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Sarah
@sarah
07/12/16 12:07:44PM
386 posts

Best Stone for healing from abuse???


Tools for Empaths

An abuser can most definitely contaminate you. There is physical and sexual and emotional and all those well known kinds of abuse, but some people can also energetically abuse you, too. I think it happens a lot to empaths because we can pick up on it and people who choose to do that kind of thing are drawn to people who are susceptible to it.

I would say to get the bad energy out, an apache tear would work well, as well as black onyx or other very dark stones that are good for getting rid of dark energies.

You might need something gentle too, like a rose quartz to gently heal parts of you that are hurting. Good luck!

Sarah
@sarah
06/23/16 08:05:31AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Good advise.

Sarah
@sarah
06/23/16 08:05:22AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Thanks!

Sarah
@sarah
06/22/16 08:20:07AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Onyx, is good for blocking bad energy and energy designed to hurt someone. Poor kid, though, I feel like mama bear when anyone is bullying my kid, and crystals feel too soft for that kind of protection when I'm in mama bear mode. :)

Sarah
@sarah
06/22/16 08:18:45AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Pebble, Oh man, I so know this feeling. Schools are definitely not set up for empaths and sensitive kids. I'm so sorry that's happening to your child. :(

Sarah
@sarah
06/21/16 10:22:59AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Rhonda, I can so relate to that family dynamic. It plays out like that here, too. Good luck to all of us!

Sarah
@sarah
06/21/16 10:18:35AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Karen, I do that stuff regularly, BUT, I think it might be time to do an overhaul chord cutting, and ask my angels and guides to go ahead and cut any chords that are draining me, or that aren't necessary, or that aren't there to meet a need for my or someone else's highest and best good. I bet there is a lot of chording that I don't know about. I think I'll go do that now. Thanks for this suggestion. I think this might be a good day to focus on that and see if I might have a fresh start with less of this stuff.

Sarah
@sarah
06/21/16 10:15:51AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Oh man, I'm sorry you can relate. I am finding that, even though the issues are bigger--like dangerous depression, it's easier when they are teenagers than when they were little. When they were little, I could empathically feel that they had needs from me every minute. I let motherhood swallow me, and I sort of lost myself in it. Now that my kids are older, they can meet most of their own needs and I don't constantly feel that stress of needs, but it's still tough, because when they do need something, it's often really big like this. I hope you find some help, too. I think it's super important being empaths that we don't forget ourselves. I think we should do something that is nourishing to us every day and that give us as much distance as we can from everyone else's energy (as much as that is possible). Good luck to you and to all of us!

Sarah
@sarah
06/20/16 01:21:21PM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

Oh wow, I never thought of it that way. Thank you!

Sarah
@sarah
06/20/16 08:39:34AM
386 posts

Too much empathy for my kids


Empath

I grew up with parents that were damaged and couldn't have empathy for me. I believe they love me in the best way they can, but it's not like healthy people. I, on the other hand, being an empath, find that I have too much empathy for my kids and it hurts them and me. I wish I could turn it down and find a happy medium.

A few months ago, my son grown had a bout of depression that had him fearing for his safety. We had him come stay with us for a bit and helped him get on meds and get the help he needed. The night he came to us so distressed, though, I was so upset by his pain, I was just shaking and I couldn't sleep all night or for a few nights and I had trauma symptoms for a few weeks after that. I tried to fake that I was totally fine so I could be there for him, but it was obvious, I was rattled.

My not-grown daughter came to me last week with the same problem (it runs in our family). I was jarred again. She is an empath and was upset talking to me about it because she could see that I could feel and accidentally mirror what she was going through. We got her help right away, too. Last night she had what I think might be an adjustment period to the meds and had a bad night. I tried to keep cool to help her, but I wasn't fooling her. When she was better enough that we could all go to bed, I was shaky and off and woke up every few minutes with nightmares all night. Now it's morning and I feel like I ran a marathon in my sleep or something. I'm afraid I wan't be able to handle it if she has another bad evening.

