This is kind of timely and ironic
For a day or 2 then weeks and now months I have been thinking about contacting you. I wanted to tell you if you were still doing something it was working.
As long as I didnt look at anything longer than a second and tried to keep my mind clear it was (exhausting but liveable).
Still havent figured out shields or how to make one. When I think of a shield it has a man dressed out in a metal suit and helmet with a feather
So the minute i started forming a message to you in my head they would go berserk. Cover every inch of the furniture and walls I couldnt tell where I was. It was like a House of Mirrors.
Then they wound calm down until I thought about it again.
The man's face I thought was all but faded. I could immediately shut him down.
Then I sent a message to someone (not even about that) and it would act up.
I though I would be brave and started turning off the TV at night. Determined to keep my eyes closed and sleep if I did open my eyes I could barely see or breath the web activity in the room was so dense. It extended into other room but not nearly as bad and I can shoo that away.
One night I felt a presence I thought it was my husband next to the bed bending down to kiss me. I opened my eyes to respond but it was that face. Yikes! A real close call.
Still determined to turn TV off. Again, sensing a presence I opened my eyes to find human type shapes floating all around. Any time I open my eyes for a nano second I am rushed by clusters.
The other night - sensing; I look and there is a smiling older short chubby woman. She is wearing a full white ruffled apron with a chef's hat tied in a bow under her chin. She is more than just a shape but still not clear. I look at her trying to decide what to think. All of a sudden she's snarling and a blue flat thick stick shoots out the end of her arm. I pull back quickly. She becomes surrounded by familar faces the man's face prominent and scowling. Covers over my head!
I realize the background I have been seeing for quite a while is not burgundy any longer. When I close my eyes it is almost always red with some kind of black pattern. The color can chance trying to make me more receptive. I try to hang on to blue because the water in the pool is blue and the sky is blue often without a cloud anywhere. That color does not seem to be in his control.
Last night I looked over at my husband and a stream of what could have looked like big black ants were crawling across his face and around his ear. Of course I knew they weren't there but I couldn't help reaching out to make sure.
I felt, I sensed, I saw "Devil" (I don't know what that really is) but this is not "Evil" But NOT good if that makes sense
Still not afraid but more complex
I guess I must be strong to be able to keep the playing field fairly level. I think its killing my health, energy and state of mind.
Still trying to figure out what's the obsession with me?
I am not motivated by material things. There is nothing I would trade for
My hands are still tied with being able to try, buy or do anything. My husband is really freaked out. He really thinks its mental / physical. Now everytime his sees me type he wants to know to who.