Very unempathic: venting, getting worked up and upsetting people
I did scream out some colorful names at the guy and asked God to finish the light-working job as we drove by.
I did scream out some colorful names at the guy and asked God to finish the light-working job as we drove by.
Someone once told me my shine is what bothers those in darkness the most. I can see that is the case with everyone here. Another also called me a light-worker aka warrior of light b/c when you come against darkness (which is what many of us naturally attract) there will always be a fight. I will go out of my way to avoid negative people and a friend of mine and I will be driving down a road on New Years Eve just to witness something very negative. I realize a-lot of people get drunk on this day but the drunk can be the most vulnerable. I saw a teenager about 19 sitting in the middle of a parking area near a busy street while a man screams full blast in her face with a truck nearby. Clearly she wanted to get way from him why else did she run out of the truck in a drunk stupor. Something was wrong she was very out of it and did not respond to him. I hope she was not on drugs. Or he did that to her. She still tried to get way from him. The controlling ego maniac than picks her up but not without trying to embarrass her in public by partially taking her top off. I just had to vent about this. Then he threw her in his truck and drove off. I hope she knew there were cameras nearby. The cops like those. My point is I either witness these things as a light-worker or are around it in work situations (not the drunk part) but Narc colleagues which is why I no longer work 9 to 5 yippee! because I prefer the company of other warriors of light.
Since it was requested over a year ago I will just write on here. When my black lab was dying I spent a lot of time with her. I told her to come haunt me too first before she transitions. She did. My family and I would hear scratching noises on our bedroom doors afterwards and random barking. the night she died I had a dream of her telling me she is not dead just in another realm. The fact that she talked to me like a human was cute and who can say their communication levels can't advance after they cross over?
I don't own any cats but the ones I got to know like to follow me around. One day on one of my nature walks, I turn around and there is a black cat next to me. I was feeling that sterotype that people tend to feel sometimes about those black cats (in her defense there is a little white on her neck). First I told her to go away. She kept coming up to me and continued to these past 2 1/2 years. We are good friends now. Sometimes I will see her stretching on a neighbors high porch and as soon as she sees me she jumps off and runs to me. I did not know I was a cat person.
There is a pattern to people with abilities and it seems they do not" fit in" to what most of the everyday average person thinks they should. I think this applies to learning styles too and doing things differently. The "misfit" I say it in quotation because labels mean nothing to me. Then again ask an Aquarian midheaven what it means to be like everyone else and it does not compute.
A stab at an interpretation of the dream above: Who knows maybe one of the corners represents Jesus (the cornerstone of the church) or maybe there is some kind of Masonic symbolism going on because of the cornerstones and the monument? Maybe a-lot of people who go to church need judgement for their hypocrisy.
I was sitting outside at some convention by a monument. I don't remember what monument. Out of nowhere a huge tsunami wave hit the left sided corner just missing me and giving me time to run. I got out just in time when another wave hit the right corner on the other side where I was sitting nearby. Not the first time I had a dream about a lot of water
Lightworkers are usually targets of jealousy and low vibrations unless they have managed to find their tribe. That is when the magic happens and love and light continue to grow in the group that they have finally found. I know all about the bogus compliments or snide remarks but just know that they have an inferiority complex and what else would a black hole do but take? That is the manefestation of jealousy: to take and to steal because they have nothing inside and forever want whatever is in the external to try and fill what is missing inside of them. They may say they have a nicer home, or better job, or compare themselves but what is supposedly satisfying them really isn't. They also envy whoever is actually satisfied with themselves and then twist it around and tell that person "You don't care!" You should care about yourself!" When in reality you actually do care about yourself they just can't stand the inner light and how it exposed their darkness within. It looks like many of us are mirrors for others and whatever they accuse us of is what they are guilty of.
Ever had weird dreams? It can sometimes be interesting to write them down. Joseph and his coat of many colors comes to mind from when my parents took me to sunday school as a kid. The dreams he had even made his own brothers hate him (aren't people lovely haha
Makes me think of the verse "Many are called but few are chosen" Maybe this is true, maybe it isn't, but it makes you wonder, b/c time and time the chosen I heard about as a kid always had it the hardest and wound up being leaders -the last thing they wanted surprise surprise.
