Forum Activity for @conny

Conny
@conny
05/18/17 10:20:19PM
28 posts

poetry


Arts

Thank you @hermes for your words. :)
Conny
@conny
05/01/17 01:34:22AM
28 posts

poetry


Arts

vulnerability
a word with so much
greatness
disgrace,
that is happening to it


nakedness
misleading towards sex
and shame
yet powerful significance
energy within
enlightenment of our soul

lack of capability
is what destroys
the power

feared
yet unable to actually scare

attacked
yet unable to actually touched, truly

step out
step up
undress

no judging
no questioning

wild
free your spirit
free within

no excuses
no more

can't handle
is not an option

love.

- I'd love to hear your thoughts to it :)

lots of love to you all

Conny


updated by @conny: 09/08/17 07:02:21PM
Conny
@conny
03/05/17 10:58:50PM
28 posts

Mechanical writing


Psychic and Paranormal

Oh that sounds perfect to me as I work a lot with incense and spells/prayers.
Thanks you for that!
And does it sometimes happen that you seem to be blocked? Like I mean that it is difficult to write?
updated by @conny: 03/05/17 10:59:31PM
Conny
@conny
03/05/17 12:06:09PM
28 posts

Mechanical writing


Psychic and Paranormal

Hey :)

I was wondering if there are like tips and/or experiences from how people started getting into the flow of it?!
Conny
@conny
03/04/17 10:59:14PM
28 posts

Mechanical writing


Psychic and Paranormal

Hello all

Are there any mechanical writers out there? Mechanical writing is when you let spiritual guids write down something through you. You just write and write and 'dont know where what you write is coming from'?
I am a writer myself and I went to a group meditation the other day . The woman who runs the place is very psychic. She gave me the message of one of my spiritual guids that I should open myself to mechanical writing.

I would be happy to exchange some experiences regarding this topic! Anyone here?
:)

Lots of love you all
Conny
updated by @conny: 07/05/17 10:57:46AM
Conny
@conny
02/27/17 07:29:17AM
28 posts

Consciousness


Empath

I'd say consciousness is being aware of its own words and actions.
Conny
@conny
02/07/16 01:29:14AM
28 posts

Not sure whether I am an empath or just a depressive.


Empath

Hey :)I do identify myself with your entire post I just wanted to let you know that.I am being missunderstood by the people around me a lot as well and so many times I find it really hard to deal with that. Expecially because as we are so sensitiv, I feel like it hurts us even more when we get pushed away or rejected by others.I don't really have an advice here ... I just wanted to let you know you are definitly not alone!!Lots of loveConny
Conny
@conny
01/06/16 09:57:59AM
28 posts

Empath and single


Empath

Thanks to all of you for sharing their thoughts and stories.I really wish for all of us to get a person in our life that makes us feel understood. After all more and more ppl seem to become aware of their gifts so ... :)Lots of love
Conny
@conny
12/26/15 01:36:54PM
28 posts

Empath and single


Empath

That does really give me support thank you a lot marta!That is exactly how I feel too!! It really does help to hear it from another person so I can know it is not just me thinking that way...
Conny
@conny
12/25/15 03:05:23AM
28 posts

Empath and single


Empath

Yes I do agree with that 100% that its most important to create your own happiness.And I also do as 'RyuukoGo' says... Many things to express myself and to deal in a way with all the emotions.But that both is actually not exactly what I mean...What I mean is that it is a natural human desire to share love physically and mentally... And even tho there are lot of things that we can and should do for ourselve... However we can't replace another human being... The feeling of a kuddle or a supporting and understanding talk...So and as an empath we are even more aware of emotions or either we feel everything so intensly that I am thinking it is even harder for us to deal with 'being alone'?!Do u kmow what I mean?Sorry I guess it's a bit difficult to explane :)
Conny
@conny
12/24/15 12:26:21PM
28 posts

