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Hi @just-stevie,

     I found some excellent Aura repair and Lyme Rife killing frequencies on YT and have been listening daily. There are other ones I found that remove the type of entity the healer says I have as well. She continues to remove them from me as well. I am sleeping 5-6 hrs. now., but have another dosage cut this Saturday night and another doctor's appt. I don't want to go to, but must, next week, so we will see if it holds.

     Recent "INFJ fades" by so-called friends still hurt. I was there when they were desperate, in one case for several years on a daily basis, but as usual, it only works one way. So, the depression is not better. CBD helps the anxiety, but I can't afford to take it regularly. 

     I went back to helping others with Lyme online to take my mind off my troubles, but that is hard too, since I see how little progress has been made since I first got sick, and only the very rich can afford treatment. It kills me how the state controlled media ignores the biggest pandemic in the world. China alone has 1.4 billion people with Lyme disease now. 

    I agree with you we must watch what we ask for. I have learned to be very specific! It has backfired on me when I am not. I hope you have made progress in riding yourself of the entities. 

@hop-daddy,

Just listened to an audio on You Tube for Entity Removal, posted by Anthony Sommer. 5:27 long. Seemed to be doing something. Very strange sounds! 

Yes, I have auric holes. A well known psychic told me long ago that I had a lot of holes in my aura that are leaking chi. She said this pattern is often seen in those who have one foot in this world and one in the next, since they really don't want to be here on earth. Bingo!

We also have a portal in our bedroom. It is closed now, hopefully for good, and exists on a different time plane, so those that come through it cannot even see us, though we can see them. I don't worry so much about it now that I know that. I wondered why they paid no attention to me when I was sitting up in bed staring at the black shadows of humans walking along our west bedroom wall.

Yes also to it being part of my medical problem. The healer helping me said I have tick-like bugs attached all over me, and she had to pull them out. That jives perfectly with my having Lyme Disease. 

My auric cracks  are there due to my not wanting to be here. Not sure what to do about that, since it is true. I guess figuring out why your daughter has such cracks would be a good next step in knowing how to fight it. I am glad she is gaining confidence. That has to be a good thing!

@hop-daddy,

Thank you for posting this update. I am so sorry your family is having to deal with this. I can use what you posted to help myself. The healer helping me says that despite removing many entities from me, I still have more, and that she finds we get more as we get older. I am used to saying a prayer for protection, and use white light every morning as a cleanser. Obviously not working, so I will look up alternate ways to use it for this specific purpose. Thank you and please keep us posted!

hop-daddy,

Yes, grid lines and ley lines are usually meant to be the same thing. You can easily find a map  of world ley lines online, showing how all major ancient monuments line up directly on them. Our ancestors weren't so "primitive" after all, lol. 

Some might use the world grid very differently though, to denote the prison grid around the planet to keep the human herd in the matrix. That grid is often said to be broadcast from the moon, which is considered to be a spaceship in disguise. As an aside, as nutty as that may sound, scientists do say that according to what we now know, the moon simply cannot be there. It is much too big to be a natural satellite of this planet! 

I would guess that in this context, your Shaman means the same thing as ley lines. 

I looked for local Shamen near me and found one very near who is somewhat reasonable in his charges, but I have no idea how  to tell if someone is any good or a scammer. Even before my vibe got so low, I could never read other receivers, only senders. 

Thank you so much for the kind words. Ditto back at ya!

C. Cat

@just-stevie,

Your post alarmed me. I am awake due to a heart arrhythmia attack called PSVT caused by worry over how to handle that procedure when I am this ill, which almost caused me to need an ambulance.  I am going to have to cancel it. I simply can't do it now, while in drug withdrawal, and will have to wait for another year or longer if needed. My spirit simply refuses to tolerate any more of conventional medicine's profit making torture. 

I agree about anti-depressants and am glad you warned people. They are the second hardest to get off after what I am on (benzos). I can't take them anyway, since they don't work for me, due to a genetic mutation that 28% of people have. This particular withdrawal removes all the breaks from my nervous system as the slow down neurotransmitter, GABA is removed, so there is no small stuff for me to not sweat now. Everything is sheer terror 24/7 until/unless my GABA receptors come back online. That is why most people cannot handle the withdrawal. This drug destroys lives, but Upjohn Pharmaceuticals will never have to pay a dime for their lies. 

My first diagnosis was MS, then Fibromyalgia, then after 21 years of slowly worsening symptoms, finally Lyme. Anyone with those symptoms should be properly checked for Lyme, the fastest growing illness in the world, far surpassing breast cancer already and grossly under diagnosed. Proper dignosis is very hard, but it can be treated if you are not yet in stage III, have lots of money, and are not allergic to almost all antibiotics like me. I would suggest lymenet.org. Go to "flash discussion", and ask for names of LLMD's in your area under the find a doctor forum there. Regular docs hardly ever know what they are doing. Lyme can cause every psychiatric or physical problem you can imagine and some that do not fit any definitions. If your pains migrate or are referred from one place to another, those are especially red flags. Facial twitches or a knee that swells are also red flags. 

I need to try to do some vagus nerve breathing to help my condition now. I am praying you will follow up on this and make sure you do not have Lyme. Do not let some uninformed doctor do an Elisa test and say you are negative. They miss more than 50% of cases, since they are so time sensitive. 

sincerely,

C. Cat

@hop-daddy,

Yep, suicidal describes me perfectly. I have to fight it all the time now. I hope your daughter never comes close to that point. The legally prescribed drug I am now withdrawing from can make people that way all by itself, since the withdrawal is harder than getting off any other drug and takes away all your happy hormones.

