I can be the same way. I keep people back until I know them and think they are not a threat. People always saw me as weakalso because I was too sympathetic in this world of selfishness. My emotions feel like overreactions compared to other people. But then I was told over and over as a kid that I was overreacting to everything.
I have had that happen where my brain plays what could happen as a video in my mind, like a daydream. It can feel so real while you watch it play out. It can be a helpful tool for me. If I don't know how to approach someone about something I can use it to play out a few senarios and see how they likelywould go. Though it can scare me sometimes too. If we are driving down the highway I will see oncoming vehicles as they plough into us head first, just because the thought crossed my mind that they might cause an accident. I get lots of shivers down my back for those possibilities. It is kind of like having premonition but instead of just one vision I can go through as many possibilities as I can think of.
I can hear thoughts as well. People tend to be uncomfortable when I keep saying what they were going to say. The problem is their thoughts come through my thought voice so I can't tell the difference that easily. I tend to overanalyze too. Is this my intuition or me overreacting again, is that the other person's thought or did my mind make that up, when that person clenched their jaw when I brought up this topic was that why they did it or was it something else.
As far as having a shield up I would just keep in mind what you want and work on letting that shield down around people you know you can trust. I was used and abused for being weak and I don't like to let people in either. I am slowly working on opening up a bit more or at least trying to have a bit more control over my empathy so that I can turn it off when I need to. Bit by bit, I grow and change.
updated by @gin-s: 04/15/17 12:27:39AM