Empath and single


Empath

Yes I can imagine that! You are right.I guess it would be ok if I'd be dating someone who is at least not judging me for being and empath and tries to understand and not to question my gift...But I am actually not dating anyone... Neither empath nor not-empath ... And I just feel like it is really tough some times you know, to be the one helping and listening to all the others and not having anybody to give you support in any way. Even if it's 'just' physically. Like hugging, cuddeling, love...How do single empaths deal with being so emotional and sensitive and not having anyone to express their own love and emotions with. Physically and mentally.Do you know what I mean?
Conny
@conny
12/24/15 11:06:20AM
28 posts

Empath and single


Empath

Hello you all :)I just wanna start with saying how grateful I am to read all of your posts and discussions... So many times it calms me down when I feel like I am the only one on earth who is feeling so intense haha but we all know what I mean... Just wanna say it again! So grateful for this page and you all!!So,... What my post is about...I am 24... And I am single for 1 year now... I was never good in smalltalk or getting together with ppl as in friends or also as in partners that I couldn't connect with mentaly... So as a matter of fact I don't have many friends or had many partners.What I feel so intesive at the moment is that being an empath and constantly being there for the world... For strangers, for the few friends, for the family... Always being the one giving advices... So many times being rejected by loved ones because you accidently told them something about themselves that they havent figured out yet and then they are mad at you ect... Being this person as we all know is so many times great but also many times hard and tough!And you know, I feel like I would really really like to have an empath, to have a person like I am as a friend or partner myself. Does that make sense to anyone? I feel like I am helping and helping and that is great, don't get me wrong I love being that person... But Sometime, I would need some friend, a partner too... Someone who is just there for me and listens to me. Gives me kuddles and hugs...gives me some love when I would need it!! Tells me everything is gonna be ok and that I am doing great. I always have to be my own best friend, my own partner and that is ok but also somehow not fair, do u know what I mean?!Sometimes I am thinking maybe there is a person like that already there and maybe I am not seeing him or her... But... I constantly have to deal with my things on my own. Well, also mainly because noone who would listen to me does actually understand me.Hm does it make sense what I am saying?!I'd wish I meet a person... It doesnt even necessarily need to be a partner, but even a friend that is like me. That thinks like me and believes the stuff I am saying you know. That sees the world like I see it... And doesnt judge me when I live my emotions authenticly and not like a robot society tells us to be... But you can't do that on our world, can you? We always do and try and make ppl realize often what it is about... But actually.. They always turn back to the way they are used to because they are too afraid of change and of living an authentic life.I'd love to hear some thoughts of you guys :))Tell me what you think ... My text might have gotten a bit confusing... Sorry for that!Huggs to you allConny
updated by @conny: 01/09/17 02:58:34PM
Conny
@conny
07/18/15 01:04:22PM
28 posts

Please help :)


Empath

Hy SmariaI was asking the exact same question once here in the community as well...Have a look through my posts, there were a lot of helpful advices given. :)The best way for me is to consentrate and focus on my own energy 'bubble"... I focus on a bubble around me and I ask to show me what energies/emotions of others are currently inside MY energyfield... And when I can see them..their emotions... Then I focus on breathing them out of my bubble so I can let them go.That is what worked best for me! After I do this, especially when I feel very intense emotionally , then I can mostly feel myself , just myself again. :)Hope I could help a littleLots of loveConny
Conny
@conny
06/21/15 10:25:17AM
28 posts

things happen for a reason..


Empath

Thanks a lot.... I absolutely know what you mean...Thanks! :)

Conny
@conny
06/21/15 02:50:25AM
28 posts

things happen for a reason..


Empath

Thanks for your reply... I can absolutely feel what you are saying... And it makes good sense as it is always a topic in my life that I am an independent soul and strong individual... But have trouble with being alone alone. Like I mean when I am alone but not because I choose to be... That's really hard for me.But you know what I am thinking then: what do I live for here on earth if not for the relationships in my life?! I know it's always the big thing about 'you gotta learn to be happy just with yourself' ... But I am sorry I do not agree with that. in my opinion this is a popular saying that gives a lot of people a 'goal' they can never fully reach.... I don't believe that because it's simply not in the nature of human beings to be alone. Ever since people made groups and never ... Never in history one person could survive alone in the wild... Do you know what I mean.So what is life about if not for relationships... And where does our generation come to when people make desicions about not caring for people and don't even talk to them about it an just leave...Do you know what I mean?Thanks a lot again for you message... I will defenitly take my inputs from that as well to continue thinking...
Conny
@conny
06/21/15 12:49:35AM
28 posts

Gemstones


Empath

I agree, I am wearing a black tourmaline as well...I wear it as a necklace and the power of this stone is really strong and wonderful. Highly recommended!

