As a child, did anyone ever crave the attention to be loved, appreciated and acknowledged?
Somehow we didn't recognise then (for those who can relate to it or can see objectively through profession or otherwise).
Somehow a conversation with my father led me to wake up to the realisation that I see his regrets, his sorrow, his helplessness and my dire need to please him, to succeed to prove something to him so he can show off 1 of the pride and Joy's of his progeny.
He could rant at me all day and I wouldn't ever be angry. Somehow I would channel it develop my own individual aspirations. Today relationships was on the card. And the anger was directed at standing up for womens rights where they are oppressed and scrutinised for multiple reasons.
So I've learnt to stop internalizing others wishes and wants but at a cost of emotional stigmatized manipulation..
Through the sound in his voice I'm analysing other things. Somewhere my soul wanders off to when I guess I can say I'm only challenged by others when I want to stand up for myself and my beliefs, aspirations. But it's ok praise and glorify me when its others pleasure that's being fulfilled.
Help me piece this aspect of my life together 🌷
updated by @layla: 03/03/21 12:49:52PM