it very well could be that you are reading/feeling other negative people around you. i will tell you something happy. im 5 ft 2 & 3/4 my son dan is 6 ft 3. i weigh 97 lbs and my son weighs 163. he lost 36 lbs my doc is trying to help me gain weight. i dont have a problem with it. any way i was telling dan that another doc wants me to gain weight again but i dont want to eat cans of fruit pie filling all the time. dan says, mom trust me. junk food. it really works!

know what also helps? throw a temper tantrum like a child! jump up and down and wave your arms all around and scream as loud as you can.  you should then start crying. that is a release of extremely pent up anxiety. dont reccomend doing it around people, they may think you flipped your lid! lol. songs that tell you about scream therapy would be by the group extreme called shout. you know,  shout shout let it all out..... also john lennon and yoko ono used scream therapy on a regular basis.

so, i started making small talk with people then when i was used to that, i started to talk a bit more. when i realized people wont bite my head off for talking to them i got some confidence. but when talking with people i didnt know much, i wouldnt reveal personal stuff.thats mostly how i overcame my shyness.

i loved counseling because i could unload all my pent up frustrations and i telt a weight off my shoulders. later i learned scream therapy. where you go out into an open area talking to god as he was walking beside me.  id tell him all my pent up frustrations, and id cry,  then when i was away from people and the buisyness of the city around me, i screamed as hard as i could till i was hoarse. it felt sooo good! id call my friends but they werent home so i talked to their moms. they told me the same thing the counselors did to take a chance say something to people what they going to do beat  me up?

do you like the song,"my perrogative" by bobbie brown?

katie i too went to counseling alot when i was growing up. i never wanted to join a group of people. i had a love/hate relationship with my family. later i found i learned a bit from counselors, this i learned when i was older. i leaned a bit from friends moms,didnt care too much for my friends but found friendships with moms who had more than 1 child. they had more patience and lots of great advice. can you believe i used to be incredibly shy? now im 100% extrovert. can ya tell? lol    this is something i havent revealed to anyone in years