I read a blog about 7 young, female doctors who tried to withdraw from the same drug I am, which is still the most prescribed drug in the world with a market growing at 12% per year, a crime if there ever was one. The one writing the blog had to close her practice for 4 yrs. and have full time nursing care to make it. The other 6 committed suicide! I can't afford a Shaman, let alone nursing care. I am very glad you can afford it and I pray it resolves all of this.

My husband has no idea how to help me and says he feels like he is watching someone drown when he doesn't know how to swim. The "therapist" who regulates the pills as I taper them, is a nurse practitioner who spends 5 mins. with me every 3 months. Add slowly, torturously,  terminal Lyme Disease and all the organ damage it causes, friends deserting me, financial trouble, and health problems of my husband, and this attack by dark entities feels like the last straw.

I can't believe in a God who would punish  someone for just being in too much pain to handle a cruel, upside down world like this any longer. However, your daughter is much too young to have all the doors closed on her story. I also feel the lights are good, and just curious observers, as I said at first. Maybe there is a way to enlist their help, since they seem to exist on a higher level....

@hop-daddy,

That is so sad. It is similar to what I was told by a healer who kindly volunteered to try to help me with my entity problem., ie. that I have a special mission to fulfill before I can go home like I want to, and the entities are trying to prevent my doing it. She also saw what would best be described as astral tick-like bugs attached all over me, interestingly horrible, since I have late-stage Lyme Disease. A metaphysical aspect of it, perhaps, or the real cause of it...I don't know.

I am very sorry your daughter has so much trouble with basic functioning. I have the same problem, but it must be much harder at her age. I went to a doctor's appt. today and was kept waiting 2 1/2 hrs. past my appt. time in an unbearably hot room with no apology and only 5 mins.  time with a doctor who was new to me. The last time I saw a doctor, I was kept waiting 4 hrs. past my appt.  time! This stuff never happens to my husband. When I finally got home, I started crying uncontrollably and couldn't stop for over 2 hours! I have to go to outpatient surgery in two days very early in the morning when I am always quite sick anyway, and don't see how I can survive it. I really want to cancel, but know I am overdue for this procedure. Just a simple thing to most people, but now it feels like trying to climb a snow covered mountain, naked, while fasting! My reaction to it feels like being possessed. I hope your daughter is not too afraid and that her strong abilities are helping her cope. 

I may have another good cry on behalf of your daughter. I so hope and pray she can beat this thing, and soon. I wonder also if these energies are picking on the very young like her, and the very old and ill, like me, since we are easier to upset, thus creating the lower vibrational energy they feed on. This is severely stressing my belief in a God who gives a damn about us humans. I cannot see why the set up here on earth is so violent and cruel and the good guys never get any help, when the playing field is clearly so uneven. These 4th density entities know exactly what they're attacking, but we have almost no idea what they are and what they can do, though I've seen the types that are attacking me on the astral in the past. I've also found videos on the Archons and on The Reincarnation Soul Trap helpful, though I never knows what to believe anymore. I've been fooled so often. I am very glad you found a Shaman you feel you can trust who has already improved the situation. That must be a huge relief.

I understand, as I am also being bombarded by entities now (definitely dark ones) and it is seriously messing me up. I hope she can free your daughter from this torture. I wonder why they are attacking so extra hard at this time.....I know the theories, but there are so many differing ones.

@hop-daddy,

Did the Shaman say anything about it always being at 2 am? Maybe that is when the rituals were performed that the Shaman mentioned?

I will add you to my prayer list. 

Hi just-stevie,

As I said, I do not see things like this, with one exception when I saw astral spiders one time. I just got an impression when reading it, so I passed it along.

If I were you, I'd try telling this "man" that you are from source and he is not, so he has no business with you and should leave. I would keep repeating that over and over, and annoy him with it the same way he annoys you.

If you do not know what Archons are, I would get familiar with that idea, since this morphing stuff sounds like one of their tricks to me, and I do have lots of experience with them, unfortunately. It is not a pleasant subject, so be prepared. YouTube is probably the best place to learn about them. There are dozens of videos on them.

I hope womanwhowalks sees your post. This seems more up her alley than mine. 

I also hope someone can answer hop-daddy's original question.

P.S. This is wacky, but I am seeing an orb that visits your bedroom, very bright white but with a kind of orangish tinge around the edges, hanging around the ceiling over near the bathroom, and he says he is a child energy. He says he is playing with his new abilities to peek in on people now that he is "dead"! 

Hi hop-daddy,

    I have no experience with this phenomena, so I'm sure others will pick up much more detail. I do not feel like these lights are bad at all, but just curious, and the time they show up is the time when the portal is most open for them to do so. I feel a childish, impishness from them also! I also am being prompted to ask whether you live on ley lines by any chance? 

Just to offer another perspective on the emapath's purpose in life to think about.....

Researchers have found the same percentage of highly sensitive members (about 15%) in all species of mammals, not just us humans! The empathic ones are the most valuable members of the animal herd or human tribe, since our hyper vigilance often warned them of attack or clued them into the whereabouts of game and/or predators.