It's so frustrating to not be able to turn off all that empathy and be there for your kids without your own empathy getting in the way. When I had kids, I knew I wanted to understand them for who they are and honor their individual journeys and have empathy for them as people, because I felt I didn't get a lot of that growing up and I felt every person deserves it. It feels like sometimes it goes too far, though. I don't want to be one of those useless moms who falls apart when her kids need her most. I've been able to keep it together for them, but I definitely fall apart later. I just needed to vent, so I can get up and help my daughter in whatever way she needs today and hopefully keep myself together in the process.


updated by @sarah: 01/09/17 12:52:07AM
Sarah
@sarah
06/19/16 08:56:29AM
386 posts

Ripped apart .


Empath

I've got PTSD, too. It sucks, but it sounds like you are in the worst part of it. The initial stuff fades after a while. Really, I think therapy and sometimes meds can be a big help to get back in balance to be able to deal with the effects of it all. I wish there was a simpler way--especially since a lot of us who have it, have it because of the actions of others. It feels not fair. I hope you get some relief soon. Hugs, friend!

Sarah
@sarah
06/13/16 09:29:18PM
386 posts

Energy body restoration/ soul retrieval


Healers

Interesting. I'm commenting here because I want to bookmark this and try some of these energy theories myself in my own healings. I really love the idea of asking for energy restorations especially. I'm going to try some of this stuff out and see if I can get some insight about it, too. Thanks for sharing this!

Sarah
@sarah
06/07/16 09:45:14PM
386 posts

Being an Empath, Substances and other Possible Gifts.


Empath

That sounds very wise. Have fun exploring your gifts! :)

Sarah
@sarah
06/07/16 03:22:17PM
386 posts

Are you deeply affected around Athiests?


Empath

His loss. What a sad way to live. :(

Sarah
@sarah
06/07/16 01:26:45PM
386 posts

Are you deeply affected around Athiests?


Empath

Thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed it. I hope it was helpful.

I'm sorry your dad, Ecila is stuck. That must feel awful to him. I wonder why he chooses that, especially when his daughter has so many gifts that would point to more to this universe than five senses.

Sarah
@sarah
06/07/16 08:48:12AM
386 posts

transparent, feeling like a mirror??


Empath

That sounds just terrible. I'm so sorry. That no will to do anything and lost motivation is what happens in extreme cases of being around a psychic vampire. They literally suck the life force out of you and leave you sick and exhausted and disconnected from yourself. I think you are exactly right that now he sees you living alone he sees you getting stronger and wants to break you down. :(

I hope you can get him out of your life. You only deserve people that respect you and honor you and your path, so you can get rid of the ptsd and the health problems caused by the abuse. No one can do the work to get you healthy but you, but if you weren't capable of strength and independence and vibrant health, you wouldn't be the target of negative people trying to sponge off your strong energy and keep you down so they can feed off you. I hope you have some good help to free you from your dad and mirror kinds of relationships that might pop up until you are free of those patterns.

At least here you can know that a lot of people understand personally what you are going through. You don't have to stay a victim or stuck or dependent. You can get healthy and move on from those patterns. You already have it in you.

Sarah
@sarah
06/07/16 08:40:08AM
386 posts

Are you deeply affected around Athiests?


Empath

You know, what Ecila said made me wonder if that negativity around atheists you feel might be described in James Fowler's Stages of Faith. He was a psychologist who created a model of spiritual development that might describe what you are sensing in others. All are healthy stages to go through none are good or bad, they are all rungs on a ladder, but sometimes a person can get stuck in one of the stages and choose to not move on. It is extremely rare for someone to get all the way to stage six, so most of us have a stopping place somewhere in there, but stopping is different than getting stuck.

