Do the whole routine before going to work. I would think that while at work you could use parts of it.
Notice what she says of the Zip Up. And the Hook Up.
I am sorry to hear of your seemingly unshakeable low vibrations. Considering that, in the USA alone, 800,000 children per year are reported missing [that's 2000/day]; is it any wonder that you are affected so?
Since past reliable methods do not work anymore, I would ask, in your life, what kind of support do you have from others who would be empathetic and/or sypathetic to the nature of your work and its affect on you?
That is a tough job for an empath to not only feel for the missing but also for family members and parents left with every breath they draw wondering what happened to their loved ones.
If you have no close companions in your life to help you transmute this energy, I would think that we in the EEC could help to hold space for you and lessen overwhelming feelings.
Bless you for the work you do and feel free to ask for a shoulder to lean on from myself and I'm sure of others here.
I've been thinking and researching more on your delemia. First, validation of the infestation in your home from a search. You might want to read thru the comments and discover that this happenes to others, although, I have yet to read of so many entities as you are plagued with.
Etheric Spiders And Nasty Entities - Can you stand the truth? https://tinyurl.com/ya8h62uu Astral spiders experiences are common. If you have a vision, a dream, or some insight into these so called etheric spiders you are not going crazy. Far from it. You are seeing something real. In fact you most likely have intuitive perception higher than most.
Etheric Spiders And Nasty Entities - Psychic and Medium ... https://tinyurl.com/yydjpdes Astral spiders experiences are common. If you have a vision, a dream, or some insight into these so called etheric spiders you are not going crazy. Far from it. You are seeing something real.
Astral and Etheric Spiders| Makka-da https://tinyurl.com/yxum3wfb
I think what happened is that your perception of other dimensional beings and critters opened up; something not uncommon nowadays. I think that this potential was always with you and maybe as a small child, you might have experienced things which maybe your gram knew about. As you got older, you might have denied this or pushed those memories way down.
I don't know or don't remember reading what happened to your mum, whether she left or died for your father to marry your stepmom. Either way this had to have been traumatic for you. Trauma can open us up to undesirable attention from hyperdimentional beings.
You may also be a candidate to move onto a higher density, otherwise know as ascension. Those who feed upon us would not want that to happen and much is done to hijack your progress.
The being who took you on those 'rides' tempted you, in a way, and you complied by saying , "Show me."....or whatever. I understand curiosity, but that can be a tricky thing unless you have really cleaned your machine first and are aware of ALL your motivations for wanting to engage in something like this. Besides the fact that this kind of thing is almost always a diversion from more important work we have to do on the self, I think as you got deeper into it, it would require an amount of self-knowledge and wisdom that most of us [certainly including myself] don't possess.
The important thing for most now is work on the self. You have trauma that needs healing and probably forgiveness too [don't we all?] Forgiveness of others and most likely yourself, as we all do.
Concerning attempts at getting rid of the creatures, beings and webs, I searched thru some older material of the Cassiopaean websites and found the following from a Q&A session...I'm not giving the link because it would be too confusing to read parts of it but I did find something that may be relevant to your inability to get rid of them. In your posts, you constantly repeat: This can't be true or happening....How much proof do you need? Read over the following and let it sink in:
Q: (L) Is there any benefit to be obtained through the use of mantras?
A: Especially when the mind says there is. Remember, most all power necessary for altering reality and physicality is contained within the belief center of the mind. This is something you will understand more closely when you reach 4th density reality where physicality is no longer a prison, but is instead, your home, for you to alter as you please. In your current state, you have the misinterpretation of believing that reality is finite and therein lies your difficulty with finite physical existence.
Q: (L) Close enough. Is it true that recitation of mantras can affect spirit release or exorcism?
A: If you please.
Q: (L) Last week, the remark was made, regarding spirit release and exorcism that if it is done properly, by the right person, that there are no side effects or eventualities that would bring detrimental conditions to the individuals and location involved. What was meant by “done correctly”? What is the correct format or mode for exorcism?
