Forum Activity for @nea

Nea
@nea
09/25/11 06:39:41AM
201 posts



I believe we're all a little insane - because it's the only way we can deal with what we experience. I've never had alcohol, so my problem is more about trying to rip off the layers of 'protection' I've added to not get overwhelmed. It's like I don't know who I am, or if there's even an 'me' somewhere in there... I'm literally fighting to not fight everything around me, and myself. I haven't 'cried to anyone' since I was a little girl. I rarely or never speak about my true inner thoughts and feelings to anyone. I've always felt emotionally and intellectually completely alone. I know I am incredibly dysfunctional.

It's only due to my faith I haven't gone completely and utterly insane. That, and humor.

I actually have to fight to press the 'add reply' button right now.


updated by @nea: 01/13/17 01:18:06PM
Nea
@nea
09/25/11 06:29:40AM
201 posts

Dream about healing - what does it mean?


Healers

I really don't believe that's what I did - it was a powerful dream, but I doubt I did anything else except go into my subconscious. I didn't remember everything when waking up, and nobody was actually speaking to me. Also, There were several of my relatives there, and only my grandfather is actually dead. So it doesn't fit, and I don't see why I would or even have the ability to connect to 'the other side' - whatever that even means. But thanks for sharing, I appreciate it.

Nea

Nea
@nea
09/23/11 08:12:26AM
201 posts

Dream about healing - what does it mean?


Healers

What do you mean when you say 'the other side'?
Nea
@nea
09/12/11 02:48:04PM
201 posts



I can definitely sense the moon - it's strange. Sometimes I feel it like going right through me - I get tense and unfocused and I can't sleep very well. I feel like hiding under the bed covers for a whole day when it's like that.
Nea
@nea
09/09/11 11:10:28AM
201 posts

Dream about healing - what does it mean?


Healers

I don't know anything about out of body experiences, so I wouldn't know, but it was definitely a very powerful dream. It wasn't just like I saw these people in my dream - I felt a connection. If that makes sense.
Nea
@nea
09/06/11 07:40:53AM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

I can relate. :) I am currently feel better, so I'm practicing shielding techniques - hopefully I'll get better at controlling my energy levels.
Nea
@nea
09/06/11 07:30:56AM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Funny you should mention laughing, because it's the one thing that keeps me sane some days. I like watching comedy or just laughing at anything. :)

Also, I wish I had a bathtub... :P

Nea
@nea
09/02/11 05:53:58AM
201 posts

The empathic ability to sense


Empath

Especially when I was in my teens I could completely freak out if I had stated an opinions strongly, or said something that hurt someone - even if it was unintentionally. I still am like that, but I have learned to see past my own emotions, and try to see what they see - which often is not the same. Does that make sense? I still have to work things out, but I know what I am feeling is not what they are thinking. I always were so immersed in my own feelings, that I had a hard time distinguishing between feelings and thoughts. I guess that makes more sense now that I know I'm a HSP, and probably an Empath, LOL. :)
Nea
@nea
09/02/11 05:48:37AM
201 posts



I don't really tell them either, I do describe, sort of vaguely, what I sense. Even if they don't take it literally, at least I don't have to bend over backwards to be something other than myself. I describe how something makes me sad, or how I can sense how someone else is doing or some such. I don't ever use the phrase 'I'm an empath'. It wouldn't mean anything to them, and they don't need to know the concept, as long as they accept me for me. I hope that makes sense. :)

Nea

Nea
@nea
09/02/11 05:44:52AM
201 posts



One neat thing that I thought about today is that it's such a wonderful experience to read a book or see a movie when you can connect so strongly to the characters and the story. It makes me grateful.

Nea
@nea
09/02/11 05:40:50AM
201 posts

Dream about healing - what does it mean?


Healers

Thanks for your reply! It was definitely a strong enough dream to try to interpret it. It felt like I got a peak into my subconscious that I otherwise don't have much knowledge about, so it's kind of exciting, too. :)

I was told I have healing abilities, but I really wrestle with that notion, and I certainly don't feel ready to believe I do have it. From what you drew out for me, it might have been my subconscious fighting with itself to resolve an internal conflict. But I think you're right, that it's more to it. I'll think about it, like you said.

Thanks! I feel better about the whole thing now. <3

/Nea

Nea
@nea
09/01/11 02:05:17PM
201 posts

Dream about healing - what does it mean?


