It's been a while since I have been on here. I've been growing a lot as an empath. So I wanted to share/ hear the thoughts of others on this.
So I have come to understand how grounding works for me. I was so confused at first because I just assumed that grounding was supposed to solve all my problems. Lol. But I think what I really thought was that grounding would stop me from picking up energies. It in fact just gets rid of the old while at the same time opening me up to more energies.
This was a tough pill to swallow. At first for a while I was like what is the f@#$ing point.
Now I understand. No matter what I am now and always will be an empath. It just literally how I am built as a person. There is no cure, no relief there is only learning to accept it and how to live a full life knowing what I know.
So recently I had a terrible experience with someone I thought could be a good friend. She blamed me, or my energy for being the reason we could not get to where we where going. This hurt like hell, but I had also begun to understand that there are projective and receptive qualities to being an empath. Some of us can only do one or the other, but there are those who can do both.
I can do both.
So that day that she was blaming for went like this. Before I got to her I was stuck on a train filled with irritation. There was a problem with the train and a lot of people were upset about. Then while I was in the car with her the area that we were in was filled with people with a variety of different emotions. There was some type of sporting event going on. Now I could feel all of this. Because by that point I had gotten pretty good at understanding the energy flowing through me. And I had kinda started to suspect that it was being projected outward but wasn't sure yet.
So this person is a part of a religion (I wont say which one because she is not an example of how this group is). I was interested in learning more about it. She got upset because I didn't want to join. I could feel her anger. This the point when she blamed my energy.
Now I laugh but then I was hurt. Because she claimed she understood what I am but then told me I must have some evil spirit on me.
I do not. What was happening was that I had not grounded out old energy that I had picked. The energy we pick up from others does have an effect our lives. Doesn't mean there is a spirit cursing us.
In fact I have come to believe that everything is energy. And it can be painful to have so many energies pass through us if we keep ourselves open and allow the energy to pass through almost can harm us.
I'm going to stop here just because some of this is hard to put into words. Curious to know what others think about these things.
Particularly about the concept of being receptive/projective.