Just wanted to make sure you guys know that just because I believe in the spiritual energy and I do follow so wicca I am still finding myself. I don't believe in doing any major spells on anyone. I do use a healing spell on the twin flame connection in hopes it will continue to aid in healing both of us. I actually is the only spell I have ever tried. My soulmate/estranged husband would have made me feel horrible if he found out that I wanted to try using on. He always said he was open to it but in his passive aggressive way he would put me down for believing. I also am into stone therapy and I suffered from horrible night terrors from my past pain. Least once a week or more. I found an amethysts under the pillow helps stop them. I was sceptical and my husband was away for work. When he returned a month later and was making the bed one morning he found the stones under my pillow and started to yell at me about having rocks in our bed. Once he left the room I put the stone back under my pillow. The thing that surprised me was that it actually worked.. I now only get night terrors once every few months.. when I went to go spend time with my twin I brought my one amethyst I use for protection and always carry it on me. I had it under my pillow, when I was showering my twin made the bed and without ever saying a word about it he laid it on top of my pillow. It was several weeks later when I asked him if he knows why I have the stoplne with me. He said nope but I know it is something important to you and when u are ready u will tell me. He continued on saying that he knew that my ex has hurt me really bad and he needs me to realize that he is nothing like him, that I need to be comfortable to share with him. I did open up to him and he thought that it was interesting. I actually gave him his own and he uses it all the time. I have given him a rose quartzs also and explained how to use it also.
My twin also believes in tarot and has a set however he has never actually opened them or gotten a reading and when he found out that I believe in it he couldn't believe how close we were in what we believed. He now wants me to start to teach him what all I do believe in.
I believe in the wiccan 3 fold rule. That anything I do that is negitivie (expecially spells) will come back it effect me 3 fold (times as bad).
I don't ever want to be associated with anyone who has negitivie energy it is really hard for me to be around them.
The interesting thing you guy are taking about the 3 in 1 - God Jesus and holy ghost is all based upon the triquetra and several Christian religions use the triquetra to symbolize it. I actually wear a triquetra and am planning on getting one tattooed on the back of my neck. It comes from the Celtics meaning 3 in 1. I was raised going to a Lutheran Church and at 16 I took all the classes. At 21 when my life took a wrong turn and I was hurt really bad I was no longer able to believe in God and I went searching for answers and for something that made sense to my soul. I took classes about religious history while working towards my degree. And I learned that while everyone has different principals in different regions the core of them all is the same.. FAITH.. I have always believed since that point that it doesn't matter what u believe the biggest thing is to have faith in something more. I taught my kids that they are allowed to believe in whatever they want as long as it doesn't hurt them or someone else and they never push their views on anyone else. My ex's family is Mormon and we're he never expected me to follow it his family would push hard for me to join. After a couple of tries i was pushed one night by missionary into an anxiety attack resulting in a minor breakdown. His family had pushed the missionaries on me while my husband was away for work and I thought I had to play nice. When he returned and found out what had happened he took me along with him to the highest ranking family member in the church and lost it on him. I was now off grounds for anyone who was Mormon. Never again will I be put in that situation. I was surprised that he stood up for me. It was about this time he also stopped going to church. He needed me to be ok to look after our kids with him being away for months at a time for work.
It was one of the very few times that he stood up for me to his family.
You asked about the brainwashing to my kids..
I am actually still married to my soulmate estranged husband/kids father and we are only officially seperated with no plans for a divorce on either side. I am currently working on finishing separating everything through the courts except for the divorce certificate. I am holding onto my widow rights to ensure that the kids are looked after if something happens to him. His career has a high risk factor to it. My twin flame has been trying to talk me into a divorce so I am free from my ex. Neither my twin or I want to ever be married again however we have talked about a commitment ceremony without legally tieing us to each other. He has his own horrible stories of marriage also. We actually talked about this before I knew that we were twin flames.
There is absolutely no doubt that my ex is abusive. I have been in therapy for the past 3 years to help cope with the abuse. The kids and I suffer from extreme PTSD and the last judge I was in court for said this is one of the worst cases of domestic mental abuse she has ever seen. The abuse is actually listed as phycological warfare where POW's have been treated with more dignity and respect than the kids and I have been. Unfortunately because of his career he is almost untouchable. I live in a first world country and yet there are no laws for certain people in this country. He uses the kids to try to hurt me. My twin always knows when something has happened and I am in piece and be will end the separation to come to me to help me rebuild. He feels the pain I am going through and knows that I need help. He has been helping me as best as he can to start putting up boundaries with the kids in order to help stop my ex from being able to hurt the kids or me. I now give my kids one warning that this conversation is over the minute I heard dad or about dad's views. I am happy to talk about anything else going on with the kids but I will not put up with this conversation. The next time I heard about dad or his views I will either hang up or walk away. It took a while for the kids to see I was serious but now they thank me for my way of dealing with it. It is giving them the power to tell Dad to stop. Mom won't be part of it and will either hang up or walk away. She doesn't put up with us being in the middle of you guys problems. From what I understand my ex has stopped alot of it.
Because of the extreme PTSD I am unable to work right now so I live off of spouse and child support. Things are tight but I make a budget and am able to get subsidys to make sure that we live within the funds I receive. Any extras the kids want I either have to save up for it they pay for it themselves as they both have jobs.