Healers

Hey guys,

I had this very strong dream yesterday - I had fallen asleep after I got home from work, because I was so exhausted. I don't remember all of it, but I do remember the end because it was so intense. Basically there was a group of people around me that I in my dream identified as family - but I only recognize my mom and one of my brother after the fact, except...well... I dreamt an intense energy rose within me and I could see my hands pulsing green, and then I walked around the room and held everyone's hands, and I felt energy leave me. Then suddenly my dead grandfather was right in front of me, and I touched him with my hands and it was so intense - I felt like I couldn't breathe. When I let go, this 'thing' came and it had a weird face, and I fought it, and it was gone. Then I woke up, feeling rattled and tired in my entire body.

I've never had a dream like that before, and I was wondering why I had it.

(sorry if this is in the wrong place)


updated by @nea: 03/11/17 11:16:11AM
Nea
@nea
08/29/11 07:31:35AM
201 posts



Thanks! It means so much knowing there are people there for you. :)
Nea
@nea
08/24/11 09:20:25AM
201 posts

Urgent help needed for new member.


Empath

Hello Elise,

I'm sorry for your pain. Sometimes it's a horrifying thing to be human. But don't you know there is someone that understands everything you're going through? All that is needed is one honest cry for help, and he'll be there. You may not always sense him or feel him, but he is definitely there. The best part? He is victorious over all those things you experience.

This passage from the Romans 8 always helps me and makes me feel calm and safe. Just reading out loud helps - especially verse 38-39. Maybe it can help you:
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31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us allhow will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who diedmore than that, who was raised to lifeis at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:

For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.

37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

---

Avic amare a santum

Nea

Nea
@nea
08/20/11 08:01:41PM
201 posts

making friends as an empath


Empath

I haven't really noticed the name thing, but then, it's true I can pretty much talk to anyone, and they don't seem to mind they don't know me, but I don't really have friends in that sense, I never did. :P Funny how I can easily feel connections to people, but that it doesn't seem to stick.

Interesting things about names - I don't really like my birth name - I have never felt connected to it at all. I feel much more connection to the name 'Nea', which I've given myself.

Nea
@nea
08/11/11 09:15:29AM
201 posts



Thanks, I will do my best. :)
Nea
@nea
08/11/11 07:50:52AM
201 posts



Validation? No, not really. I am only beginning to understand myself and what it means being an Empath. I feel alot of things, but I don't really know myself, so I can't tell the difference between others emotions and my own. Most of the time I can't even identify the emotions I am feeling. Especially in large crowds I shut off, and I can't really feel anything but a giant weight on me - or when I manage to shield, an empty heavy void.
It's really confusing, and it makes me constantly doubt I'm even an Empath. My instincts tell me I'm an Empath, and it fits, and I've gotten a reading that says I am, but nonetheless it's hard for me to accept for some reason.
I think it will take a lot of work to go beyond the confusion, and it's probably going to be a life long struggle to make sense of it all.
Unfortunately I don't have anybody in my life that can help me with the validation either. I'll work on that though.


updated by @nea: 12/25/16 01:49:23AM
Nea
@nea
08/06/11 05:58:08AM
201 posts



We don't need to fight evil, because Christ already conquered all. It is not we that will defeat demons or principalities, but the holy spirit that resides in us. Because where God is, there can be no evil, it has to flee.

I pray to our King, He who sits on the right hand of the Father, the Conqueror of All, Christ our Brother, that he frees you from your fear and bring you Light and Peace and Truth. Because truth will set you free.
In Christ Holy name,

Amen.

Try this with your heart and spirit and love.

God bless you.

Nea


updated by @nea: 01/07/17 08:05:13PM
Nea
@nea
07/29/11 09:19:49AM
201 posts



Hmm, that's interesting, because I do get shivers sometimes when I'm not cold - for as long as I can remember I have felt those. For instance just sitting at work thinking, or eating at a table, or when I'm concentrating on grounding or shielding. Maybe I should pay more attention about what is happening and think about what I am feeling. I've actually been thinking at times that those are different from when you get cold chills or whatever. Hmm, maybe I'm just confused about what 'cold chills' are, but paying attention can't hurt, right?
Nea
@nea
07/29/11 06:58:34AM
201 posts



I had to think about this one, because I am still adjusting to the idea of myself as an Empath, but I do remember feeling my grandmother was very tired, and I also asked her if she 'was angry' (in my mind that was the only thing I could ask), but she said she was fine. But of course she wasn't, she was very sick from cancer. I can't say if I felt anything else, and I ofcourse I was too little to know what cancer was (I think I was about 7 or 8), but it's a very vivid memory.
When I was about 5 or 6 a little fox came to our yard in front of the house and he was very curious - everybody went to watch it, but I was the only one that had to feed it with some cheese. I don't remember being scared at all. Also a very strong memory.

