Taking on others' beliefs as your own...
Something I found that I have been struggling with is other peoples beliefs imposing on my reality. Whatever someone else says I feel like I internalize it and believe it as true or the right thing to do. I feel like its a part of me not being able to trust my own self. I always feel like I need someone to make a choice for me. However, that hasnt gotten me anywhere. I have been living other peoples beliefs of what I should be doing with my life and what would be best for me.
Iforgive myself for that because for a while I was really confused and felt like I needed the guidance and advice from someone to just tell me what to do. Realizing that I am the only person responsible for my own life is very freeing but scary at the same time. I feel that sometimes I dont trust myself to make my own decisions. I also always never wanted to take responsibility for my own life cause for a long time it was always in someone elses hands. I always needed help bc I wasnt well.
Now I know that nobody can tell me what to do with my life.I know that I need to take responsibility for my own life. My needs, my wants, my CORE DESIRES. I didnt know what they were at first, but now I do. I wasnt able to get to the bottom of my own desires bc of everyone elses stuff in the way. I guess that is why being an Empath is that much more challenging in today's world.
How can you possibly get to yourself, when you are so confused and constantly taking on and carrying others stuff? I really dont blame myself for anything at this point. I fully forgive myself. Not one person in this world can know what I want and need at this point in my life but myself. If anyone can relate to this and share their experience, I'dreally appreciate it.