Forum Activity for @lavinia

Lavinia
@lavinia
09/06/11 01:20:25AM
212 posts



I'm going through the exact same thing right now with a man and I know how hard it is. I'm at the point where he's (sorta) back and it's very hard.

I don't know how you can tell if he's someone from a past life; I guess you just feel something is there that can't be explained; something beyond chemistry, love or hormones. I know I feel the same with my man, I'm pretty sure there's some karmic debt or something similar there. I'm still not sure if there's something that needs to be fixed or if it's just a relationship we had in the past and that's why we feel connected.

I'm sorry I don't have an advice for you, but I wanted to let you know you are not alone, someone else is going through that as well and understands very well.

Hope things work out for you and you find your peace!

Blessings and hugs!

Lavinia


updated by @lavinia: 01/21/17 05:48:55AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
08/16/11 01:00:57AM
212 posts



It's good to know I'm not the only one :) I guess it's hard as long as death is hard to deal with on an individual level...
Lavinia
@lavinia
08/15/11 08:24:11AM
212 posts



I have a bit of several abilities, but I'm not sure if all can be expanded or if they are just glimpses.

I have clairescence, sometimes i can smell certain smells and i know for a fact they are not coming from a source around me, but the worst is when I smell...death. And then it happens. I've done it a few times, thankfully not with anyone I know, or that is close, but it's something I hate and I try to shut it down as much as possible.

I am also a telepath, I can tell sometimes what people are thinking and then they said it. Sometimes When someone is thinking about talking about something, or thinking about what to answer I already hear the words in my head and then they say it, but I can't tell if I'm just reading their mind, reading the "future", what they will say, or just "suggesting" to them what to say.

Sometimes I feel the other side, hear them and sense them. I can also tell when people are lying, i know when certain things are gonna happen and how, but maybe that's all just part of intuition. It doesn't happen all the time.

But I am clairsentient, that I know for sure.

Sometimes I am also contacted in my dreams by dead people and I know for sure it's them and not just another dream cause it feels so real, more real than this world. But I guess that's just OBE in my sleep or something similar.

Does anyone else have the death smelling stuff? I've never heard of anyone else before and it's really freaking me out. Maybe someone else has experienced it and can tell me how to handle it better or make it stop.

Lavinia
@lavinia
08/01/11 01:58:50AM
212 posts

People putting me in the middle


Empath

I get that a lot too; I'm always being put in the middle, i guess I'm a natural mediator too, and it almost always turns out bad for me. Even if I help, all the blame for their problems gets put on me; it's so freaking ironic, to be blamed for someone elses problems when all you're trying to do is help and THEY asked.

I'm taking baby steps too, and i usually try to make the boundaries clear fro the start now. Doesn't always work but hey...

Lavinia
@lavinia
07/31/11 11:59:23PM
212 posts



This is very interesting...it reminds me of something i read in a book ; God telling someone that he has to learn to destroy before he can create. Interesting...
Lavinia
@lavinia
07/31/11 05:10:12AM
212 posts



Circle of life...yin and yang...something has to die ( be destroyed) for something else to be born ...the 2 faces of the same coins...some people enjoy the sunset more than the sunrise...but they enjoy it for the same reason others enjoy sunrises more then sunset and others enjoy both the same...


updated by @lavinia: 01/07/17 06:54:16AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
07/27/11 01:00:10AM
212 posts

I don't think my gaurdians love me anymore


Psychic and Paranormal

I think they still love you, and they will love you no matter what. They ARE love, they couldn't not love even if they wanted to...at least that's what mine have been telling me. When I don't feel them, or their support, it's because I DON"T, not because they are not there, or they don't love me.

Be assured they will love you no matter what, and so does the One who sent them to you. :)

Lavinia
@lavinia
07/27/11 12:58:01AM
212 posts

I don't think my gaurdians love me anymore


Psychic and Paranormal

How is it unconditional if the leave you if you turn away?! Isn't that WHEN you need their love, help and support most?
Lavinia
@lavinia
06/29/11 12:17:19AM
212 posts



That's a photo of my niece when she was a baby.

The room has very good energy, strong but good. At least it's how i feel it.

