By Roxanne, 2011-01-29
I have been so busy lately. So very busy I almost didn't realize that just about everything that needed to be done has been done. It was such a wonderful realization. Like everything went calm inside of me. I decided I would use this calm moment -- this lovely serenity to meditate. And so I did.
I closed my eyes and quickly found myself walking on a beach in Mexico. It was beautiful and warm and the ocean lapped softly beside me. There were people in cafe's along the resort edge chatting, giggling, children screeching...and I strolled along.
I was alone. I knew my husband was there, but I was alone. My family, my children....but I was alone.
I was alone in my peaceful connection to Source. And it was Source who wanted me to know that despite illusions suggesting otherwise, I have always been alone on my journey. It was cool in that Source was pointing out that the behavior, thoughts and actions of others in no way effect me as my connection to Source is whole unto itself.
In this moment of total connection I never felt so alive and free. No burdens no guilt...just freedom. I ran into the water of the Mayan Riviera. And though I had started my journey in Cancun I found myself at the foot of the ruins in Tulum. Here I was told that I was an *observer*.
Observe. The word rose from a deep place within my connection. Do not participate. Just observe. In my trance state I fully understood this. In my wakened state and in my daily living, I know that I must also participate. But emotionally I need only observe.
My meditation took me to my happy place. I sat on the beach covering myself in the rich mud from clay beds dotting the shoreline.
I dove into the water like a spiritual baptism that anointed me in this blessed connection to Life/Creation/God/source.
Again I heard "observer" You are an observer feeding back to Godhead.
And again, I understood.
I have always been an observer.
The meditation was pure delight. I was there. Alone. But never truly alone. The actions of others hold no power over me. I am connected to a greater source than the pettiness of human ego.
This kind of rocks. I felt myself skipping and dancing my barefeet in the sands of a sacred locale. And I knew without doubt that no one can hurt me. That I am here. And I am free. And I will continue to observe.
Other things occurred to me during this meditation. But they are of a private nature that have nothing to do with this blog.
Bless you all.
May you find peace @ your own private beach.
By Roxanne, 2011-01-09
A dear friend of mine went on a date. It went rather well, so the guy said "Hey, how 'bouts we do a double date with my friend. He's a great guy."
My friend called to let me know she instantly blew off the idea with an excuse about needing to help a friend, when in truth she felt intimidated by the *intelligence* of her new guys friend. "He's a chemical engineer or something....I didn't want to look stupid in front of him."
My friend is one of the most delightful conversationalists and smart as a whip in many areas of life. "That's how you learn." I told her. "Listening to people who can tell you things you've never been exposed to before. -- Besides,"I said
"there are different kinds of intelligence. You might have had the opportunity to expose him to streams of thought he has never been exposed to."
Which brings me to this, and I hope it helps others who think academia is the only kind of *smarts* or intelligence out there.
I've sat with brilliant men and women. From all different walks of life. The most vibrant resonated with compassion and genuine caring for people. (It is my understanding Jim Morrison from the Doors was like that, when he wasn't disgustingly drunk and out of his mind. He was a genius, but he always worded things carefully so that the person he was with would feel comfortable and just as smart. This is a type of intelligence that in my eyes surpasses all else on the human scale. He was Intelligent in ways of Empathy.
I should also say that the mouths that wag to feed their own sense of superiority should never intimidate anyone or cause them to have a bad time. Just tell them gently and lovingly what my friend always told me " stop thinking so much...it's bad for you". Turn off the brain and turn on the Joy. It's there and it's accessible to all. You just need to develop the type of intelligence that will recognize it. Love. Compassion. Personal responsibility. Forgiveness. These are all the courses in the School for Mastering Joy.
So just for the heck of it, here's a little something I picked up from another site. That'll help you recognize 9 different types of Intelligence.
The Nine Types of Intelligence
By Howard Gardner
1.Naturalist Intelligence (Nature Smart)
Designates the human ability to discriminate among living things(plants, animals) as well as sensitivity to other features of the natural world(clouds, rock configurations). This abilitywas clearly of value in our evolutionary past as hunters, gatherers, andfarmers; it continues to be central in such roles as botanist or chef. It is also speculated that much of ourconsumer society exploits the naturalist intelligences, which can be mobilizedin the discrimination among cars, sneakers, kinds of makeup, and the like.