The first two stages in a nut shell are believing what you are told and taking religious stories and myths literally. The third is when I think it starts to get interesting. It's when, around your early teens, you adopt an all encompassing faith system (you usually don't know you are in a spiritual box), and develop a more personal relationship with diety. Your judgement comes from outside yourself, like your sacred texts, church leaders, bishops, priests, popes and prophets, and community is a big part of belief. It's actually a pretty lovely place to be and most people don't move past stage three. Most western religions, but not all, are stage three faiths, so they fit nicely when most people stay at stage three. I would describe this stage as cozy. You are in the right church. You have all the answers and are grateful for that certainty. You have a supportive community and a god who speaks to you personally through leaders and texts.

Occasionally someone goes to stage four. It's the hardest of all six stages. You suddenly realize you were worshiping in a box and that your view has been extremely limited. You suddenly start dismantling all your beliefs. Your locust of control switches from on outside source to an inner one. It's a stage full of anger and rage and anguish and confusion and also of possibility and fast expansion and the excitement of new knowledge never before considered. It is a time of being sometimes overly reliant on science and proof and there is little room for mystery or the unknown. Often people become athiests in this stage if they stay here. When I went through this, it felt like I feel off a cliff. It was the hardest thing I'd ever been through, but also intellectually stimulating and exciting and explosively expanding, and I consider my time this stage one of the great treasures of my life.

At the same time, I have a lot of friends who went through this, too, years before I did, and they stayed in this stage and didn't move on to stage five which is a new appreciation of the limits of logic and an embracing of the mysteries and paradoxes of being. It's a time when a person can see the universal connection and the great whole ,and may return to the sacred stories, but this time not in a certain religion or strict set of beliefs. I wonder if what you sense in atheists is people being stuck in stage four. That energy can feel really rigid and angry and confused at times to be around. A lot of us empaths are probably naturally able to go to stages five and six (stage six is very rare. It is living a life in full service of others--like Jesus or other spiritual and social leaders) because of our set of gifts.

Maybe when you say atheists, you mean the ones that are stuck in stage four and have chosen to stay there for decades instead of using it as a stepping stone to greater understanding. They stay in the dismantling and never go to rebuilding. Some stages are fine stopping places, like stage three or stage five, but stage four, in my opinion, is a hard place to stop. It seems more a step on the journey than a destination, in my opinion. I'm no psychologist, and I've never heard anyone say this, this is my own opinion about it, but it seems that if you get stuck in that particular stage, it feels like it might be more likely than others to result in negative, closed off spiritual thinking. I could be mistaken, though. So many of us empaths are naturally spiritual and naturally embrace the unknown (even when we ourselves go through stage four) because we have spiritual gifts that are a part of our daily lives. When an empath goes through stage four, they might not only dismantle their old beliefs, but embrace new ways of being spiritual. My spiritual gifts burst open when I went through stage four, so I never was atheist, but nearly everyone else I know who went through that is.

I just wonder if being in stage four and refusing to move past it because you are clinging to logic as the only avenue to truth is what you are sensing. That could for sure feel how you described being around atheists.

Sarah
@sarah
06/06/16 09:50:17PM
386 posts

transparent, feeling like a mirror??


Empath

That sounds SO MUCH like me. Even standing in the line at the grocery store, people stop what they are doing and tell me everything personal about their life. Everything you said is so much like my experience. I'm also healing from PTSD and anxiety and adrenal issues and all that good stuff. Your dad sounds like a piece of work to talk to you that way. My dad is the same. He hates my spiritual path, too, but I think he sees how much happier and healthier I am and that is threatening to him. You might be having the same thing. They need you to stay sick and damaged so they can treat you like you are broken and put down your path and all that, when really, you are the strong one.

I just read a book that helped me a lot to stop shrinking myself and to set better boundaries with people. I'll always probably have a tough time with that, but I"m better than I've ever been about it by a lot since I learned some of the techniques in the book. I believe it's called Become the Most Important Person in the Room. That title I think is jarring and grating for us empaths, but really, that's what we should be in our lives.

