Hi! I am new here. I think I am an empath, so I am trying to find some coping tools. I recently had an experience on Christmas Eve morning, when I suddenly became very sad and depressed with feelings of death and the hopelessness of death. I couldn't figure out why, normally I am happy at that time, specially since I was finishing up wrapping gifts and looking forward to zoom chats with family in the early afternoon. I shook it off after a couple of hours. Later that day I noticed people coming over to our next door neighbors house for a visit. Shortly after that the police and squads showed up, our entire cul de sac was full of emergency vehicles. Later, I found out my neighbor had died in his sleep overnight he lived alone (divorced with 2 daughters). My husband and I were both spooked about it, since I had told him I was sad and didn't know why and I had asked him some questions around dying and death.
The house next door is vacant now, until his daughters can get back in May. I don't feel anything much from the house now, other than sadness and a bit of unsettledness. My husband wondered if he was still alive and dying when I felt those feelings. I try not to dwell on that. I hope not and keep telling myself he had passed. This incident is still haunting me. Our Neighbor was perfectly healthy I had just waved to him the day before. There was not an autopsy, his brother said he had covid two weeks before but was asymptomatic and had been cleared to go back to work. I think it probably had something to do with COVID, but it is unknown. No foul play. So now we help out with keeping on eye on the house until they can sell it.
I fit a lot of the traits of an empath, I have tried to ignore it in the past I think. I am also a logical engineer as is my husband so trying to figure out the path for me as a result. Any advice is appreciated. maybe I have been hiding from it for too long. I was always "too sensitive" as a kid, people telling me their life story after just meeting them, being able to read a room of people, intuitiveness, being drained after dealing with lots of people (which I found fun but still draining). Any suggestions is appreciated.