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The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
10/06/13 03:07:43AM
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I am the same way with the PTSD, Steven. The emotional stimuli that i go through leaves me traumatized and it's extremely difficult to get through and resolve.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
10/04/13 11:34:41AM
794 posts



Well, whatever relationship I am in, I tend to see a repeating issue that the other person has with me regarding my introverted nature. To them, it's rude, it's disrespectful by me simply being quiet. Two outrageous reactions to my reserved nature involved my sister and my mother's brother. In my mother's brother's case, he told my other sister that I think I am better than him and I come off as uppity because I choose not to speak to him. That is the unbelievably stupidest thing I have ever heard in the history of ever. I don't speak to him because I don't like him. I also don't have to be the one to speak first. If you wish for me to say hello to you, why don't you initiate a hello first? I may not like a person but I can always be civil.

In my sister's case, she invited me to dinner one night and I wasn't feeling up to being anyone's company. I was very introverted that day and intended to cancel but, as always, I put other people first instead of thinking of myself and I went to dinner and I sat there at her dinner table very quiet which she did not like and she proceeded to attack me in front of her kids saying I was being rude. She allowed her daughter to add her two cents which was inappropriate and, after that night, everything just fell apart.

So I have made it a top priority to not feel like I have to ever explain myself to anyone who has problems with me. I'm not just an introvert but I am an empath and an observer. My quiet nature is due to me being an observer of humanity. They don't like that I'm watching them like an eagle watches a fish from its nest up above so they get angry or annoyed.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
10/03/13 02:50:17AM
794 posts

The Prophet


Psychic and Paranormal

Well, a lot has been revealed to me since joining EC and the one thing that just astounded me was to hear that I will one day be a prophet. I haven't quite grasped the sheer importance of that as the news is still very new to me. It's like hey, so you're gonna be a prophet one day. K thanks, bye. Well, it wasn't so abrupt like I make it seem, but I can't help but feel that way.

I've always loved Cecil B. Demille's old classic "The Ten Commandments". I was always drawn to the movie and enjoyed Moses and his journey to free his people and bring God's laws to them. I never knew why I liked the movie so much but when I found out about my being a future prophet, I assumed that was one of the reasons, because like Moses, I am destined for hardship which I know has already begun. A while later, it was suggested to me that I may have been one of Moses' sons, Eliezer, in a past life, which may also explain why I felt close to Moses and the movie. Additionally I am of Hebrew descent as was Moses. So there are a lot of links between myself and him aside from Eliezer and Moses also being prophets. About 2 years ago, I was about to take a nap and quickly lost consciousness. In those few seconds that I was unconscious I had a flash about 5 seconds long that showed me Moses at the base of a mountain or outside a house or dwelling. Very clearly I heard God say "Go to thy holy temple and bare thy soul to me."....then I woke up. For a long time, I thought it was a vision from God telling me to go to thy holy temple and bare my soul to him, but I was wrong. It was a flash of a past life of mine which I saw as a vision. After being helped sort through what it meant, it was told to me that I was Moses' second son who was also a prophet and the flash I had was an actual memory of God and Moses interacting.

God knows I struggle with this news because I don't see myself being so very important to the grand scheme of things. I would never see myself as "holy", but I do see prophets as holy beings. It's straight biblical and I am it. This is why I am having such a hard time coping with this news. I am angry inside because I see how lonely my life is and how I lead such a solitary lifestyle. I feel I have no relationships, only people who are in my life for the moment. I ask God daily why I can't have what the humans have. Why am I living life as a human but am denied the pleasures in life the way they have it? The more I alienate myself from the rest of humanity, the more I see that my prophet's journey has already begun. Prophets are some of the loneliest souls on earth because their job is too big to share their lives with others.