Because of his career he is almost untouchable to have supported garnished off his pay. I had to go to the leader of our country to get his pay garnished after the agency that is supposed to collect it ran into so much read tape they couldn't collect on the court order.
The government leader also arranged for me to receive the actual laws that applies to my ex's careers as they don't follow the laws of the land. My ex messed with my payments at the beginning of December stopping the garnishment so I didn't receive anything for Christmas. By time the agency that collects the payments was willing to let me know that nothing was coming it was only a few days before Christmas. It was way to late to get food or subsidys for Christmas to help me have a Christmas dinner and presents for the kids. He then made a huge deal about how unreliable I was and ensured each kid got something from him. Over the next 90 days I had to borrow funds from my parents and wait for the agency to let me know that with the red tape involved they will no longer be able to collect any funds. At that point suffering massive panic attacks I called up the person who was incharge of my husband's department and after getting chewed out for 10 mins and threatened that I will be charged for harrassment because I had no rights to call I turned around and read the paragraph that applied to him, making him legally responsible for ensuring that the garnishments went through. This person was upset that I had a couple of the laws, those were not to be released to the public. I told him that he is the one out of line and I have no problem letting the highest level of government know exactly what he just told me cause that is how I got the laws, just because he doesn't believe I should have it doesn't mean that I can have them, they are public record online I was just told where to look by the government. He told me that the payment was on its way. By the following day at the end of the day I had 90 days worth of pay that had cleared the 3 departments required and was sitting in. My bank account waiting for the 3 days to be cleared. There is absolutely nothing stopping my ex from pulling this stunt again when he gets a new leader. It is all so very frustrating and he did it when he knew it would hurt the kids and I the most. No one at this point is willing to go after the outstanding debt he owes in spouse and child support. His debt is over $62,000 at this point and where everyone who has a debt that high would have lost rights he is protected.
So many have told me to take it to the news paper and who knows that may be an option one day but not at this point. With my kids being 17 and 19 I still wanted to protect them and let them finished having a child hood. My therapist wants me to look at becoming an advocate for others who are in the same situation and dealing with the same organization once I finally have a handle on mine.
I married my soulmate 20 years ago after dating for a year. At the start things were good. When he changed careers after we had been married for 4 years with 2 young kids he started to change. I didn't see it but looking back I now see how the abuse started then. It wasn't often but he would ensure that my self confidence was distroy at times. I gave up my career so the kids had a steady parent with them at all times because he was always gone. Then the moving for his career every 2 years started and he would go away for months leaving me in a city I had no connections to. It was really hard on the kids and I. As the kids got older I tried to go back to work and without fail when I finally got hired for a gob that I liked I would find out that we had to move again. I then ended up really sick and had to have my gall bladder removed unfortunately over the next 3 day something had gone really wrong and I was bleeding internally. I had 60% of my blood supply and the only thing that had kept me alive was that I was to weak to do anything other than lie on my back. About 12 hours before I begged my husband to take me to the hospital that I was dieing and I needed help. He refused and told me to stop sucking..that I just felt crappy from the day surgery 2 days before. I didn't have the strength to fight him or to get my cell phone on the other side of the room. 12 hours later when he came to get on my case to stop being lazy and get out of bed cause we had to take the trip home I told him I needed help to get up. I was way to weak. After getting attitude and a lecture from him he helped lift me up. I started to convulse so he called 911.
I was rushed to the hospital. My blood pressure was very faint and from the time of the 911 call to being back in the operating room was 30 mins. They were unable to start an IV except in my neck as everything had collapsed. They pushed 4 bags of blood and a bag of plasma in me to keep me alive.
If my husband had waited 30 mins to wake me I would have been dead.
The medical feild feels that this was medical abuse because he wouldn't get me help when I begged him for it.
He walked out a year later and made me feel horrible. He verbally beat me down starting the day he came home to ask for a seperation. 16 years of marriage meant nothing to him. He wouldn't admit to the affair he was having with someone half my age. Normally I wouldn't care about age but the girl was way to close in age to our kids. She is only 5 and 7 years older than our kids and yes one of them is a daughter. The kids took a lot of crap from kids at school that they never wanted anything to do with my kids dad because how young does he like them.
Things just got worse after that. He was pushing me in to having a mental breakdown. He didn't want me to go to court to get maintenance. As far as he was concerned he walked out of the family so he didn't need to support the kids anymore. Him and his new girlfriend went partying around the world and paying support would take funds away from party funds.
Things actually got a lot worse.
Both kids have hit rock bottom and needed me to clean up the mess.
The brainwashing of the kids has been documented and I am now working on getting counseling for them.
My twin flame coming into my life has changed me so much and help me see things in a different way and has helped me learn how to move forward and live life for me.
I am now seeing how much my ex did control all of our lives. The kids still trying to have a relationship with dad but they are finding it harder and harder to do.
As for my twin wanting me to divorce my ex him and I have come to an agreement that as long as we are still together I will look at it when my baby is 21. He understands my reasons and has agreed to my terms after I validated it.
I hope that this helps..
I don't want to change anyone's views just for u to see a different side of them. I have no idea what is the right or wrong way for religion, all I believing is the key..
All the best to everyone..