Even with those techniques, I don't know what I'll do when I have to be around my family again. I think I might just have to stop going to our every three years family reunions because my dad is so poison and my mom doesn't do anything about it. I don't want to be around it anymore. You and I don't owe it to anyone to show up so they can abuse us. Good luck to you and to all the others here who can relate. You are very much not alone. Hugs!

Sarah
@sarah
06/06/16 09:41:07PM
386 posts

Being an Empath, Substances and other Possible Gifts.


Empath

Interesting! You should probably make sure to put up protection before you use substances so if someone is going to communicate through you that it only be the highest and best kind of spirit. You don't want to mess with any dark stuff. You probably already do that, but just in case.

I'm so sensitive to any substance, I've probably never taken enough of anything to have that kind of effect. Heck, half a bottle of beer is too much for me. That's one aspect of being an empath that I personally have that I don't like, being SUPER sensitive to substances of all kinds. I wish I could just have a drink or two occasionally like regular people, but instead every week I'll have maybe a literal splash of gin in a glass of tonic or half a beer or a tiny bit of wine and that's all I can do.

I've never tried weed before. I may one of these days, but I might wait until it's legal. I think that's just an excuse, though. I think I'm just afraid of it. I've done energy healing for people that use it a lot--like people who get very high several times a week and who are dependent on it to help them cope with life, not just casual once in a blue moon users, and there is often a lot of dark energy connected to that stuff. A lot of times it's because the dealer is dark or the growing practices are shady and for predatory or other dark purposes. Of course, I'm basing this off only a very few people that I've done healing for, but it was enough to make me nervous about trying it.

I wanted to comment here because also want to hear what people say about this. I'm really curious. I think I'm going to go have a beer. :)

Also, welcome! :)

Sarah
@sarah
06/06/16 09:15:02PM
386 posts

Feeling So Hopeful


Empath

I hope so. This job has been super good for helping me break some long standing patterns in my life, though. Since the anxiety was so bad, I was able to work with an energy healer and use my own gifts to take a big bite out of that anxiety and it's been significantly better since. Also, with all that narcissist energy in the job, I was able to finally really make a big dent in my being vulnerable to narcissists. That has been one of the most important things I've been able to heal in my life. I sure hope I don't have to heal the rest of it the hard way, by being surrounded by them, but I'm so grateful for what I was able to heal through this, but I hope I never have to learn this way again.

Sarah
@sarah
06/06/16 09:12:31PM
386 posts

Feeling So Hopeful


Empath

I had a good feeling about this job when I took it, and the first day of training went well, but by the second day of training, I was literally sick with anxiety. I have anxiety, so I thought it was just me. I didn't know it was the poison that was already working in me from these people. I think I will have to learn the difference between my regular anxiety which I try to not let stop me from living, and my warning anxiety which gives me the red light on things that will hurt me.

Sarah
@sarah
06/06/16 05:56:13AM
386 posts

Are you deeply affected around Athiests?


Empath

That could totally be it. I'm sorry you live in a town like that. It must be really hard for you as an empath.

Sarah
@sarah
06/05/16 10:42:09PM
386 posts

Are you deeply affected around Athiests?


Empath

Not at all. If anything, I tend to get bad energy from highly religious people. Not all the time of course and not from all religious people either, but most of the atheists I know talk about having a connection to all things and humanity and to fully embrace their lives since they aren't living for some kind of eternal reward or validation or single set of beliefs they think is the only true way. Some of the highly religious people I know are the opposite. They think they have all the answers and everyone who doesn't see things their way is wrong and must be sad and lost. I find that kind of thinking extremely annoying and off-putting. I'm sure there are self-righteous people in any line of belief or non-belief, but compared to many of the religious people I know, the antsiest people I know tend to be more open minded, tend to inhabit their lives more fully and tend to embrace mystery and possibility easier.

