I need help or something/anything
As someone who has been to hell and back some days you need to remember to breath. People can only take from u what u allow them to take. It has taken me a long time to learn that lesson. The loss of your empath abilities is cause she messed with your mind. our mind can do more damage to us by believing in someone else crap that anyone else can do. Start small with your empath abilities and slowly work on it plus work on your self love. self love is the hardest love to achive to the most rewarding. As for the soul mate /twin flame they are 2 very different things. He may very well be a soul mate. A soul mate can be any one who as souls have traveled life times with yours. Not every one is romantic, My closet friend and I are mirror soul mates. Also a romantic soul mate may not be in your life forever. My ex husband and I are soul mates but is was never met to last a lifetime as u can tell by the ex part. At this point you should be thankful that he wasn't a twin flame. A twin flame is not a romantic love story but the hardest most painful and hopefully most rewarding love you will ever encounter. Not everyone's twin flame is on the physical plane currently. The reason I know this is I stumbled upon mine and if i knew then what I know now I would have ran as fast as I could the other way. Twin flames make u face everything that hurts inside of u and then they disappear for a bit while u purge and work through the hell u are in until you heal some then they show back up in your life to only have this process repeated until u are finally able to surrender and come into a union. Some people get luck and can go through all this in a few short cycles but most of us are not that lucky and end up with this cycle for years. I hope like hell that my cycle isn't going to be one of those that take 25 years to complete.. I don't think I could handle that much pain. Through the hell I am learning how to love myself and that is my reward, I don't know if i will get the guy at the end or if we will need a few more life time cycles.
I don't know if this helps. If u want more info private message me, I don't mind sharing.. But the first thing u do need to find is your love for yourself.