We used to live in tribes, and I think anyone can see that we still think and act in a tribal manner.....just watch the news! In animal tribes, the sensitives serve as the sentinels to save the group by being the alarm system for all of them. The sensitive zebras are the first to hear the twig snap as the lions approach, for example, and will start running first. Those who follow those sensitive zebras in running away will be safe. Fear thus also serves a warning purpose on earth, and I think we often forget that fear is not all bad, and is needed anywhere duality exists. Those zebras who are totally oblivious to tuning in to the sentinel zebras will stay there munching grass and be eaten.

I think it's strange that modern human society is so twisted that those who are self-serving and oblivious to the plight of others are not "eaten", but just the opposite. They have risen to the top in every facet of society and have made life on earth hellish as a result.

Also, the human herd now ignores our warnings. A huge number of empaths I encounter have the modern "canary in the coal mine" diseases of an overly toxic environment, like fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, and multiple chemical sensitivities, just for starters. Are the masses paying attention to the fact that this may happen to them soon if we don't stop crapping all over where we eat? (We are the only species dumb enough to do that.) Not that I can see. The herd is not responding to us anymore. Most are so far divorced from nature that they no longer realize they are even a part of nature and completely dependent upon it. 

IMO, this lack of valuing those like us, who used to be considered the MVPs of life, may be one reason why so many of us feel a lack of purpose. I believe our purpose is still the same, but it is being ignored, and at great peril to the survival of the human species. 

Thanks, Bill,

I love Coast to Coast and wish it weren't on at 1 am here! 

I will look up the book and also see if Leslie Kean has anything on YouTube. 

I hope your dad is doing well...

Wishing you a great weekend  too,

C. Cat

Thanks very much! You inspired me to go watch some NDE accounts on YouTube, and I read a couple of articles, but I've not found any that mention an awakening yet. I look forward to hearing from you, but please don't make a special trip somewhere if it's not convenient. 

C. Cat

Hi Bill,

Where did you find these accounts? I try to keep up with NDEs, but have not heard of this. I would love to read some of them if you can point me to them.  I think kids accounts are more trustworthy, since they haven't been brainwashed into dogma yet. 

I also hope this is true, and in a good way. I have all but lost my faith lately and this would be a tremendous help, depending upon what is meant by it.....

Based on some things I've heard from several sources, which may or may not be true, I would wonder if the angels these kids see are really angels or shape shifters bent on deception, and/or if the "new" consciousness will be better or worse, like for example, a hybrid of human and sociopathic alien shapeshifters. Look up "reincarnation trap" or "turds of karma" for more info. This idea is way too complicated and intricate to explain fully here. 

Thanks for posting this info,

C. Cat

Hi @hana,

     Thanks for asking. My neck is pretty good now, thanks to a semi-circular, flax-filled, polartek hot pack that has become a constant fashion accessory around my neck, lol.  Other stresses are through the roof though. The new Lyme doc was a bust. I am Very worried about my spouse's health.

     Still no answer from Elise. I first filled out a support ticket on Jan. 8!!! Have you sent one? Someone else besides me needs to care enough about her to try and find out if she is sick or what the heck is going on??? 

   If anyone sees this who is on FB (I am probably the only person in the universe who refuses to partake of FB), please go to this site's counterpart on FB and see if you can contact her there.

   I am very worried that Elise may be seriously ill or something. It is not like her to not respond to a PM, let alone repeated ones. I have no idea if I am the only one who filled one out though, so I cannot tell if the problem is just me. Did anyone else say they could not PM you?

   C. Cat

Update: it is now Feb. 9th and I have not heard from Elise at all. This is not at all like her and I am alarmed! It has been a whole month since I first wrote to her about the PM problem.

I refuse to be on FB, so I don't know if she is visible on the FB EC page. Anyone know if she has been there, or have any of you contacted her there and gotten a reply in the past month?

Either I am unable to PM her for the same reason some of us cannot PM Hana, or she may be ill or absent for some other reason. My other PMs go through fine. I am worried about her.

Can someone connect with her telepathically and find out? I tried and can't seem to connect at all.

If everyone involved in this thread would please fill out a support ticket, we can see if this is a site wide problem of not being able to contact her.

Also, someone who also goes to the FB page for EC.....can you please give it a try over there?

The forum won't work with nobody able to contact the owner and whatever is wrong will likely expand over time, based on my experience with ignoring computer problems. Eventually, all here may run into this problem when trying to PM another member and that person may not have a website like Hana does.

Thank you all,

C. Cat

P.S. For those who may not know how fill out a support ticket, click on your name in the upper right corner of the screen and click support tickets in the drop down menu, and fill out the form that comes up.

For anyone like me who cannot stand the pain of sitting in a bathtub, you can lie down on a bed and make yourself shake. Keep shaking until you feel the excess energy is gone. I do it every morning and it feels great. You can use Mg oil on your skin, though I find it greasy, or just take plenty of Natural Vitality CALM Mg drink. It may not be as good as the epsom salts, but it's better than nothing.

That link is really good, thanks hop-daddy, but I do all of those things and still am very sick, which leads me to....

I know I sound like a broken record around here, but please don't assume that you do not actually have a physical illness! I have Lyme Disease, which has caused 3 different sleep disorders.  I normally wake up 3-7 times each night. I've had only 5 weeks of solid sleep in 32 years, which occurred when I was put on a drug called metronidazole. It 95% cured all my symptoms and allowed me to lead a normal life. I wish I could take it all the time, but over time it wrecks your liver, and produces resistant super bugs.  Doctors understand that I want quality over quantity of life, but they are too afraid of being sued. Anyway, you all know that saying about the word "assume", lol. 

