A heaven heart...
With a heavy heart, I am mourning the loss of my Mother-In-Law. She passed peacefully in her sleep this morning. Thanks for all the support thru these years and when her son my husband passed in May of this year.
My husband passed a month ago. His mom has just been diagnosed with lung, breast, and thyroid cancer. My health is waining. I'm scared. I live in Ca and want to move back to Utah to be with my family when I pass. I'd like a reading to get a map of what I need to do to make it thru all this.
Having so many deaths around you in just a few years can be draining as hell... in 2014 me and my husband moved in with his parents, to take care of his dad on hospice. He passed 12-14-14. Jump to now exactly 12 yrs after his 3 bypass surgery his brain stem stroked, and stroked, and STROKED!!! It was unbearable to see hi know whay is happening, but could not move, or speak. Just blink 3 time for I Love You, and yes or no. He was put In Critical Care in St Judes Fullerton. Where I decided to bring him home on hospice and take care of my husband of 28 years till he took his last breath with me and our dog Maxwel at his side. I can tell you exactly what time he passed because I was sleeping on his shoulder, at 4AM on May 14th. His dad passed 12-14-14. Now the wednesday after he passed his mother whom I live with was diagnosed with Breast, and Thyroid cancer. She is just using Frankensense oil sublingually every day. Not going to fight her 4th fight with cancer. She just wants to live comfortable, that's it. So that is yet another death. The good thing is that I am using my Pastorship and work with the grieving using crystals, and guided meditation to help anyone who could benefit from it. I wish my husband took it more seriously. IT WORKS!!!
Now I'm in another precarious situation. When his mother dies, instead of putting me on her will getting even just enough to relocate myself back to Utah. To be with my family when it's my turn. I am going to be homeless. I have to sell my truck and trailer w/solar and get a more economical car. I have a plan in place. I'm using meditation, and prayer so that I can get thru this high energy time. Sometimes it feels as if it's getting ready to blow. But, I am able to use my expertise to help with my faith which is very strong.
Every day, I get a message on Alexa saying "Anthony is here!!!" I looked in my logs where all of them are. It is not there. But, I did find a one that Anthony must have done the night we first got him home B4 he was taken back for what was to be my last few days with him.
I am greatful for all the promises he kept to family and friends when we first got together about my intentions with me. I gave me a happy life with someone who loved me more than himself, and me loving him more than I do myself. I still mean it but my life goes on. I have a couple promises I made to him to keep.
What do you all do to help release negative energy? Is it normal to not cry? I can't cry anymore it feels like. I don't miss him because he is always here with me. I can feel his energy, smell, and see him occasionally. I think thats why I do t cry. I am and will always be known as Pastor Rogers. To keep his name going forward to help others. This is how I am keeping the negative energy away with my crystals to. They are a very good tool with your meditation, and prayer.
Today, I started to go thru closet, and slim down the clothes. I just kept my pants and t-shirts and sock. I have to start to get things packed up, and have a large garage sale for my storage shed. After my mother in law passes. Who knows maybe before. We shall see because I would be homeless, and no vehicle. Habe to sell our trailer, and truck so I can afford a better on gasoline car. But older so it's easy to work on. The energies swirling around me right now are so immense at times I start to get overwhelmed. Tonight it is easing a bit so I think I'll sleep. The emotions are going to be spiking over next few months. The e try to. I'm so glad I use meditation with Binaural beats they help by changing my brain chemistry thru frequency. Been using just frequecies,f but the music and BBeats are amazing...
We just found out yesterday, that his mother was diagnosed with breast and lung cancer. So I am now going thru this again really soon. My hubby will have his mother with him soon....
I myself am going thru much at this time. Me and my husband have been planning my final plans. Then out of no where his brain stem started to stroke. After they put him in CC unit (ICU). I decided it was time to bring my husband home on hospice so that our son could be there with him as well. For 4 days I had 2 close friends put their lives on hold. One had a test to take that would make him graduate, and the professor told him that he was confident that he would do well so he told our friend to wait till he was gone then come in. I told him that Anthony would be with him. He aced it the day after my husband died. He died 3 days before his 53rd BDay. I recieved a 2lb piece of an Amethyst Geod, the day before he passed. Which was part of his Bday present. I raised the hospital food tray that came with the bed and put crystal on it in case he did open his eyes and saw it.