This past Saturday, I was very sad. Contemplating my life and where I'm headed, where i came from, and for the better part of the day, I was depressed because I realized I am losing people slowly but surely. I just happened to be flipping through the channels and saw the 2006 Ten Commandmentsmovie starring Dougray Scott. It wasn't the 1950s classic, but I had seen this one and wanted to see it again. So I watched intently to see what my life may be like. And not even 5 minutes into the movie, I watch the scene where Moses yells at God and demands he tell him why he's not allowed to have a family like man can. Why his life has to be so lonely and devoted, why God can't answer his questions when he needs them answered. He was speaking for me and I began to tear up because I felt his emotion so much and it hit home for me so bad because Moses and I share these trials and tribulations. I'm only told what I am to be, but nothing else is said so I go on wandering around being lonely and pushing everyone away from me for a prophesy I dunno when is coming true.

Since I don't believe in coincidences, I'll just say it was synchronicity that I am also watching the last season of Star Trek Deep Space Nine where Captain Benjamin Sisko is slowly but surely himself becoming a prophet. He's been having visions for a while and now he's at the point in his life where he wants to settle down and get married and just after he proposes to his girlfriend, he has a vision from the prophets telling him his path is a solitary one and he cannot share his life with anyone or he will know sorrow. These storylines just keep hitting home for me. It's like I'm being shown this to prepare me. I don't think anything can prepare me for what's to come and I don't think any amount of entertainment on TV or in literature can prepare me for a destiny that is bigger than I know.

"Blessed be the one who sees for his way will be blessed by the light. He will shine and show the way to the answers. He will see the truth within and be the prophet he is meant to be."

That was Archangel Gabriel who greeted me with that quote on February 7th, 2011 in class while I was chatting on Yahoo with my younger soul brother Ben. Gabriel channeled through him twice to deliver a message to me. With the way things tend to fall apart for me, I just don't know if I can ever handle what's to come. I am losing people in my life because they don't like how I am and it's not like I can sit them down and explain what's happening to me. This is beyond them, it's beyond me. So all I can do is say goodbye to them in my own way, which I have already started doing. I feel almost on a cellular level that I am changing and the person I am becoming will not be the person they knew.


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The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
10/01/13 07:12:52PM
794 posts

Registration: Give a Reading, Get a Reading Event (October 19 2013 5:00pm PST - in Chat)


Empath

Jonny F. I have done a handful of picture readings, just saying what comes to mind. I would like to practice with someone as I never get the chance to.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/27/13 12:33:55PM
794 posts

What kind of empath are you?


Empath

A Communication Empath.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/26/13 05:15:44PM
794 posts

Blanking out


Empath

I will try that out keith and let you know if it helps. Thanks for the feedback.
The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/26/13 12:40:35PM
794 posts

Blanking out


Empath

No I haven't, but I will look into getting some very soon.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/26/13 10:40:18AM
794 posts

Blanking out


Empath

I'm going to try some new things to help me during my work week and see how it helps me during stressful moments.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/26/13 10:39:39AM
794 posts

Blanking out


Empath

Yes, I LOVE my black tourmaline. I have a big rock of shiny tourmanline and a pendant. I'm gonna cleanse and wear my pendant today and see if it helps.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/26/13 01:07:17AM
794 posts

Blanking out


Empath

I recently cleaned my amethys I would say a week and a half ago. I admit I do not clean my stones and crystals as often as I should, one reason being is because I forget to, but seeing as how important wearing my amethyst is to me, that should help me remember. I do not ground and cleanse routinely. I don't know how. Same with my home. I have given up on cleansing my home via smudging because I feel it didn't help me. I did not notice a difference in the energy or how I felt.

I do clean various surfaces with a cleansing cloth almost everyday. But not swiffer, disinfecting wipes. That is kinda a ritual for me as I am always cleaning. I'm going to check out that video today. Regarding my stones and crystals, there once was a time I was very set on collecting a wide variety of stones and crystals that help in grounding and repelling or transforming negative energy. Last week when I cleaned my amethyst, aside from letting it sit in a sea salt water solution overnight, I envisioned my light going into it and charging it and the very next day I had a fantastic day, devoid of memory lapses or bad energy. So I will definitely try that as often as I can.