Hi Bing,

Thanks for the wonderful post!

Hi Hana,

I am allergic to bees now, so the honey is out, but I agree with the black tea....very strong black tea is great to gargle for sore throats. I haven't done sugar in 20 yrs. except for my dark cacao nibs, the one treat I refuse to give up. A girl's gotta have some fun! I only use stevia. 

Mucinex is my savior, along with a saline nasal rinse. I wish this was my biggest health problem, but my susceptibility to it and the need for CPAP are all just more effects of my late stage Lyme Disease.

The good news is I've been on a waiting list for 1 1/2 yrs. for the only local Lyme specialist who takes insurance and I have now got an appt. in 3 weeks! This is my last chance after 33 yrs. of fighting and slowly going down for the count. There is one antibiotic that totally cures me when I'm on it, so I am hoping she can pin down what it is killing and then help me wipe it out with herbs, since you can't take antibiotics forever. (Lyme does not come by itself, but with a whole bunch  of co-infections, which are often far worse than the Lyme). 

You also mentioned my having neck problems, so I looked up something I'd long suspected and sure enough, I have every symptom of Chiari Malformation Type I. I'm too old and sick to have a piece of my skull cut out to fix it though!

I will go to my profile and update my ticket with Elise and ask her if she has found an answer to the PM problem. If you could start a ticket too and tell her that people cannot PM you, that would probably help. She may be wondering why I am doing it, instead of you, and figure it's not a problem or you would've said something. Thanks.

C. Cat

@hana,

I still cannot PM or friend request you, and have not heard back from Elise about the problem, so I am posting this here, despite it being personal, because I want you to know.

Maybe if more of you who can't reach Hana were to start a ticket and ask Elise for help.... Numbers carry more weight. We know she is busy, so the squeaky wheel will get the grease.

You were so right about my lungs! I woke up this morning with a full blown chest and sinus infection. I cannot take antibiotics, so here comes 2 months of Mucinex, saline spray, and prayers that it doesn't  become pneumonia. It is probably caused by my CPAP, and I get this every time we have a cold winter. CPAP has some bad side-effects and is definitely a mixed blessing. It is also addictive, which they never tell you. 

Anyway, that was a direct hit! Thanks for the heads up. I did raise my machine's humidity setting, but it was already too late.

C. Cat

@hop-daddy,

For Seth's version of the Christ story, open "Seth Speaks" and start reading at the second paragraph on page 231 for about two pages. Then go to the top of page 416 for the really juicy stuff, and read to the end of that chapter on page 419.

Luckily, I underline, take notes and write super important ideas inside the covers of books like that, noting what page they are on, otherwise I'd never have remembered where to find it for you.

I'd like your take on it, once you've read it. My take is that it makes perfect sense to me, especially why Peter denied it was him, and why Judas pointed him out. Also it should be noted that many people survived crucifixion back then, especially if they were taken down quickly. 

Since then, I've read many other versions of what really happened, so I am confused. How can we ever know for sure? What Seth said would surely upset many people to whom dogma matters, but to me it has never mattered whether Christ died on the cross or not, or even whether he is the son of God or not, figuratively or literally. What he said stands on it's own for me as being worthwhile.

C. Cat

Just want to let you know that Hana did a great job on my reading and I highly recommend her. She is not afraid to call it like she sees it, which I really, really appreciate. 

C. Cat

I cannot recommend the Seth books enough. The first two, "Seth Speaks" and "Seth On The Nature of Personal Reality" are my favorite metaphysical books of all time, and I've read just about everything written since then.

 I really like it that Jane Roberts had no reason to make them up for money. Channeling was not understood or accepted at all back then and she died young and poor. Seth's explanation of what really happened at Calvary makes a lot more sense than the Bible, IMO. I wore out my first set of the books and had to buy another. 

I don't necessarily accept all of it without question, since you never know who you are channeling for sure, and I really resonate with the "turds of karma" ideas lately, since that also makes sense to me, based on all I've learned since reading Seth so long ago. The Turds of Karma contradicts a lot of what Seth says, so I guess we have to read all sides and make up our own minds, while leaving them open to future info that could change them. 

I definitely agree with hop-daddy about seeing the Matrix all around and feeling so alone since most people I know are oblivious to it.

Good morning @hana,

 Thank you for the link! I have filled out the contact form at the link provided and left you a message on your comment wall too. I hope this will work. Have not heard yet re: fixing the problem  with PMing.

Have a blessed day,

C. Cat

I did not get any message with a link in it. Maybe you can't PM us either?  Maybe it will just take awhile to show up for some reason.......

Thanks for trying,

C. Cat

Hi again @hana,

It would not allow me to PM you and appears to have added me to your page w/o your approval (sorry), while not adding you to mine, so I had to comment on your wall about it.

I noticed someone else had also tried and could not PM you. 

So, I have started a ticket with Elise to get this problem fixed.

Sincerely,

C. Cat

@hana,

If you are looking for people with serious problems to read, I am your gal! My life is a wreck in every area and I've been diagnosed with double depression, as if one wasn't enough, lol.

How do you do your readings? I have FaceTime and Google Hangouts on my Mac, but have to use an old laptop for Skype and have forgotten how to do it, it's been so long. Or, if you chose me, could I just email you a recent pic? That would be easiest.

