I feel like I am beginning to get a handle on a few things.I am still staying in for the most part but that is because I really do not like being in the hustle and bustle of the holidays.I am still active in a few online groups but even there I mostly just reach out to others who are hurting and try to guide them to some peace in a time of pain. Talked to two women who just lost their partners last week and guided them to a group that will help them with their grief.I am trying my best to get rid of the pain that I have been carrying for so long from so many people. Working on the survival exercises and reading the book of storms.I still feel energy is drained from me... but I did finally get the negative energy blocked that was coming from next door. Did that by burning sage every day for a week and putting bowls of salt out to draw up the hate coming from there in waves. The lady who lived there was dying I think and she has been crazy for a very long time. So maybe it was more her dying that ended it but the sage and salt make me feel better somehow.I know sooner or later if she is really dead that I will have to meet her face to face and help he get rid of the hate so she can move on ... but I am not quite ready for that one at the moment. (yes I do have to deal with ghosts )It is really funny how many things I have been doing for a very long timeare things that are used to block out the feelings of others. Problem is I have not used them in ways that allow anyone in either.So I have just really been busy trying to find ways to let things go more and let things flow through me rather than carry them forever...still baby steps.