I feel ridiculous even posting this, but I have been extremely lonely lately, and desperately want to meet my soul-mate/future husband, and need advice/new perspective. I am a 23 year old woman, and have never been in a serious relationship before. I dated one guy, once, when I was 20, but he ended up not being my type. I knew after 2 weeks that it would not go anywhere, and I told him. He was really clingy, and it took me about 8 months to get him to stop bugging me constantly, and thinking I was sending him signals that I was interested in him (because he would bug me endlessly to hang out, and every couple of weeks I would agree because I felt bad). I eventually cut him off cold turkey because I got fed up, and he finally stopped trying to get a hold of me after a few weeks. I have not been on a date with anyone since.
I was raised in a very conservative Christian household, so dating was highly looked down upon, and I never learned how to flirt, or even interact with people of the opposite sex. I can also come across as shy, and I am introverted, so it is hard to find someone I "click" with, and it is even harder to "get out there."
I feel like my soul-mate is out there somewhere, and I keep feeling it is soon, but I'm afraid it is an illusion. I want love, I want companionship (my family disowned me, which probably doesn't help in the desperation field... mostly because my mom is a narc and I stopped playing her games), but I am afraid I am going to end up being single and alone my whole life.
I guess what I am looking for is some sort of confirmation that it is going to happen, or some sort of advice on what I need to do to find him. Anything you guys feel would honestly be great.
I've been told that I could flirt more, which I could, but I want to wait for Mr Right, and I want it to be special when I find it. I would hate to end up with the wrong person, and miss the right one because I'm with someone else.
Thank you so much!
Here is an image (taken a couple weeks ago) just in case someone needs it.
updated by @hoofbeats: 06/14/20 09:41:44AM