Le'

Le'

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2009-12-24
By: Le'
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I was wandering around last night reading different things on this site and following links. Still trying to still get my feet on the ground and start to figure out what questions I have (cause you can't ask questions unless you know a little something about the subject) and I ran across these words."If you are feeling ungrounded ... The key is wanting to be here."That's it... in a nut shell.I haven't wanted to be HERE for a very long time.Here as in thishousetownworldproblem is I don't know where I really do want to be either.When I try to think about this issue all the problems come rushing in.I own this house free and clear ... selling it is possible but the market is down right now.If I did sell it where would I go?My kids are in Modesto so part of me wants to be there and able to travel to San Francisco again to see my friends thereBut a part of me wants to go back to New Mexico too.Back to my rootsback to what I know is clean GROUND without sidewalksback to a place where there is elbow room and space to breathThis house is full of stuffMy stuffmy last husbands stuffEvery year my health is worse bit by bit ... so attacking all the stuff gets harder and harderKeeping up with all the repairs, yard work and such are harder to do by myself too.So I have kind of given up on dealing with that physical stiffI moved down here to be with my husband in 1990.. once he was gone there is really no one else here I am friends with or even care about and the few friends we did have here have mostly died anyway.seems many people die around me ... LOLI don't work due to health issues so here I am trying to do nothing except exist day after day ... waiting for ???so there it is ... now I need to figure out how to get groundedcause I really don't think it's where I live or how many friends are around or anything like that ... I think its got to start with me.so back to reading and searching
Roxanne
12/26/09 05:32:24PM @roxanne:
Hmmmm, I agree it has to start with you, but I am a person who also believes if given the opportunity why not be where you want to be geographically. You speak of being near people you love. In neighborhoods that are familiar.That's what I'd do. Life is short. Be where your heart is calling you to be. I know San Francisco is beautiful but how does the smog affect your health. And the chill off the bay can be piercing. (Yikes, our trip to Alcatraz was harder than any NY winter I ever knew.)So my feeling is you are actually leaning towards New Mexico. The Land of Enchantment. Since the market is down everywhere, you may be able to sell your house and purchase one even cheaper in New Mexico right now.I wish you luck.My heart is calling me to Sedona...but I'm planning a small road trip through New Mexico hopefully this year.If there is nothing keeping you, then I would suggest that you take that leap of faith and fly.

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