I will PM you with my email, and if you don't feel like reading me you can just let me know.

thank you,

C. Cat

Hi Lilly again,

I forgot to say that I have noticed an astonishing number of us have Fibromyalgia on this forum. Ever since I read Dr. Devin Starlanyl's big book on Fibromyalgia, in which she explains that some Indian tribes consider FM to be a gift from God and confer automatic Shamanhood on members who get it, I have wondered if the heightened sensitivity and eternal vigilance of the sympathetic part of the autonomic nervous system found in FM is what gives us our abilities. Something to think about.......

Hi Lilly,

What do they mean by "your aura is wide open"? 

Do they mean you have no shielding? Do they mean you have tiny holes all over it that are leaking chi? (That is what I was told). 

Did they provide a solution, or is it even a problem?

Yes, I do feel we are easily broken, but only because the world is full of hard, cruel people. If everyone was like us, I think it would be a lot more like a garden of Eden. 

Tiger Lily,

I know you have a very good Endocrinologist, so I am assuming you've been checked for Type 2 and 3 hypothyroidism aka subclinical H-P-A axis type. I am sure she's checked for Type 1 aka Hashimoto's Disease. I hope she's also checked you for SLE aka Lupus and I am sure basic labs would show any other kidney problems. I only mention it, because I have seen people on this forum assume something is spiritual before without even checking to see if it might be physical first, and that scares me! 

You've gotten excellent advice. I would add only that our bodies often bear the brunt of such pain, and that can create a vicious circle of problems that feed on each other. I would like to see you do some reading on adrenal fatigue .

There are concrete things to do and supplements to take to treat that and the sadness, which may help you in trying to break this cycle. 

Also, the word depressed can broken down into "deep rest' and you sound like you need some, so isolating for a reasonable time to recover may be just what you need. When it's gone on much too long, then healing your adrenals, gut, thyroid and any other affected areas, and rewiring your brain so you don't go over and over negative thoughts all the time may be needed too. I am exactly at this place myself now.  It is very hard work, but you know what they say..... the only way out is through.

@lilly,

I feel exactly the same. I often say I feel like my top layer of skin has been scraped off and the raw underside is exposed. I once got a birthday present of a session with a famous psychic. The very first thing he said to me was; "You are sensitive, in every way, to the nth degree." When I was young, this was called being "high strung".

Have you got a diagnosis for your pain problem? You may be interested, if medically inclined at all, to look up "sympathetic dominant dysautonomia" which is what I think most of us who are hypersensitive to pain have. It is usually diagnosed by doctors as fibromyalgia. As a result, I think anything we can do to calm down our H-P-A axis is helpful. Meditation would be one thing, quiet another, time in nature, a lack of drama, removal of toxic people, constant daily routines in life, etc. should all help and do help me, though outside interference does take it's toll, doesn't it? I am not sure what to do about that except win the lottery so we can afford to hide and bring what we want to us, lol. 

@Lastars - The holistic therapist helping me with my drug withdrawal prescribed an earthing mat for me to sleep on, but I had not looked into it yet. I watched the video link you posted and also read the comments, where I found something very helpful to someone on a fixed income like me.....one commenter said the problem is rubber soled shoes and that natural footwear on the ground, not pavement, will help you almost as much as going barefoot, and while it hurts me to walk in them, I have a pair of soft, very thin soled 100% leather moccasins that I used to wear all the time before I developed foot bone deformities. I will try that first and see what it does. At this time of year there are no fire ants, so I will go w/o socks. Thanks for reminding me of this.

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@TigerLily - Lyme can be easily cured in Stage I in only 3 weeks, so if you know you are bitten, which often you don't ,since the tick anesthetizes you first, try to save the tick to have it tested and get to a doctor right now, no matter how good you feel! It can also be cured if caught in Stage II and the person is under 25 so they have plenty of growth hormone, is otherwise healthy and gets multiple, changing intravenous antibiotics for at least 18 months, though some will have to take them the rest of their lives. I know someone who got correctly diagnosed in Stage II who works full time and runs marathons, but if he misses even 3 days of antibiotics, he is bedridden. I was not correctly diagnosed until late Stage III, by which time I had several other diseases caused by Lyme indirectly and was way too old to recover. I am a walking miracle as it is, since I was told I could die at any time in 1988, was put on terminal disability in 1994 and told they could not believe I was able to walk with so much brain damage, and was told again, after developing yet another disease caused by it, that I would never live past age 63 max. I am now almost 67. My study of Naturopathy and resulting massive supplementation, and my self-discipline to keep at all the things I do every day to help limit my suffering is what I credit with my lasting this long. Lyme steals 2/3 of your nutrition for itself, so you must take in 3 times what a normal person does to keep going. Junk food is out, period. The costs of all these supplements cannot be borne much longer however. I am spending a couple hundred per month just on supplements to get me through the hell of drug withdrawal, all to get off a drug that cost me 15 cents a month. Big Pharma makes it cheap to be addicted. I was also told the drug was not addicting and it has turned out to be more addicting than heroin. Typical. I've been in withdrawal for 13 months now and have about 6 months left to go, getting off a fairly low dose, it is that hard to get off. 11% of America takes this class of drugs. It is much easier to get off opiates....I did it cold turkey after 12 yrs. on them at the start of my illness. I was very sick for half a day, and in bed for two weeks, then fine. If I tried that with the drug I am getting off of now, I'd be dead in  less than one day. The stress of this has thrown several body systems way out of whack. My adrenals, pancreas and thyroid are totally messed up.

