am having more tests because I know something is wrong but my symptoms are so vague and disconnected I know the Drs. think I'm nuts. So trying to rule out everything but can't help but feel like these "things" are deliberately causing many of the problems. I still don't believe any are harmful but they have a mission and it is me. From a gathering of many activities it is pretty clear to me they are studying and trying to recreate me. I have even wondered "aliens"? but I already sound like someone out of a Steven King book. Lol
Ok here it is a week later and I've yet to send this
A couple of days ago I was thinking theyre on there way out and wondering if you were or had done something
It seems almost normal but I still have to concentrate on NOT seeing or noticing or not think (that is really hard because it just pops into my head)
Anyway, after thinking about them maybe leaving; wondering about your participation and vowing to finish this they displayed there disapproval BIG TIME. They seem weak but still watching for an opening.
Anyway thank you for all you have done, doing or gonna do!
Also we still have the dead animal (no access to) smell
It's been months We have spent a fortune on products that SUPPOSEDLY work within a week. Ah, no
Tried every suggestion offer
Haven't used our master bath since 😝
No way it could my borders, right? 👻
Is this even possible and if it is would it have meaning?
I was organizing some photos on my PC. I have a thing for clouds. I came across one that had the face of a cat looking forward and to the left, separate a car wheel - tire.
I know a lot of clouds resemble all kind of things but this was different. The face of the cat was part of a cloud 2 sky eyes yet surrounded by clouds. As I looked more closely details became clearer. It seemed like the picture of the cloud was superimposed over the cat and wheel. They appeared to be separate images under the picture itself. For a moment I wondered if I had caused it but HOW could I? The wheel was very detailed. After several minutes it slowly faded to the original picture.
Now I am wondering even more if there is some kind of connection to the event I described underneath. Not with each other but in "Am I seeing or imagining?"
For several weeks everywhere I looked or went I would see a clip lasting 3 - 4 sec then returning after same. It was not still it was active. I could see carnival rides especially the gears and motors so I knew that's what it was. I could identify some rides as it progressed. I started being able to differentiate adult vs child and once in a while could make out a little clothing color ie. red
One day it just stopped. I shortly heard on the news a carnival ride accident in another state with injuries had happened.
To make this even weirder the visions started out with people in hospital beds swinging back and forth
Coincidence or Imagination
but not a Dream
And why so far away?
With Disney & Universal Studios we don't lack for ride mishaps. Some months ago a child was decapitated on a water slide.
Just thought of an event that might fit in but its REALLY weird I was out on the patio It was very dark. I can't really see in the dark anymore I'm guessing it is because there is the translucent shimmering (whatever) surrounding me But I digress My husband wanted to show me something I followed his voice When I got within a few feet I got very startled and jumped back People (?) were exiting his body as though they were getting off a bus About 5 or 6 full bodied and in color dressed in business clothing They exited turn right and disappeared
There is a heavy presence in the bedroom They are not reaching out but heavily draping walls and hanging from the ceiling blocking door & hallway I am feeling butterflies in my stomach tingling in my arms & legs I am having trouble with words
P.S. NOW they are reaching & clinging LOL
THANK YOU ALL!!
I really appreciate the help and tips
It is difficult for me to grasp It is like using my left arm and not right Awkward I love learrning about the "Paranormal World" just haven't been able to piece it together yet
It is also difficult because I have always lived in reverse I am always the "helper" to be truthful sometimes I am the enabler LOL
It was nice not having to worry about these stupid webs and man's face for awhile - not gone but noticably weakened All good things must come to an end 😔
They are winding back up again. It seems everytime someone helps it works for a little while than gradually grows back with a vengeance It was great to have a reprieve even if for a short time For almost a whole day and night the Orchestra music even stopped. Unfortunately I believe it fed on me and got it's strength back. During that time I was so weak & and in so much pain I would just go back to bed & was always in LaLa Land. I don't think in all fairness I can blame Fibro / Fibro Fog for ALL the pain & lack of focus
This thing / things wants me for some reason The webs are becoming more visable in daylight It's like a translucent shimmery film During the reprieve there were always these almost invisible threads reaching and attaching to me (more than usual) I always woke up with my left forearm feeling wrapped and cold - more so than usual
I am powerless to do anything to remedy. My husband is convinced and worried something is very wrong with me He wants me to see a doctor (and say what? I see ghosts) So i just don't mention or do anything so he won't know it's still going on Every time he sees me type he asks "to who?" If I look off into space for a few minutes "what are you looking at" He can't handle it He freaks out No friends or family nearby (as if that would help) I am still trying to get back strength and balance from a major surgery - tendon repair almost a year ago I should have never had it done I traded isolated pain and limping for increased pain in more areas still limping and a 6" scar Anyway, I am still dependent therefore not able to do anything to remedy. I have tried all the suggested but everything done is a temporary kind of fix
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CONTINUING TO TRY TO HELP!!!