A: Correct manner involves honesty and understanding that one has complete faith and awareness of the activities pursued. In other words, when one performs an act, which they proclaim to be having a desired result, and they do not have faith in their own actions as, in fact, producing the desired result, then the effort will collapse because of their lack of faith. Whereas when one has complete faith and multi-density understanding, their activities are indeed truth and useful as prescribed and this is the correct way to pursue them.
Q: (L) Isn’t faith a difficult commodity to acquire?
A: Not at all. When you have found something of truth you will receive demonstrations that locks in your faith. END
Stevie, you've been down for so long, I wonder if you can remember the joy of high energy as it surges thru your body? I gave you some very simple and easy things to do to raise your vibrational frequency. Here's an simple and fun exercise to do just that from Dr. Kim....I love her exuberance and energy! You might look thru her videos for ways that can help you heath wise and all around. Anyway, I dare you to do the following and not feel a surge of energy running thru your body. Wooooo Hoooo!😄
Raise energy in your body:
First off, I liked the idea of using 'wings' to enclose or puff up your presence. So much that I spread mine fully in regards to my German Shepard, who's getting a little too big for her furry pantaloons....She listened to me then! 🤣
Second, I wonder if you and some of the others are feeling the activation of your merkabas, especially during meditation. It was believed in ancient times, and even written about by the Hebrews that the [Merkavah] could be turned on by certain principles in meditation. This involves breathing changes, and mind, heart, and body changes that alter the way a person perceives the Reality.
It can also become functional through the true living of qualities such as love, faith, trust, truth, and compassion, where it can spontaneously become alive. In other words, very pure human character can translate into a living merkaba field around the person, even if that person doesn't initially know it is there.
It has also been known since ancient times as the divine light vehicle used to connect with and reach those in tune with the higher realms. "Mer" means Light. "Ka" means Spirit. "Ba" means Body. Mer-Ka-Ba means the spirit/body surrounded by counter-rotating fields of light [wheels within wheels; the two tetrahedrons rotating in opposite directions] which transports spirit/body from one dimension to another.
The idea of winged humanoids comes from olden times, when they could not envision such movement by any other way. What if they were describing the merkaba?
Look at the following diagram and see if you can imagine wings...remember when fully actived, it is a living part, controlled by the owner's mind. It wouldn't necessarily have this hardened form in the sketch:
Now look at the video below [from Indonesia, 2011] where people are speculating that it's an angel. You can clearly see a humanoid figure in the center. Could this not be a being traveling from another dimention or even a fully activated earth human traveling in his/her light body? It has been said that the military can see whose merkaba is activated and that there are millions right now on the planet whose merkabas are activated...whether they know it or not. Keep watching because after the very quick landing, the video shows it in slower motion:
Some other thoughts/suggestions. These etheric spiders are astral. The web attachments to you; well, we here in the physical are energetic food to so much that most don't see...part of the package of Life on Planet Earth. And it's not a symbiotic relationship either; we get drained and nothing back!
Robert Monroe brought this info back from his astral travels. He called Earth a 'Loosh' Farm and got very depressed over this. Loosh is the term for the energy that's farmed from us. Now humans can produce negative or positive loosh...the negs want the negative flavor of loosh and can poke and prod us for it....another flagrant violation of our freewill!
Any lower emotions you emit will be siphoned off. They'll never show themselves to your husband because his disbelief keeps you in a frustrated and upset mood...they most likely are sucking loosh off him too.
Suggestions: Quit trying to get hubby to believe you.
Be aware of the emotions/type of energy you're emitting. When low, flip your emotions, laugh, smile...fake it if you have to. Holding a pencil between your teeth is a good way to fake your body into sending smile signals to your system.
Try and locate any breeches in your aura, where you'd be leaking energy and repair.
Strengthen your aura and eat a clean healthy diet.
Ground yourself thru out the day, many times.
Ask spirit to remove the cobwebs from you 100% Say this 3 times for each request and then thank spirit...I'm talking about your higher self here.
