Are you an Empath?
I've written about this probably several times by now in hopes of finding answers. What I've realized is that, at least for now, there aren't any answers that will make this make perfect sense to me. Instead of trying to label it, I've turned to keeping tracking of it and understanding the patterns and in general, this experience. I keep an online journal about it, but I'd like to keep one here too in case anyone comes across it who has similar experiences, similar questions, or even some answers. I wrote about it the most in the Psychic Lab group, but would like to keep writing as more develops, so I'll do it here.
For anyone who hasn't seen anything I've posted about this before, I'll give the shortest possible explanation. I have meetings with people in my sleep. Most of the time, it's with one person, but recently, I've had a couple things happen that involved other people. 99% of the time, it happens with the same person though, and he's an old friend of mine that I'm no longer in contact with. This old friend is not an ex, just an old friend. The friendship was complicated and ultimately, I ended it about 7 or 8 years ago. Sometime in the last few years, I started to have these experiences during sleep (and some while I was awake, but the most intense ones are when I'm asleep). We would meet up, have some kind of exchange, and that was that. I am a very busy dreamer with lots of intense and vivid dreams, but no matter how intense or vivid, or how realistic the dream, I have always known that they were just dreams. What I have with (mostly) this person are not dreams. Sometimes I *do* have dreams about him that are just dreams, but when this other thing, this meeting thing happens, everything about it is different from a dream. I don't give it a name. I used to really want to be able to do that, but I don't know what to call it, so I just say what I know to be true, which is that we meet up. So weird.
When these meetings happen, many times, I come out of it with information that is true about his life; big things that are happening for him at the time of the meetings. Since this has been going on, I have gotten information about his wedding, both of his kids being born (and both pregnancies themselves), his mother being sick, his mother dying, and the name and gender of his second child before she was born. When this first started, it was very stressful for me because it was so detailed, so intense, and loaded with so much information (not just facts, but feelings, etc.) and I had no way to know for sure whether I was experiencing something real or just losing my mind. In an effort to clear that up, I did do some searching around to confirm the things I'd found out during these sleep meeting experiences, mainly through facebook. It made me feel like a bit of a weirdo to do that, but we don't have any friends in common, so there was nobody for me to ask and I really needed to know whether I had lost my mind or if this was really happening. The facebook page is mostly private, so I can only see the profile pictures, which is how I got verification of the wedding and the babies (including the name of the second one via comments on the picture). As I said, it makes me uncomfortable to do that, but I was so disturbed by this in the beginning that I was on the verge of believing that this wasn't real and I was having some sort of psychological problem, so I really needed to find out either way.
Not all of these sleep meeting experiences come with information. Sometimes, they're just meetings and they're fun, and I think those are my favorite. We're no longer friends, as I said, but obviously still have this connection. I don't know what it means, and sometimes I get really caught up in that question, though I'm learning to let that go, trying to submit to the fact that there's no complete explanation that could satisfy all my questions about it; I'm trying to focus on enjoying it and learning what I can as I go. The only thing I can come up with to tell myself about why this happens is that our souls are friends. Like soul mates, but not the definition that we so often hear, where two people are supposed to be together, blah blah. To me, a soul mate is someone that you know on a soul level, not just inside this life in this world. I believe we have lots of them, and they may be friends, lovers, spouses - anything. To me, this person must be someone that I know outside of just this life and this is the connection that we have left. Otherwise, I don't know why something like this would happen.
These meetings are not intentional. I wish I could control how they happen and when, but I have absolutely no idea how to do that. Mostly, it feels like something that is *happening* to me. When it happens, when I'm sleeping and I show up at some place and he's there, I always feel as though I've been pulled abruptly into that space.
One weird one that happened was almost like a remote viewing situation. I believe a lot of people would call it that, but there was also this aspect of "the meeting." And this one was with the friend's wife, who I have now had two meetings with. I don't understand the reason for that *at all* as I have never met or even spoken to this woman, but it's been happening a little bit, so again, I just try to roll with it. On my first meeting with her, I showed up at a park and as usual, felt like I had been yanked into that space. She was standing there and seemed to be waiting for me. She was really kind, warm, welcoming. We walked around the park together and I spent almost all my time wondering where we were at. She talked the whole time and I don't remember any of what she said. She seemed to know where we were at and she walked me around like she knew where she was going. In order, we walked along a river which I initially thought was a lake because it was so big. We walked toward a bridge that had a very distinct design to it that I had never seen before in a bridge. We then sat at some picnic tables near some younger trees. Almost in my peripheral view, I saw some small wooden structures that I couldn't make out. They were sort of far off and looked like small buildings, but I knew they weren't buildings. I didn't spend any time trying to figure them out, I just noticed them. While she was still talking, I finally interrupted her and asked where we were. She laughed and said "Kennewick!" like she thought I knew that. I had never heard of it. When she said "Kennewick", it was so loud and so strong that my mind saw the spelling of it. It was just after that that our meeting ended. When I woke up, "Kennewick" was on repeat in my head, so I wrote it down and went to look it up. I figured it was in the area she and my old friend live (very far from me), so I googled it. It's not where they live, but I learned that it is a real place in Washington state. I pulled it up on google maps and saw a river running through it. I zoomed in and found a park in Kennewick, right on the river (Columbia Park). I searched google images for pictures of the park and saw the river we'd just walked on (Columbia River), the weird bridge that I saw (called the Blue Bridge), the picnic table area we'd just sat in with the younger trees, and I saw a picture that made me laugh...it was those small wooden building-like structures. It was a playground in the park. As soon as I saw it in the list of all the thumbnails, I recognized it.
That's a good example of a meeting that I don't understand at all. I don't know why her, why that place, or why that meeting. I don't know anything she said to me except for "Kennewick" even though she talked for the entire duration of what was a very long experience. I don't understand the point of it at all, but it happened and so I just have to sort of accept the fact that it did and that there are no answers for that right now.
After the wedding, two babies, and the unfortunate situation with his mom, I've had fewer experiences. All of those things happened pretty close together. When there are long periods between them, I find that I miss having them sometimes (which I was surprised to realize. I used to wish I could make it stop). I went from having none at all from October or November 2012 to June 2013, where I had two in one day and five for the whole month (the most ever for that period of time, I'm pretty sure). It seems they mostly happen when something big is happening in his life, or is about to happen. That's not always true as, like I said, sometimes there isn't any information with these experiences, but for the most part, they seem to coincide with big events in his life. Right now, I'm pretty sure she's pregnant or is about to be pregnant soon. One of the experiences in June was a meeting where he told me he had three babies, which he doesn't have. The only conclusion I can think to draw from that is that she's pregnant or will be soon. A waking intuition I had in June led me to believe that if there is a third baby coming, Easter is going to be a notable time (baby's birth or first holiday, perhaps). We'll see.
Well, that wasn't a short story at all. lol. I do that a lot. Anyway, I plan to keep posting info here as things happen. I'll probably also post some journal entries from the journal I keep on this, in case anyone can relate. I'll also post things that I learn along the way. Most recently (again, in June), I realized that all the experiences I've journaled about (started journaling in October 2012) have happened within less than a week of either a full moon or a new moon (I think within 1-4 days for most of them). One in June happened 6 days after the super moon and one day before the waning moon. So, there's that. Again, not sure what it means, if anything.
If anyone can relate to this, please, please let me know. I'd love to know what you've come up with.