I dont feel a good vibe from my parents house and i hate being there by myself, i had many strange things happen while there. But that's the only room i like and feel comfortable with.

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/28/11 04:40:52AM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

"Use" as in ask for and take what they need from me and when they are happy with what they had, they just walk away; it's like i dont even exist to them as a person anymore. Just as some"thing" they can "use" and then put back in the box. More times that i care to remember i have felt like a tissue . It sounds horrible to me, but it's how i felt. Having "friends" how called and saw me to dump their problems on me, all the times, regardless of what i was going through, not caring what i was doing at that time or even bother asking; and if if that didnt bother me as much what did and what made me feel like a human tissue was how they turned their back on me when i needed them. How when i called or tried telling them something about soe problem i had they would listen for the first 2 minutes and them turn the conversation around to them and talk for hours about them and in most cases it wasn't even as important. Like one time i called a "friend" to tell her about a problem i had with another "friend" who was making me feel used, she listens for 1 minute and then wanted to tell me for 15 minutes how her mother got some stupid phone that was charing way too much for calls. And this is just one example. There were many.

I tried telling them many times; i tried it in many way , i tried telling them in ways so they wouldn't feel "attacked", but nothing ever worked. I told one friend how another friend was doing the exact things she was doing and that it bothered me, without mentioning to her that she was doing it as well, not bluntly anyway, and she agreed with me on how horrible it was but didnt see that she was doing it as well. And then when i told her that she's doing it too she just went mad. And told me it's absurd to even be bothered by it.

I didnt quit at the first problem; sometimes i think i should have. I stuck around for more then one year and tried and tried. But it just got worse. It was like the more i told them i need space and i need them there too when i have a problem, the more they ignored it. At one point i even told them both what the other was doing, which was the same for both of them, just to see how they felt about it, and they both thought it was not normal. I tried consulting with other people to see if maybe i'm having abnormal wishes and that maybe i'm overreacting. But several people agreed with me.

Sorry for the long post, but i felt i needed to explain that i did try very hard to make things work. I didnt just quit at the first problem.

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/28/11 04:22:53AM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

"Over the past year the more I have struggled to remain the same the more I have realized I have changed."

This is so true for me as well. The more i hang on to my older me and my old way of doing things the more i realize they aren't there anymore. And on one hand it's great cause i feel a lot better about myself, i've grown, etc, and on the other hand....i don't always like what it's doing to the world around me.

I'm glad you wrote about you and your experiences because it helped you and that's great! And it helps me by seeing what others are going through, seeing i'm not alone in this and i can find myslef in many of the things you said.

I have patters too. Sometimes i push people away, sometimes i can't see to let them go. Of course it's always justified, there's reason for everything we do. But we have emotions, we have the souls telling us what's right and we have our brain telling us as well. Sometimes it's hard to decipher which is which ( it's gotten easier in the last year or so) and to tell when the brain is right on a matter. Or just getting in the way and acting out of fear.

I suppose judging by what i feel inside, I think i did the right thing by ending some of my relationships. I feel better. And the loneliness i feel sometimes, is mainly "brain" issue and things from the past, the ghost of the old me. I think it through sometimes and i know that even if they were around it wouldnt make a difference in the situation i need them. I hope that makes sense...

Thank you for your post and i'm glad it made you feel better. It has given me hope and a better understanding of my situation as well!

Love and blessings!

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/28/11 04:06:14AM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

Thank God for...God :P He's always right and always there. I think he's been the only one always there and everything he "said" or "did" was right on.

If it wasn;t for my faith, i dont know where i would be right now,

Thank you Kristi!

Blessings! <3

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/28/11 04:04:06AM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

One of my karmic lessons is relationships :D So yeah...I knew this before and I'm not surprised things are so difficult in that department.

I just gotta find out how to manage it and if and when it's ok to say stop. That's my issue now, what if i pushed them away too soon? What if it could have worked out? What if didnt try hard enough? I do have a tendency to quit first, but then at the same time, every time i didnt even when i thought it wouldnt work out, it still didnt work out in the end. My intuition is right on all the time but sometimes my ambition to get it right no matter what is bigger.

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/28/11 03:58:53AM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

Thank you Cautious Tosay for all the advice!