I also have a ring which is an orange calcite. it gives me positive energy and supports my mental pain.

I love these two stones... many times when I didnt know what was happening with me as I was so confused and stressed on a day, I realized I dont wear my stones....so, yeah ;)

Conny
@conny
06/21/15 12:39:00AM
28 posts

things happen for a reason..


Empath

Hello community

I am a person who is constantly analyzing whats going on around me, what I can learn from that, whatI can learn from the people around me ect ect.

For the past months I am a bit stuck with a particular situation I experienced 3 times in the past 6 months...and I am not sure what to learn from it. So today, it was an idea that popped in my mind, to post it here and maybe get some thoughts from you guys...

So, the particular situation is, that 3 very important people (two of them are also empaths...) either left me completely and one just made a huge step from texting everyday to a random 'hey, how are you' once a week... and they all did that over night.

Every single time it was like a shock situation for me. I feel a bit like I am traumatised ...I always tried to talk with them, tried to find out what happened all of a sudden...but without success.

It began with my ex-boyfriend ... every thing was normal.. we of course had some differences but we didn't argue a lot ... it was not at all any clear to me that he was thinking about breaking up. he obviously didn't share his feelings with me, what i didn't realize that time. Suddenly I got a text (!!) in the middle of the night saying it's over... and he didn't speak to me at all afterwards... can someone imagin that... I couldn't believe what was happening. it was like a dream.... honestly...surreal...

second.... one of my best friends is an empath. He is a caring, amazing person. 1 month after the break up with my ex boyfriend I was moving back from Londonto my country (Austria). So we stayed in daily contact via whats app and skype. We were in contact 24/7 and we talked about everything, shared everything, ... and all of a sudden, without any warning, the contact went as I said, down to once a week and just superficial... I asked him, I wanted to talk about what happened...but he didnt wanna say anything... he said 'everything is fine, this is just how friendship goes...'

anyway...I had to respect his desicion in a way and well, give him his space that he obiously needed.

Our contact did never break completely and is getting more and better at the moment as well...

so, and 3rd... I met this guy, an empath... countries are between us but our connection was strong and real. you know, when you meet someone and you are just purely yourself and you just connect, you talk about deep topics straight away, ...it's something so pure and beautiful. It's one of these things you always think doesnt excist and suddenly... seconds after saying hy, you feel like you have known this person ever since.

suddenly he was going through a tough time in his life and I gave him space. I do understand you need time to digest... but after some weeks without even knowing he is still alive... he started to be present on social medias again and so on...I tried to reach him ...but just a few simple sentenses and that was it.

So now..... I am wondering what life is going to teach me right now.

Why do people I trust, people I truely care for and give my sole to, dissapear over night. It breaks my trust. It breaks me.

Why do people I think they truely care about me, all of a sudden kick me out of their lifes. How is this possible to stop caring immediatly for someone...

I have no trust in people anymore... I am terrified of falling in love again so much that I am not even meeting new people. I am not attracting new people obviously with all my fear and energy I am sending...