Thanks Josette for the info,

Jonny

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/25/13 10:34:22PM
794 posts

Blanking out


Empath

I'm beginning to get really worried because the more stressed I feel during a moment, the more I lose all thought. It's more than forgetting a word, it's literally like the ability to say what I am thinking has left me. I have never noticed this prior to working where I am now. I encounter a lot of customers and I ring up their items at the register. But during hectic days where I'm taking care of customer after customer, I lose train of thought. I forget how to do math. I blank out and seriously begin to panic, and aside from making a fool of myself in front of the customer, I feel highly embarrassed and worried that it may be something more.

Now, I've been through this enough times to know it only happens when I am stressed and around others. Perhaps if I took a break in between customers, get some fresh air and commune with nature, I can be recharged. I wear my amethyst everyday for protection but I feel it's not enough and I have never had success with shielding. I'm just worried that what I am experiencing could be the beginning to something more. It also happened again today at the doctor's office. I am normally very anxious around doctors. They scare the hell outta me and I hate having to get checkups, but today, even though I was alright, my blood pressure was 140/80 when usually it's in the 120 range, and my pulse was beating very fast. It was in the 90 range. The nurse asked if I was anxious today, I said no, even though I was feeling tired and slightly anxious. But I was relaxed enough to know that I wasn't anxious. I was beginning to tell my doctor something about my insurance and I forgot the word "insurance". I knew what the word was, but I could not say it. It reminded me of stroke victims, how they struggle to say what they are thinking and I do NOT like this.

I don't know if it's energy overload or what, but it's scaring me and I just wanted to talk about this cuz I was very hard on myself after I forgot how to properly give a customer her change on Tuesday. We were outta singles and her change was $16. I didn't see the stack of $5s there, so I began counting out six dollars in quarters added to a ten dollar bill. She looked at me like I didn't know what I was doing, and I grew confused and couldn't process a thought. I had forgotten how much she gave me, how much change I was making. It was horribly embarrassing and I just wanted to go home. It was on my mind all night. I felt foolish. I'm better than that, so what is happening to me?


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The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/19/13 10:33:24PM
794 posts

Horror movies


Empath

I can't say that I watch horror movies often. I can't say what the last horror movie I sat down and watched was. But I do like me some supernatural tele which may include an episode that's gruesome and chilling. But, I dunno. I kinda like watching the horror. I've never been scared of it due to what I am. I don't "like" blood and gore, but I don't turn away from it either. So I'm on the fence it seems.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/18/13 10:01:27PM
794 posts

Psychic Experiment #2


Psychic and Paranormal

I'm getting that he was on the Titanic. Not a passenger, but a crew member.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/18/13 11:26:29AM
794 posts

Befriending people with disabilities


Empath

That's right. They accept others because they are in the same situation where people may not accept them. Your spelling's just fine. :)

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/18/13 11:25:14AM
794 posts

Befriending people with disabilities


Empath

One of my best friends has spina bifida. I don't know him personally, we met through a group I moderate on Myspace which is now on Facebook, anyway, he is my rock, my source of inspiration. He's always rooting for me and there to cheer me up and vice versa. He is originally from Brooklyn, NY but moved to Philadelphia. When he would come back to Brooklyn to visit family I would try to meet up with him. But can't do that now as I live in Oregon. I remember not liking him at first, I think I found him annoying. lol, but no, he was way above annoying. He's my friend and I'm thankful to have him in my life.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/18/13 11:21:22AM
794 posts

Befriending people with disabilities


Empath

:) Thank you for sharing your story Evelyn. Blessed be.

