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MaryAnne
@maryanne
10/05/16 02:41:30AM
30 posts

Empaths & love..


Empath

OMG! Same here!

I was wondering if it had something to do with being an empah... 

My best friend says that there's something about me. The light seems to follow me in the pictures etc.

Few occations it has been REALLY awful too. You see I was sexually abused when I was 12-13 and I didn't even understand it and I was really shy and didn't know what to do with it and didn't have anyone to turn to.

Besides it wasn't really clear to me what he was doing. I think he was manipulatively smart about it...

I did tell his wife who HAPPENS to be my older sister... but that was years later and I was just surprised that she didn't notice anything.

She blamed me and said I should've said something then. Like it would've mattered back then. He was abusive to her too. Vocally. 

So he was the first to show interest in me. I think the empath powers started to get stronger in that age too. Meaning I felt like a crazy person...

And after that almost all of my male friends started to notice me and they thought they found their  soulmate or something. My little sister found it funny and so did my girlfriends. They still joke about my ''popularity'' eventhough other girls were jealous and thought the worst of me making me feel cheap. And nothing even happened with those guys!!!

The funny thing is... I NEVER felt anything to them. Not like that. So in the end I started to avoid them. I didn't give my time to them anymore. I didn't want to talk to them anymore like I used to. They were just hi, how are you doing-friends to me.

And if I really DID like someone...? Well. I was just way too nerveous to show them the real me and acted like a total idiot in front of them. They got over me like after a first date :p

Anyways. Enough ranting!

It's just good to know that there are others who think the same way I do :D

MaryAnne
@maryanne
09/30/16 12:40:21AM
30 posts

Welcome New Web Site Early Birds!


Empath

Hi, Elise!

Thank you for your hard work to keep our place alive!!!

Eventhough I've been away for a long time, I'm really grateful that I have a place to come back to :) Feels like home ;)

I see some familiar ''faces'' here too. 

I try be a better empath from now on and not surrender to the darkness that's been calling me lately...

Thank you again, Elise!!! In fact, your e-mail was a great reminder to come home.

Love to everyone!!! 

MA.

MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/26/14 01:27:11PM
30 posts



Hi.
I have the same thing happening to me.
I discussed the first time it happened to me in here as well. Started the topic "Something..." In the beginning of May.
It started then and it's been happening to me the whole time. Sometimes it's different but I still have the same kind of feelings.
The small panic attacks and my head is spinning and I hear...something.
The feeling of something hitting me or like passing me.
And the feeling when you stand up fast and you get a head rush.
Only I'm standing up the whole time.
Things like that.
And having so many deja vu's it doesn't surprise me at all. Well, to be honest, that has been my thing for years and years.
But yeah, the familiar situations...

Don't know what's going on but I have the feeling that something big is happening in the world.
People are waking up perhaps? That would be great :)
The new age and our time is here I think.
So many good points were made in my topic. Not worried anymore but excited.
I think that's what we're feeling. It's not only few people that are "waking up" but hundreds and thousands.
I think that's what we're feeling it so intensively.
MaryAnne
@maryanne
06/16/14 03:23:51AM
30 posts



Hi SnakeMedicine!

Thank you for that topic!

Hopefully you're not as tire anymore and you have the time and energy to do stuff now. I don't necessarily mean in here ;) And thank you so much for doing this!

I'm just gonna post my chart in here, if you or anyone else have the time to read it.

Thank you!

MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/15/14 05:32:03AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Hi :)Thanks for that! I try to find them :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/11/14 10:54:50AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Thanks Paul!I have a lot of other pendants but looks like I'm missing one. Moldavite.It is intense. Let's ride the wave but let's not let the fear in. Again ;)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/11/14 10:47:16AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

You're welcome :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/11/14 10:21:11AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

@LW. Keep throwing and don't worry :)
I think there's more in here that DO understand ;)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/11/14 10:19:59AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