I hate to be a bummer, but as Lastars said, there are things going on most people don't know and educating people is one of my missions. One thing is that this disease is very old and the bug has more than 300 strains that have never gone epidemic before.  The strain of Lyme that has now become the fastest growing epidemic in the world was created by a Nazi scientist, working for the US govt. at Plum Island Bioweapons lab, and is part of the UN Agenda 21 depopulation agenda. It was let lose on purpose and went downwind to the closest land, which was the town of Lyme, CT, for which it is now named. The actual bug that causes it is called Borrelia. The book about this is called "Lab 257: Plum Island" and is very well-researched. Over half the book is footnotes. It is available in most libraries. There is a news blackout about this and many other subjects, as I'm sure you know. Our govt. is not spending a dime trying to cure us, but is spending $55 billion to build a new bioweapons facility in Kansas to study Lyme, since they've been so successful with it.

I hope I haven't bored you with all this info. I don't want other people to end up like me, and accept the common misdiagnoses that are so prevalent, due to doctor's ignorance, but so many people have this and do not know it. There are over 300,000 new cases that are correctly diagnosed in the US alone every year now and the estimate is close to ten times as many carriers. In healthy folks, it just sits and waits for your immunity to go down. It can be there for well over a decade before you get sick, if you are in good health, but eventually, something will probably make you weak enough to trigger it. I wish everyone would know the symptoms and insist on proper testing immediately if they have them.

May you never get this scourge.....

C. Cat

@hop-daddy,

Very good ideas. I used to love a hot bath, but can no longer sit on hard surfaces or even stand in bare feet due to intense pain.  I have to stand on a thick garden kneeler instead of a bath mat to shower. I also have too much Lyme arthritis to get up out of a tub once I'm down there. I do drink a hot Natural Calm Mg drink twice daily. I agree about doing things you love and exercising and I do as much as I can. My favorite things, walking in woods and cross country skiing, are no longer possible, and there are no woods within hours of here anyway. I do think dance exercising to my ability, though it's not much, is one reason why I am still on my feet, whereas most people in stage IV Lyme are bedridden. I also use visualizations to push the negative out of myself daily or more often, as needed, and agree with you that it is necessary. I am going through a crisis where I do not understand why I am still being kept here, when I can no longer do what I thought I was here to do, and my guides, who used to warn me about little matters, have not spoken to me in almost 20 years, no matter how much I need help with major issues, so I get no feedback or answers. I don't expect an answer to this. I know there isn't one. I just don't want to be grounded to this earth. I feel like I am done and honestly just don't know why I am still here. I hope that explains it.

@tigerlily,

Unfortunately, that is one of the first things I did. It is a rural area though. One of the things I dislike about where I am now is that it is very densely urban, because doctors told me I had to live in an urban area. I lived in the area I am guided to for 3 mos. before I moved where I am now and loved it. It is probably where the tick bit me, in the national forest I was living in, so I should hate it. I don't care, since I love nature and dislike crowds and noise and any forced interaction with other humans. If there is an alternative doc there, he is not advertising, which may very well be the case, but I am much too sick to even make the trip now. I do not leave the house except to go to doctors and to eat with friends at off hours when feeling really good. I have not been able to drive for 11 yrs. now and get totally overwhelmed just riding in heavy traffic, so I have to carry a throw up bowl and wear industrial headphones. This is due to brain damage rated severe on testing......starting in stage III, Lyme eats the brain. 

I live in a hot, humid area with giant bugs. Maybe it is the one you are being led to??? In fact, we often say that the Palmetto Bug is our state bird, lol. I love the heat, but hate the humidity and the bugs. We are infested with ghost ants right now that are coming in due to the unusual cold. Termites are a constant problem here took and fire ant allergy has almost killed me more times than I can count and ambulances are expensive, so no more sandals, despite the heat. I must wear shoes and socks due to fire ants. You can't even take a short walk around the block during most of the year here, unless you have time to peel off soaking wet clothes and shower and wash your hair afterwards. I spend far more time inside here than I did in the far north.

I wish you luck in figuring out what seems to be contradictory info. I also do not know whether to trust my gut and go against all logic or whether I should be practical. I am not sure I should even look for solutions in the external world at all. I hope you get to make that trip soon and find out once and for all.....

@tigerlily,

I agree about the need to move locations to find peace. The people where I am are harder to bear than my illness. Unfortunately, the place I've long been guided to move to is much colder and I have zero tolerance for cold. The illness I have destroyed my ability to regulate my own internal temperature. In the recent cold snap, my thyroid tanked from the stress, and now my temp is dangerously low. More fun and games with Lyme. I am thrilled you are well and can travel to check out places where you might find more peace. You go girl!

I do balance and clean my chakras each morning as well as putting a shield over the sacral, since it has been repeatedly used by Archons to breach my aura, and the solar plexus, to keep out negative energies, since I am being bombarded from two sides where I live.  I have also had Reiki, by two different people, as well as starting to learn it myself. Just didn't feel right for me and I had too little time for more "shoulds" in my day. I know what automatic writing is, but not divine writing, unless it is the same thing. 