So, again.... does anybody have some ideas...some thoughts... I know it is probably really hard to say something as of course the short stories are not enough to get an idea of my situations. You dont know me and you dont know these persons.... I know it is really difficult...

but I just thought I give it a try.

so, thanks a lot for taking your time for me

lots of love to all

Conny


updated by @conny: 01/22/17 10:36:36PM
Conny
@conny
05/04/15 02:45:32AM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

Hey Daniel,It's sounds like you were/are going through a really tough time.My love goes to youHope you are doing okay.Conny
Conny
@conny
05/04/15 02:42:35AM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

Thank you so much for sharing with me:)Yes I believe it takes a while to take it as a gift... But yes I do feel proud of myself to be so connected to my inner voice :)lots of love
Conny
@conny
04/28/15 10:24:45PM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

Hello youThank you also to share with me!It is tough to admit and to say 'yes I suffer from depressions'! Absolutely agree!And I've heard the get over it part so many times as well... That's the most annoying thing if you ask me. I am on a point when somebody is telling me something like that I tell them to shut up and not to give advice to people about something they obviously don't know anything about. Most of the time they are quiet then... But still it hurts doesn't it!Yes I so love the endorphin cocktail fitness is giving you! Some idea in my head is also to work with people with depression and to help them with getting them to do some sports... To find a sport that suits every single person... A problem I often have as well is that sometimes when I am down , it's so hard to motivate myself and I have nobody who is around me who says 'come in let's go'...I feel you! Thanks you again for your replylots of loveconny
Conny
@conny
04/28/15 10:13:10PM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

HelloUnfortunately, I really do agree with that. i also believe we are born with depressions and sometimes I am wondering if there should be another way figured out for empaths if you know what I mean.I've read a lot about it and to be honest ... Will empaths ever be free from depressives times.. I don't think so...:(Is there any long years experienced empath who can say it always , without exception has it's gift under 'control' and doesn't take others emotions/energies too close?!Thanks for your reply ... And I totally share your the love to art and music... i write to clear my head... And music just gives me a boost so many times as well.conny
Conny
@conny
04/28/15 11:41:00AM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

Thank you so much for this reply.Yes I totally agree. Now I feel that it was intuition speaking and I am proud that I am actually on a point where I do what my heart tells me and not what my mind is telling me .But yes it's indeed difficult at the time to be aware if it is intuition or anxiety ...Thanks againLots of loveconny
Conny
@conny
04/28/15 08:47:45AM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

Hey EmmyYeah... Hihi that's exactly what my therapist said today... I should be proud to be able to feel if something is not supposed to be and the universe has a plan... So I should trust in my intuition and that when the job or plan comes which is supposed to be then I will feel ready for it :)Thanks a lot for your repliesConny
Conny
@conny
04/28/15 02:29:23AM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

HeyThanks for your reply... You know the crazy thing is. It's not about the fear that I not good enough! Not at all... It sounds weird but I have these real downs but not because I think I an awful person or I don't love myself or think I am not good enough.That's the thing... I am self confident. I am aware of myself of my gifts, my strengh ...It's more that I don't want to do it... It feels wrong... It feels not like what I am supposed to do... But on the other hand I have no clue what I am supposed to do...It's all so complicated.Thanks for you replyLots of loveConny
Conny
@conny
04/28/15 01:30:33AM
28 posts

another post about depression ...


Empath

Hello all

Firstly I wanna say...I am not even sure why I am posting this here. I guess I just feel I would like to share my experience with people who are not judging me or who are not afraid to talk about their depression cause where I live ...talking about it is almost a no-go... so it is impossible to speak with someone who is open about what they feel or either to talk to someone who is not encouraging you to 'shake it off and move on' ..'you have to be strong and get through it'

A short summery.... I am almost 24 and from Austria. I was living in London till New Year and on 1st of January I fell into the deepest down I've ever experienced so far.

I was not able to go to work anymore and had a really bad gastritis.

I was forced to move back home to my country as it was not possible for me to pay my bills in London anymore and in Austria we luckily have a good social system and I have family and my best friend on which sofa I am living since January.

So I was going to my psychiatrist who I am working with for the past 4 years. Now, obviously I am seeing her every week and all the money I get from benefits I spend in seeing her.

Well I got better...much better...I felt ready to get back to my life again...but nothing turned up. No place to live or job ... without money ...what can you do.

so I gave up my dream of going back to London, of living abroad as I thought it is just not meant to be and in my mental instability I am also not ready to be on my own again ....

so I started to try to settle down here in Austria again which is a big big challange for me...Austria is very very narrow minded ...there are very little places where you can find people like us (I havent found one for me so far) and there is a lot of discrimination about race, people who are different then the norm and there is almost no space to express yourself.

anyway...what I actually want to share is what happened yesterday.