@SnakeMedicineWow!
I'm into astrology but not that much ;)
Good to know! Things HAVE been a bit intense for a while now.
My stomach is in knots most of the time. I thought it was just the usual stuff.
Sometimes it seems the whole world is going crazy. Strange things are happening...
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/11/14 10:08:49AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Well I've seen all kinds of war-dreams. Sometimes they are more serious with killings and couple of times I even got shot and sometimes there are exciting adventures :DSince I hate and I do mean HATE war movies then I don't watch them. I don't like action as well.I like comedy-action. Like Jackie Chan movies ;) But not serious stuff. If you understand my meaning.And war is not on my mind. Like ever.So when I see a war related dream then I usually turn to my app - dream dictionary. Or www.dreammoods.com.It's like you said - our minds are trying to work out things in our sleep. And when I look for an interpretation of my dream then something usually clicks. It's like "Oh, right! I DID think about that in the back of my head all day!" :DI don't know if I drifted a bit from the discussion but it's just something I thought about when I read your post :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/11/14 09:49:08AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

You're welcome :DI'm glad if I was even a little helpful as well.And all of you that replied to my question...THANKS!I try to be positive. And all of you helped me a lot :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/05/14 08:29:59AM
30 posts



Welcome! :)This is a good place and I love the fact that it's so peaceful in here ;)Lot of reading to do and learning as well.Everytime I feel overwhelmed and sad or depressed I just come here and read similar topics to what could be wrong. There's always someone that says something that makes you feel better. And gives advice what to do.Really helpful for people like us.Place with light and hope. Love it!Bless you! :)MaryAnne.
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/05/14 08:17:26AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Hi and thank you for the answer! :)I've also heard about the Age of Aquarian. Actually I discussed this so-called End of the World 12.12.12 with my friend once. She thought that in a way it WAS the End of the World.The End of the World as we know it. And that the people around us started "waking up" and they started to talk about spiritual stuff more.I actually noticed that too. When my macho brother started to talk about previous lives and karma and things I thought he was too "sane" to talk about before. I was stunned. I actually have something to talk about with him now :DFunny thing is that he tries to teach me things I've known for years and years. Since I was little actually.Back then he was laughing when somebody talked about dreams that came true.So... Does it mean that even more and more people are waking up?That would be great! I wouldn't feel like a crazy person then.People that I've told about being an Empath haven't even heard about it.Maybe they'll be more open then.I try being positive as well. Just these things around me usually struck me down and then I'm depressed again.I'll do my best though. To change those vibrations ;)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/05/14 07:56:49AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Thank you for the answer and warm wishes! :)I've always felt that people are watching too much tv.So much violence and too much propaganda.I mean it's good to know what's happening in the world but I think that people just don't think that they're being used. They stop thinking themselves and don't know what to believe anymore. Just listen what THE tv or newspaper tells them. Meanwhile the fear is spreading and spreading...Or I might be wrong. That's just my opinion :)Anyways. Thanks for understanding!Bless you! :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/05/14 07:46:23AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Hi Mary Anne!
Thank you for the answer! :)
And yes, the same name :D

You're right. It WOULD be nice to learn the difference between those two.
So much to learn and it's gonna be difficult.
Like I wrote before then it felt different than the other crybaby moments I have had in the past.
I call it crybaby moments because that's what everybody in my family has been calling me. Since I was little. Nothing wrong with me but sad and/or crying.
I just needed couple of hours to get over it and then I was "normal" again.
I just never felt like crying for days! And that's why I thought it was different this time.
Well it's been days and I guess it finally passed :)
Thats why this place is so great! We can share these things with each other and give advice or just say something to eachother that makes sence! To us anyways. Beacause we know and understand ;) I can't talk to anyone in here beacuse I don't know any other Empath.
People haven't even heard of it :/
So thank you for understanding and the rest you sent me. Reading this helped :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/05/14 07:34:03AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Thank you for the answer! :)For me it's not so much "the end of the world" feeling that struck me.And I don't think the world is about to end either. And I don't watch the news. I don't even own a tv.I try to live in my own little world and be happy :)But this feeling that came over me...I remember even the moment it happened. I was walking and then something literally struck me. I felt it. Physically. I had to stand still for a moment, I was so stunned.And since I was busy, I just started walking again.Couple of days later I remembered it. By then I had cryed a lot and felt bad. So... I'm just gonna let it go now :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/05/14 07:20:44AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Thank you for the answer!Possible. Today my flatmate told me that she's been through something lately. Her health got worse and some other things.
Hopefully that's all there is to it.
And well...my own world is changing all the time. Maybe it was just a sort of a panic attack.
I'll try meditating.
Thanks for the good advice! :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/05/14 07:15:47AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Thank you for the answer!I'm not much of a tv watcher.
I know the basic news and some of the serious stuff. Like Ukraine etc. But if possible, I just shut my eyes and ears. It's too hard for me still. I take too much stuff in and I don't know how to deal with it. Yet.
But you're right of course. About going through stuff and the spiritual evolution :)
More and more people around me discover spirituality. It's like everyone is waking up all of a sudden.
MaryAnne
@maryanne
05/03/14 08:37:41AM
30 posts