I was going to bring up the subject as to whether these "entities" could affect health and well being. It looks like I may have my answer here.
Surface wise I may have things in check but I think the "entities" are playing dirty. For quite some time I have been having trouble dealing with changes in my body and face - aging, weight gain, losing my LONG hair, fingernails chipping peeling and breaking. Drs / tests but can't find a reason. All very unusual for me (I am vain and I am sure they know that) Petty health problems and more than usual pain. Tipping the scale is a deep depression setting in with no interest or energy. I think I mentioned before I was having trouble putting pen to paper. In fact keeping with that is losing a post before I can finish it. It happened again when I tried to start this post. They just disappear as I am typing. I can't maintain focus or keep a thought in my head. I have Fibro but this is way more than Fibro Fog. I especially am having trouble posting here. I want to. I kind of know what I want to say. I get some time when I can do it. I just can't make my self do it. PROCRASTINATION big time. It doesn't make sense. Its like I am not in charge of my thoughts
I have been trying to post back to all since the4e was some great ideas but something is stopping me
I am going to start a new thread about physical health This one is getting way to long
I do want to say. I am sorry I didn't mean to trivialize your daughters experiences By "not real" I meant like an actual physical bodied Witch that (and I am probably wrong) at the initial contact stage could not do phyical harm I think we are setting the scene as to how we react and who starts off with the most original power SO many contacts in SO many different ways that were / are made I think that what makes this manageable is that I originally set the ground work. Not knowing or understanding ANY of what was going on; out of curiosity I allowed it? them? to enter my mind. For whatever reason i firmly stated "Ok, but I am coming back"
Even though I still don't understand what is going on; (probably never will) and it is driving crazy, as long as I demand & expect; that will be the deciding factor. My common sense kicks in then the paranormal comes into play. Ignorance is bliss So they say.
Sorry for the run-on LOL I never can seem to be able to make simple statements
"Hey...I'm trying to close the portals in you house...tell me if there's a difference....gonna clear your energy of stuff....if you have stuff to smudge give yourself a good smudge and the area above your bed....gonna work on that dark entity you've been seeing too....if...of course...you dont mind?...lol..you might feel some strange things happening...dont worry...that will be me clearing your energy"....updated by : 06/02/18 12:24:31PM
Not sure if anything cleared because it seems like they need to replenish after being excessively active. I try to keep my mind clear of them but it's hard Yes they definately act up when I reach out Also when they are calm and I think to myself maybe they are leaving but no... They will remind me real quick
I can't actively do anything to fight them because I have to keep my "ghost thing" to myself to avoid conflict. I have done all the things suggested though with no results
Although weakened the man still fights to get through
Cheshire Cat and Hop Daddy suggested showers The problem is since the man is in my head they are welcomed. When I close my eyes I get the face trying to reach me. It's hard to describe but when I close my eyes I see the patterned curtain it changes colors but it's aways the face trying to come through. Slowly it tries to break through coming from different angles. If I allow it he gets closer and more in focus. I have to quickly open my eyes, blink or change direction while my eyes are closed continuously. I actually don't remember what I used to see when I closed my eyes
I am afraid alligators here are bit more aggressive. They are found on golf courses, crossing roads, in garages, in pools. One of them snatched a 3 yr old off Disney World property. The father tried to grab him but the alligator pulled him under water; body never found. A women was walking her dogs and disappeared. The body was found in the water. Her arm was found in the gator. Sharks love to take arms legs whatever they can get.
We still are plagued by the Amarillo nightly. He has gotten out of a cage once and sprung 3 others. Then a coyote sneaks into the woods next to us to bed down He has figured out how to avoid tripping the security lights LOL
Also I avoid plants. I have killed a rubber tree, cactus and been banned from a nursery