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Sarah
@sarah
01/25/16 06:24:11AM
386 posts

Can't tell what is my energy and what is from outside myself


Empath

He told me. He said he thinks I'm brought here to wreck up his life. Very sad thing to say to an empathic, highly sensitive person who is a light worker. I expect it happens often, though. I think before we come here, we choose families that are suffering so we can try and stop the cycles and help heal. They have to accept it though, if they want to get better. We can't do that part for them. I think sometimes they find the one that is the empath healer and heap most of the abuse on him/her because they sense it and don't want to get better.

Sarah
@sarah
01/24/16 08:08:02AM
386 posts

Can't tell what is my energy and what is from outside myself


Empath

You sound like me, Snap. I have known for a while I was an empath and that I soak up other's emotions, but I don't always know what to do about it or to be able to tell what's mine and what's not. I, too, have people that are hard to be around because of the negative energy that is overwhelming that they throw at me. My dad is probably the biggest one. I can hardly be around him without huge anxiety attacks and getting sick. It's been that way for years. I didn't know he had such deep animosity towards me until this summer at a reunion. I guess all that time, he was spewing hate at me and his own self-loathing and anxieties. I just thought I always caught something and had anxiety for no reason at reunions. Good luck to both of us as we learn to navigate this world of being an empath. I hope both of us find the best techniques for each of us so we can use our abilities for the gifts they are and not get as bogged down with the hard parts of being an empath.

Sarah
@sarah
01/22/16 06:15:06AM
386 posts

Can't tell what is my energy and what is from outside myself


Empath

Yeah, I thought I was better at knowing what's mine and what's not, but when I got this job, I got all confused again. Oh well, maybe it's an opportunity to strengthen my empath super powers and learn on a deeper level what is mine and what's not or something. :)

Sarah
@sarah
01/22/16 06:13:56AM
386 posts

Can't tell what is my energy and what is from outside myself


Empath

Hm, after I read this, I looked inside to see of there was chording left, and there wasn't, BUT, I did find that one of my other co workers is feeding off my energy. I guess that makes sense. She doesn't even have a chord to me or anything, she just takes from me when I'm there. I'm not sure how that works. I guess I can go to work today and see if I can figure it out. Thanks!

Sarah
@sarah
01/21/16 03:01:43PM
386 posts

Can't tell what is my energy and what is from outside myself


Empath

I work at an elementary school. I worked there last year at the after school program and just loved it. This year I took a different position because it had more hours and I needed the money. This new job is a sort of community service type job at the school and so I don't technically work for the school now, even though I work at the school. I work for the service organization that set up this program. The problem is the lady who runs it on the state level is maybe a bad person or something. Whenever I've met with her for training or evaluations, she seems nice enough, but I always leave feeling off or sick or having things start to go wrong in my life and I have to do energy healing to fix it. I thought it was me being sad to leave my after school job for a job with more money, and my anxiety at being new on the job. I was so distressed after I met her the first time and started this job, that I went through a huge depression and started being worried for my safety. It was terrible. I learned this week, though, that the problem isn't me. It's the director lady.

She came for an evaluation for the three of us that work for her in the school a couple of days ago. The day she came, people's cars started breaking down, people started getting sick, everyone was just off. Even one of the ladies in my office who isn't under this director and who isn't an empath in any sense of the word, said she had nightmares after the evaluations that the director walked into our office and wrecked everything up and made it so we couldn't get any of our work done. It turns out, this director lady had just blasted all of us with bad energy to keep us down so she could have control and have all the power. It was so strange and shocking to me. We just want to help the kids at the school. It's not about power or control at all.