@womanwhowalks,

Even a therapist told me my life is a complete disaster and she cannot see how any of it can be fixed, so what did I expect her to do for me? (I also used to be a therapist before Lyme took everything away from me). I had genetic testing that shows a serotonin transporter defect, which explains why my mother's whole family were depressed and why I have "double depression", meaning it's part long term genetic and part reactive, due to my life situation. I have had 38 years of living in a place I despise. I moved here because doctors told me I had to due to illness, and then I married someone who had a fixed in place business. People with two brain cells  are very hard to find here and there are loads of fruits and nuts. I was warned by two friends who lived here at the time and could not wait to leave and go back to freezing half the year rather than put up with feeling so lonely. 

I am not sure I still believe that I freely and with full knowledge chose to be born here. I am pretty certain I am not originally from this planet. However, I am undergoing a dark night of the soul and I am not sure of much of anything these days! Check out "the turds of karma" online or on YouTube and see what you think. Interesting ideas. The whole light, tunnel, life review, you need to come back and learn a lesson/payback thing may be a program by those who feed off of our negative energy to get us to voluntarily come back to this looney bin, since the rules say they can't force us. The set up here on earth is just too cruel to come from God, IMO. Everything on this planet must kill other living creatures every second just to stay alive. My breathing is killing tiny creatures with every breath by burning them alive in my lungs. It is all backwards here. Evil people have great lives while the good suffer. People who play games make billions, while those who do important jobs get almost nothing, and on and on. Backwards is not God's game, but the dark side's. I don't really believe in a hell where you suffer forever, but if there is something like a hell, I suspect this is it. To me, the absolute worst thing would be having my spouse die first, which would leave me up the creek w/o a paddle, unable to get groceries, meds, go to the doctor, pay the bills, etc. I have friends,  but all the close ones live very far away and are caring for aging parents or grandkids. I have a niggling feeling that will happen if I don't prevent it. I am a coward, so have no immediate plans. I read the Hemlock Society's book and far from helping people die, it is the best deterrent I've ever seen, making it clear how very hard it is to off yourself. It seems many celeb OD's are freak accidents, or somebody's lying somewhere. Sorry to write a book!

Lastars - I totally agree with what you said. The Rockefellers decided making women feel ashamed unless they work another job outside the home would accomplish two things, ie. give the elite a lot more money in taxes and destroy the family. New Age is spiritual bypassing, enabling people to blame others for creating their own ugly reality, while they are chanting and sit doing nothing to change things. Just another religion to keep us from finding truth. Also true that we believe our thoughts without question, rather than just observing them with interest. Great post. Glad to know someone is on the same page with me. 

Good point Lastars!

I think we need to talk more about those things that may be happening and make use of our sensitivities to try to figure out which ones are real, by combining our abilities to pick up on things. Who better to do it than empaths? Otherwise, the discouragement you mentioned is handled by each of us alone, which is more stressful and exactly what the bad guys want. 

I am not sure exactly what you were referring to, but I when I read your post I thought of the ideas I've heard that we are: under quarantine here due to our violence, that there is a grid over us keeping us on planet, that the moon is a base that we are being controlled from, that we are a food resource herd for more technically advanced species, that we are a lab experiment for more technically advanced species, that the Nag Hamadi describes how an advanced species created us to be ore mining slaves and then left us here with thousands of genetic mutations, since they were sloppy about creating mere slaves, and so on. All of these have in common an uneven playing field, leaving us feeling hopeless in the face of tech so advanced it seems like magic. Is that what you meant?

The only one of those I have a feeling may be true is the grid/quarantine theory. That does not mean the others are not true, it only means that I am not picking up anything either way. This may do better as a new thread, if anyone prefers it that way.

P.S. I forgot to fess up that I am really bad at grounding, so I could do it all day long and I'd still not have @hop-daddy's success. I do it every morning as part of my Qi Gong routine, but I am a phoney. I do not want to be grounded to  this world, and of course spirit knows this. I want to leave it, yesterday. I have wanted to leave for almost 20 yrs. now, but am afraid to take matters into my own hands in case a) karma is involved, or b) I fail. I've done a lot of research, and more than 97% of attempts fail. The disease I have has a successful suicide rate of 26% with 3 attempts for each success, so that gives you some idea how hard it is to live with. Almost all the successes are with morphine patches though, and I cannot even get a script for mild pain pills where I live. Our governor has an addicted son, and is on the warpath against legit pain patients, trying to make it impossible for anyone to get pain meds for more than 3 days for any reason. Docs are afraid. So, I suffer. Pain is the least of my problems now that I'm in Stage IV though. If anyone has any hints on how to ground yourself to this earth when you really don't want to be here at all, please do let me know! Thanks. 

Hi @womanwhowalks,

    I am not picking up on what you are, but it sounds horrible. I am so sorry you have to feel that. I do feel that I am being prevented from raising my vibration though. I can definitely feel that. I also notice that every morning, despite my meditation before arising, a major problem occurs to try to upset me and make me angry. It just can't be a coincidence. I always thought it was either the so-called Archons trying to get me upset so they could feed off the energy or energy from my neighbors to the south and north, both of whom are the two angriest people I've ever met. I will consider barcodes though and look for them in proximity when I get enraged.

     The main ingredient I am allergic to that seems to be in every healthy meal shake was something I got in tablets in a plain container from the animal feed store about 20 yrs. ago, when I had the reaction to it (alfalfa). I got it for our dog's Lyme arthritis, and tried some myself, since I have Lyme also. The other common problem is chamomile, which I reacted to in Sleepytime Tea, which I am sure has a barcode on the box. I am very glad you have found a way to stop your kitty's seizures, so at least one good thing has come from this discovery.

