Loss of identity
Lately I've been tripping out over whether or not my personality is my own or someone else's. The personality I've had for years is not my own. I realize that now. It's a little bit of everybody I have come to know in the past couple years.
I don't recall how my own personality used to be. Then there's the realization that I am like certain people and have always been. But is this me being them because we are close or is this me coincidentally being just like them? Do I make any sense?
When i think of it, it's somewhat unsettling to know how I am, and how I act is nothing related to me as a person, rather it's related to whose personalities I have absorbed over the years. Do I like how I am now? Yeah. Do I wanna get rid of my personality? Not really. But do I want to know who I am without another's influence? Hell yeah.
Where am I? Where did I go?
As much as 'oh snap' has become part of my speech, I was never an oh snapper.