I had an energy worker friend clear all that bad energy from me and my co workers the next day, and things got better from there. I realized, though, after that how much energy I pick up from everyone at that school. They had bunches of issues with the computers and testing today and all the teachers and kids were off. I got so exhausted, I could barely sit up. I even thought I was going to be sick from exhaustion. I want to use the techniques here to protect me from other people's energy, but I can't really tell the difference between their's and mine. I don't know if I'm actually exhausted or if everyone around me is exhausted and stressed and I'm just soaking it up. I want to go back to my after school job next year, even though it's less money, it just feels better and makes me happier, but I need to stick this job out for the rest of the school year and summer school. I need to learn to figure out what is my energy and what is other people's if I'm going to do this. I don't know why this particular job is hard for me to tell my feelings from others, maybe some people I work with have such strong energy it's bombarding me or something. I just don't quite get it. All I know is I'm exhausted and I am counting the days until the end of August when I can be done. I hope I can protect myself enough and be able to tell what is my energy and what is other people's to get through it a little better from here on out.


updated by @sarah: 01/14/17 01:23:34PM
Sarah
@sarah
01/11/16 01:00:27PM
386 posts

Dreaming of Cruise Ships


Dreams

Weird, some of that message disappeared. You are totally right. How do you do that?I think I see my author friends getting on the New York Times bestseller lists and winning major awards and all that, and I am so happy for them, but I want my turn to really take off. It may or may not happen and I should just be happy with being nationally published, but I think I'm waiting for more and hopefully I'm ready for it.

Sarah
@sarah
01/10/16 01:16:08PM
386 posts

Dreaming of Cruise Ships


Dreams

You know, I bet you're right. I live in a community where I am not the only nationally published author. There are tons of us who write in the same genre, so here, being published is small fish compared to s

Sarah
@sarah
01/09/16 05:20:32PM
386 posts

Dreaming of Cruise Ships


Dreams

I do have one book published. I think my agent only takes references from conferences and things like that, though, and she also only represents children's books. A great place to start finding an agent is going to Predators and Editors. They list all active agents and which ones might meet your specific need, and which ones are good ones and which to avoid. It can be a long process to get an agent, but it's totally worth it. Good luck to you! :)

Sarah
@sarah
01/09/16 02:45:30PM
386 posts

Dreaming of Cruise Ships


Dreams

Hm, I could see that. I am a writer by profession, but I have a day job as well. In October I took a new day job that has a lot more hours, and my writing has been on the back seat since then, even though I have a book close to being ready to send to my agent to see if we can sell it. I've been feeling the call to do better at working on my writing daily, but I've not been very diligent about it because of the day job.

Sarah
@sarah
01/09/16 11:23:28AM
386 posts

Dreaming of Cruise Ships


Dreams

Last night, I kept dreaming of cruise ships. I was always in the water in a smaller boat, or on the dock watching, but every time, the cruise ship was enormous and fancy, kind of like Great Gatsby, but each one was different. And each time, they slipped right next to me very close, but I was never on one. Anyone have any idea what this might mean?


updated by @sarah: 02/24/17 10:58:42PM
Sarah
@sarah
12/30/15 07:54:06AM
386 posts

Spirit Animal Guide?


Psychic and Paranormal

I have snakes come to me a symbols of the divine feminine and symbols when I'm on the right track with changes in my life. I started really noticing it this summer. I take walks along a river close to my house quite often--several times a week. I have been going through big changes in my life leaving my religion, which is pretty intense, almost like leaving the amish faith in some ways in that it changes EVERY SINGLE ASPECT of your life and your family and friends either still love you, or shun you and tell you you are going to hell and all that, so it's been an intense couple of years of deprogramming and hard stuff. I noticed this summer that every time I turned a corner and got further along in my healing, snakes would cross my path. An energy worker friend said it's a sign. On days when I'd had big changes I might see two and sometimes three snakes. I'm rather afraid of snakes, so I scream every time this happens and probably look like a crazy person. I'm grateful for the signs none-the-less. :)

One of the last walks I took this summer, dozens of snakes crossed my path. Every time I wondered if it was an actual sign or not, I'd look down and there would be another. It was really amazing. I think, even if you are afraid of them like I am, they can be wonderful symbols and help bring messages from the divine--especially goddess messages or from the divine feminine.