2.Musical Intelligence (Musical Smart)
Musicalintelligence is the capacity to discern pitch, rhythm, timbre, and tone. This intelligence enables us to recognize,create, reproduce, and reflect on music, as demonstrated by composers,conductors, musicians, vocalist, and sensitive listeners. Interestingly, there is often an affectiveconnection between music and the emotions; and mathematical and musicalintelligences may share common thinking processes. Young adults with this kind of intelligenceare usually singing or drumming to themselves.They are usually quite aware of sounds others may miss.
3.Logical-Mathematical Intelligence (Number/Reasoning Smart)
Logical-mathematical intelligence is the ability tocalculate, quantify, consider propositions and hypotheses, and carry outcomplete mathematical operations. Itenables us to perceive relationships and connections and to use abstract,symbolic thought; sequential reasoning skills; and inductive and deductivethinking patterns. Logical intelligenceis usually well developed in mathematicians, scientists, and detectives. Young adults with lots of logicalintelligence are interested in patterns, categories, and relationships. They are drawn to arithmetic problems,strategy games and experiments.
4. Existential Intelligence
Sensitivityand capacity to tackle deep questions about human existence, such as themeaning of life, why do we die, and how did we get here.
5.Interpersonal Intelligence (People Smart)
Interpersonalintelligence is the ability to understand and interact effectively withothers. It involves effective verbal andnonverbal communication, the ability to note distinctions among others,sensitivity to the moods and temperaments of others, and the ability toentertain multiple perspectives. Teachers, social workers, actors, and politicians all exhibitinterpersonal intelligence. Youngadults with this kind of intelligence are leaders among their peers, are goodat communicating, and seem to understand others feelings and motives.
6.Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence (Body Smart)
...and the rest can be found herehttp://skyview.vansd.org/lschmidt/Projects/The%20Nine%20Types%20of%20Intelligence.htm
By Roxanne, 2011-01-02
Here's a brief recap of the last weeks of 2010:
The moon turns red (full lunar eclipse) on the night of the Winter Solstice
Mood swings galore on EC
I've received several PMs about poltergeist experiences from friends.
And 5000 black birds fall dead out of the sky over Arkansas.
Happy New Year...can't wait to see what lies ahead.
By Roxanne, 2011-01-02
BE = you're just sitting around "Being" when someone you trust or care about serves you up on a
to feast upon.
It hurts obviously because it can only come @ the hands of someone you care about. Obviously, since an *enemy* can't *betray* you. Afterall, by definition alone, an enemy would just be doing what enemies do.
I've had such experiences whereas a trusted person took my art and reproduced it without informing me (and I would have told her it was ok, but she just didn't ask) instead she began selling it on her own unbeknownst to me. I later learned she was approached by a corporate buyer who offered to mass produce and sell it in the chain stores. -- Only she never told me because she had violated my trust and she knew I held the copyrights on that material.
She had confessed one night in a drunken stupor that she was always very jealous of my gifts, and so I know that she also would not want me to get this contract with the chain store because then all the credit would go to me.
I had to learn about this years after the fact which was kind of disappointing, because I would have forgiven her the early betrayal and hired her as the sales rep and executive manager for that whole endeavor. So when you think about it, in the law of "what goes around comes around"...she ended up betraying herself in the end.
I still love her but I'll never be able to trust her. That's just how it goes.
I've been so blessed in my short time here on earth (well not that short LOL). I see things from a distant perch where I've learned so much about life just from observing people and modus operendi. Now it takes about 5 seconds flat and I can pretty much sum up a sitution given just a few facts.
It can almost seem like a psychic gift, but it's really just the harvesting of life experiences.
From my point of observation I will say that I've learned a few VERY important lessons about the driving force of some individuals who often start out with good intentions. When we first "fall into" our spiritual lessons , when we first make that divine connection we are so overwhelmed by it's AWESOMENESSSSSSSSSSSSS we just want to shout it from the rooftops and share it all over the place. Then usually the idea to write a book about it follows.
That's cool. but in order to sell the book one must present some kind of expert credential...and now what started out as a seed of truth, begins to take shape as a *plan for production, management and profit".
Not always..but this has been a recurring theme I've seen among people I know who have made that leap into *selling their spirituality *.
Is there anything wrong with it. No. Not at all. But it does make me sad when I see how the business end of it all changes the energy. I've sat back and watched this so many times with people who have reached respectable pinnacles of success. Through the entire transition of their project. Worldly success is enhanced and personal happiness seems to diminish.
That's why a long time ago when people made offers to me to *become a product and sell my gifts* I decided I did not feel right with that. So I created "art to represent my heart" and I had no problem selling that art.
It never interferred with my spiritual base. It sprang from it but the base stayed strong.
