Some of you know from private PMs that I have a daughter I worry about a lot. She's awesome and she's sweet and so funny. Everyone who meets her loves her. She is such a comedian on so many levels, But she suffers from anxiety and the best way I can describe her is *stuck*. She seems to need her friends to initiate *anything*. Sometimes she pushes them away. In fact, sometimes she isolates so much that when the cycle has run its course she realizes she has no friends and then
she is lonely
. I can tell you that she *does* have friends that love her very much but there are miles between them and with college and work everyone seems to get lost in their own lives. I get it, I've been there, but this *thing* , this cycle of isolation has been plaguing my daughter's life for so many years I stopped counting.
Now I am not a person who hallucinates. I'll admit on rare occasions I have had what I call *wakened dreams* but it always happens the same way with a buzzing noise, and this thing I call an electric cloud with a message attached to it. -- These happen when I'm sleeping and they wake me and the message always connects it to a real life event, so I'm not going to call that a hallucination.
But last night something else happened that I have never had happen before; sure as hell I saw what appeared to be a black, smokey mist above my daughters head it seemed to rise up and away from her head and then dissipate quickly.
It shook me. I have to admit that. I had never seen anything like it before. My electric clouds are always white and come with a message (internal dialogue), but this was different. Again, this was a dark greyish/blackish mist like smoke.
If anyone knows what this can be or has heard of something like this before I would appreciate anything you can share. I'm not afraid of it. But I don't like it.
My daughter gave me protection to ask for positive energy for her ANYTIME. So I'm asking now.
She's 20 years old. I told her in a way that didn't scare her. (Like, wow that was weird it almost looked like smoke over your head!!) Left it at that. So we are really both curious. about this.
Any of you wise people know about these kind of things, I would appreciate some feedback.
Otherwise, please a shot of love and light towards my daughter, Amber.
She's my darling. And I also call down a swat team of angels to protect her.
I pray for her anxiety to dissipate. I call for peace in her life. I call for the sun to shine down upon her even on the rainiest days. I call for God to walk with her. I call for a personal spiritual rebirth for her.
(she posed for this picture of a Tarot card years ago)