The friends I've lost, pushed away were only asking and rarely giving. This is how it was in the last year anyway. Or many it was always like this but i didnt see it as well. That's why i ended up pushing them away. This was of course after trying to balance things out with them,. After telling them that i need my own time sometimes and i can't always be there..i need my own space fro time to time. But they didnt understand. And the thing that got me the most was that when things was trully bad for them i was always there, even if i needed time for me. But when they just wanted to complain about little things, like they did every single day i dindt always respond because i needed time for me too and i felt it was more important to be there when it was truly bad. It's a long story and i dont want to "bore" you with it. I wrote a post on my blog about one of my friends. You might get a better idea, if you're interested in reading it.http://empathcommunity.eliselebeau.com/profiles/blogs/i-just-got-dumped

I did meet new people and i guess that's not really a problem. I have places where i can do that. But i guess the fear that it will be the same is holding me back a bit right now.

I have one good friend that i've known for about 17 years and she's great. She's not like the others, a taker. She's also a giver, part emapth i think and we have a great bond. So I'm not completly alone yet..but maybe scared that i will be.

Thanks again for the great advice..i know not all people are like that and that i quality is more important than quantity.

I'll keep on! I'm a fighter :P "When you're going through hell, keep moving" right ?:P

Blessings!

Lavinia

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/27/11 04:06:34PM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

I had mine done.I'll check it out.

Thanks Brianna! :)

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/27/11 03:17:31PM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

I'd love that Russell! Thank you! :)
Lavinia
@lavinia
06/27/11 01:29:49PM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

Thank you Lisa! Truth is I've met many wonderful people here, virtually true, but I know I can count of them to listen when i need it or land a shoulder, which is a lot more than I can say for the people I've left behind in my real life. Which makes it all...kinda strange if i think about it. But I love that I have the virtual friends i have met here.

Thanks for being here Lisa! It really means a lot!

LOVE and big hug! <3

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/27/11 01:11:10PM
212 posts

Stuck between 2 worlds


Empath

Over the past 2 years I've been going through many changes inside and out, with a speed up in the last year. It's been so crazy, so overwhelming. All the Ascension symptoms ( if that's what it is) plus a few more. Since finding this site a little over half a year ago, I've been cleaning a lot inside. Learning to know which are my feeling and which are from others, letting go, loving myself the way I'm supposed to, taking better care of my feelings and knowing when to say "no". It's been great on one hand, I don't feel like a victim of life anymore, I feel empowered and I've grown a lot.

On the OTHER hand...my world has been falling apart, to put it bluntly. I've pushed people away out of my life, some have left on their own, I have less and less tolerance to some things, I say no a lot more often now...And it's all very fast and confusing. I've heard that it's all part of the change, out with the old, in with the new type of thing but...I'm scared and confused. I have almost no friends left now; i know now looking back that they were toxic to me...but they also had good parts and i think in their own way they cared about me...I'm questioning a lot if i did the right thing. If maybe I rushed and maybe I was too demanding...Maybe all relationships are supposed to be like that...I dont know.

What I do know is I was unhappy and wanted more then they were willing to give. So I left or made them leave. But what if it's me? What if i'm just asking for the impossible? And this goes for everything else, not just friends I've lost.

I know exactly what it is I'm looking for in life, in people. And I've cleaned most of the areas that weren't that. But what if what I need does not exist in human form and in life? Is my life always gonna be like this?

It's true that I've also met some new people that seem to be more in tune to me....but I just dont know anymore.

Everything is falling apart right now, I have a lot of anger and disappointment inside that I'm trying to push out' i'm scared and confused and questioning everything I did, everything I became, or who I turned into, I dont feel good enough anymore. I say no more than I did before and the guilt and feeling of becoming useless voluntarily is overwhelming. I have taken charge of my life, but it feels I'm not helping others as much because of that. If I feel they wanna take advantage or use me, I dont even try anymore.

Sorry for the long rant, but I needed to get it of my chest in a place where people understand ( hopefully).

Has anyone else gone through that? Any insight will be greatly appreciated.

Much love!

Lavinia


updated by @lavinia: 05/09/17 12:31:29AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
06/19/11 03:30:10PM
212 posts



I just took some pictures a few days ago and there's a huge orb and what seems like a moving orb in the second. A few others that could just be reflexions, but the first one kinda surprised me since there was no light in that corner of the room and it's actually the first time i even had orbs in pictures with this camera, and i've had it for while, had many pictures etc.