Sarah
@sarah
12/30/15 07:48:22AM
386 posts

Fox


Psychic and Paranormal

Thanks for these replies, Bill and Journey! Some of the things on the links really resonated with me. Last night I got a new deck of oracle cards and when I asked what direction I should go in the new year, I got a card that was the coyote (it felt like it meant the same thing as a fox and a wolf that I keep seeing and dreaming about). It was the trickster and said that it means to relax and be playful and have a sense of humor and things like that. Really, I think I do need to do that. I'm playful by nature, but I've had a hard and serious couple of years. I think getting back to the childlike nature of my own soul a bit more would be helpful in helping me move on from the hard things and step into my new life with joy.

Sarah
@sarah
12/26/15 10:26:00PM
386 posts

Fox


Psychic and Paranormal

Weird, after I posted this, I dreamed about foxes and also of wolves.

Sarah
@sarah
12/23/15 09:18:48PM
386 posts

Fox


Psychic and Paranormal

Tonight I went a little ways out of the city to a quite spot next to a river and a wild field. I did a prayer ritual where I wrote out a prayer on a piece of paper and burned it in a circle of stones. It felt really nice, especially on a chilly, snowy winter night with an almost full moon.

As soon as I started to set up, I saw a little fox run into the field. It immediately started calling. Another fox that I couldn't see because it was too dark answered. The whole time I did the ritual, they were calling each other. I even think a third fox in another field was calling as well. It might have been an echo off a nearby school, but I think there were three. It was lovely to hear them calling. I hope they weren't calling danger because I was there or anything, but whatever it was, it was neat.

I felt like this was a message of some kind. Does anyone have any insight on this?


updated by @sarah: 07/09/17 02:58:34AM
Sarah
@sarah
11/18/15 07:49:38PM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

I really bet this is it. I couldn't figure out why getting a new job stressed me out so much. It is normal to be stressed about it, but this was way over the top. I still haven't been able to sleep through the night and I got the job a month ago. I get antsy and all off unless I'm moving. I think I'm in that stage two I think it is where it produces too much just before it peeters out. My body is exhausted and running on fumes. Then I resigned from my church which changed everything. I started to crash, but still had too much adrenaline, and working in a school around all those germs, my body didn't stand a chance. Incidentally, one of the best things you can do for adrenal health is take zinc, which was suggested several times here. Actually, just about everything that has been suggested by each comment are things that help adrenals heal.

Sarah
@sarah
11/18/15 07:36:18PM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

I have had trouble with my adrenals getting burned out before. I think I even still have some herbal stuff that can help. I can do some energy work for that, too. Yeah, I bet the excess anxiety when I got my new job a few weeks ago, was my adrenals shorting out. I didn't think about that. It's happened before.

Sarah
@sarah
11/18/15 02:50:19PM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

Yeah, I really do need to rest as much as I can. I know one of the reasons I have anxiety is because I have gone without taking proper care of myself. I just need more rest and down time that most people--maybe a lot of us empaths do, too. I'm going to rest as best as I can now. Thanks!

Sarah
@sarah
11/17/15 08:24:59AM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

That doesn't surprise me. Almost all my stress goes directly to my stomach. I have anxiety issues and it almost always manifests as feeling sick to my stomach. My poor gut. :) One thing I've found is that keeping the gut bacteria as good by taking probiotics and things like that helps my moods and my anxiety.

I'm not quite well enough to go to the store and now my daughter is really sick, but when I feel up to it, I'll get some Airborne. I hear great things about that stuff.

Also, I have some homemade broth I made myself in the freezer. Maybe later, I'l have some.

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 07:33:44PM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

I keep feeling that I need to take Vitamin C lately, but I haven't been listening. I think I'll see if I have some in the house. I know I have zinc. I've not been eating well because of stress and I'm sure that it taxing my system. My stomach is so sensitive and that's where all my stress goes, so I've not been able to eat much fruits and veg because when my stomach is out of sorts, I need bready starchy things that really aren't that nutritious because it's what my stomach can handle. I can't eat much of anything right now, but I can take supplements. I'm going to go right now and see what I already have on hand.

