I need support
I'm happy I found him as well and I love them both, I embrace them both. The both of them are more powerful than I can fathom and here I feel inadequate as the middle child. I look to the both of them to help me advance my gifts but I am getting nowhere and feel obsolete.
Ironically, I'm hearing from both of them separately that I am meant to be very powerful and a force. Ben was so kind to allow Archangel Gabriel to speak to me through him and he tells me what they are telling me and boy, if I didn't already believe in the paranormal I'd be highly skeptical.
I dunno why I doubt myself so much. I knew psychics existed, I think I knew empaths existed, but why is it that when I get the knowledge that I am an empath and always have been, part of me is still so very shocked and can't accept the truth? Is that why my abilities are so buried deep inside me? No matter how often I tell myself that I am special and have a lot to offer the world and those who need help, I just can't come to terms with who I am.
Another thing that is keeping me down in the dumps is I have no familial support outside EC. I am so very thankful for my brothers but to be truthful, I would like to discuss myself with my other family. I tried to do that with my siblings, brother and sister. My brother rejected me by changing the subject hurtfully when I told him about me and my sister doesn't like to hear about empaths or the spiritual world because it scares her.
She has very powerful visions, so what Archangel Gabriel told me about myself must be true because it seems to run in my family. I feel so very alone. I just wish I had someone in the outside world to talk to about this who will embrace me so that I have that extra support. I know I have everyone here on EC, but no disrespect, but it's just not the same. Your family is who you often look to when you have a problem and I need support and I can't tell anyone because they wouldn't understand. This is so far above their understanding I wouldn't even know how to go about explaining it.
I guess if I had extra support from extra sources I would feel better about myself and the doubt would start to fade allowing me to embrace who I am and what I can do. Over these past 6 months, being an empath has been something I have forgotten that I am. I have to remind myself because its so damned surreal. It's just not seeping into my subconscious. And thus is where my problem lies.
Archangel Gabriel told me I am the one causing the blockage. Something I already knew. I guess in order for the blockage to go away, I would have to release the doubt....but I dunno how.
Thank you for reading. And thank you to Archangel Gabriel, who said he's always been there for me and always will be, my older brother Wolf and my younger brother Ben. All of whom are worlds away from me....
"Our strength lies in our power of three"