By Indigo Dog, 2017-07-04
I am a mature Empath now. Navigating through crowds and discerning my emotional stuff from others stuff is easy nowadays. I was 16 years old when I discovered that not everyone can feel what other people are feeling and thinking. I did spend a lot of time trying prove what I was experiencing was real in the early days. Back then there were no resources or internet or even discriptors for what was going on in me. Psychic was the closest word.
I got really good at helping people. I thought that was my calling. Why else would I have these talents and gifts? I sucked at maintaining good and healthy personal bounderies. I helped untill I had nothing left to give. I tried to dull out the empathic abilities in bad ways. I was dissolusioned and sad. I allowed myself to be the listener, comforter, healer, hero and helper. I discovered that rather than being able to ask for those same kindnesses in return I just got used, and those that loved the attention and care would vanish when I needed help and tenderness. I began to question mt psychic abilities.
Here I am now in my 50's so comfortable in my sensitive skin I can hardly believe it! I am getting better and better at saying "No." I have tools and techniques to filter out the energy vampires and minimize the negative impact that harsh emotional clutter can cause. I am making peace with who I am. My most delightful moments have been when I've met Empathics like me in casual life. It no longers bothers me that I can taste what some one is eating on the other end of the phone. I can tell if a friend or family member is freaking out and I don't let it control me.
Hello fellow sensitives, psychics and empaths. I'm glad to know you. You are loved.