PS: I used to tell my son when he was little to tell the shadow beings that they did not have his permission to be there. When older I asked how that worked for him and he said it just made them stay further away, as you mentioned. Well the SOBs are back occasionly and I have read others say what works once or a few times will stop working. No one really understands who or what they are but you can find mention of them throughout history...people saw them during the black plague in Europe. They like to peek through doorways...but this is a different subject.
This is how I envision an Angelic Human energetically embracing a Human who is deeply embedded within the Matrix: https://tinyurl.com/y24g7vqb
When I say Human, narcs ARE included. They became that way due to the operation of the planet. As a visitor to planet Earth, one sees a predatory leaning. Most institutions are predatory, monetary systems are predatory....Eat or be eaten. So, Angelic Humans bear the scars of diving into the pool of Earth's Humanity...We feel the pain of so much PERCEIVED lack here....Lack of love, lack of energy, lack of understanding....which leads to becoming predatory in order to get ones needs met. Activation of the heart to open to The Christ Consciousness has been taught by many of Earth's mystics and sages, down thru the ages.
Here is a video I passed along 12 years ago to students who were in the process of awakening to their true nature. The Angelic Human Race have a mission, a very important one of raising the Christ Consciousness across the Human Race. See if the following brings a tugging on your heart and mind of something familiar:
I also wanted to note that the intrusions actually began when I was very young. There is 16 months between my younger sister and I and my memory is very thorough from that time on...most say they cannot remember that far back, but I can. Anyway, I got kicked out of my crib for little sis and into a big bed. This is when the intrusions started. Whisperings and faces in the corners of the ceiling....this was a norm for me and I didn't tell any of it. My parents never believed what I told them and chocked it up to a child's vivid imagination. I had 'friends' that I talked to; one called Tiny Little Kid. The weird thing is that my son, who also is and has been plagued by negs, had the same but his he called Tiny Little Guy. I never shared any of that info with him so I know I didn't influence his imagination.
Did you have anything bother you as a child?
I know this is hard to ask of you, but be brave in the 'face' of your happenings. That is their goal, to frighten you. You're already a strong woman, you've survived thru all of this; use that knowledge to your advantage. And don't waste your breath on telling others who do not believe you...you'll only get more frustrated and they offer nothing to help. And try not to think on it 24/7 if that's possible.
I wondered where you've been. I joined here after the initial paranormal sightings you describe but did read some of what you're describing. Someone used the term, "scuttlers" to describe them and I have read of these others places too. I was plagued by unwanted, unseen visitations for years from teenage well into my twenties. I can't say what made them go away and there wasn't any internet to research on and books were few. And they or it followed me to other homes also.
Currently, I'm experiencing what one might call reality glitches where things disappear...or appear. Makes me think that we live in a simulated reality! But who the heck really knows?
When I was writing on the internet about national and world politics...with added forum areas of environmental, spiritual and other [like Morgella's disease], I had black helicopters fly constantly over my home and even circle low above my young son and I when outside. Many say they don't exist either. Years later, when I described this, someone asked if I came from a military family...Yes I do and there are some bizarre things around that too. So, I'll ask if a parent or sibling was involved in the military in your life?
How did I handle any of this? Well, I got a handle on my fear, sometimes I used The Lord's Prayer [Our Father who art in heaven...] and I had just enough righteous anger towards the intrusions. I'd tell stuff to get the 'F' out of my way!
