If I get angry, and I mean really angry, electrical systems start to go haywire all around me. And I know it's me but I can't control it, I just have to force myself to calm down as I really don't want to see how far I can go with it out of fear of really hurting someone else!
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You are going through a whole lot of new and stressful experiences in your life, boyfriend just left, you start new school, which really is a whole a new way of life for you. It really wouldn't surprise me if this added stress is also making it's way into your meditations. I don't want to know where your boyfriend was deployed, but is it an area where the possibility of conflict also is likely and possible?
You can also ask these spirits that come to you to be easy on you as this is all very new for you. And if possible, would they help you to understand what is happening and how you should respond, However, protect yourself with a shield of light and love that you create in your mind and then envelope yourself with.
I suspect that when the time comes for you to have a living guide spirit will send one to you. I must say you have a very interesting story to tell, you might also start writing some of this stuff in a journal as you never know what information you may need in the future!
Jessica do you have any Indian tribes or reservations close by? In your case you might consider asking an Indian Elder, or Shaman if the tribe has one, for help. A shaman would be ideal for someone with your ability to learn from if it was ever possible.
You are incredibly gifted and whenever you have questions feel free to ask away. You can PM me if you ever feel the need to do so, but I'm not always on the internet as I use my libraries wifi when I am on. Again, I can't stress this enough, when you have these encounters keep yourself under control and try not to fear what is happening, you are the one with the power, and these spirits are well aware of that unless you give in to your fear, which they will use against you if they can.
Stay calm, everything is fine!
You're an Empath with certain psychic abilities that are deepening as you get older. You also sound like you are developing some psychic medium abilities whether you like it or not! If that is true, and I believe it is, spirits will know it and be drawn to you for whatever purpose it is they might need. In some cases they might want you to pass along a message and in others they might just want reassurance that you are aware of them. In almost every case these spirits can be guided to the light if they have not passed over yet and that should be what you try and convince them to do whenever you can. I am not a medium but I can open the doorway in an astral dream state and have done so on a couple of occasions. In most cases the doorway is always there they, the spirits, have just forgotten to look for it which is where you can help! I'm pretty sure by what you have said that you do possess the ability to also open this doorway if wanted to.
I would do as Maria said but I have a question: Did you live somewhere before you moved to this house where this little girl started showing up, and did you recognize that you had abilities before moving to this house where it all started?
It sounds like you had the ability to recognize and perhaps even strengthen her with some of your energy so she attached herself to you. As you began to fight back you gained strength and were eventually able to pull your energy away from her so she lost her hold on you.
Do you have any psychic shops near where you live where you can ask about meeting other psychic people who could perhaps mentor you? You do sound as if you have a tremendous amount of untrained energy that needs to be blended into your physical life.
In many of your discussions you talk about Nature and animals quite a bit, so I would imagine that is where a great deal of abilities come from. I guess many people would refer to you as a nature spirit which is perfectly fine. You also stated that you hold yourself back on purpose because of things that you have experienced in the past, and I'm going to assume that this discussion is what you have been talking about in other discussions. The very best thing that you have already learned is to not fear this darker energy because that is how they draw energy from you.
Welcome to EC, and continue to ask a lot of questions, in time you will start to gain better control of your abilities especially as you give up fearing where they may eventually lead you! Welcome Home!
My very short answer is that you're trying to hard, you want a switch that controls your abilities and I can tell you for a fact that you don't have one, no one does, control only comes through acceptance. The pulsing sensation you fell is probably a stream of energy that you usually ignore in your conscious state and only experience when you turn off all of your external senses that you use in your day to day living! In my case it's more like a whole body buzz!
updated by @bill-walker: 03/15/17 10:14:26AM
It's really hard to decipher a dream that someone else has had. I think that is probably something that universal law set in motion at some point in a distant past. Usually dreams are for you to interpret as these are messages from your own subconscious reality and perhaps your own guides.
With that said:
I would start with the fact that you said that your dreams have been reawakening things that have been buried for years, as a child were you extremely afraid of death? I would imagine that somewhere in your subconscious your soul has decided that it's time to face your fears.
My other thought is, not knowing where you live, that tornado outbreaks this Summer have been extremely violent and your dreams are making you face the reality of nature and her incredible power where you have no recourse but to submit, and perhaps, die!
updated by @bill-walker: 01/06/17 06:26:32AM
Dream about inside of my mind?