Jonny

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/17/13 08:59:25PM
794 posts

Befriending people with disabilities


Empath

I somewhat thought that as well, Bill, that people with disabilities are living on a higher level than most people. Like we empaths are.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/17/13 08:56:44PM
794 posts

Befriending people with disabilities


Empath

I'm confused when you say y'all. I have a disability as well, most empaths do. Life is a daily struggle for all of us. No one person has it worse than anyone else. My point was to say that, in my experience, I befriend people with disabilities. And I don't know if it's because I have a disability as well or because I am an empath. Whatever the reason, I can look back on all my friendships, and it is the ones with disabilities who are still in my life and who have been the best friends I could ever have. Being disabled doesn't mean you are less of a human as humans come in all shapes, sizes, colors, and forms.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/17/13 12:24:58PM
794 posts

Befriending people with disabilities


Empath

I've become aware that people with disabilities are my good friends who, when everyone else leaves me, remain there by my side. I would guess this is because they, like us, are "different", so we share a closer bond than most people do. Has anyone noticed this in their lives? Even now, my roommate's brother Ricky is mentally a teenage boy, even though physically he is a 32 year old FURRY man. But when I was new to the household and felt out of place and shy, he was the only one I spoke to regularly and now we are good friends. He came to my room last night and said it's been nice knowing me and that he only says that to people he likes. :)

I have many memories befriending people with disabilities. Even as early as 2000 when I had my hip surgery, I befriended a boy named Jonathan in rehab, we had the same name, who wasn't able to speak, but when he found out I was being discharged, he was very sad and started crying. I gave him my number and he would call me and just hear me speak. That was a moment in my life that was very special to me because it was one of the first instances I made an impact on someone's life. I wonder what he's doing today and if he's all healed from his surgery.

Jonny


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The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/16/13 12:56:57PM
794 posts

Being treated like a celebrity at times


Empath

Exactly. The celebrity aspect of being an empath makes me very uncomfortable because I feel like people like me because of my energy and not so much for me. However, I've been in arguments before with family who kept thinking of themselves and didn't bother thinking of me and what I go through. The only way I can find a balance is if I take my solitude away from people every few weeks so that I won't be overwhelmed by them when I am in public.

I'll give you an example. After vacation, the day I got back I also had to go into work. I also am an artist and had to start on two commission almost immediately after vacation, so I was stressed and after I worked on Thursday, Friday and Saturday, I told them I had to take a week off to get work done. That was part of the reason, the other reason was everyone was so glad to have me back and I just didn't wanna be around all the elation about my return as if I was away for a couple months. I was only gone a week. Half of me is happy that they love me the way they do, the other half of me is annoyed cuz I feel like it's almost not real. Not saying how they feel is fake, but it seems forced. Anyway, I'm rambling. I took my additional week off and the following thursday, I ran into my boss who asked if I could cover for her and close the store on Friday cuz she wasn't feeling well. She mentioned it's so stressful without me there. I can't even take a break from them without hearing how they have missed me or how they rely on me. But I have to do what's best for me without explanations. You either understand or you don't. I cant make them understand. But at the same time, they can't get mad at me if I wish to be left alone. Which in that case, it was my sister who I've explained things to countless times, she doesn't understand yet gets mad that I want to be left alone.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/11/13 09:55:31PM
794 posts

Using supernatural powers in dreams


Empath

They sure do sound like awesome experiences.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/11/13 12:57:19PM
794 posts

Using supernatural powers in dreams


Empath

My soul brother sometimes gets impressions and sees things when we talk and he tells me what he sees or feels.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/11/13 01:29:25AM
794 posts

Using supernatural powers in dreams


Empath

How common is it for an empath to dream of themselves using a power in their dreams? I've had flying dreams before where I could fly, and I think for the most part, that is pretty much normal for any person, but I've had a total of 3 dreams now where I was using a power in my dream. The first two dreams showed me using telekinesis, the first time to move a glass, the second time was to push back a blond haired, blue eyed zombie girl who wanted to eat me. I flung her back with my powers and it felt great. Gave me time to escape. In a similar setting like my previous dream, I dreamt I was back at home in Brooklyn and running from someone who was trying to capture me. Every time she got close to me, I teleported myself several feet away from her. Had it not been for my teleportation power, I would have been caught. And she was very close to catching me. Damn, that was cool as hell. But unusual for me. So is this common among empathic brains?