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 07:09:27PM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

I'm sure you're right. My trauma triggers are all activated by getting a new job and leaving my church and I can't seem to be able to handle things--including germs--very well right now. I hope I can go to work tomorrow, we'll see, I'll have to take it as easy as I can, though. Thanksgiving break is next week and I only have two days of work and I'm not cooking Thanksgiving dinner, so hopefully, I'll just spend it resting.

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 07:05:54PM
386 posts

Crystals


Empath

:D :D

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 02:43:47PM
386 posts

Feeling distant


Empath

I'm so sorry you are going through this. :(

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 02:41:09PM
386 posts

Crystals


Empath

I use crystals, too. For me, their subtle energy is just right. One of my daughters graduated from high school this past spring. I was worried about the ceremony. I wanted it to be all about her, but these kinds of things are hell for me as an empath. They are overly emotional and filled with thousands of people--her's was at a huge sports arena. I really have a hard time not picking up on everyone's emotional energies at things like that, and it can tear me up and wring me out and be way, way too much. I wanted to be strong and not let my daughter know it might be hard for me. I wanted her to have fun and enjoy and be proud of what she did without her mom being a basket case. I went to a store where they sell crystals and told the girl that worked there my situation. She handed me a little black crystal that I believe wasBlack Tourmaline. She said it might be of help. I bought it and on graduation day, stuffed it in my bra and went to the event. Maybe that's how you can tell an empath, theyhave a brafullof crystals to getthrough the day. :D Anyway, it went great. My daughter had a fun time and enjoyed it very much, and I could be around all those people and hear all the emotional stuff and be just fine. It was the best graduation I'd been to because I wasn't just trying to make it through all the bombarding energy. I shouldprobably wear that stone more often. :)

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 02:34:18PM
386 posts

Crystals


Empath

That's neat!

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 02:33:17PM
386 posts

Crystals


Empath

Awesome story!

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 12:02:24PM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

You're probably right. What you said about being bombarded on all sides is probably really true because I could feel it as soon as I read it. Yeah, I'm not very good at resting, even though I think I probably need it more than most people on a daily basis, even when things are fine. I need to let go of this guilt for taking down time. I feel like I'm not allowed, and I guess that's another factor in me being sick a lot.

I had a dream last night that I was breastfeeding bunches of people. Pretty obvious symbolism there that too many people and responsibilities are draining me right now. I better go figure out how I'm going to get some real rest to be able to start getting healthier. Thanks!

Sarah
@sarah
11/16/15 11:31:56AM
386 posts

Sick a lot?


Empath

I'm home sick from work right now. I feel a little discouraged about it. I've been feeling under the weather for about a week now, and I missed another day of work last week because of it. The thing is, I really think it's less about having a virus or whatever, but more about being an empath and the sensitivity that goes with it.

About three and a half weeks ago, I changed jobs. I am a writer from home for my main job, but I need a day job to help with the bills. I was only working out of the house 12-16 hours a week until a few weeks ago. I loved my very part time job, but another position opened at the school where I worked that I knew would be a good fit for me, more hours and more money, so I took it. Since then, I've been a wreck. I've had anxiety like crazy. I've had super deep depression. I've had several sicknesses and can't seem to shake them all the way, and when I'm not at work, I'm having to rest excessively. I haven't had the mental or emotional energy to write either. The thing is, the job is about 30 hours a week--so not even really full time. It's flexible in that I can do some of it from home. The commute is only a mile and a half. It's at a school I love with co workers I love and kids I love. This is not a case of having the wrong job and my spirit protesting. This is something else entirely. It's like my body and soul are so sensitive, that this change has rocked it to the core and I can't cope. I even started seeing a therapist because I was alarmed how hard this transition was for me. Yes, I have had other big life shifts during this new on the job time, too, but my body seems to be reacting out of proportion.

I know it's not unheard of to be sick at lot when a person is first on the job or has other big life changes, with the stress of learning the new position, of working two or three times the hours they are used to working, and being around all those new kids and germs. But this feels different to me. I'm not even sure I'm actually sick, I might just be having some symptoms because of the anxiety of it all.