Sarah
@sarah
06/05/16 10:28:53PM
386 posts



Yeah, my rose colored glasses are coming off lately as well. I feel so exhausted by bad people. I grew up as the scapegoat kid of a narcissistic dad and a mom who let him get away with treating me like that. With all the lies it took to cover up what he was doing, I ended up sort of thinking none of it ever happened and wondering if I was a good person or a bad person because I wanted light and good, but all the messages I was getting was that I was bad, and of course I wasn't perfect so I assumed that maybe I was bad. Now I know it's my dad that's bad not me, but I keep attracting narcissists and I'm exhausted. I ordered a book just today on how to recognize bad people, because I automatically assume people are good, then I get used up and taken advantage of by people who pretend to be good, but are just people-users. I don't know. I'm just tired. I feel like I don't want to have any more jobs besides writing because I don't want to go back into more work places that are poison, where people lie that they are so good and that you are so bad and bully you and steal your light. I feel discouraged that I still often get fooled and taken advantage of.

Sarah
@sarah
06/05/16 10:11:25PM
386 posts

Feeling So Hopeful


Empath

I posted the other day about my toxic job that I was about to be finished with. Ever since I started this job last fall, Sunday nights, I have anxiety and feel sick because I can feel it coming up the next day. Also, I lost all my zest for life. I no longer wanted to write or hang out with friends or make things or take care of my house that I love or anything else that my source of life is connected to.

I finished the at-work part of it Friday, finished the volunteer hours for it Saturday and hopefully I will finish the paperwork part of it tomorrow, and that's the last of it. I'm already starting to feel some of my life-force flowing back to me. I just cleaned my kitchen and even though out of habit, I'm feeling some pre-work anxiety tonight, as soon as I realize what it is, it goes mostly away because I'm so close to being done.

I really think that job must have just been infused--or completely made of--narcissist or just plain toxic energy because of the people in charge of it. I had no idea the difference it can make depending on who's in charge. My last job at that same school was run by an empath lightworker and it was just so fun and I looked forward to it everyday. this one was run by three narcissists and it pretty much literally took my soul. I hope I never get in a situation like that again.

How can you tell when you start a new job if the energy is bad or if it's just the natural fear and feeling off balance of being new on the job? This job started out terrible and just stayed awful. I blamed myself for the first few months, then realized when it was too late and I was too committed that it was something toxic outside of myself. Thank god I'm almost free all the way and can claim my soul back all the way. I'm starting to feel really good for the first time in a long time.


updated by @sarah: 01/15/17 01:02:05AM
Sarah
@sarah
06/03/16 04:24:50PM
386 posts

Time line dream?


Dreams

Oh my god! what an amazing dream!

I can't really add anything to what Ecila said, but I just wanted to say wow! You are definitely a healer, what a gift! I can't wait to see how you develop this gift or set of gifts. I second the idea of keeping a dream journal and maybe even a journal of you learning about and developing your healing gifts from here.

Sarah
@sarah
06/01/16 10:08:55PM
386 posts



I always feel so mixed about this subject. On the one hand, I'm totally with you on this. Some things our world gets all worked up about are actually really small and insignificant in the grand scheme of things, and that can feel exhausting when so very much focus and attention are on them all day. I need nature every single day to regroup from that stuff. At the same time, I love beautiful things and that includes nice clothes and nice wine and nice art and the finer things of life. I don't have much money, but if I did, I would probably live it up. I think I've had past lives where I was glamorous women and men and part of me remembers, and part of me is still like that, even though I don't have the means to live like that, and my current life is much more quiet.

As a writer, I like to see all different sides of life, even ones that aren't what I would choose for myself. I love TV and books and movies for that reason. At the same time, I agree with you, that our society has lost the love and care and even some of the humanness that allows us to care for each other and our elderly and that is a tragedy. It is painful to see that and I can't watch the news or read article about that kind of thing because it is too upsetting to me.

I don't know. I think I often feel torn between heaven and earth: the spiritual life of words and thoughts and ideas and many of my empath gifts, and the world of nature and the complexities of being a human with all it's dirt and sparkle. I think I am a girl with one foot at home in both.