They are taken seconds away from each other, from the same spot.

What do you guys think?

Lavinia
@lavinia
06/16/11 01:59:48PM
212 posts

An empath's hidden angry nature


Empath

Great point! something i've been considering since you told me this . Thanks! :D

It does help put things into perspective.

Lavinia
@lavinia
05/24/11 05:29:31AM
212 posts



:)))
Lavinia
@lavinia
05/05/11 03:30:40AM
212 posts



" You have to learn to build before you can destroy ".

I've learned to see the pain behind the "haters" and all there's left is compassion and love.

What hurts you so bad that you feel you have to hurt me in order to heal it?
updated by @lavinia: 01/06/17 12:48:47AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
05/05/11 03:28:01AM
212 posts



Each letter contains a vibration...we talk in vibration, not in words.
updated by @lavinia: 01/16/17 04:57:01AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
05/05/11 03:25:49AM
212 posts



Things change, people change, the whole world is changing..evolving...it's happening here too. And this is part of the change, all the turmoil, the fighting...its sad but that's how it is. Change is never easy. And this is no exception.

Pls dont despair...be patient ...it's part of the cycle...now we're on the stormy part...it's part of life...changes i mean.

I think it feels worse because we are all so sensitive here.

It's all gonna be ok in the end :) If it's not ok, it's not the end ;)


updated by @lavinia: 01/22/17 07:12:23AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
05/03/11 12:35:27PM
212 posts



Wow, these paintings are beautiful! You're really talented! :D
updated by @lavinia: 01/13/17 01:25:06PM
Lavinia
@lavinia
04/22/11 01:28:29PM
212 posts

This is for you...


Empath

Thank you Elise! God bless you! <3
Lavinia
@lavinia
04/22/11 11:15:02AM
212 posts



It doesnt feel empty to me either...I see kids there...Small happy kids. That's about it...

Great tree!


updated by @lavinia: 12/14/16 08:15:56AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
04/20/11 09:17:57PM
212 posts



You're right about the leaning on part. It's the difference between a buddy and a real friend. When something like this happens to me I cant help but think it's my fault for getting used to this pattern, where I'm always there for then. I give myself a certain part...and, i'm not sure if this the case with other empaths, I seem to either be stronger or more independent, cause I dont ask for help or someone to listen to me problems as much as others. So maybe they just arent used to it as much and when it does happen they are either surprised or think they dont need to do anything cause i can manage on my own...if that makes sense...
Lavinia
@lavinia
04/20/11 08:30:17AM
212 posts



"Lean on air..." lol :D That made me smile.

I can relate, as i'm sure most can, with what you said and even more.

This enigma took me on a very dark road that almost led me call it quits. I wasnt allowed to do that so the only way left to go was up.

Now I think it's made and continues to make me stronger. I just take it one day, one brick at a time. When it get tough I just let it do it's thing and let it pass. Everything is temporary. So is pain, grief and so is happiness. But I'm learning to take them all with joy.

On a more practical note, I've lowered my expectations of people; I only expect nothing but the best from me, not others. I lead on God when I need to; I've learned to lean on myself as well. I've developed a stubbornness that no matter how tough it gets I'm not gonna quit. Like I challenge myself, life with all it brings. I focus more on the bright side of things, especially when things are going bad. I rest when I need to. I put myself first...well, there's a longer list, but I think my point is made.

This is how this is affecting my life at this point. Or better yet, how I affect it.

How about you Wolf?


updated by @lavinia: 01/21/17 08:08:18AM
Lavinia
@lavinia
04/18/11 05:27:16AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

I am not in this world to live up to other people's expectations, nor do I feel that the world must live up to mine. I Like this quoteI dislike this quote

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; because there is not effort without error and shortcomings; but who does actually strive to do the deed; who knows the great enthusiasm, the great devotion, who spends himself in a worthy cause, who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement and who at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly. So that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.

and...