Are any of you like this. Part of me really hopes I'm not alone in this, but another part of me will feel bad if you all have this issue, too. I just wish I could do what normal non-empath-sensitive people do and just tough it out, but my soul absolutely won't let me.


updated by @sarah: 01/15/17 02:38:24PM
Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 08:57:18PM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

Well, I did it. I attended the mass resignation event. It was bigger than expected--about 1000 people showed up and about 2000 resignations were registered. That is HUGE! Although I'd already resigned a week ago, it was really good for me to go to this to stand up for myself and get a sense of community, support and closure. Afterwords I was able to post about my resignation publicly on Facebook. So far, there has been nothing but positivity as a result. People who would be angry or hurt have just kept their mouths shut so far, and everyone else has been very supportive and understanding. Even the newspaper run by the church, when they tried to put us down by saying we were all inactive and don't really count, so it was fine that we resigned, sounded irrational and the other news stories that represent it more honestly seem to be the ones circulating more widely. I think this is was a good thing and will keep bringing good things.

I can feel that my vibration rose a lot today as a result of this action. Now I'm feeling a bit off and jumbly as I try to catch up with the vibrational rise. I think it's going to be early to bed for me tonight. I'm actually pretty proud of myself for being so brave today. Thank you all for your help in interpreting the dream and for your comments. It was a big help!

Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 06:49:31PM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

That's what it feels like. It is super crazy and just underlines how important it is for us to get out. My poor son. This feels creepy that they do this.

Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 05:58:32PM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

Thank you so much!

Also, yep, you need a lawyer. My son resigned the day before I did, but didn't want to use a lawyer. He just now got his first harassing letter telling him he has to go to church and explain himself to the bishop or they won't let him go. It's really like leaving an abusive boyfriend. I hope it's all over and final soon.

Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 10:58:05AM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

Thank you so much for all of this! It really is blowing my mind. Thank you! Also, I've never even heard of Bing's Library of Light. I'll go check it out right now.

Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 10:20:05AM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

Wait, I just realized something else. If you add all the cars, the wrecked ones with mine, the number is 11 a big angel number.

"ANGEL NUMBER 11


The karmic MasterNumber 11symbolizes the principles ofspiritual awakeningandenlightenment, high energy, idealism, inspiration and intuition,illumination,visionary, enthusiasm, creative/creativity,self-expression and sensitivity, andmysticism. Number 11 tells us that to connect with our higher-selves is to know and live oursoul mission and life purpose.
Angel Number 11 is a message from your angels to pay special attention to your thoughts and ideas as these are revealing the answers to your prayers. Yourpositiveaffirmationsandoptimistic attitudewillmanifest your desiresand help you to achieve your goals and aspirations. They will also assist you upon yourspiritual lifepurpose and soul mission.
Angel Number 11 encourages you to assist and inspire the human race via your natural abilities, relying upon yourinner-wisdom and intuitionto guide you.
Repeating Angel Number 11 encourages you to be an inspirational guiding light to bring illumination to others and to help raisespiritual awareness. Trust that theangelssupport you in your light work."
Sorry for the hyperlinks, I don't know how to make those just regular words. :)
Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 10:06:27AM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

Oh my god! You are right! You are totally, totally right! Thank you for this!

Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 10:04:22AM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

It's the LDS church. They do some kinds of emotional and spiritual blackmail like Scientology. I really like your take on this! I bet you're right. Thanks!

Sarah
@sarah
11/14/15 08:03:56AM
386 posts

Dreamed I ran a red light and caused a multi-car accident


Dreams

Just a few minutes ago, I dreamed I accidentally ran a red light, and didn't realize I was doing it until I was in the middle of the intersection and it was too late. I ended up only getting a tiny scratch on my car, but a bunch of people ended up wrecking their cars as a result. No one died or were seriously hurt, but some of the cars were pretty smashed up. I believe there were ten other cars in the wreck. I'm not sure, but I think that was the number.