As far as feeling old, I'm in my 40s and I feel both young and old, but not often do I feel my actual age.

Sarah
@sarah
06/01/16 08:45:31PM
386 posts

Narcissist Blindside


Empath

That was so crazy, I'm having trauma symptoms. I've got the shakes and I'm having trouble remembering all that happened during that evaluation. I had no idea when I woke up early this morning all hopeful and excited to wrap up my job and feel good about what I accomplished that this was going to happen. I can't say I'm surprised about it not going 100% great, but I had no idea it would go this crazy. I'm going to have a hard time going to work for my last two days. I wish I could skip over time and just get it over with.

Sarah
@sarah
06/01/16 04:13:23PM
386 posts

Narcissist Blindside


Empath

Thanks so much for this! It really helps right now to have people listen and respond so kindly. thank you for the very good advise, too.

Sarah
@sarah
06/01/16 03:26:32PM
386 posts

Narcissist Blindside


Empath

Thank you for listening!

Sarah
@sarah
06/01/16 01:00:39PM
386 posts

Narcissist Blindside


Empath

The weirdest thing just happened to me! I'm all freaked out and jarred. I work at a school and my position is a one year run, so I'm done with it in a few days. As soon as I got this job back at the end of October, I instantly had super-through-the-roof anxiety and I got depression so bad, I started worrying for my safety. I was able to get myself some help and get balanced, but the job always felt bad to me and I could never put my finger on why. I worked at the school last year and the beginning of this year and was totally in love with that place. My new job in the school should have been fine, but it always felt bad and anxiety inducing and I always felt off in it, and I could never figure out why. It's only this past month where I don't wake up in a panic every work day.

I started to realize that my supervisor and some of the people who run the school are narcissists. My dad is one and I was his scapegoat kid, so even though I've done a lot of healing, I am still vulnerable to that narcissist/empath dynamic. I thought maybe it wasn't that bad and the problem was me not being able to cope with a full time grown up job--even though I've done that before when my kids were little, and it was just fine.

I've been feeling more and more hopeful and finding ways to enjoy it more as I am closing up the program I run at the school, seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm a writer and this job has taken all my writing away, and a lot of the things I love. It's like it's turned off the light inside me. I stayed with it because I'd made a commitment and because I cared about the school (I will always love the kids and the teachers and things, but now I see that it is not a healthy place. I didn't see that in my other position that I had last year and the beginning of this year). Well, today I had my final evaluation by my supervisor and the principal and the state program director. The totally crucified me! It was so weird! It was like when my dad has his narcissist fits. You never know where they came from or what they are really about, but they just come at you like you are being energetically beat up, then he blames you for it. That totally happened today to me!

It wasn't even a real evaluation, it was a punishment. They were on purpose trying to hurt me and I could totally see it. Even when they gave me a "compliment" it was meant as abuse. Like the only thing they gave me a good review on was wearing my required lanyard everyday. WHAT!? They even said I bullied them and created a hostile work environment! It was like being around my narcissist, abusive dad. I could hardly believe it was really happening. I guess that means my supervisor turned the program director and the principal against me. No wonder the poor principal has been weird around me for a few days. I don't know what my supervisor told him, but it must have been bad and it was definitely pretend. No wonder my empath alarms were going full blast when I got this job for me to leave it. I feel mad at myself for not listening.

I just needed to say this out loud because I'm really freaked out. I did some energy work and with all the healing I've done lately, none of that dark energy stuck to me that I could tell, but I'm having trauma symptoms. I just can't believe that happened. Like with every narcissist relationship I've had, which has been a few, I made the mistake of giving way too much and staying way too long. I should learn to stop thinking that if I have panic every day at a job, maybe it's the job that isn't right, not me. I still automatically try and fix myself first and that's one of the things that makes me a narcissist target.