Not sure that there is really a way of solving this other than just living your life and dealing with all the aspects of it as they happen. The sexual misunderstanding part depends on what you believe. My comment runs along the lines of you perhaps having a previous lifetime, Reincarnation, where you were the opposite sex and still may have some residual memories that followed into this lifetime. I know that I have them, but admit that it is hard to explain beyond just knowing that I have female traits that awaken at times that are not of my current life experience. Hope that makes sense!
Since you asked for lots more input, here is my take on what you are waiting for to happen. It's a blog that I wrote a couple of years ago in my blog section:
Charlotte I assist others in preparing to return to the earth plane. I help as a caretaker of animal souls between lifetimes. I am a guide for those spirits in my own soul group as they live lifetimes when I decide not to join in that experience as well as other things. I had a longer response but for some reason my reply was erased before it posted, so this is my second comment!
What you describe is how most psychics claim to read other people when they meet. It can either be pictures or feelings or sounds or smells or all of the above combined. Clairvoyance, as Equus Aquarius stated would be correct.
As A side note here: On a very rare occasion I also see pictures however mostly my abilities are through feelings which many would also call intuition.
Well, I can only tell you what I believe. In my not so perfect opinion the physical universe is one of energy, and really that's it. Our souls on the other hand, though also connected to the energy universe through an energy connection are really nothing more than pure consciousness that doesn't need an energy field or link if we didn't want to experience the physical universe.
I look at consciousness as being the creative chalk and electromagnetic energy as being the black board that conscious creatively draws on. Your ability is one where you can see/or perceive that energy field far clearer then most anyone else can. It's your super power. LOL
Does that make any sense? At any rate that's how I see Reality!
I do believe that some so called hauntings are just left over energy that is, as you put it, fading away. However, I worked in several places where the spirit energy is so strong and the spirits so intelligent with what they can manifest that I believe that they are in total control in when they decide to pass into the light and transfer to what we refer to as the other side. And I am surely not a medium, but those that I have talked to led me to believe that this is what happens. But, who knows? Until we get there no one can truly know for sure! LOL
Kind of funny in a way, you met a ghost who gave you credible information that you could not have known otherwise and yet you still have difficulty believing in them. Just a not here as I know for a fact that ghosts do really exist though I would rather refer to them as spirits, the longer you stayed at that house with in that spirits sphere of energy the more she was able to align her senses with yours which is why the two of you could communicate so well. If it were me I would go back from time to time and say hi to her. My feelings here are that she may well be waiting for her son to cross into spirit before she ultimately crosses over to the other side/next dimension. Great story!
updated by @bill-walker: 01/13/17 01:29:18PM
Psychic and Paranormal
Well I've never heard of this but energy does pass through crystals so audible noise may well be possible. ON the other hand, is it possible that you thought you heard it but felt it instead, that also may be a possibility? I have felt crystals but never actually heard sound from one, though as I just said that I started thinking about radios which use crystals to decode radio waves, so I guess it is possible.
I was attacked several times after inducing an astral experience so I as well, do not try to do it much anymore. I never really felt in danger but did realize that perhaps I should give myself some time before making that journey again unless I do it in my sleep which happens much more naturally and so far has not brought on any astral attacks from darker energies. I'm not sure this helps or even applies to what you experienced.
Wow, never had anything quite like that happen to me. Your shower of Orbs sounds as good as anything that I can think of right now, but I'll continue to ponder over it. And welcome back, you haven't posted much recently maybe your guides where just giving you a reason to come back to EC for a while! LOL
Well what you just explained is pretty much what others describe as seeing auras, so I'm going to say that is what you are experiencing. If I try I can see auras by using the same method of lazy eye that you explained or let's say just lettingmy vision/eyesgo slightly out of focus. In a few cases I can see colors but usually it's like seeing a slight heat wave coming off the body. And yes it depends greatly with what color the wall or object behind them is which can increase my ability to do this.
When you are in the dream state it sounds like you have a spirit guide that goes along with you for protection. You are like many of us on this site that had a much higher state of psychic abilities when we were younger and as we aged it subsided. I can't tell you how much I wish that I had a mentor back in my childhood that could have helped me understand what was taking place. If I had that back then maybe I would still have many of the abilities that slowly faded away as I aged.
As for the blue bits, I can only guess. You have lived at least a part of your dream life in, or on, the Astral stream and some of that energy may have attached to your soul. You may also mention that the next time you have an eye appointment as it could also be something with in your eye, though it doesn't sound like that. In my case, I have been seeing shadows in my peripheral vision which I'm pretty sure is a spirit manifestation that is somehow attached to either me my roommate or my house. I feel no danger by these images so I pretyy much ignore them.
Cats and Emapths?
