Almost a year
It's been almost a year since my last post. Life has changed dramatically...tho' there're still challenges.
The abuser is out of the house, tho' he expends a great deal of energy to make sure I am harassed by neighbors and watched by his flying monkeys. That sounds paranoid - I only wish it were.
Still...I am free...mostly. And I'm doing my best to heal. A lifetime of abuse is now being faced head on. Most days I'm okay. Most days I do pretty well. Some days, not so much. Isolation is a big aspect with the kind of abuse I've lived. So, establishing my clan, my tribe, is my current goal...along with the constant healing process. I know it's a life-long process. I can deal. But it would be nice not to have to deal alone any more.
I am opening up to my calling. I am letting spirit bring to me what I need and the lessons I need to learn. The fear of that is almost non-existent. Oh, there are days...but mostly at least, this path is like a comfortable blanket - especially when compared to what I had lived.
So...as the days go by, I'm embracing my life in the moment as best I can. I am trying to find ways to serve and touch others' lives in some helpful way. And, I'm healing. It's a different journey for an empath. But I'd say it makes it far more interesting. :)