Concerning the telekinetic dreams, I will tell you this much: The first time I had that dream, I didn't discuss it with anyone, then shortly after that, I had a reading done and was told telekinesis could be one of my future abilities because he sees it there but it needs time to develop. Shortly after that, I had the second dream where I TK'd the zombie girl away from me. So I'm wondering if part of this is my subconscious showing me what my true potential could be. In a normal world, I would be a nonbeliever of telekinesis, but given that so many people here claim to have it and my dreams showing me something that was implied I could develop, I'll just keep my mouth shut. I'm a see it to believe it kinda person, but sometimes you don't have to see it to believe it.


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The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/09/13 09:21:21PM
794 posts

White Candle


Empath

I invite you to listen to a wonderful NEW song by Tamar Braxton, Toni's baby sister, entitledWhite Candle. The title reminds me of peace and purity and her soprano vocals just accentuate the song. Enjoy.

Jonny


updated by @the-importance-of-being-jonny: 02/04/17 05:51:15AM
The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/08/13 05:12:01PM
794 posts



I'm sorry for your loss, even if you weren't close. It's a tragic thing to experience just knowing that someone you know is gone. When it comes to emotions, not everyone is open like a book. Many people close them selves off subconsciously and people like us, emotion readers, can't do that. I often go through the same thing where I feel something from someone I don't know and someone I do know is struggling emotionally and I couldn't pick up on anything. I guess it stems from the type of people they are. Open or private. For myself, I am a very private person and many have tried to read me and got some things wrong. On the other hand, I've been read by my brother who was able to pick up things I never ever discussed with anyone. I think that could be because at the time, I was emotionally vulnerable and part of me wanted to resolve how I felt and I was not able to do that until my brother came along and helped me.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/07/13 05:14:49PM
794 posts

Embracing what you are


Psychic and Paranormal

As much as I say I have come to terms with what I am, who I'm meant to be, I know deep down I am afraid of the unknown. I'm very afraid.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/07/13 12:28:30PM
794 posts



Welcome home, Evelyn.


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The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/07/13 12:27:02PM
794 posts

Embracing what you are


Psychic and Paranormal

I realize I am not alone, that I have all of you here on EC who understands me as much as anyone, but part of me still longs for personal interaction between myself and someone like me. I started this journey feeling how people felt different than others. Paying attention to their "signs" something that might point to them being empathic or different. Now, everyone feels pretty much the same and it's confusing me so I dunno who's an empath and who isn't.

As for the roommate situation, the longer I take to make a decision on telling him, the more I lean toward just leaving it be. Even though I don't want to close him off due to how others have treated me, I want to protect myself in case he does turn out to be like everyone else. I'm just between a rock and another rock.

You know, I wake up and go about my day everyday forgetting what and who I am. After 3 years, the enormousness of it all hasn't yet sunk in. I go about my business and wonder why people open up to me or trust me without even knowing me and I realize, oh, I'm an empath. Do you ever feel that way sometimes?

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/04/13 10:10:25PM
794 posts

Embracing what you are


Psychic and Paranormal

Yep, the alien feeling like I don't belong on this planet is strong. I watch people, I sit there watching everyone and I see how I'm not like them. I look like them, but inside I am not of them.

I believe the fear I have in telling Jamal what I am is because I'm afraid he'll reject me like everyone else has thus far. I've never had the urge to tell anyone the big secret I have outside of me being an empath. I don't know why the feeling I have is so much stronger than it would be for anyone else, but I do feel I should tell him. I am just caught between a decision, via email or in person? I seemingly never have his attention as he is distracted by family, friends and phone calls. I just want a one on one session with him where I can sit him down and explain.

