My dear empaths in desperate need of honest feedback. I know you will be honest with me, just a bit anxious right now. Here goes...
I am truly unhappy at work. I am a teacher. And no it’s not the children! I TRULY LOVE THEM AND WOULD NEVER LEAVE BECAUSE they are the REAL TEACHERS! I LEARN SO MUCH FROM THEM! The problem is the admin. Ever since our last principal retired (whom we all ADORED)and the new one and her assistants joined forces, I literally feel like I am in HELL EVERY DAY, no matter how cold it is outside, I have to go and just stand in the air to get the negative energy off of me. It is a very heavy and toxic environment. So many hurt and defeated souls. Every where you turn teachers are either crying or complaining. I’m pretty good with not allowing that energy to consume me BUT over the years, By nature I am positive and can EASILY find the positive in the most dire situation but it’s becoming more of a challenge than a way of life! I HAVE TRIED EVERY WAY TO BE A PART OF THE SOLUTION BUT THE FACT OF THE MATTER IS, ONLY GOD HIMSELF CAN FIX THAT PLACE!
The problem is, every time I say “I’m done or I’m leaving, I get the same sign. I see a student I haven’t seen in years THE VERY NEXT DAY AT THE EXACT SAME CORNER!
Last Friday, I said to my mom, “this is it! I gotta get out of that place!” Without skipping a beat she responds, “I guess you will be seeing one of your students tomorrow.” This is how often this phenomenon happens! She even knows about it. Needlless to say, who do I see, a student I have been asking about for years. He made a quote during a reading lesson that I hold near and dear to my heart-“Lookbeyond what you can see.” It gets better. The day before, the valedictorian ‘s speech pops up on my computer. I don’t know how but I remembered her and remembered how shy she was to make such an amazing speech. Low and behold, guess who I see along with the other student? THE VALEDICTORIAN!There’s more!Two other students from the class the boy was in spotted us all talking and decided to ask their parents to wait so they could say hi😩😩😩😩
Ugh! Seeing those students ALWAYS fills my spirit! But why? Why? Do they always come when I’m ready to throw in the towel? Tearing up at the answer as I ask....BECAUSE I AM SUPPOSE TO BE THERE! BUT I DON’T want to as long as the four beauties are there! The admin is horrendous to the teachers. They lit my fire last year so they are being “nice” to me for now.
Is my assessment of this phenomenon accurate or any other ways to interpret?
Please help an empath in need