Nea
@nea
07/29/11 06:28:42AM
201 posts



Bing, can you elaborate what you mean by 'chills'? Just the regular chills you get now and then that makes you shiver all over, or something else?
Nea
@nea
07/27/11 07:10:08AM
201 posts



I can relate, and I'm sorry it's so hard for you, but you can definitely learn to deal with it.

Funnily enough, my journey has been sort of opposite - I've learn just a couple of months ago that I am an Empath, and it's been a struggle for me, and still is, to sort out what is me and what is others. I felt constantly depressed for so long, and then I moved out from a house where 3 people that was emotionally, mentally and physically drained lived. But I didn't know what was happening, because I've always 'dealt' with it (meaning I didn't really), or lived with it, without knowing other people didn't feel things so strongly as I did. Thankfully I don't seem to pick up pain from random people - I don't know if I'm naturally shielding or filtering, but it's my mom or siblings that I feel the most from. Right now, I'm trying to figure out what I did and still do that worked for me - because at some level I've been filtering or shielding without knowing what I was doing. Although it was very random, since I was unaware.

The other thing I've learned is that I send out emotions - and that if I pick up something miserable, then I get miserable myself, and that's what I send out. So being in control what I pick up and what I send out, is a thing I'm starting to learn also.

It's like getting to know a new side of yourself that you didn't know existed. My intuitive self is kind of running rampage and I have to start controlling it, or at least learn to understand it.

I got a little long winded, sorry.

My point is that to learn how to control it, my 2 cents is that you need to learn more about yourself, and your intuitive self the most. We all deal with things in our lives very differently, and we all have to get to know ourselves before we can control that part of us. Although I think some things we probably never can control, but we can understand them, and counter act them.

Avic amare a santum

Nea

Nea
@nea
07/18/11 12:46:47PM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Thanks all of you for your replies. The more I think about this, the more it seems to be a sensory overload of some kind - or a fluctuation in energy. Whatever it is, it seem to make me more vulnerable - I have to ground more, and shield more. I seem to need more sleep too.

I think all of you have valid points, and it might be any of the things suggested, or all of them combined. I'm not the best source of info here, because I am still struggling to separate myself from my surroundings, and I definitely have a hard time determining different energy sources - it all just mixes up in a big bowl of soup for me. And let me tell you, drowning in soup is not pleasant. ;)

Right now, I am feeling pretty good, but when I was at work today, I thought I was going literally insane. I felt like I hadn't grounded or shielded at all, and I was close to being completely overwhelmed. Sure, there's a lot of people in the same place at work, but I've been relatively fine for months now (yeah I know I should probably find another job ;)).

Anyway, being more vigilant with the shielding and sleep more should do the trick, if not, then I'm at loss.

Also, I've been thinking i need to work out or at least take more walks.

Nea
@nea
07/18/11 02:19:17AM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Thank you, I'll consider it carefully. Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm new to this, and can't quite separate myself form the surroundings. I dunno.
Nea
@nea
07/16/11 05:43:28AM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Are your bones feel like they are burning hot too? Also I feel like I want to smash something. I think it might be some sort of energy spike. Possibly due to the moon, at least for me. But I can't tell for sure.
Nea
@nea
07/16/11 05:40:59AM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Np! Hopefully we'll all get better at grounding and doing visualization techniques. :)

Nea
@nea
07/15/11 02:45:12PM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Thank you - yeah, problem is I'm horrible at grounding when in this vortex - but maybe I just need to get better at it. I dunno. And not sleeping well doesn't exactly help lol. Although I a couple of beautiful amethyst stones that I think might help with the sleeping once I get used to them.
Nea
@nea
07/15/11 02:40:58PM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Yeah, funnily enough - I've noticed the moon thing way before I figured out the Empath stuff. :)
Nea
@nea
07/15/11 02:39:52PM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Thanks, I'm so relieved it's not just me having these raging symptoms. Spiritual and intellectual starvation is spot on, I think - like my mind and soul is going on a rampage for...something. I'm not sure what.
Nea
@nea
07/15/11 02:17:54PM
201 posts

Am I picking this up or is it me?