I'm giving you a link to a website to read thru...see if anything there resonates with your experiences. It is written by Tom Montalk's girlfriend [a few of here are familiar with his work http://montalk.net/ ]
Here's the link to In 2 Worlds that I'd like you to check out. See if anything is familiar, maybe not the same but making your life difficult like the writer's: http://in2worlds.net/the-vortex
PS: there's alot to read thru at this link...so push thru it...just to give you an idea of what she writes and how it might help you, here's a SNIP:
Before “stuff” breaches your realm in such a major way it seems they have to. Free will. It’s something I’ve since learned, concerning the “occult rules.” As I wrote in my article called “The Hidden Puppetmasters:”
“For those who aren’t familiar, before flagrantly breaching your reality in some freewill violating way, neg forces need to let you know who they are, whether point blank stating it outright, or giving you these hint-hint, read-between-the-line statements, and thus get permission from you to proceed.Because that’s just how this place operates. They know what this place is and how it operates, and the way they look at is, it’s not their fault if you don’t. Not their problem if we haven’t taken a good look around, noticed things, questioned things, put any of the quite obvious pieces together, and/or have chosen to listen to the many “nothing to see here, move it along” “Gatekeepers” who do their best to ridicule any consideration of that aspect of reality. That’s on us. But they upheld their end of “abiding by the rules” and letting us know what the deal is with them. So if you choose to proceed anyway, and invite them in despite what they’ve point blank told you and revealed….then that’s you agreeing. Now they have more freedom to breach your realm and violate you in ways they weren’t allowed to before.And the longer you allow them to stick around, the more and more they can do to you, and the more your personal reality/realm can be breached.”
@rose I watched a few episodes of, "You." Which character reminds you of an empath? I can't say I like any of the characters, except tbeir love of literature. Joe is a psychopath and and Beck is totally selfish. My favorite book on obsession is, "Of Human Bondage," by Somerset Maugham. This is an older book from another time .
Of Human Bondage: Theme Analysis 20406080100 Average Overall Rating: 4.5 Total Votes: 1106 Human Bondage The broader theme of human bondage concerns the power games people play. The boys at Philip’s school are cruel and torment him for his deformity. It is unthinking cruelty for the most part: the rule of the more powerful over the weaker. But though cruelty produces suffering, it is not the focus of Maugham’s analysis. He is interested in the ways in which a person creates his or her own bondage to others, and what, if anything allows someone to get free. Even when he makes a friend of Rose at school, Philip, in his insecurity loses the friendship, for he becomes jealous of Rose’s other friends and then provokes Rose into breaking it off. He is horrified by how he makes the situation worse: “he had not been master of himself” (Chpt. XIX, p. 82). Ownership, power, control, jealousy, self-abasement—these are characteristic of the kind of love that Maugham identifies as bondage. The kind of love based on these qualities produces pain, shrinking of one’s heart, a lack of freedom and happiness. One-sided passions happen all through the story: “There’s always one who loves and one who lets himself be loved” (Chpt.LXXI, p. 377). Norah loves Philip and Philip loves Mildred who loves Griffiths and Griffiths wants to get rid of Mildred. Maugham goes further to describe what would be called “addiction.” Philip rejects the love of Norah, which is healthy and makes him feel good, for a hopeless cycle of addiction to Mildred who is unworthy and causes him extreme suffering. Yet he seems to have no control over his passion for her. She despises him, uses him, and he asks for more: “he did not know what it was that passed from a man to a woman, from a woman to a man, and made one of them a slave” (Chpt. LXXVIII, p. 418). Maugham knew the priniciples of masochism whereby a person seeks out that which reinforces shame and humiliation. He builds up a case for why Philip would act this way. Deprived of parents too soon, he is thrown into the world with no defenses. In addition, his clubfoot is like a magnet that attracts cruelty. He feels a lack of confidence and simultaneously shuts people out and tries to force love where there is no hope. Norah builds up his self-esteem, but he doesn’t love her; Mildred tears it down, and his soul craves her. Maugham once said that only unrequited love lasts. He felt embarrassed when someone truly loved him. This is possibly a lack of self-love, not feeling worthy. This would fit Philip’s case since from childhood he has been abused as different and unlovable. On the other hand, sometimes Philip wants to prove his superiority to the person degrading him, as when he gives the money to Griffiths and Mildred to spend the weekend together. He creates his own misery to prove how base they are. He