Sadly, as I look back I see that this has caused another recurring theme in my life. People who covet and want to take possession of my efforts so that they can profit from it. They see a product and not that thing that is a precious part of me.
At the same time I see those beautiful friends who just melt into celebration of my successful endeavors and never stop encouraging me to believe in myself. And they bring it with no expectations or self interest. Just love. Pure and unfiltered.
I celebrate those beautiful people in this New Year.
Out with the old and in with the NEW!!!
By Roxanne, 2010-11-04
A FARMERS ADVICE
Your fences need to be horse-high, pig-tight and bull-strong.
Keep skunks and bankers at a distance.
Life is simpler when you plow around the stump.
A bumble bee is considerably faster than a Massey Ferguson
Words that soak into your ears are whispered....not
Meanness don't just happen overnight.
Forgive your enemies; it messes up their heads.
Do not corner something that you know is meaner than
It don't take a very big person to carry a grudge.
You cannot unsay a cruel word.
Every path has a few puddles.
When you wallow with pigs, expect to get dirty.
The best sermons are lived, not preached.
Most of the stuff people worry about,
ain't never gonna happen anyway.
Don 't judge folks by their relatives.
Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
Live a good and honorable life, then when you get older and think back, you'll
enjoy it a second time.
Don 't interfere with somethin' that ain't bothering you
Timing has a lot to do with the outcome of a rain dance.
If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop diggin'.
Sometimes you get, and sometimes you get got.
The biggest troublemaker you'll probably ever have to deal with, watches
you from the mirror every mornin'.
Always drink upstream from the herd.
Good judgment comes from experience, and a lotta that comes from bad judgment.
Lettin' the cat outta the bag is a whole
lot easier than puttin' it back
If you get to thinkin' you're a person of
some influence, try orderin' somebody else's dog
Don't pick a fight with an old man. If he is too old to fight, he'll just kill
Live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly, and leave the rest to God.
By Roxanne, 2010-10-05
I so enjoyed stumbling upon this link and wanted to share with all you seekers of the Old Ways. I extracted this accounts of the old Romani magical practices and Gypsy Lore from GypsyAdvice.com
Gypsy/Rom Fortune Telling (Dukkerin')
Its difficult to think of a Gypsy and not see the image of a crystal ball or
tarot cards. Since their push into Persia, Gypsies/Roma has been
simultaneously linked with fortunetelling. From the Eastern, holistic
and magical context to their Indian origins, Gypsies or Romas, are
prized for their remarkable psychic abilities and the gift to attract
good fortune or destroy a life with a curse. All are born with such
gifts, but what makes their powers so innate is their relationship with
nature. Their bond with the spirits of the outdoors allows their gifts
to evolve naturally.
Gypsies/Roma believes that within their own there are certain ones who posses great power through
the ability to perform magic with their special range of knowledge. Such
people known in the Gaje, or white mans world, are usually called
witches, warlocks or wizards but within the Roma/Gypsy society they are
known as chovihanis.
Among the chovihani there are four favorites for fortune telling (or
dukkerin`): palm reading, tea leaves, the crystal, and cards. These
methods are of a practical nature and do not take anything complex or
expensive to utilize.
Surprisingly, the Roma/Gypsy usually does not consult a chovihani or anyone else for past, present or
future knowledge. Nor are the chovihanis held in high esteem because of
their gifts; rather it is the money brought in by their gifts that
gives them a place of honor within the society.
Palm Reading: Palmistry is the most common divination method. It requires no special
equipment or props of any kind, can be practiced discreetly, and has
traditionally been the first method taught to children by their mothers.
Palmistry is combination of both chiromancy and chirology, or a belief
that is based on the idea that certain parts of the body have an
The hands can be considered a simple chart of our lives. The left hand reveals the life we are born
with while the right hand is what we make of that life. In a reading,
the chovihani uses the lines, mounts, divisions, and type of hand to
tell of a persons past, present, and future.
Tea Leaves: Reading the tea leaves has always been a popular divination method,
especially in the 1930s and 1940s when Gypsy Tea Rooms sprung up
quite frequently, sometimes featuring less than authentic Gypsies.
The questioner begins by drinking Chinese tea or any large-leafed variety with a round cup, white
or very pale, with a handle. He or she will drink the tea until only a
spoonful or less is left in the cup. With their left hand, the tea is
swirled around anticlockwise, three times in the cup and then turned
upside down to drain. The cup is then turned right-side up and passed to
the chovihani to read the leaves.
Crystal Ball: The image of a Gypsy, huddled over a crystal ball, is a familiar one,
made popular by the movies and TV. In reality, the crystal ball is
rarely used as it takes much preparation before and during the reading.