In the morning I was applying at a fitness studio in the closest city to where I live now... Fitness is my passion I would love to start working in the industry. (I used to work as a massage therapist)... in the afternoon I suddenly got a call and had a small telephone interview with one of the company manager...2 hourse later another manager was calling to make a trial working day for the next day.... and then it happened....total break down. I couldn't stop crying ... I felt I am not ready to go to that trial day. I cant explain why, or what was giving me the idea of not being able to go there but I just couldnt. It felt so wrong just thinking about it. I am so angry...angry that things that feel right for me are not turning up ...and things my mind and body refuces to do are turning up for me.

Can anybody tell me why that is?

How am I ever able to move on in my life again?

I am home for 4 months now and I am still not able to go even to a trial work day. how am I ever going to be able to work 5 days a week again?

How does the recovery from a total break down come again?

Do I just need to wait for the moment where I am able to take the next possibility of a trial work day .... or do I really need to get over it one day and just do it even it I feel a thousend stones puching me away from it?

What comes next?

4 months of countinuously breaking down.... what comes next? What do i need to wait for? How am I ever going to be able to live a 'normal' -earning money kinda life again?

I am alone...no relationship...How would somebody fall in love with a person who is that mentally fucked up that I am? I know it sounds rough...but how? Am I ever going to meet a person who loves me for the emotional desaster I am?

Does anybody out there have the same problems...suffering from depression and NOT having a partner ? Cause I think the fear of staying alone...of not finding someone is like so much bigger when you realize how difficult your life is even for yourself...

Puh I guess my text has become kinda confusing ...hm however I would be happy to hear your thoughts or either your experiences about depressions or expecially total break downs....

I really appreciate it!

Thanks for your time

Lots of Love

Conny


updated by @conny: 03/16/17 09:54:29PM
Conny
@conny
04/04/15 01:12:33AM
28 posts

Why (some) empaths experience social anxiety?


Empath

Hy Alison

It makes perfect sense to me.

I experience the absolut same thing.

I feel the more I am around people, the more I kinda get away from my own Attitudes.

It's like I take their way of seeing live, of judgements and I don't know how and why but most of the time it takes me quite some time to figure out that what I am thinking of life right now isn't actually my way of seeing live.

After beeing in a group of negativ and shallow people , I go home and suddenly have thoughts and feelings about things in my live that really put me down... a few days later I suddenly realize that this is not me.

Do you recognize it streight away? Or does it take you some time as well?

How do you react to this then? Is it easy for you to change you way of thinking back to your own way?

Cause I find it really hard some time...

Conny
@conny
07/12/14 03:20:54PM
28 posts

Super moon


New Age

Hey thereSo funny to read you post as I am having such intense experiences for the last couple of days. I am not always checking the moon phases however as I was feeling so intense lately I looked at the moon phase and there you go....So, the answer is yes. I feel too that this is a very intense moon right now!! For me personally it is a good one. I could finally say things out loud which was keeping me unbalanced for weeks and I feel such brave and powerful. My personal experience to this very strong moon right now :)Lots of loveConny
Conny
@conny
06/23/14 02:42:30AM
28 posts

another empath feeling LOST


Empath

Hello out there <3

I can not tell what a big THANK YOU I want to say!!! So, I want to share my positive experience with you! :)

Since I got your messages....I have read and practiced many of them.

I started yesterday morning with questioning myself how I feel today. My first thought was " actually, I am feeling good"...which surprised me as I was feeling such depressed lately. well, I took this answer and said to myself ok...when I woke up, I was feeling good. so.... let's see

Befor I got up I cleansed myself with the fist-technique. I took all my fears, my worries....and exhalted them with releasing my fist. After that I closed myself with the zip-technique and did put myself into a huge seathrough bubble. "my CLEAR energy bubble" ....

