By Mandii Moore, 2014-05-27
when i was in gradeschool i was constantly bullied. it was an endless thing from kinder to 4th then 6th to 8th (i was placed in a different school after 4th grade but it was shut down so was put to another new school)
in the years between kinder to 4th i suffered physical bullying and mental bullying. i was told i was a freak of nature and i didnt belong alive. i had one friend during those times and he was put in the hospital for protecting me from my bullies. whenever confronted with the principle the principle would always say it was my fault. i was in detention more than i could count basically from attempting to escape my bullies. when they hurt me though they didn't get in any trouble. it hurt me a lot. what was strange was whenever the bullies who were mean to me were upset i had to go to them and help them. i didn't know at the time i was an empath. over the years i couldn't really hold a grudge against anyone (except two girls who were nasty to the core)
what confused me though was a lot of the people who disliked me when they looked into my eyes were scared of me. some people who attempted to be kind to me would look in my eyes and say how beautiful they were.
i know these events are long in the past but i like being able to get them off my mind
By Mandii Moore, 2014-05-21
this happened a few years back. my dad had a girlfriend with horses. i always loved horses but there was a horse there that was different than others. she was a beautiful blond mare. her other two horses were very friendly but this horse wasn't. she ran away from any human who went near her. come to find out that horse was abused by her previous owner. i instantly felt a pull and a sadness and fear from her before i even knew her story. i spent many days just watching her trying to let her know i cared about her. slowly she started to let me walk closer to her. one day i had a hand full of hay and held it out to her i went to the distance she allowed me to go to her and i just waited. she looked in my eyes and walked to me and ate from my hand. it was the first time she ever willingly went to a person. the sadness from her broke my heart. i loved that horse so much. i miss her but i cant see her anymore my father broke up with the girl a couple years ago. there are days that she crosses my mind and my heart goes out to her