Empath

Lately I've been getting more and more frustrated, and irritated over how stupid people are, or things that I find insulting or incompetent. Not just that, I can feel this rage build inside me, and I get piercing pains in my temples and the brow area.

I try to be calm and release it, but even meditating is really difficult. I just can't relax, I just feel it more. I'm just so angry. At some point I've even unnecessarily lashed out at people, and then had to apologize. I'm scaring myself here. I keep waking up during the night, and when I'm trying to sleep it's like the entire town is inside the room, that's how loud everything is. It's not that I think I have super hearing, everything just seems to get to me for some reason.
I know things get really intense for me when the moon is out, but I don't think I can blame it on the moon this time.
I'll try to ground more and try to get some more sleep, but could it just be me? As a 'new' Empath I don't really know what is me and what is everyone else, and I get really creeped out.

Sorry, I just needed to share, I hope that's okay.

Nea


updated by @nea: 05/09/17 09:08:36PM
Nea
@nea
07/12/11 10:31:37AM
201 posts



Thanks. :) I don't feel very old, but I'm 31. And the realization has been coming for a year or so now. I still can't imagine that people can't feel what I feel. I think I somehow need to learn to separate myself and everything else around me, and I don't even know what that would be like. I can feel pretty helpless. A part of me have big trouble accepting I'm not just imagining this stuff. I somehow have to work through 30 years of telling myself I can't trust my instincts and that it's just my imagination. I've always been very hard on myself. My imagination and my intellect has always been very active, and I think I've always credited what I sense and feel to them. I've no idea how to completely see past that stone wall, it seems impossible.

Not that I'll not keep trying lol. :)

Nea
@nea
07/11/11 10:36:47AM
201 posts



I know I should probably have figured it out sooner, but it's hard when you can't think that other people don't feel what you feel. I've certainly identified with certain fictional characters, but to me they were always not real, and I didn't take it further. Hey, I'm still trying to figure out what is me being an Empath and what is my own imagination.
I do remember watching Heroes and relating to Peter Petrelli lots and lots, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I think they mentioned him being an 'Empath' once in that show, and it resonated with me, but I still couldn't think it had actually anything to do with me.

It was actually years later when I had some traumatic events happen in my family that I had to face what I was feeling, because everything was so intense. I don't remember a particular moment, other than that it was a thought that grew and finally I had to figure out what was happening, because I thought I was literally going insane. I still feel like that sometimes. I had just moved to an apartment building and started a new job and everything went nuts. Then I started to search for Empath on google, and one thing after another went 'click' 'click 'click' inside me.

I still don't have much control nor understanding of what the heck is going on with me, and maybe, because I found out when I was relatively old, it might be too late for me. But just knowing something, having at least an explanation why I get so tired after being around people that I want to sleep for 100 days in a row, why I feel sick when people around me are upset, why I have this need to help people, it helps.

So yeah, I'm not even sure I know now. I just know there is something I can't deny, what it is, that is for me to find out, I guess. I can't really skip ahead and see the end result. ;)

What I am, I've always been, I can remember things from when I was a child that suddenly makes sense, that never before did. Maybe awareness is a powerful thing, but I can't know, because I can't know what it is like to not be like this. Also, I grew up in a home where my mother always was an unaware Empath - yes, even that makes sense now - and she still doesn't know - but I ofcourse never really thought I was that different because of that, so I guess that was both a good and a bad thing.

I'm not sure I'm making sense, lol;)

Oh for crying out loud guys, now you've made me cry. Not in a bad way though. :)

Nea
@nea
07/09/11 02:11:44PM
201 posts



I think it's about fear - we all fear what we don't know or understand, I know I do. I can rationalize and tell myself what is what, but really and sadly I think it's pretty normal reaction. I am new to identifying with the Empath thing, and even I struggle with a sense that I'm crazy, literally, that it's all in my head, and that it comes from a traumatic event. I consider myself a decent open minded person, and if I have trouble with accepting the reality of my own self, then imagine the difficulty for people that have no clue what it is like to accept this reality. I have only really told one person so far, my younger sister, and I already sort of regret it. Not because she isn't open to the idea, but because maybe she isn't ready for some of these realizations, and it will inherently change our relationship, and possibly also test her faith - and I have no business doing that.