I have two more days at that job and some paperwork stuff to do for them until into next week, but I will be so glad to be out of there. I didn't know it was so sick until today. I knew there were things wrong, but I didn't know it was full blown like being around my dad. :( I'm really sad at working so hard for something that didn't value my work, and mad at myself for thinking the problem was me and sticking with it, and mostly I"m really shaken up.


updated by @sarah: 01/08/17 10:30:50PM
Sarah
@sarah
05/22/16 03:24:32PM
386 posts

Reiki Questions


Healers

Yep. I'm right handed, but I have more energy in my left hand. Mine get so hot, too. They get all swollen and red when they are full of energy and when I'm doing a healing. I call them "hot dog fingers." :D Enjoy.

Sarah
@sarah
05/11/16 09:28:38PM
386 posts



I've had people say they were intimidated by me before and I totally don't get it. I don't even know what they mean by intimidated by me. I've had people say they knew of me and all that, but were afraid to just come up and talk to me, almost like they thought I was untouchable or above everyone or something. I don't even know what they are talking about, but there must be something because I've heard it more than once. I just have no idea what it is. I am no better than anyone at all and I don't think I'm untouchable. Like you, people often tell me their life stories and all that, so I assume I'm approachable, but there must be something I'm not seeing. It makes me feel weird because as empaths we see a lot, and we see things that others don't, but I totally don't see this in myself, even when I've been told this several times. I hope it's not a bad thing, but I don't know.

Sarah
@sarah
05/11/16 06:01:57PM
386 posts

Healing Modalities


Healers

I second the Reiki course. Once you do that and get certified, you can use it in a lot of different ways, and once you start using it, you will probably be able to intuitively expand your energy work.

Sarah
@sarah
05/03/16 04:47:02PM
386 posts

Reoccurring dream location


Dreams

I don't know why, but I'm drawing a blank, but I can tell this means something that would probably be pretty obvious to other members of this board. I'm commenting to pull it back up and see if we can get you some answers.

Sarah
@sarah
05/02/16 07:34:31PM
386 posts

not sure what it means


Dreams

Hm. I'm wondering if you have a bad spirit in the house like Karen suggested. I second the idea to smudge the house. Set the intention that either all spirits leave or only the highest and best can stay. Command any dark spirits to leave in the name of god or Jesus or whatever good energy you trust. Really, I'm just wanting to repeat everything Karen said.

What an unnerving dream. I'm glad you have your step mom's good spirit looking out for you.

Sarah
@sarah
05/02/16 07:29:44PM
386 posts

Reoccurring dream location


Dreams

In my dreams anyways, houses are a major symbol. For me they represent my life. Sometimes they are new and beautiful and sometimes run down, but with lots of beauty and potential. Sometimes I find rooms I didn't know where there and things like that. How do you feel about your childhood home? Is it a positive place or negative place or relatively neutral? What did the people in the house feel like to you? I feel like there is more to this dream than just the facts. What did it feel like?

Sarah
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04/29/16 11:19:30AM
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Fish in the Washing Machine


Dreams

That makes sense. I did have a lot of hard things I was trying to get through when I had this dream. Creativity is how I connect to myself, so that would make sense. Thanks!

Sarah
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04/26/16 04:35:02PM
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Very. I was so off this morning, I almost cried when I got to work because I didn't have ANYTHING to give. When I got there, I found out one of the girls I share an office with broke down and cried for the same reason not half an hour before, then a couple of hours later, it happened to another girl in my office--there are only four of us who share an office. Seriously something is very off today. It feels like there is a strong pull between light and dark or something because there seems to be a lot of really good and really bad happening now, like a contest to see who will win sort of thing, and us light workers can feel it too much.

Sarah
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04/26/16 02:35:56PM
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Is It Just Me Who Attracts Narcissists/ Sociopaths?


Empath

Thank you for that suggestion. I just bought the book so I'll know better how not to be such a target and how to deal with my dad.

Sarah
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04/26/16 02:32:57PM
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Is It Just Me Who Attracts Narcissists/ Sociopaths?


Empath

Yikes! That must have been heartbreaking. :( I'm sorry that happened to you.

