Psychic and Paranormal
In a way I think if you read your question above the answer is already with in your own words. However, let's take religion for a moment. I assume that you have read at least parts of the Bible, the Bible is nothing more than Jesus' and his disciples journey towards enlightenment. If their still working on it, I don't think I would be to down on myself about where I was in my journey right now. You, like all of us, has to learn to walk before you can run.
You are, in fact, a lot more enlightened then you think you are. You sought out this site and I'm sure others and maybe books, people, movies who are searching for the same things that you are. The trick to finding enlightenment is knowing where to search. First of all, enlightenment is not outside of you, it's contained in your core self that was Gods spark that brought you into existence all the way up to where you are today.
And this is the most important thing I can tell you about enlightenment, every time you discover another piece of enlightenment that becomes an integral part of your own spiritual growth, expands the enlightenment of the entire universe. Do not be afraid to unfurl your wings and ride the waves of spirit that are flowing out from you because you will never find enlightenment flowing in from somewhere else. And those wings I mentioned are nothing more than, or less than, pure Faith!
Fly, and be happy!