This feels unnerving to me, as today I plan to out myself publicly as having resigned from my church. I resigned last Saturday by an email, but my church tries to make it difficult and harasses people who resign, so I got a lawyer to handle it, as he is processing resignation letters pro bono for people leaving en masse right now. The church will speed up the process and stop the harassing if you get a lawyer, because they are afraid of legal action. The church came out with a policy that bars children of same-sex couples from blessings and membership until they turn 18, move out of their parents' home and renounce their parents' lifestyle. It's the last straw for many people--including me and some of my kids, and people are leaving by the thousands. Today I am attending a mass resignation event that will likely be covered by the national media, and then I plan on posting to Facebook that I have resigned, and that I was part of that event. I need to go to the event to show that I refuse to be a part of an organization that treats children this way. I need to go to support friends that are suffering and I need to go to help me be brave and learn to be myself out loud and not sneak what my real feelings are about the church and my life because I'm afraid it will hurt someone. I need to stop being small and allow myself to say how I feel out loud.

This will break my parent's hearts, and some friends and family's hearts. Even some of the people who understand and support me will likely be sad. Leaving a church like the one I left is no small thing. They write you out and say you no longer go to heaven, you lose your spouse and kids for eternity, you lose all blessings and promises you got in the church, and they make it like you don't even exist. When my parents go to look at their records, it will say they have no daughter or grandkids from me. It is super-crazy spiritual blackmail and not a place for an empath.

I think this dream represents my fears that I might be doing the wrong thing and causing pain to many. I know I'm doing the right thing for me, but I guess there is still a small part of me that is still afraid and still processing. I'm going to have to be brave and stand up for what I believe today and I hope it is not accidentally dangerous or causes a metaphorical ten car pile-up in its wake. Wish me luck!!


updated by @sarah: 03/01/17 06:34:01PM
Sarah
@sarah
11/03/15 09:27:56PM
386 posts

Stuck in a healing--any insight?


Healers

Interesting stuff, Peter. Thanks!

Sarah
@sarah
11/02/15 10:35:38AM
386 posts

Stuck in a healing--any insight?


Healers

I did do the birth just before this big one. I saw that one of my big core issues was birth trauma. Being such an empath, when my mother went into labor, I apparently picked up on her distress and fear and pain. I was so distressed when it started, then the birth was painful and distressing and part of my soul shattered when I was born. I was able to go back and have my heavenly mother put protection between me and other people's emotions. She eased the way for me and gave me that same protection and peace when I was born. It really helped me feel good and I think will make a difference.

This one that I'm stuck on happened not long after my birth. I was home from the hospital, but very young, and I think I might have had stomach issues or something. I saw that I experienced pain and that my mom wasn't able to fix it, and would let me cry it out all night. One time it was so overwhelming that part of me just died and went back home. That's where I'm stuck.

Sarah
@sarah
11/02/15 07:11:57AM
386 posts

Stuck in a healing--any insight?


Healers

Things have been going very well on my healing journey lately. The only thing that I don't like is the past couple of years I've been in this place of healing, it seems like all the issues I've had in my life have lined up and when I've full addressed one, the next one comes up for healing. I'm kind of exhausted, and there doesn't seem to be much rest between issues coming up.

Well, I've been feeling good lately, and more whole than I have in a while, until a couple of weeks ago. I have a job I like, but I needed to be working more hours. Another position opened at the school and I got the job. Since that day, for some reason, it's brought up what might be my root issue. It's so painful that I am having a hard time even keeping my spirit in my body. I"m having so much depression, I started feeling scared and started seeing a therapist.

Last evening, I found a technique that is quite similar to one that one of you told me about a year ago that helped me. I did it. I found the emotional pain that I was feeling the most and went into meditative state. I sat with it and asked when I last felt this feeling, then when I first felt it. I was able to find the root of the pain. Then I was able to ask what it needed, and be with myself and call on heavenly help to relive the situation in a healthier way. It helped surprisingly well. I actually felt so much relief that my spirit was mostly in my body.