Sarah
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04/26/16 02:28:56PM
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Interesting. Maybe take a bath in VERY salty water, and put the intention in the water that it will rid you of any dark energy.

Sarah
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04/26/16 07:31:09AM
386 posts

Having a hard time with my job


Empath

Thank you. I'm sorry you got let go, but I'm very glad you are out of the negativity.

Sarah
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04/26/16 06:14:51AM
386 posts

Having a hard time with my job


Empath

I work at a school. Last school year I worked here, too, at the after school program instead of what I'm doing now. I loved it. I love working with kids and enjoying all the crazy, funny random things they do. My main job is being a writer, but this job dovetailed nicely with it.

The thing is, we need more money because my husband is underemployed, so this past October, I took a different position at the school and gave up my after school job. It has been a nightmare since. As an empath, being at school during the day, I am picking up all the energy from unhealthy things at the school that I wasn't exposed to in after school. I've had super bad anxiety and in the beginning of the job, even, if I'm honest, feared for my safety because I was so miserable. It sucked out my ability to write and to laugh and cry and do things I enjoy. I've never had such a soul sucking job. It was given to me in such a way that if I quit, the school wouldn't have the program that I was running, and I care about those kids, so I've stuck it out.

This is my last week of running the program--thank god!! The problem is I am required in my contract to finish out the school year and to get a certain amount of hours by June 30. That means I have, after this, four more weeks of school, then two weeks off, then two weeks of summer school. The principal said I could work at the front desk for the last month so I'd have something to do. I was grateful for it.

Well, yesterday, I went to the front desk and all of a sudden I realized I'd have to learn a whole new job for four weeks, and I nearly started crying right there. I'm exhausted and burned out and I've given too much to this job. It was supposed to be a 20 hour a week, practically minimum wage job, but I actually work 35 hours a week and I can't do my writing job even though I'm under contract with my publisher. I feel like this job has been like a narcissist in my life, just sucking me dry and requiring more and more from me.

I'm up before my alarm right now, with anxiety and panic at the thought of facing another day at my job. Honestly, I don't know if I will be able to handle working the front desk for a month, which involves a lot of extra in our school because it is kind of a crazy school and is very understaffed. I do not know how to stand up for myself about it. My supervisor and the main lady who runs the program for the state are narcissists and are treating me in that narcissist empath dynamic where they expect more from me than from others and sort of treat me controlling and all that. It's making me sick and numb except for anxiety and some low grade depression, and dealing with them triggers PTSD from my dad being a narcissist and me being his scapegoat. It's really been poison to me. If any of you have any suggestions on what to do, I'd be grateful. I just hate it and every minute I'm employed in this position, I feel like I'm not free in my life. Sorry, if this sounds all dramatic. I'm having panic right now. :(


updated by @sarah: 01/10/17 08:06:01AM
Sarah
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04/25/16 09:17:47PM
386 posts

Is dating a non empath a recipe for disaster?


Empath

That's totally how I feel about my husband. I wish I could tell him everything, but if he was an empath, I would probably lose all balance. His non-empath-ness is, in a lot of ways, a gift to me.

Sarah
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04/25/16 09:15:38PM
386 posts



Good luck! :)

Sarah
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04/25/16 04:43:00PM
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You are already strong enough to hold your own. If not, the dark thing would really have no use for you. The power it offers you is false and comes with chains. Don't take it. Maybe try telling god or your guides or whoever you feel comfortable talking to to take that bad thing away and send something good offering you real help and not false help into your dreams and see what happens.

Sarah
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04/25/16 04:30:42PM
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I second this suggestion.

Sarah
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04/25/16 04:28:29PM
386 posts



Yes. I always have trouble keeping my root chakra open, and I doubt it's every been strong. I need to be out in nature every day to open it and even then, it's never as open as my crown and other upper chakras. Nature, food, reiki, socializing and things like that help my root chakra the most, but I still haven't found a magic bullet to keeping it open like a non-empath's root chakra.

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