I am starting to wonder if I might have to accept that certain aspects of what I find out about myself I can never tell anyone that hasn't a similar experience. It's a sort of deception that I am to my core very alien to.
Maybe the solution is using a language that isn't so riddled with idioms. I can tell my mom about my empath thing without actually telling her about being an Emapth with capital E. I can tell people I sense things, without using idioms that they have preconceived ideas and judgments about.

It's not that important that people accept a word, but rather that they accept who I am. I need to be myself, and then semantics don't really matter. I never used the phrase 'special gifts', I just tell them downright what I experience, and if that scares them, so be it.

I think part of why we sometimes use idioms to explain what we are is because we might have a need to get people's approval. It might stem from our own fear and insecurities. It is fine to have fear and insecurities. Hey, I probably have more of those than most people here. But nobody can tell me who I am, no wordings or idioms or expressions can sum me up, because my journey isn't about those.
We just have to remember that we're not alone and that we can love and be loved even without a certain preset of words and names. That goes for all humans. <3

Avic amare a santum

Nea

Nea
@nea
06/15/11 09:36:38AM
201 posts



Thanks guys,

I know that what I need to do is read the bible and pray, and then I'll get the answers I need.
I so want to know and understand certain things, but I have to be prepared for the necessity of taking a step back and trust God. I realize that I should not know certain things right now, and that certain knowledge should come through the Holy Spirit and not through the flesh.

God Bless you all

Nea

Nea
@nea
06/14/11 09:07:09PM
201 posts



I was wondering, do you guys have any examples of scriptures that deals with what is allowed and not allowed?
Especially about guides and angels? I recently found out I might have psychic abilities and it really scares me - I haven't really been aware of any of them, and so I haven't consciously 'used' them. Either way, I'm not sure what to think.
updated by @nea: 01/16/17 03:37:35PM
Nea
@nea
06/14/11 08:40:27PM
201 posts

Is Worshipping Jesus Idolity?


Empath

Thanks Karen! <3
This thread really had my head spinning, and it was a relief to see this scripture. There is a reason we have the Word of the Lord. ;) I don't know why I didn't go read it myself. Anyway, Bless you.

/Nea

Nea
@nea
06/01/11 03:24:53PM
201 posts



Oh man, that makes sense, I have gone to work sick this past week, and man, after a couple of minutes even it was like I was about to sink through the floor or something. Probably wouldn't have been able to cope through the day if I hadn't had my blue obsidian necklace.
updated by @nea: 01/13/17 12:55:26PM
Nea
@nea
06/01/11 03:20:45PM
201 posts

Loss of identity


Empath

I'd like to think that we are just very good at seeing things from another perspective. We won't really start killing people - but we can sort of 'get' people. When I meet someone that is really in pain, and I can sense they are very dark inside, I'd rather not, but hey if you're going to help them, I guess there is no way out of that.
Me though, I have no control over anything I feel. Trying desperately to learn how to shield, but man, it's not going very well. :P
Nea
@nea
05/31/11 07:33:43AM
201 posts

Loss of identity


Empath

I can relate - I am beginning to suspect that my own self is cornered somewhere inside my mind - it's like I've never really seen myself at all or even know what is me and what is others. For me, since finding out that I'm an empath, this is one of the hardest things I have to figure out - who I actually am. Not that I haven't been around, but...yeah. Wow this is really hard to describe in words. :)
Nea
@nea
05/29/11 11:18:10AM
201 posts



I am exactly where you are right now - and I am scientifically wired person, and I am certainly not a rainbows and sunshine kind of girl in any way or form. However, being an intellectual person, you can analyze the underlying theories and descriptions and see what they really are. Truth is, most of these things you mention, empathy, psychics etc. are none of them really explained by science and therefore there are no scientific language for these underlying theories and descriptions. So, you gotta think for yourself. You feel what you feel, and you know what you know. And where we use the language that follows with the new age- stuff or not, it's all just semantics to me. I don't buy into the whole fairies-and-sunshine package, and my world view is alot different than most people here. Hey, I am still trying to come to terms that I actually sort of is accepting that I am an empath. The logical part of me is still trying to bash this notion to pieces. But I can't ignore it anymore than I can ignore the need to breathe. I need to learn to deal with this, unless I want to live a miserable life, yes, for me it's a survival thing. I might not buy into all the lingo, but whatever, I need to breathe, don't I? ;)
updated by @nea: 01/13/17 02:12:40AM
Nea
@nea
05/29/11 11:05:14AM
201 posts