Enjoy life. This is not a dress rehearsal. :D:D:D

Lavinia
@lavinia
04/17/11 04:18:57AM
212 posts



Not everything is our lives is empath related, like Fred said and I don't know if 2 empaths in a relationship is the key to success, but it sure helps on some levels. I had a 2 year relationship with an empath and other than the fact he understood some of the things I was going through, it was just a normal relationship, with everything that brings. Good and bad, lots of challenges and satisfactions.

I think it's a good idea to have a site like that, I just won;t depend on it to bring me the perfect relationship just cause he's an empath. :)

Lavinia
@lavinia
04/12/11 06:54:30AM
212 posts

Archangel Gabriel's message to me


Psychic and Paranormal

Sounds like a combination of Archangels..Gabriel ( vessel), Michael( warrior) and Uriel ( visionary).
Lavinia
@lavinia
04/12/11 06:31:14AM
212 posts

Archangel Gabriel's message to me


Psychic and Paranormal

Life's so full o surprises...if you know how to look :)
Lavinia
@lavinia
04/12/11 03:13:55AM
212 posts

Archangel Gabriel's message to me


Psychic and Paranormal

That sounds so amazing Jonny. You're really blessed to have such a great protector! I've asked A.Gabriel for help before, in healing and he was always there.

I've received messages too and it feels so safe to know that you have someone from that realm protecting and guiding you. And he's right, people will come and go, will love or and leave you but they will always be there. That's something to cherish. You're so lucky! :D

Lavinia
@lavinia
04/01/11 12:11:27PM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

I love this one :)
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/31/11 09:58:55AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

Even after all this time the Sun doesn't tell the Earth "You owe me!"
Just think what a love like that can do...
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/29/11 11:03:29AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt.
with.
Michael Jackson

Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.
Nelson Mandela


Lavinia
@lavinia
03/27/11 09:12:24AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

I love that Roxy!
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/27/11 09:11:44AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

You are strong when you take your grief and teach it to smile.You are brave when you overcome your fear and help others to do the same.You are happy when you see a flower and are thankful for the blessing.You are loving when your own pain does not blind you to the pain of others.You are wise when you know the limits of your wisdom....You are true when you admit there are times you fool yourself.You are alive when tomorrows hope means more to you than yesterdays mistake.You are growing when you know what you are but not what you will become.You are free when you are in control of yourself and do not wish to control others.You are honourable when you find your honour is to honour others.You are generous when you can take as sweetly as you can give.You are humble when you do not know how humble you are.You are thoughtful when you see me just as I am and treat me just as you are.You are merciful when you forgive in others the faults you condemn in yourself.You are beautiful when you dont need a mirror to tell you.You are rich when you never need more than what you have.You are you when you are at peace with who you are not. ~ Author Unknown
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/24/11 05:50:06AM
212 posts

Corporate Personality Test


Empath

I got 36 points. It's accurate. Thanks Bing!
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/23/11 11:27:47AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

That is such a beautiful quote and this picture is soooo touching :D:D:D
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/23/11 11:26:41AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

Betrayal of yourself in order not to betray another is betrayal nonetheless. It is the Highest Betrayal.
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/22/11 03:36:04PM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

That's beautiful! Flying...
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/20/11 12:03:05AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up.The Reverend Jesse Jackson
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/17/11 04:08:09AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

Oftentimes the gifts that go a long way and mean the most are time and love.

Lavinia
@lavinia
03/16/11 06:52:53AM
212 posts

Help!


Psychic and Paranormal

Thanks for the reply Michele. Yes I have had migraines for many years, i was hooked on pain killers. And recently, about 1 month before the incident, I started doing energy healing and got of the pills. I stopped having migraines; just minor head aches once in a while. After the incident, they came back worse than before. But i was patient, I did energy healing...and it's better now.

I'm not really sure what you mean about the illness issue. Are you saying it's worse than doctors said? Can you tell me more?

I have been talking better care of myself since the incident and I feel more balanced.

Thanks again!

Blessings!

Lavinia

Lavinia
@lavinia
03/16/11 05:38:20AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

Some days there wont be a song in your heart. Sing anyway. Emory Austin
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/15/11 10:24:38AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

Love this :D so true
Lavinia
@lavinia
03/13/11 09:22:29AM
212 posts

Thought of the day


Empath

True unconditional love :)
 
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