Forum Activity for @alexanderhoff123

Yep! This has definitely happened to me. On multiple occasions even.

Tough!

I know she exists, because I've felt it very strongly. And even "talked" to her (telepathically I guess), but I still don't know her name or how to find her. So yes I definitely believe in it. But I'm not sure what to think about the whole "one being split into two halves" concept.

Welcome Alex! You have almost the same name as me (Don't know if its Alexander, Alexandra or something else) .

This is a very nice site, with very nice people .

Yeah it's been pretty nice the last couple of days .

Yep! This sounds very familiar. Especially online, since they can't see my face and all.

And it really sucks when you're just trying to be nice, and they think you're messing with them. Why would I? I have no reason to be a jerk.

Is it depersonalization or derealization perhaps? I've suffered from derealization since I was 11 (not much depersonalization surprisingly), and I'm 19 now so for the last 8 years... It kind of sucks lol.

It makes it feel like you're living in a dream or everything is just unreal. A really creeping feeling.

I still have no idea why I have it or what caused it. It's usually associated with anxiety and panic attacks, and yes I get anxious (mostly in social situations), but not 24/7 of course. But still it lingers, and never completely goes away...

11 wasn't even my most anxious period of my life so that just makes it even more strange.

Yes, but probably not for the same reason you do.

Each season gives me a different feeling, but it's because of memories of things that has happened to me during that season. It's the weather and the smells, and the climate and light(it's darker during the winter, and brighter during the summer), that causes me to remember things. To be honest, most of what I feel is pretty negative . I guess it's those things you remember the most.

Interesting how you like November and December the most. That's the worst part of the year for me. Here in Sweden it's very dark most of the day, and it rains a lot, and it makes me really depressed and tired. I've always had a problem with darkness I guess. My favorite months are June and July .

Yep. I do. I've never actually had any friend(s) at all .

I know personally most people I meet I just don't feel particularlycomfortable around. I just never feel like I fit in anywhere. And I'm also afraid of talking to a lot of people. Until I get comfortable with them (if ever...).

Well I'm only 18. Is that a teen or adult? I'm not quite sure .

I mentioned once(on my old account) that when I am around some people(my family especially) a lot, I start acting pretty weird. And yes, I do talk more... and I can get a little annoying lol. On the other hand, with strangers, I'm too quiet.

I think the best thing you can do(aside from finding new friends) is to monitor your thoughts and actions a bit. Obviously you can't think about every single thing you do, but just overall.

Also I sometimes have a habit of speaking when I shouldn't, and not speaking when I should, but I'm working on it haha.