At 3 am on the 14th I got up and got his pain and sleeping meds ready without being emotional about it, like every time before. I felt so peaceful this last time. That I was not aware of yet. I gave him his doses, and kissed him on his forehead. Then I told him to go with God!!! I then fell asleep on his left shoulder, and his dog on his left leg. At 4am he passed away. I then notice that the crystal was not on the tray, and that it was in his left hand. I at this point had to peel his fingers from around the crystal.
He was letting me know that he got and recieved the Bday present. I know that things are changing for me. My gift has grown stronger, and I see energy everywhere now. It was like a switch was turned on, and will not turn off. I am able to see people's Auras now, more so than at any time before. I've been able to pin point my gifts a lot easier now unlike b4.
I have learned a lot thru all of this. It was my HONOR to help him on his way back home. Just like when he and I helped his father 12-14-14, Anthony died 5-14-19 They both left us on the same day of the month. He was the light on my life and soul. He will always be with me. I love you dear. Till we meet again...
With the recent catastrophes in California. I have been on overload. The day before the Bar shooting, every time I meditated I felt as if I was a large bomb of energy about to be released. When I closed my eyes to meditate. All I could see was a kolidescope of blood drops. That night as I slept. I dreamt that I was standing in a bar, and hearing gunshots,and seeing people dropping. I woke up and saw what was on TV and sat and cried for a while. I asked my guardian angels to go help those that need comfort and their help. It's hard to see the news. Because I recall my dream. Those that were there to help are very blessed people. For all those that passed, may God Bless their families for the comfort they need to go on with their lives the way their l9ved ones would have wanted them to.
I am looking for an easy and simple breathing technique for meditation. A very large Crystal Ball has found it's way to me. With the Synagog shootings. I asked my spirit guide to guide me to a way to understand what I see, and feel when I am connected to energies that at times make me feel all tensed up, and ready to explode. I can meditate to help with the tense energies. I am trying to find a exercise to help me connect with my Crystal Ball.
I feel that I was guided to this Crystal Ball, and the cosmic energies it gives off. Please feel free to email me or answer to my post here.
Others may find any ideas to be helpful. Thank you, Stay safe, and "Be Kind to one another!!!" -Ellen DeGeneres-
There is one issue that I deal with daily. A constant bombardment of negative energy. A lot of anger, depression, jealousy. I just cleansed the house, and it felt wonderful. Havent slept that good in months. I'e Been having my mother send me a lot of help. Heck, I won' even have anyone stay here while they visit.
I am creating a pyramid structure in the home with a blessing as my intentions charge it. That I know will be an immense help to us. I carved a sancturary in our room, so I have a place that is calm and peaceful.
I do what I can to help the one person. My father-in-law passed in 2014. Letting it go is part of the process. Some can' and it can be for a negative experience. We have woke up to Cupboards and drawers open in morning in kitchen when we make tea and coffee. Glasses sliding out of the cupboard and shattering on floor. Sometimes your feel as if someone is chasing U down the hall. I finally learned how protect myself with Black Tormaline Crystal pendant. Have had a dramatic ffect for me. I have Pine tar water, but that may not work on this. I feel it' a battle of energies.
When I leave home for a while. My favorite place is a place in the mountains by me. It feels so wonderful, and all my crystals are just eminating their energy strongly. Now that I am doing well with crystals. I am staring to learn about frequencies with crystals. That from my first few times was so puzzling, and interesting at the same time. I work slowly because I like everyone is to take your time. Never just rush into things. I do that once in a while, and correct quickly.
MY life is on a path that feels good and uplift at times. I have one other issue that I' dealing with. That is another reason I can come back. God Bless, Be kind, Be Safe......
Im always helping others too. Dec 14 2014 my father in law passed. I helped clean him, give meds, then at 4:40 am on that day I checked him he was gone. I did everything as did my husband to help him. That was hard for me because I could feel his pain. So I tried to hurry things up so I could goto my RV.
The night the bobmings started for two days I sat most of the nights at foot of my bed feeling very on edge and scared. Woke up seeing on News what happened and I cant say I feel better. But When the people were injured I felt pain. Not now. I just think about it. I use lapis lazuli to help me understand. It helps along with flourite and quartz... My dreams are intense.