That pork rinds in a hair salon bit made me laugh. I guess I'm at that point in my life where I see how everyone reacts to how I am and what I've told them so I should expect it from everyone. But I also don't want to close everyone off because of how certain people have treated me. And so I'm testing the waters with Jamal. I'm very tense about who I am, what I have become. As I said, part of me hasn't fully embraced it yet and I have a little pocketful of hope that this is all a dream and I'll wake up any day now.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/03/13 09:18:29PM
794 posts

Embracing what you are


Psychic and Paranormal

Thanks Josette. Looking them up now.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/03/13 11:55:21AM
794 posts

What's New in the Empath Community? September 2013


Empath

Same to you Angel. You and many other familiar faces have been here since I started and you've all been a support to me as well. It's humbling and a honor to be given such a title given that I still feel new myself. :P

*hugs*

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/03/13 11:26:51AM
794 posts

Embracing what you are


Psychic and Paranormal

Thanks Sarah. That's the best thing about EC is that there are countless people going through the same thing as I am. We're all just in our different corners of the world. I'm confusing myself with more fear by envisioning how this convo will be when I do finally tell him. Sometimes it helps to just let go, but for me, that's very difficult.

The Importance of Being Jonny
@the-importance-of-being-jonny
09/03/13 11:24:03AM
794 posts

Embracing what you are


Psychic and Paranormal

Thank you for your words, Bing. As much as I know and understand what and who I am, I know that I'm rejecting part of it because deep down I don't want to believe it's true. But it is. My angel told me I would never be alone because he's always with me and I love him for telling me that, but it's just different when it comes to humanity and being far away from them.

I will reply more later and check out those links. I have to get ready for work. Thanks again.

Jonny

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09/03/13 01:49:43AM
794 posts

Embracing what you are


Psychic and Paranormal

Beyond being an empath, I've got the feeling that I am becoming something which humans don't recognize and it is causing me to be alienated from the rest of humanity. I'm fighting more and more with loved ones, countless people automatically don't trust me without even knowing me, friends and family no longer talk to me and I feel less human by the day. I am faced with the very real realization that my future could be a very lonely one, where I am not meant to have relationships because they would only hinder my progress to being a prophet or whatever the hell it is I am.

I grow close to everyone so it's hard to have to remind myself that I shouldn't get close because it would only hurt me more than it hurts them. While I try not to get close, there are people in my life who I am around daily and I can't not be close to them. My roommate Jamal is one of them. He is like a brother to me, in fact, he felt like a brother. Literally. Just before I moved in, we were sitting together on the couch when a familiar feeling overcame me. He felt brotherly, older. I've only had that feeling twice before. The first time, it turned out to be a brother of mine from a past life and the second was unconfirmed. So whether I want to get close or not, I do believe our paths were meant to be crossed.

Because of our relationship as roommates, I do feel like I should let him in on this part of my life which he told me he would not be shocked by because his mom is wiccan. I told him I'm pretty much a freak of nature because that's how I feel most days, but I am terrified of his reaction. This isn't just the empath secret I want to tell him, but everything. I just can't continue being misunderstood by people because they don't know what I am. So it creates friction when trying to explain why I'm like this but at the same time keep my secrets. I've typed up a prologue to what I want to tell Jamal about me and it's saved as a draft that I will send to him when the time is right. I warned him in advance that he shouldn't be surprised if I sent him an email about what I wanted to tell him. Part of me just wants to send it and sleep off the way I feel and deal with the consequences in the morning.

With no information and no answers, it's painful trying to embrace what I am. I ask God and myself daily, how can I learn to live with myself when everything points to me leading a solitary lifestyle? How do I embrace that when all I want is to be loved just like everybody else does? How do you embrace being very different when you know that your true destiny will keep you isolated? How can I live some semblance of a normal life when I know 100% that I am anything but normal? That's the golden question. I am beginning to sense that time is off. The amount of time that goes by in the human world does not match with the way I feel. An example would be my moving to Oregon 10 months ago today and it feels like I only just moved. Like where was my consciousness all these months why it feels like something recent. I went back home to Brooklyn and it was almost surreal because everyone else seemed to move on with their lives, but me, I feel like I'm stuck in time and no time has passed. Clue #1 that something is not quite normal with me.


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