Something...


Empath

Hi there!I've been away from this community for a while now. But today I felt I just had to write something in here.I don't know why.Always confused and strange. That's me!Anyways. Question to you all: do you have this feeling that something big is happening right now? Or about to happen?Something bad. And it's global.Something kinda hit me yesterday.Usually the weird feeling passes in a day or so but it continues today.It could be just me and maybe my friends or family but I have this weird feeling and it makes me cry now.Yesterday I was just stunned and exhausted but today tears are flowing and I can't make them stop!It's never been that bad before and I don't know what to do :(Thanks for listening. Or reading :)
updated by @maryanne: 06/15/17 06:38:37AM
MaryAnne
@maryanne
09/28/13 10:03:50AM
30 posts

Seriously depressed and struggling


Empath

I wish I could say that it get better. Like some people usually do ;)But it gets better and the bad to worse again. And then better!That's life I guess.For some people, like me, it's worse. Cause of all that empath-thing.I found a way to escape. My way. There are actually quite many of those.You'll just gonna have to find what suits you the best.And when I ready, I return to the "real" world again. When I'm stronger and wiser even. Cant really explain how that happens but it works.I've accepted the fact that most people are selfish and careless and they don't think the way I do. And it's okay. Sometimes I'm dissapointed, sure. And then I think that I should just take the ones I care about, and accept them just the way they are. Because that's exactly what they do. With me.Even if I'm showing them my worst colours ;)Such a cliche but again - thats how it is.
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 09:26:33PM
30 posts



I use to watch it on internet. Btvguide or 1channel both have it.
The show made me feel better. I remember the feeling of hope after every episode. Truly a feel good series. Especially season 1 and 2 :)Greetings from Europe to NZ!
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 09:12:26PM
30 posts



When their album Sound of Madness came out I use to listen to it for months. It helped me a lot in a way.And Crow and the Butterfly was one of my favourites in the CD :) And then one of my friends started to call me a butterfly. Still quite confused why...Other fave was Call Me.But yeah. Shinedown is gooooood! :D
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 01:10:35PM
30 posts



Aaaw. I love Being Erica! Canadian actually.I used to watch it and loved the theme song also :)It IS clearer inside of me now too ;)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 12:31:11PM
30 posts



Well now I wanna go and dance in the graveyard ;)Funny cause for some reason I've always loved graveyards. They're just so peaceful.Not at nights though. Then its too creepy for me. Although when there's other people in there and perhaps candlelight...
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 12:27:36PM
30 posts



Me too.I dont even have to think about anything related to empathy but this song just pops into my head time to time. Love it! :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 12:25:42PM
30 posts



Thanks, Zeca, for those songs! I love classics and lot of familiar songs popped up in the related vids list ;)Now I have to admit I never really liked BeeGees but this song was beautiful and made me think about lot of things.I spent the whole hour listening related songs there :D
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 10:38:14AM
30 posts



I love the song!Thanks for the reminder :)Also Bring Me To Life was the first Evanescence song for me and that time I LIVED through those lyrics.And now for the song that's been stuck in my head for some reason all day today. http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rPo5jTQ39eE
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/25/13 09:17:30AM
30 posts



Hi Scotty!Let them laugh. Can THEY play an instrument? :pBesides a LOT of people like Otis Taylor and his song Ten Million Slaves, me included. That song made me like banjo music as well :)Greetings :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/24/13 12:09:34PM
30 posts

What's you culture?


