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My world is falling apart!

2016-09-01
By: wiseriverowl
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I'm not normally one to freak out and start stressing but today I have had so much bad new that I don't know if I can handle all of it. So my morning started out good I woke up with both my boys cuddled next to me. (My dogs) Dozer in his favorite spot to his head on my back between both paws. Tiger curled in the open space between my arm and one elevated leg. its always a good start. after I got up and got moving I feed the boys got showered and ready for the day. I get to work and learned that one of my co-workers was being fired. A fun person to be around very upbeat and awesome to work with. So to kind of back up a little bit. all the change started when I got my new position. the lady who had it before quite with no notice, the next day they fired our service guy who was great at his job, a week later they fired good friend, then today another good friend. I was justtalking to my co-worker who is our marketing person and she is putting in her two weeks notice. I feel like every thing is out ofbalance...the one person who has neverever let me down andhas been there for me always. passed awaythe 25th of July of this year. Inormally so good about keeping my composer but I really feel likesome tippedmy dominos and there still falling. I have tried to meditate to clam my self but even that isn't working... I just want to sit down and cry.

WiseRiverOwl

Rene''
09/01/16 07:46:46PM @rene:
I'm with Dreamer, just let it go. Your meditation does not have to be formal , just put on some music and relax, and let it all go. I know the feeling about the co-workers. They are the ones that makes your job doable. Something to look forward to. Most of them sees you more than your family does. I could set here and tell you someone will take their positions and they will mean as much to you as the others but they won't. Each person you met imprints your soul and no one can take their place. Just cherish the fun times and the long talks. They will forever be with you. I have always resisted change but "charge" don't care if I resist or not. Sending love.
wiseriverowl
09/02/16 02:34:21PM @wiseriverowl:

thank to all, yes its been really hard. It doesn't help that I live with a narcissist either. I keep telling myself that I need tonew start. I know from personal experience that the problems don't get left behind they fallow. I know I need to face what ever comes my ways, but I'm done fighting to make alife better that I don't want. I keep hoping that things will fall apartcompletely... and they doboy they do.But its like a rebootfor him, he's all nice and chipper. for about a week then everythingfalls apart again, and again. I've gotten to the pointwhere I only go homesobe with my boys...I should have never taken him back.sad part about it is that he wasn't they way before. it wasafter we broke up and he took his ex back that he became a total jerk.


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