I was reading about it in a book my sister showed me called Lucifers Flood-and Ab the chosen one with his wife sarah.
Who knows if this is true?
I had a dream where I was in a limo with an interesting person-not the brightest girl out there, but she wanted to meet with me. While I was riding in her limo, there were demons calling out to me on one side of the road. They were trying to tell me they thought I was wonderful, and they said they didn't like the girl that they had-she wasn't smart enough for what they wanted to use her for. Then we kept driving on a narrow road with forests on either side of us. On the other side were angels and heavenly principalities. They were telling me all the reasons they wanted me and what they could use me for. Its a real shame haha... I really don't know what either side was trying to tell me-nor do I remember. Well, thats that. If I remember more I might wright more...
If anyone else have been aware of synchronicities and patterns in their lives they can feel free to comment. For example, you leave home for a while and meet people similar to your parents or from your past because you never learned a lesson that you were supposed to learn. Maybe past lives do exist? I swear I have come a long way in getting away from places and people I do not belong with or should be around. One pattern from my past that never made sense: so much drama from other girls in school, church, work towards me and my sister. Maybe being a twin causes extra jealousy? honestly who the hell cares because I am not a petty person I just like getting to the dirt for final clarity.
One conclusion I have finally come to is that these people were genuinely gullible and not very perceptive. They believed lies and carried out the wishes on those who wanted revenge because I supposedly did something. Even in middle school: Someone would come up to me and say: "Don't F***K with me" as if I was trying to pull one over on her just because she was in a clique and she didn't want to believe that her friends were lying to her about me. I do understand that the jealousy in girls can be disgustingly viscious and they will lie about someone's jealousy to get what they want. I was never a liar and it really pissed me off that people thought I was just like them. NO that is what they wanted. They wanted me to be passive but were so manipulative that they would try and make fun of who I am so that I would become who they were trying to make fun of. I admit, I am a cat, but not one that belongs in handcuffs from incredible lies and visciousness, and I have fought back many times. They can dish it out but can't take it.
Another synchronicitiy: Movies and be great reflections of issues that might be going on in their lives: I was watching "Now you see me 2" the other day. In it, a person that was wronged from the 1st Now You See Me was wronged 18 months ago, and got in contact with the other person 18 months later. I know that something like this will pop up in my life this month. The reason Morgan Freeman was so wronged was not because the other guy just wanted to get back at him for the petty reason he said. He genuinely thought something much more serious about him and did not tell him the real reason. Why did he not tell him the real reason? Because he thought so bad of him he didn't need to tell him. He believed he had on over him and he was a liar anyway. Situations like that are so disgusting. If he had bothered to confront morgan freeman, he would have found out that he didn't kill his father when he was little. If people would just confront people are the real reasons they are being so nasty a lot would be resolved. Maybe I am just to smart for a lot of people b/c there was always too much BULLSHIT going around. I already know the kind of jobs I belong with anyway, and my dreams act like such great guides for my true purpose.
What others don't experience themselves, they judge. like it's all about them. like things should only happen or function the way they see them. After the morning, I am perfectly fine-unless of course I have to get up too early-then it will affect the rest of my day. I know there are others that feel this way too. Public schools are even starting to make school start later in the day because getting up too early is being proven scientifically that it affects the mind and energy levels. For me: I knew this years ago because I FELT it immediately-but most don't feel what is bad for them until it is too late
Oh lordy that sounds like me. Do you guys have interesting dreams too? I bet you do just like me. I've been told that I am on a higher astral plane when I sleep (I fall asleep later) that's prob. another reason why it's bad for me to get up so early. Since my dream world is diff than others (I write almost all my dreams down in a journal) I think half the time itmight be lucid dreaming too.when I wake up, it is so much harder to wakethan howmost of the population does. I think there is a correlation btwn this disorder and ADHD or a form of it. There are diff. levels and it does go more undetected in women than men.Femalesymptomsusually include depression-so people don't think that goes with ADHD.The book "The ADHA Advantage" has interesting eye opening information. I see in that article that we should take Melatonin. I have and it has helped.