It is difficult to be on all day to read the crystal ball. Normally if
on call for the day, the chovihani will gaze at the ball but use their
own intuition for the reading.
However, utilizing the crystal ball is an art that can be mastered with dedication and
patience. For gazing, gather a crystal ball (or any reflective surface -
bowl of water, mirror, metal, etc.), a black cloth (to put the ball
upon) a comfortable chair and a table. The trick here is to gaze into
the ball and not stare. Meditate for as long as need to quiet your
mind, gaze into the ball and interpret the symbolic images that appear.
Tarot Cards: The earliest known tarot deck came from India with the Gypsies
introducing them to the world. Many chovihanis are happy to use playing
cards in place of tarot cards. Since playing cards are derived from
tarot cards, it really makes no difference which one is used in the art
A deck of tarot cards consists of seventy-eight richly decorated cards marked with a number of
antiquated symbols. The cards are divided into two groups: The Major
Arcana, consisting of twenty-two ceremonial pictures of symbolic
persons; and the Minor Arcana, fifty-eight cards that represent the four
The methods to interpret the cards are various and plentiful, with many books and web sites devoted
to this topic alone. No matter how complicated or simple the method of
interpretation, tarot cards are used to gain insight into a persons
actions and how they relate to the past, present and future
Among the Gypsies, the magical arts are almost always practiced by women. Evidence of the
chovihani (female) in gypsy society far outweighs the chovihano (male).
The Gaje impression of a fortuneteller is also that of a woman and not
a man. This view is no doubt based on the emotional, psychological and
spiritual makeup of women. However, in the Gypsy society more specific
and tangible reasons can be found based on the sexual and social
categorization of their culture.
Although the quest to place the factorial origin of the Roma/Gypsies in India is far from over, they
will always have the image placed on them as the original free
spirits of the world. The Roma/Gypsy has lived a nomadic existence for
thousands of years and has lived in harmony with nature longer than
most because, this author feels, of their Eastern origins. With a
kinship to mind, body and soul that most can only dream of, the
Roma/Gypsy have much to teach the Western world, if people would only
Source: The Mysterious & Magical Gypsy/Roma by Allie Theiss (paper for
Middle Eastern Class - 2009)
By Roxanne, 2010-10-04
Song of the Empress
The warm nights of summer slip into the past
Bright orange-red; golden streams through her hair.
And the Biti folk harvest
The fruits of her ware.
The song on the wind tells the story of woe
Of the fair maiden child;
To Hades she must go.
While her mother weeps sadly
As she says goodby
Her grief keeps the Sun far away in the sky
Slowly Persephone dons her dark veil
As her mother withdraws,her face growing pale.
Just as the last petal falls from the rose
Back to the underworld
This is my song to Demeter
The giver of food and of corn
This is my song to the Empress
Who Kissed me the day I was born
Her tears are the leaves
That fall from the trees
Her heart is the beating of wings
As the birds fly away
Until the the great day
When Persephone returns in the Spring.
So dance by your fires and harvest the days
While life is still your's to embrace
And Sing to the Goddess
A song of great thanks
For the Circle of Life
And her Grace.
This is my song to Demeter
Guardian of seasons and time
This is my song to the Empress
Our Heavenly Mother Divine.
(Of course this takes nothing away from the Father Divine. -- We love Big Daddy too!!)
By Roxanne, 2010-10-04
Every single evening
As I'm lying here in bed,
Thistiny little Prayer
Keeps runningthrough my head:
God bless allmy family
Wherever they may be,
Keep them warm
And safefrom harm
For they're so close to me.
And God, there is one more thing
I wish that you could do;
Hopeyou don't mind me asking,
Please blessmy computer too.
Now I know thatit's unusual
To Bless a motherboard,
But listen just a second
While Iexplain it to you, Lord.
You see,that little metal box
Holds more thanodds and ends;
Inside thosesmall compartments
Rest so many ofmy friends.
I know so much aboutthem
By the kindness that they give,
And this little scrap of metal
Takes me in to where they live.
By faith is how Iknow them
Much the same as you.
We share in what life brings us
And from that our friendships grew..
Please take an extra minute
Fromyour duties up above,
To bless thosein my address book
That's filled withso much love.
Wherever else thisprayer may reach
To each andevery friend,
Bless each e-mail inbox
And each person who hits 'send'..
When you update your Heavenly list
On your ownGreat CD-ROM,
Bless everyone who saysthis prayer
Sent up to GOD.Com