Hello there my name is Wilbur or you can call me Will. It hasn't been long since I realized that I am a empaths. When I was a child growing up I was Diagnosed with ADHD back then it wasn't treated the greatest and all doctor's could do for me is give me drugs to help my focus. When I was teenager I was picked on a lot because I was different from everyone else and not just because of my ADHD. what I was going through I was unaware of what I had but deep in my mind I knew it wasn't just my ADHD all I new is it was maybe some sort of Anxiety around other people hearing and seeing things that are not there. there was moments I felt like I was going crazy because of other peoples judgement on me. and I took it to heart when others judged me. I felt like the reject of my school. I had some friends but not many. but as the reject of the school I found my self being preety popular around others. People knew who I was and some may say hi to me and the others would bully me trying to make me mad. My rage would get out of control most of the time when people make me mad but always found myself walking away because I felt some pitty on them.
After high school I found myself struggling with relationships Ive had with past and present girlfriends. I got married when I was 26 and was married for 4 years but I new the marriage was dieing off within the last year od marriage. My marriage ended in a ugly way. after my marriage I had a girlfriend for about 2 years. she seemed to change her personality and that ended in a ugly way with my Rage ending things completely. during the last 2 months of me and my girlfriends relationship was such misery that I felt like I was walking through hell with no breaks the voices and seeing things started at a high level that I never experienced through my life seeing things in my dreams that become a reality later on. at first the misery I thought was mine wasn't mine at all it was the energy of my girlfriend. the more mental pain I go through I feel the empathy gets stronger and hard to bare at times.
My health hasn't been the greatest I was 135 pounds 5'7 and now I am 114 do to stress. I find my self trying to help others before myself mostly my kids I have. I have 2 daughters 1 that is 6 and 1 that is 8. and I worry about them most of the time even though they are safe. I have taken a empathy test and I was shocked on what the questions were and what a empaths really goes through. but was blessed knowing there are tools to help me control it. when I thought I was cursed with the right tools its really can be a gift.