A few hours later, I woke in the middle of the night with a huge crushing, emotional pain. It's a feeling I know because I've had it all my life and it feels like the root of my sometimes depression and very prevelant anxiety. The pain was turned up to eleven, though, and I could hardly breathe. I did the technique on it. I found the root of it, but I wasn't able to see what it needed. I stayed present with that horrible feeling, breathing and doing my best to survive it for FOUR HOURS! I was not able to hear what it needed and I didn't know what to do. This morning, I am feeling that pain and I"m trying to distract myself so I can go to my new job and celebrate my husband's birthday and all that but the pain is so deep. I am having a hard time not crying and crying.

The pain was from when I was a new baby, and found life so painful that part of me died and went to live with my mother goddess in heaven. I knew I'd only been half here really all my life, and I knew I'd been with my heavenly mother, but that's why. I do not know how to integrate those two parts or convince the other half of me to come back or what I need to do. I can't die now, it's not time, but I can't live with this pain. I feel like it came up with such force because it is ready to be integrated and made whole, but I don't know what to do. Any of you healers have any advise?


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Sarah
@sarah
09/29/15 06:18:54AM
386 posts

Dream of Forgiveness


Dreams

Wow! That's really cool!

Sarah
@sarah
09/17/15 07:14:37AM
386 posts



I don't know. I've always loved rainy days and connected with them well, but I don't know the reasoning behind why they feel good and why my gifts are turned up during them.

Sarah
@sarah
09/15/15 08:17:11PM
386 posts



Definitely.

Sarah
@sarah
09/15/15 06:28:21AM
386 posts



I am way more creative and balanced and happy on rainy days. My gifts all get turned up when it's raining, too.


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Sarah
@sarah
09/09/15 08:26:46PM
386 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

I use fish oil for my anxiety and depression and it helps a lot--especially with the depression. Also, yes, autoimmune stuff, I think is very often caused by abuse. I'm sorry you have to deal with all that.

Sarah
@sarah
09/09/15 04:09:56PM
386 posts

The Moon


Empath

Thank you! That was really helpful!

Sarah
@sarah
09/09/15 11:57:45AM
386 posts

The Moon


Empath

Thank you! :)

Sarah
@sarah
09/09/15 10:35:51AM
386 posts

The Moon


Empath

Thank you! I don't know if I'm into astrology or not. I'm new to all of this, but that sounds like a good place to start. Thank you!

Sarah
@sarah
09/09/15 10:35:03AM
386 posts

cluster B parents


Empath

My kids are wiser than I am, too. :)

I had a time like that with my dad this summer. I have never stood up to him before in my life and I did. I know he can't hear me and it won't make a difference in how he treats me, except it might get worse, but I was proud of myself. I took that time of extra abuse directed at me and my husband and kids as a gift. I saw how truly sick my dad is and how it has left dark energy to clear all over myself and my soul. I saw that I could be proud of myself for growing up in that environment and still being a spiritual person and a whole person. I saw that if I had chosen to be less healthy, he would abuse me less. It's my strength and wholeness that is a threat to him somehow. It was truly a great gift and ended up being a springboard for some deep healing.

At the same time, when I see him again in November, I'm not sure how to behave around him or to protect myself, but I will no longer take that abuse.

I like your suit of armor idea. Good luck to you and to us both! Hugs!

Sarah
@sarah
09/09/15 09:38:36AM
386 posts

Reincarnation: is it reality?


Empath

I believe in reincarnation even though I was raised in a religious tradition that didn't believe in it. It's still hard for me to accept it all the way because of my religious programming, but learning about some of my own past lives has really helped me heal and grow. Also, being able to help heal other people's past lives helps me understand a little more about people and about the nature of life. I'm not sure everything is as straightforward as living, then dying then living again. I tend to think of it all like there are different dimensions of things and no time, so it's beyond what we can understand all the way, but for me it's the best explanation of what happens to us that I can understand yet.

Sarah
@sarah
09/09/15 09:33:23AM
386 posts

The Moon


Empath

I've recently been drawn to learning about the moon and how it affects me, and to begin to work with the moon's cycles. I'm not totally sure where to start. Can anyone recommend a good book on the moon and maybe rituals connected with it for its different phases?


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