Well, my answer on that question is yes, and as far as I know, I am an empath. :)

I The thing you describe is especially strong with my family, of course. I used to beat myself up because I cling to people too hard, trying to understand them, especially people I wanted to be friends with, and that I felt like I pushed them away instead - or maybe I do push them away because the strong bond scares me. I dunno.


updated by @nea: 01/10/17 12:27:17PM
Nea
@nea
05/05/11 07:48:20AM
201 posts

More questions


Empath

Thank you for your reply, and yes, I know I need another job - it's not the place where I want to be. Just sometimes, you have to take one step at a time, ya know?
Nea
@nea
05/04/11 04:27:20PM
201 posts

More questions


Empath

No kidding, just laying in bed waiting to fall asleep scares the crap out of me. Don't know enough about chakras either - just starting to learn, so thank you, I'll think about it. :)
Nea
@nea
05/04/11 07:32:26AM
201 posts

More questions


Empath

Thanks Sandra, it seems I can't stop riding that bike. ;)

I have always felt I have strong intuitive feelings about people, and now, just trying to learn where I end and where others begin, I feel maybe I can help others more. Just learning to take a backseat and observe and not 'jump into' every situation with all my being helps alot. Still have a long way to go, but at least I know there is hope.

Nea
@nea
04/24/11 03:20:45PM
201 posts



You're welcome. :)

Pretty much everybody here can relate to what you are going through, so I recommend doing what I do, just read through people sharing their stories, and the discussions - you'll find something, a piece of knowledge or a technique that will help. You don't have to buy into everything at once (or ever), but you need to find something to get through the days.
Personally, I notice I've been doing things that was 'right' even before I knew about this stuff - I just didn't know what I was doing. Empaths are intuitive people - your instincts will take you a long way.

For me, holding on to a stone that makes me feel protected helped me getting through the work day so I don't go insane. If it's because the crystal actually have an effect on me or it's just me tapping into my own strength, I have no idea. I just do it because it seems to work for me. You just need to find something that works for you. Then go from there. Fear doesn't lead anywhere, believe me, I know. Be brave.

Avic amare asantum

Nea
@nea
04/24/11 01:45:35PM
201 posts



I hear you, Nun-ya. I know you want someone to tell you there's a secret way to never feeling what you're feeling ever again, that there is a secret pill that make to take control over your own life. I'm sorry to tell you, there is no such thing.
We' re all here because we are striving to manage our emotions and our lives - and we try to do that by connecting and sharing stories. But there is no off switch, that I know of at least. And think about it, it would be like switching off yourself.

From what I have read around here, people telling their stories, and describing their lives, there are a way to take back control of your life and grow beyond your own pain.

I am in a similar chair as you - I came here because I thought I was literally going insane. Knowing now that I have empathic traits - just knowing that - and understanding that I am not alone make so much difference for me.

I have just started learning more about myself, and there is no easy answer that covers everybody - we're all different with different life stories - although many of us have traumatic events in our pasts. I have no idea where I will go from here, I just know there is no turning back - I have to learn about myself, no matter if it's here or just alone or somewhere else. To survive and live a full life I have to. Simple as that. Screaming at the universe is not going to help, even though I sometimes feel like it.

I don't know what path is best for you - but of you read and ask questions around here, you might find some hints and even some wisdom.

This is not about other people, nobody can tell you what you are - only you can decide where to go and what to do. It is painful and scary to open the box of possibilities, but ultimately, in my opinion there is no other way to go on. At least it was like that for me.

I am only starting to learn and pick up things about myself and others. And discard some of it and hold on to the rest. Tomorrow that might change. The next day I might change again. But I have to keep doing it.

Everything's going to be allright, nobody here is out to control you. But you have some decisions to make for yourself.