@cat-whisperer -

I could've written your post. I gasped when I read it. If you do want someone to vent to about this subject, PM me any time. Sending virtual hugs your way....

@ womanwhowalks -

I looked at the organic protein and vitamin/mineral shake I was drinking for breakfast while I read your post, and it has a barcode on it. It took me years to find shakes that did not contain something I was allergic to. I am too sick to make my own from scratch, and have too many medical chores in the morning to find the time. I have heard barcodes referred to as the mark of the beast by several people. I just can't see how to get them all out of my life. Isn't this like so many other pervasive things, like wifi for example, where our only hope is to raise our vibration high enough to be above it's reach? Honestly, I don't know and am asking your opinion if that might work.

Hi Tiger Lily,

I agree when you share it with another empath, they understand and I also feel like a bubble about to burst if I don't tell someone. Part of it for me is a desire to see if my reaction is considered an abnormal over reaction, and whether others have different perspectives to offer. I have 3 empath correspondents who've become friends (they all live far from me, so I will never see them) whom I can do this with and vice versa.

I am sad though that some long time friendships with normal people, some more than 50 years long, are suffering because they don't understand, don't pick up what I do, and don't desire such deep conversation. I've had to lower the amount of contact in order to protect them from how depressed I get, because of what I pick up from people. This has forced me to face that my best friendships are not as intimate as I'd thought. 

I was not at all a complainer when younger, instead being very naive, and constantly used as a result. I picked up the things I pick up now, but did not realize then that other people couldn't read people like I could. Slow learner, lol. I always tried to understand why people did the things they did and made endless excuses for them. I also did not hold others to my standards. I do now, and that makes a huge difference. 

"Going on tangents of complaining to release the energy". 

Thank you so much, Tiger Lily. I learned something today. I never realized that is why I seem to compulsively do this, even though I know it annoys most of my normal friends to no end. I know nobody likes a complainer, but I seem to have a need to let it out to someone, and it feels more like therapy than complaining to me. I still need to figure out how to stop, since it just makes others feel bad or down after they read it.

That sounds very good about different dogs representing different parts of your life, especially since you think of different things when you think of different types of dogs. I've been avoiding news entirely, but people do tend to tell me things they think I should know, lol.

Thanks for the comment about the sameness of my dream. I had not thought of that.  I am very sick and have been for a long time, so that aspect may be personal, but the feeling of a major catastrophe could indeed fit with the NWO. I am especially feeling their depopulation agenda, since all of the people in those dreams are age 30 or less and I am much older, but not in those dreams, where I am back in my late twenties, but don't look like I did then. For some reason, I never look like myself in this life in my dreams. 

I feel for you about home and work life colliding and stamina suffering. It seems to me as if time is speeding up and we don't have enough hours in the day anymore to get basics done, let alone sleep, and take it from a professional insomniac, if you wake up a lot at night like I do, you will remember weird dreams!

I think you've figured it out well. Now comes the hard part of deciding what to do about it. 

Hi @dadarby,

My immediate thought after reading your account is that this sounds exactly like the way people have been acting toward each other, the way nations have been acting, and how the whole freakin' world has been acting for awhile now, and 2017 was really bad. Everyone is so extreme, with no moderation. Had you been watching the news before you went to bed? If so, maybe you were working out the insanity what you'd just seen on the news, but converted it to dogs, since your brain has more experience at making sense of what dogs do. The dogs may all be large, since empaths hate confrontations, so people and situations involving confrontation loom large to us, since they make us want to be anywhere else. Does that make any sense?

I have been having endless dreams about large white buildings with huge, endless numbers of rooms, and people dressed all in white or even white polar bears, and white mattresses all over otherwise bare floors, often with hospital equipment. This has gone on for a few years now. I have some guesses about it, but no certainties. I really am curious if it means I am supposed to do something in particular in a future disaster.

I hope you find an answer that resonates with you.

Cheshire Cat

I've been taking 10,000 IU of vit. D3 daily for a decade with no ill effects. I was taught it should be dosed by your weight, not one size fits all. I have my blood  level tested twice yearly, but that is the doctor's idea not mine. I am not worried. Also agree about Mg, and love Natural Calm Mg drink mix before bed for relaxation. Kefir also is a daily drink for me, mixed with a green drink powder. I use theanine daily and tryptophan nightly, as well as Seriphos when I get especially wired and can't sleep. Recently started non-flush vit. B3, which seems to be helping already. 

I sure wish I was physically healthy enough to start an HSP/empath Meetup in my area. I would so love to see other empaths face to face. I often feel alone around my "normal" friends.

Even better, IMO,  would be a small community of empaths all living in their own tiny houses to get much needed alone time, but with communal shared spaces. 

Cheshire Cat

P. S. Here is a positive idea for depression.....

     I forgot to mention that vitamin B3 is a relatively new addition to my supplement repertoire, and it is really helping the depression already. I use non-flush niacinamide at 500 mgs. twice daily, but most people don't need that high a dose.  This version of B3 also helps control essential tremor. 

     I am using the non-flush version, but for those who also want the cardiovascular benefits, the flushing version can be used, just start around 25 mgs. and raise it very slowly.

     Do not take B3 if on blood thinning drugs w/o medical supervision. I would also avoid the flushing version if you have a mast cell disorder.

C. Cat