I am loving these replies and I see we are similar but with diff. symptoms and diff levels of how we sleep/how it affects us. I researched before that exercise/yoga/calisthenics help stabilize the brain somehow and cause the neurons in the brain to somehow bring balance to the brain. After an intense exercise program I was in once, I was never the same-I even understood math more and eventually could focus better. This is very important for all levels of ADHD-ers. Once the focus is better, we can become more ofa master of one occupation or whatever we want to do. I have felt severely attacked when my shield is not up during sleep-entities did not have my best interests at heart. I once woke up mid-dream and saw gargoyles on the side of a wall by my closet. This was after dreaming about some extended family members-2nd cousins of mine. I feel I am meant to know them, but not their evil parents or grandparents (complicated situation) have tried to keep them out of my life. I am a Millenial and I feel a responsibility to the generation after me-like I am suppose to have a good influence over them in the near future. One last note for the ADHD-ers-the higher levels could have a form of bi-polar because they are very smart and they are always going from complicated thought to complicated thought-and figure out math in their heads etc. My mom was always brilliant and I would watch how she would come up with her own math word problems-it can be fascinating to watch. Maybe I always had the potential to be really good in math like her, but it wasn't an interest of mine until recently. I am still and art/music junkie
I realized what you guys meant by AS. I have heard of Asbergers, and never exactly understood the people that had it, but everyone is an individual and we should embrace uniqueness. Maybe that is the Aquarian in certain parts of my chart talking,but different was always beautiful to me. Look what someone like Katy Perry did (prob. has Aquarian in parts of her chart that are a big influence) She makes blue/purple/green hair beautiful! I think labeling someone with Asbergers is rude (psychologists did this yes) but maybe some of them need to be labled (a severe diagnosis maybe?) I don't know. I met a new friend once at a group setting, and found out she had AS. What she might have lacked in what others think should be cool, she made up for in compassion for others and great wisdom for why things were happening in other lives (she always had a much more spiritual understanding/ reasoning of problems. Then again, so do Pentacostals (the spirit of this and the spirit of that!) That there is always a spiritual reason why there is a problem in others lives. My point is why label? We are all individuals with a certain perspective
Ever feel weak in the morning? Like the life has been sucked right out of you? I know this doesn't happen to most people b/c most are frigging morning people and all seems right with the friggin world. Since this doen't happen to most people, they assume you must be lazy or, "There is something wrong" "Get your mind right!" (But being around you is affecting my mind") Heres to being gifted and misunderstood (But I am not anymore) I consider this my PAST and am moving into a future where I am more understood to use my gifts for those who understand these gifts.
My new friends are 8 ducks and 1 chicken-but the owner of them is NOT a friend. If I knew the owner was some drunk hick I would have stolen these birds away from him. They always walk around in my neighbor hood (yes the chicken too) the ducks adopted her. Since two days ago, 4 are missing, and I know this because I will visit them where their home is. One of them had a gun shot wound too-I am so Pissed!!!! I think the owner did it. I called wildlife on him (why does he own ducks and a chicken in the city anyway?) thought he'd bring hick town with him? He told me that some people called him telling him they are going to take his animals away from him (GOOD) because someone called. Now I think he wants to cover his tracks..he gave me a weird look and said "come here often?" BASTARD I hope he doesn't hurt the rest. I have the pics to prove that there were 9 animals in all. Now the one with the gunshot wound is missing. He actually said dangerous turtles must have killed 4 of his birds when I asked. If he plans on hurting me, it will be the other way around-but no, I will not be coming there often anymore. But I will spy!
My mom grew up with black labs. Everytime hers died she got another one that was born on the ides of March. She didn't even do this on purpose-the puppies were always born on that day. The one she got me was born on that day too. Her name was Princess-and boy did she think she was one.