Avic amare asantum

Nea
@nea
04/14/11 04:05:05PM
201 posts

Postive Energy Request for Elise


Empath

Here's a poem that I hope will cheer you up, Elise. <3

Friendship Battle hymn

It may rain on the roof,

winds may tear it apart

and the soulless scream outside ~

Stay strong in your heart
Because no matter what

Friendship will never leave

Terrors may knock on the door

Scare us all into shreds

And rage as flames and fire

But listen! A song we just made
Like lovely walls of sound:

Friendship will never go

As the dawn reach our window
The shadows retreat yowling

empty threats of broken bonds

fading and flailing away

and peace lights the room

And the song that was born

In the dead of night
Like a friend of old stopping by
For some tea

Is still sung at breakfast and warming hearth

Friendship can never leave

It is here in your heart

and in mine.

And if the trolls grow

Like shadows of doubt

Sing a while for a friend

That came by once again

For tea
Because Friendship will always be!

Your Friend to Be

Nea

Nea
@nea
04/02/11 06:59:24PM
201 posts

Spinning while sitting?


Empath

I dunno if it's what you are talking about, but it seems so, I'm so new to all of this - anyway I was practicing opening my third eye chakra and I was really relaxing and almost sleepy - anyway I noticed that when I relaxed I was spinning in a very tiny circle with my body. I think it was just because I was focused and really relaxed, and it felt only relaxing and not scary. But yeah, I'm not sure if it's the same thing as you mention.
Nea
@nea
04/01/11 03:07:08PM
201 posts

More questions


Empath

I still feel I'm not sure about anything, but there's a reason I'm here, so I need to start asking even if it feels uncomfortable, so here goes. I have had a suspicion I am an empath or emapthic for a while now, but it wasn't until recently when I had a very traumatic emotional experience that I realized I had to do SOMETHING. It felt literally like I was going insane. Incidentally it was on the weekend during the supermoon. I had felt strange all that week, but then this thing happened at work that made me feel like I had no control over my life, like I could lose my job or whatever. It made me feel really uncomfortable. Added to that I had been feeling more and more tired at work, like the moment I sat down there it was like I had to sleeeeep or...anything. (I take calls at a sales call center and we sit hundreds of people in the same big room) . Actually I have felt lots of tired lately, and I'm not generally not good with sleeping either. Anyway, I felt like my world flipped upside down, and there were a giant energy inside me spinning out of control. Needless to say, it felt a bit out of proportion, because I had no rational reason to feel this way.

I had the good sense to google Empath and I read up on some things. I read up on grounding and I was like ' wow I have actually done that before, sort of, intuitively, but without really knowing what it was' But it was a long time ago since the last time. Anyway, I imagined releasing all the bent up energy into the earth and this calm cooling sense filled me up and I felt much MUCH better. I was still pretty shaky though. I read that you can direct good energy towards someone you or a situation that feels wrong and imagined I directed lots of love towards the situation at work. I still worried about it, but I didn't feel the same way, I felt...cleaner.

I realize I have no idea what I am doing here - I don't know half of what most people here knows, and I have no control whatsoever over what I feel and interpret of the 'energy' around me. Most of the time it's just like a wall - and at work it's mostly a confusing wall threatening to fall ON me and crush me.

I'm not even sure why I suddenly feel this now, I mean, it must have been like this since I started there, but it's just now I realize how I feel. It doesn't make any sense to me. Although, one other thing I went and did on the supermoon weekend was send for some obsidian, so I could try it. I bought a blue obsidian crystal on a necklace and I have been wearing it to work. Oh man, it's like can breathe! Although I think I have to cleanse it often, because otherwise I'll start to feel that strange constant 'vibrance' (I don't know how to describe it) that just makes me wanna dunk my head into the wall, or run, or both.

Oh and I bought some rainbow obsidian that feels really strong somehow, and I had it under my pillow while sleeping, but I'm not sure that is a good idea, because I woke up EXHAUSTED like I had just ran a marathon or something. Are you supposed to get used to the stone?

And I read posts by people here, how they are socially, and it's like reading about ME. So strange and exhilarating.

Gah! I'm so confused. :/



updated by @nea: 05/04/17 03:34:55PM
Nea
@nea
03/27/11 09:02:58AM
201 posts

Hello


Empath

Thank you for your kind words and welcome, guys.I'm not sure about anything right now. I'm just trying to work on not freaking out constantly. LOL
 
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