Empath

Same thing with me and Ireland :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/24/13 06:37:35AM
30 posts

What's you culture?


Empath

Hi there!I can surely relate. To belonging somewhere else and about Japan also. I watched this Japanese soap opera once - Hana Kimi. It was quite ridiculous yet funny and I liked it anyway. I wanted to go to Japan after that. I also grew up with cartoon Digimon. They didn't show Pokemon in Estonia that time. Thats where I'm from :)But MY country has to be Ireland. Since I first read a book where the main character went to Ireland and found her place there. I was like 8 or 9 that time.I love Irish music and I love the irish accent and I love that the are lot of redheads in there :DI dont know why. But I know it's my country where I'd like to go someday.I have such high hopes about the place that I'm afraid to be disappointed once I'm there...Hope not ;)I also use to feel connected to Spain. Still am in a way.Also. Everytime I read a book or watch a movie about a foreign country, I always want to visit that place. Is that like with you too?
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/23/13 09:20:57PM
30 posts



I like melodic metal and rock, good ol' jazzy swing (I LOVE the Rat Pack!), pop music occasionally, when it's not too pointless ;)And my favourite classic is of course Beethoven. Dramatic.Classic rock is worth mentioning also. I LOVE the movie The Boat That Rocked cause the soundtrack is SO good!I have this feeling that I was born at the wrong time :)
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/23/13 01:37:49PM
30 posts



I agree completely! I cannot live without music.
I tried to explain others around me just WHY I have to listen to music all the time. Tried to explain that when it's quiet in the room then the silence is just too...repressive? I guess its the right word for it. Its like I can FEEL the silence and its too overwhelming for me.
Now I know why. Empathy. Being an empath opened my eyes to soooo many things.
I've been walking around for years and years with my mp3 player and earplugs.
Then I was completely cut off from other people. Only when I wanted to communicate to others, I took them off. And well, when I HAD to ;)
Thats my personal connection to the music and melodies. And the lyrics I could relate to ;)
updated by @maryanne: 01/06/17 03:12:39PM
MaryAnne
@maryanne
07/23/13 12:12:34PM
30 posts

Seriously depressed and struggling


Empath

Hi Debbie!You're not alone. Half of the things you described I also feel right now.I also have friends like that. They turn to me when THEY need someone to talk to. I never thought about that before. That they're being selfish and, oh well, they have bigger problems than me anyways.But since I begun to realise who I was and WHY they think they can turn to me with their problems, I feel like listening and giving advise is just not enough for me. Eventhough I also have told about my problems to them,I always had a feeling they never REALLY listened. Or listened and then forgot.It's weird like that. It's like you can see them looking around and thinking something else to tell me about. Like a contest or something.Like you and your problems and thoughts don't matter cause they have everything worse.So somewhere along the way I just gave up. I dont talk to them anymore. I only listen. And eventhough they sometimes ask me how am I doing, I have this feeling that they dont really mean it. They just want to talk about them. It's not their fault really. They just dont know HOW to listen anymore. It's not like they are bad people or bad friends.People are selfish. And then they are surprised when somebody commits a suicide. It has happen amongst the people I know. Two times in a last five years. And I dont know all that many people.And then they ask WHY?! Why did he do this?Well anyways... Sometimes I have those thoughts too. And then I think about the people that really love me. How the've suffered through all the things I've done and said. Because I was confused about the feelings that werent even mine. And of course, some were ;DMy family. Mom and dad, brothers and sisters and their children.They are my reason to live.Like you have your cats. Hopefully siblings too?Cause no matter what, there are always people who love you just the way you are.And eventhough you might feel down now and everything seems dark...it goes away.Those days music helps. Or some good movie. Or even just a nap.I'm not gonna tell you what to do or feel. You'll figure it out yourself.Just know that whenever you need to talk, you can write me. Or post something on the board.I'll listen. Or read ;) And I try to answer. At the moment I'm quite busy with two jobs but I'll always try to read what people have posted here. I feel for them and if I have some good advice, I try to answer also.Dont know if any of it helped. Trust me if I say this - you're not alone!!!