What is your biggest issue as an empath?
Thanx for the thoughtful response. When I blew up at the neighbor, I got the same reaction as your friend with the 'flying chair'....her eyes popped and she ran away. That was many years ago and lately she is trying to worm her way back in and involve us in her life again. She had to evict a "friend" who was staying in her house, and came over to tell us so. I made my husband go to the door. She came again a few days later and he was not home, so I ignored her pounding on the door until she left. I will not allow her in my space again. I have boundaries now, finally! Better late than never.
I also have conflicts about the salvation system and the concept of eternal hell. I can be a stickler for justice, and do not forgive easily, but even I would not condemn the worst being to eternal fire and any god must be far better than I am. I also lean towards pantheism. However, having tried every other name and found only Jesus' to work, it has made me reconsider, and I just finished reading the entire NT again. I wonder if all of us, including Christians with a capitol "C" aren't misunderstanding most of it. I do see how the underpinnings of civilization depend on it, with the invention of hospitals and public schools as good examples of things not even thought of before it, but I can't buy all of it w/o a leap of faith too far for me to take w/o some logical explanation. This subject should not be on the forum, so if you want to discuss it, let's take it to PM.
You are so right about anger being all right if it results in productive action, and not always being nice being not only okay, but a requirement for assertiveness and boundaries. I was brought up to never, ever get angry and still feel guilty when I do, but thanks to Lyme disease, I have full blown rages now, often over little things, another reason to isolate myself. There have been quite a few murder/suicides in Lyme patients due to these rages.
I come out of a church that teaches healing by spirit alone, but decades of working at it have not healed me. I am presently working on healing 4 other people. I figure why not try? I don't know if I can trust what I pick up or not. In one case, I strongly pick up that the diagnosis is wrong and he has something entirely different. I have not said anything yet, but am working on removing what I see. I have predicted 2 people's deaths and what they died from before they knew they had anything wrong, but have not healed anyone yet, except once when I told someone a supplement to take that got him off the heart transplant list. There is a strong genetic component to what I have also. I am reliving my mother's life to a tee, and cannot see the point of doing that.
Re: your ow cortisol. Have you tried Niagen? It is the new hot shot mitochondrial supplement for this problem, available at the store at prohealth.com. My cortisol is too high at night, but is too low during the day. I could not stand Niagen, since I am 'wired but tired' and it really raises energy. It has some side effects and I had all of them, probably since I am such a nervous nellie. Might be worth a try.