convinces himself he is a victim but knows that he has handed them the whip. People are often trapped in victim relationships when, like Philip, they have some past trauma they keep repeating in their behavior. Maugham shows how Philip slowly works his way out of the addiction through experience and self-analysis, but even at the last, when he thinks he sees Mildred on the street, his heart leaps, and he knows that he will never be free of it till death. Freedom of Thought and Lifestyle Although Philip searches for belonging and love, he has an equal need for autonomy and freedom. Because of his deformed foot and the rejection he receives, Philip “was forced to think for himself” from an early age (Chpt. XIII, p. 50). In school, “He yearned for freedom. He was weary of repeating things that he knew already” (Chpt. XX, p. 83). When Mr. Perkins the headmaster tries to convince Philip to be ordained as a minister, he thinks, “I won’t, I won’t” (Chpt. XX, p. 85). He escapes to Heidelberg where “He revelled in his freedom”(Chpt. XXIII, p. 100). At first, it is a freedom of lifestyle. Soon, he has a chance to discuss new ideas as well. Wharton, his math tutor, tells him, “In France you get freedom of action . . . In Germany . . . you may think as you choose. . . in England you get neither: you’re ground down by convention” (Chpt. XXIII, p. 102). In Germany, he meets the old revolutionary, Ducroz, who has spent his life fighting for human rights but now is a broken old man with no money. Philip does not think of fighting for political freedom like this but personal freedom. When he hears Hayward and Weeks discuss religion, he realizes he no longer believes: “Freedom! He was his own master at last. From old habit unconsciously he thanked God that he no longer believed in Him” (Chpt. XXVIII, p.126). His drudgery in an accounting firm in London sends him to Paris where he lives the bohemian life of an artist. He enjoys the life of the cafes and discussions. The young men are influenced by Cronshaw, an older poet, who teaches them to get their own experience of life. Philip decides he cannot rely on anyone else: “Each man was his own philosopher” (Chpt. LIII, p. 282). He comes to a new vigor in life by accepting Darwinism: “The free man can do no wrong. He does everything he likes—if he can” (Chpt. LIII, p. 283). His passion with Mildred teaches him the opposite, for he is a slave to her. No reason can free him from his “bondage.” In his search for the meaning of life, he looks at Cronshaw’s Persian carpet and finds there is no meaning. This sets him free, for he realizes that Mildred just follows her own nature, as he follows his. It is when he meets the Athelnys that he finds a practical example of freedom. Thorpe Athelny walked away from his upper-class wife and found happiness with the servant Betty and their nine children, living a joyous and natural life, free of social pretension. The simple goodness of the Athelny family is the freedom he finally espouses. The Mixed Nature of Life As Philip matures, he sees life has both good and bad. He is always looking for a philosophy or way of life that will resolve these paradoxes for him, but it depends on the moment how he evaluates the world and people around him. As a child first discovering the cruelty at his school, he feels “life was a dream,” a nightmare, from which he will surely awaken to find his mother (Chpt. XI, p. 46). On the other hand, when he reads books, like the one with the illustration of the Hall of the Thousand Pillars and the boat tied there, ready to “tempt the unwary,” his imagination is stirred by the many possibilities of life (Chpt. IX, p. 37). These two poles of the bad dream and the good dream are found throughout life. When he first loses his religion, he looks down into the Rhine valley, and “it seemed that it was the whole world which was spread before him, and he was eager to step down and enjoy it. He was free from degrading fears and free from prejudice” (Chpt. XXVIII, p. 126). After Fanny Price’s suicide, however, he goes to a Paris dance, and is shocked by seeing the animal nature of humans: “the meanness of their faces, and the cruelty . . . the stupidness . . . Philip loathed them, and yet his heart ached with the infinite pity which filled him” (Chpt. XLIX, p. 261). After stepping down into life and getting his hands dirty with its extremes, he learns to take both good and bad together. As a doctor working in the slums, he decides life is neither tragedy nor comedy. “There was neither good nor bad there. There were just facts. It was life” (Chpt. LXXXI, p. 439).
There is a black white movie, while good, but could never cover the subtleties and intricacies that the lengthy book does.It does not cover Philip's childhood. This movie made Betty Davis a star and she plays a selfish bitch perfectly. Leslie Howard [Ashley character in Gone With the Wind movie] plays Philip. Here's the full movie:
Forgot to mention something important for you. You said you were in Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous. Did you know that histamine intolerance gives you an incredibly high libido? This is well known by some researchers like Dr Ben Lynch.