I miss all of my cats, but the first one does hold a special place in my heart. I wonder how many people have had a cat that was so smart she knew how to play hide and seek with me when I was a kid. It was incredible because she would go hide and jump out to scare me when I got close. and then she would sit for ten or fifteen seconds so I could go hide. And we would do it over and over so she certainly understood the game and the rules.
We'll play it again when I get back home I'm certain.
I still don't think it was a dream. You're new to this site, but believe me, you're experience here and comments are not nearly as out of the ordinary as you think they are. My advice is to read quite a few other comments and discussions that posted throughout this site. My experiences when I was a kid would rival some of the more popular horror movies that have been made. Don't be afraid to write about what has happened to you either in dream or physical because I promise you that at least one other person, and probably many here on EC, have written about even stranger happenings to them. This is an educational and peaceful site, let it work for you!
Well, you already stated that you have OBE's, so my first thought or question is why do you feel it was a dream? I'm more apt to believe that you experienced a spirit or spiritual entity that was making your acquaintance. But to be very honest here, it is very hard to interpret other peoples dreams as only the dreamer truly knows all of the circumstances that might have influenced the dream or vision in the first place, And maybe, a little mystery is good, when trying to guess what a dream really represents. You have an eternity to figure it out, good luck!
That's a great life experience that I wish I could also undertake. I think I have met many souls in my soul group but nothing as strong as what you described. And I'm glad also, to see your post as I thought that perhaps you had moved on and out of the EC sphere. Hope Spring is bringing lots of spiritual growth while the earth around you begins to turn green and transform back to its Summer phase!
Recurring emotional dream
It sounds to me as if you are waiting for some kind of resolution to take place in your life that would complete the dream. If I were to take your dream as a literal message I would add that perhaps you sensing a world that is increasingly going into chaos where the resolution has yet to play out. Obviously this dream has importance to you or you wouldn't keep having it. Is there any part of your life where you are at a complete lose as to where you are personally headed? Your dream may well be trying to get your conscious being in alignment with your subconscious spiritual state!
You may, or may not, have a negative energy attachment that is causing your nightmares. The way you describe this it sounds like this energy may have a consciousness that has somehow, and for some reason, become attached to your energy. Do you feel that your attitude needs a cleaning to perhaps make it harder for a darker energy to find a connection to you? I only ask because of the way you describe yourself in the, about me, part of you home page and how other people seem to react around you.
The other thing I might suggest is seeing areputable, if you can find one in your area, psychic medium. A good medium can usually encourage foreign energy attachments to break their hold and proceed on to a different perhaps more positive challenge then making life miserable for the spirit they have attached to.
In the end, what and how, do you feel about these nightmares and your past night terrors?
updated by @bill-walker: 03/07/17 06:00:02AM
Dreams becoming precognitive
You're welcome, and yes it can be scary at times, though I believe that for the most part we are protected from spirit in most cases. I know this is easy to say, and much harder to do, but when you feel scared try to stand up to whatever is causing that feeling. I know that if you have true faith in yourself, as being one with the universe,that nothing can hurt you.
Dreams becoming precognitive
For me, the dreams that are in color, very clear, easily remembered when I wake up, and made sense from start to finish usually, but not always, are dreams that my subconscious wants for me to pay attention to as a future possibility of becoming reality. I wish I also had a definite answer to your question, but sometimes I feel that the world of spirit has rules about how much they can impart to us before they cross the line of influencing are own will, which they aren't supposed to do.
This depends on your beliefs, but I can pretty much assure you that you have lived many times, you just don't remember them because they are wiped clean from your consciousness before each new lifetime begins. I do have flashes of previous lives but just flashes, nothing complete! But that is up to you if you want to believe or not, your choice!
The Summer Slowdown on EC
Every year about this time I like to post a short note here about the coming summer months on empath community. The summer always slows down on this site, andprobably on many others as well, so if you are just discovering your empathic abilities it's time to make friends with a few people that you can count on to talk to when, and if, you start to have a hard time dealing with your abilities. I encourage you to either make friends with a few of these people on facebook or other sites or get their email addresses so you can send them messages directly, or even phone numbers if you feel close enough. And don't worry about the thought that this site is losing its popularity, it's not, next Fall a whole new group of newly discovered emapths will grace these pages ready for your advice and how to deal with an ever changing spiritual world.Have a great 2015 summer!
updated by @bill-walker: 01/23/17 12:26:35AM
I would bet that one of your jobs between lifetimes is to care for animal spirits in between their lives. And you also probably comfort those animal spirits who had a hard lifetime on earth. I know that this is one of my jobs when I'm not living a physical life.
updated by @bill-walker: 10/17/17 10:43:13PM