I know its been a long time since I have been on. I have left the man that I was with, I'm not in Arizona any more. I left everything behind expect my dogs. I have been doing better but I still have feelings of fear, that he will pop up out of no where and find me. I know I shouldn't live in fear, or let fear rule my but sometimes it happened. I like to think I'm brave and can stand up to him. but I don't know if I am. When I was starting to plan how i was going kill him I knew I need to get out of the situation. My babies are safe and they happy.