Mine died of cancer too-but she fought it hard. The cancer won ;-(. But, I told her to come back and haunt me
I am not sure why I had this dream but everything is weird ever since all the planet aligned in 2012. I recently dreampt that we (friends and family) were all outside looking up at the sky- it was night. Then we saw a round object with a ring around it approaching earth-first slowly than faster. we thought it was a flying saucer, but no-terror took over and it was the planet Jupiter about to crash into earth. Ironically, I had recently bought the movie Jupiter ascending -had some idea what it was about but hadn't watched it yet-the same night I have this weird dream
There is a book out called the ADHD Advantage. Many people go un-diagnosed (women more than men b/c the symptoms are similar but different.) Another reason is ADHD is more of an abstract time thinking (this book explains that more) and that type of thinking is usually how men think. If you are one of the unique women that do think this way (and I am sure many on here do because abstract is also creative, and it goes along with visual type thinking and extra -sensory perception) know that there is a label you can go by if you choose, but be wary of medication (it stunts creative thought, and dulls your senses) Just do what you love in life, be around people who are like you, and you can't go wrong. One point I wanted to make on here anyway, is that ADHD and anxiety tend to go hand in hand-not that people on here necessarily have it. But if you do -who CARE?!! embrace what makes you unique and different. Be a creative genius.
Here is a song that reminds me of the water signs. It especially makes me think of 12th house Pisces and 8th house scorpio issues:
"You call me out upon the waters-the great unknown. There I find you in the mystery of oceans deep when oceans rise my soul will rest"....cuz the 12th is like the un-ending sea of depth, and mystery for a soul to drink. 8th house-being rocked by a relationship that causes inner transformation definately fits in with "being called upon the waters by someone and into the great unknown.
Yes, I don't know what is going on with me. Lately my eyes show up blue when pictures are taken. It's weird b/c my eyes are hazel/green. Hazel green b/c they are either one or the other depending on what mood I am in, but show up blue in pictures...strange. I was born with blue eyes...if that even counts
Ever been in that situation where there are just too many accusations/lies going around
and not enough evidence to back it up? It makes liars look ridiculous/ petty/ jealous-and like they need to grow up. Are you sure you believe that when deceptions are going on and hacking, phone spoofing is going on? Are you sure? Really sure? Perception is great during times like this. It is awareness of what some think is right/truth, and using perception, and realizing truth of what they thought the reality of a situation was. Here ispart of agreat quote by someone very talented at the 2016 Grammys:
"I want to say to all the young women out there: there will be people along the way who will try to undercut your success, or take credit for your accomplishments, but just focus on work and someday when you get where you are going, you will look around, and know it was you and the people who love you who put you there. That will be the greatest feeling in the whole world."
A-lot of capricorn's right now attract foreigners or whatever is foreign to them. This is a 12th house placement-I think it's the saturn placement in the 12th right now. The chart does get specific with each person. I am a capricorn and read in my emails from astrology about a twin flame who is supposedly in my life- or will be. We shall see.
I am a capricorn with gemini rising. Alot of gemini's wind up knowing twins, or being a twin. I happen to be a twin. Weird how that works out. There is a jupiter transit coming this summer-so lots of good things should be happening for a lot of signs! Then I have a moon in scorpio...which prob makes me a little scary...the darker side that I don't show others...not until I went to bootcamp anyway. Stress like will bring the scary out in you. Then you realize the power inside after you face your fears
I am a Capricorn with moon in Scorpio and rising sign Gemini. Most Taurus's I know seem to come from money, but love the outdoor(earth sign). Some like money a little too much and snub their noses at others they think are not good enough...but everyone is an individual. Venus has an effect on this sign and I think causes the love of money a little too much-plus many are so spoiled. Then again, everyone is different. I wouldn't want to lump together all Tauruses. Pisces is a very intuitive sign and is ruled by the 12th house-a very interesting house. With Capricorn, it is ruled by saturn and saturn is ruled by karma. Isn't it great Capricorn's seem to be the only ones ruled by the planet of karma?!! They are also the most resillent and very intelligent-and usually get what they want in life because they are fighters. We are also borne under the star Vega which imparts many artistic abilities
To the Taurus family members who worship money: you are weak and spoiled. Reminds me of my cousin Laura who thinks her $h1t doesn't stink. Then she believed lies about my mom by her snake of a mother-there is always a pattern until it is solved. I am pretty sure those people with the noses in the world don't use gold for toilet paper but they sure act like it. Remember to take a shower too-because you do stink too-even more so than others-because you hide your real selves behind your money.
