Forum Activity for @stefficat11

stefficat11
@stefficat11
01/03/19 05:10:09PM
2 posts

Having a really difficult time recently


Empath

Thank you all so much for your kind and insightful responses. I have only had a chance to log on here today and will take the time this evening to read through them all. You have all been very helpful thanks
stefficat11
@stefficat11
12/29/18 03:01:47PM
2 posts

Having a really difficult time recently


Empath

I just joined this forum and am really thankful that such a wonderful community exists.  I only came to the awareness that I'm an empath a few years ago but I think it's helped to explain a lot that's happened over the years.  

Right now I'm going through a really difficult time. Like so many others here, all my life I have attracted toxic people both in friendships and relationships-people who would just think nothing aboit discarding  me and others once they had gotten bored. My last relationship was with a narcissist almost old enough to be my father. I was really lucky to get out of that relationship be cussed he almost destroyed me. It never turned into physical abuse but the emotional abuse was quite bad. One of the most hurtful things he ever said to me which still goes around in my head is that if I had kids they would "look lime gremlins". He also made out that I was trouble and a nuisance and that he was one of the only people who understood me.

Fast forward to 2 years later and I'm still trying to heal from the relationship and just feeling disillusioned with life. I've isolated myself so much and don't want to be around anyone anymore for fear of being hurt.  I'm in my 30s but already feel old and that it's too late to start overy. 

I'm in therapy and it has helped but it's the loneliness and heaviness of life i just can't cope with.  Always being the listening ear for others but nobody ever being there in turn. 

Thanks for reading x