I am doing this for the last 2 mornings now....and let me tell you what happened the rest of the day yesterday...everything was kind of unbelievable for me.

As I was starting my day I felt more energized than usual. And the most exciting thing about the whole day was, that I could see others energies when they got into my bubble. I saw them as colours. As I wanted to keep my bubble clear I just did recognize all energies as colours...but I exhaled them out of my wonderful clear bubble. and IT WORKED! :):) I did not take them....it was overwhelming....first overwhelming thing for me was, that I was so surprised HOW MANY colours I took into my bubble during the day. Sencond, that I could tell immediatly from who the colours came from which offered me some vampires and people around where I work...that I now know, I defenitley need more protection from...

It also showed me, which people did NOT overload me with their energies. It showed me people, I was comfortable with because they kept their energies kind of by themselfs somehow. My attention was always on who is giving me the bad energy...but I did never pay attention to who is doing it NOT.

It was amazing. I could protect myself in my wonderful bubble! My mood was the whole day as it was in the morning. I felt good. I really felt good and most importantly, I felt ME!

I recognized so many energies...I took them but did let them go...and I could let go every energie from others...I stayed feeling good. It was wonderful.

It was so wonderful for me...for the first time I could tell which was mine and which was from somebody else. I am so happy!

Thank you all for giving me this experience. I know I need to practice practice and practice to put this bubble and the protection into my habit. Cause it takes me a lot of efford now to do all that. But I know the more I am doing it, the more it gets automatically.

I thank you so much that I could feel it and that I know that it is possible so select.

The universe gudied me on this side so that I can learn to accept myself.

I thought I have acceped myself quite good....apparently I didn't. Let me tell you I was in tears when I read your posts as somehow a part inside me said..."hey, we are NOT ill"...I did not know that a part in me is still thinking that...

I am so glad to be here and to get in contact with you all!

namaste

lots of love

conny

Conny
@conny
06/21/14 10:32:41AM
28 posts

another empath feeling LOST


Empath

hy to all....

I tryed to write a post so many times....I always deleted it 'cause I couldn't even sort it on a post what I wanted to say.

I read daniel's post now...and this is what brings me to this post what I will finally send.

As you all can read , my first language isn't english, so please excuse my mistakes.

I am 23 years old. I started to become aware of my "gift" 4 years ago when I started a therapie because of depressions.

I went throught the whole children things everybody is explaining... beeing different...got bullied all over... beeing alone. I don't have many friends...and if I am about to get more, I have to leave. When I am in rooms with people who's energy is to strong for me...I faint when I don't leave the room.

As daniel posted as well....I so many times feel just lost!

I don't want to be an empath! honestly...I really dont!

It's difficult, it's hard....it is just ....hard.

I am helping so so many people...but the only person I can't feel...the only person I have no clue about ...the only person I can't help with my "gift" is myself!!!

I am so overwhelmed by everything I feel. I just want to hide somewhere ...I just want once NOT to feel anything.

I know I sound very depressed right now...I am not allways like this.

Many people in my life told me....You are so wise....you are so young and so wise... you are very special and wonderful...ect ect....

I am working with energy....I am meditating...breathing... protecting myself with techniques....am wearing healing stones to protect me from others energy but still .. I switch from insane happyness to insane sadness....take others emotion just by looking into their eyes.... and I kinda have the feeling that I am just out of control even tho I am doing so many techniques to protect myself.

So please, I am asking you....all you experienced empaths out there in the world

HOW DO YOU CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS?

HOW DO YOU SELECT YOURS OUT OF OTHERS?

HOW DO YOU NOT FREAK OUT EVERY DAY?

I know everybody who is writing here in these discussions have up and down's isn't it?

Please tell me that I am not the only one who thinks so many times "wow , well done me... you have your gift under control, you can do so many good things with it: this is just wonderful "...and a little bit later the world breaks down again cause you just quickly talked to somebody with pain.

thank you for reading

and sorry for the desperate post

conny


updated by @conny: 02/12/17 11:22:58PM