Like a-lot of other Capricorns out there I am sure you have been going through a-lot of life changes. I think it might be easier for those over 30 because that is when they have already been through their first Saturn return in their own sign. I am still waiting for mine. Another Capricorn I know is always saying the same thing-that she feels major changes coming. I think those who feel these changes the most are the ones who are also going through major changes inside and outside.
Hi Lotusfly and Rene,
Mine is 1/06/88
One reason capricorns' are going through so much is because pluto is in capricorn, and its been in there since 2008. what has happened to you since then? Pluto rules Scorpio, a very intense water sign that forced us very down to earth earth signs to go deep, and experience death and rebirth in some way. I am not saying literal death, but a death to something about ourselves. The first saturn transit happens about every 27-30 yrs. What stands out is what house this saturn is in during that transit (which lasts about 2 1/2 years). Mine is in the 12th house, the other dark water house (ruled by pisces) other than the 8th house (ruled by scorpio). One great person to contact about this is Allysa Sharpe. She does great explanations on utube.
I also have a scorpio moon. One way of knowing when your first saturn transit is looking back to when you were in your late 20's and then 30's. I read that we all can go through a difficult time in the time of life-and then lighter times when it moves out of the last house, the 12th, and into the 1st. For some, the return is age 30. for others, 31 or 32. It does depend on the person. For me, I have to wait to officially get out of the dark 12th house until about 2 years from now. Then it will be in the sign of capricorn in the 1st house. A professional astrologer could prob. give you a better specific answer for you. I am still new to this, but have learned alot in a short time. Sorry to hear you were hit by a car! I understand the death and rebirth scene because I've gone through so much too! Almost near deaths, besides metaphorically speaking. For me, starting early in January this year, the saturn in 12th couldn't be any truer, because its also the house of feeling like I'm in jail, and isolated-facing darkest fears, and dealing with family karma. I wasn't in jail, but it might as well have been...it was basic training. drill sgts trying to tear me down to build me up again...that whole phoenix rising theme...I really did change too! Tons of intense experiences there...plus I hated the girls in my platoon who were always lying about me-or had weird delusions about the kind of person I am...strangely obsessed with me watching my every move...I said the hell with you girls, I'm hanging with all the guys in my platoon...they actually have a brain. Venus in my 8th house makes it difficult for me to get along with younger girls
My Rising Sign is Gemini actually-which I think has caused problems in work Geminis appear flighty, all over the place like they don't know what they are doing(but just have too many projects going on) there is a real paradox or, contradiction to how I appear, and how deep sophisticated I am inside. that whole contradiction actually makes people think I am a liar-because how can I have two diff sides and opinions at diff times? It never occured to them I can be versatile? Its in my first house, and this is the first thing people notice when they see me-someone that is too immature or too young (like ten years younger than I am). You find out alot in life that there usually is more than meets the eye in people and judging is a waste of time-too many perceptions of others interfering with what is really true. I know a sun leo and well, yes its all about being seen and listened to. Its all about her...so she thinks. That is a typical fire sign haha-(my mom). I saw her get physical with someone the other day with another fire sign...too much alike maybe . Anyway, I understand the whole thing with not getting along with girls I prefer abstract thought anyway, and the sportsmanship that comes with knowing guys. Girls aren't good for that kind of military environment-not unless they grow the hell up and act like women...ironic that I was told to grow up...
I tried to respond to the last message but well, it didn't go. I think you should be in the 3rd and 4th houses right now because you already passed your first saturn transit in your early 30's (this should be about right from what I looked up) then it moves from the 12th to the 1st, and then that takes a few years..then on to the next house-another few years-yes it looks about right-you're in your 4th house transit. You are probably busy from the creativity in the 3rd house and children from the 4th house?