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CatW1966
@wileycat
02/01/18 10:03:45AM
5 posts

Living in a small town


Empath

I live in a very small town that is considered a "vortex area" and I am getting entirely sick of it. It is like living in high school where you see the same few hundred people in the hallways all the time. Luckily I get along with most everyone but boy do I feel some dark energies here and there are a couple of people I have had strained experiences with (mostly dating) that I hate having to run into by now.

This place is very psychic and because everyone is connected to everyone in some way, I really feel things. Besides that, almost everyone is on something to excess in terms of one substance or another and I am getting really tired of that energy.

There is a slow energy or pace here that doesn't energize me to push through challenges and I can't figure out if this place is better for me than a larger area or not. In some ways it is and in other ways, I feel burdened by feeling everyone's stuff here and where they are stuck and all that.

I am currently trying to make new friends here who are possibly healthier and more inspiring. I had to stop hanging out as much with someone with extreme signs of body dysmorphia, plastic surgery, anorexia, and narcissism as it was getting bad for my own self-image considering my past with anorexia.

My dog died last year and it became too painful to go for my walks in the woods, but I remember thinking that if this place didn't have such access to nature, I don't think I could take it. I am about to start looking for another dog.

Ultimately, the town in which I live is very eccentric and I can't decide if it is good for me or bad for me in the long run. I guess it's what I made of it, but it sure is difficult at times to feel all the energy through small town connections - because a lot of it is dysfunctional and there is a high rate of substance abuse and mental illness  - and enough suicides happen. Being that I suffer from things myself, I am not sure this is the best place for me. 

CatW1966
@wileycat
01/30/18 03:56:55AM
5 posts

What am I?


Empath

"Something that helps me is knowing that our contacts with certain people is limited....nothing is forever.....we help people they move on and so do we...sometimes it hurts...other times it's a relief to be dun....it's kind of like a job...there isn't a lot of consistency when it comes to making long term friends and i find a lot of people just too shallow...and confused...empaths ARE different...we see INTO people and we don't lie and most people don't want to know the truth...lol...so That's what they probably mean that your too intense..."

Wow. Thank you for this. I often feel like I have a strange way of helping people - sometimes it is simply to crack someone open via a chink in their personality armor. Even my therapist pointed out that I was really intense - but not in a bad way. I think she is an empath and can see a lot in me that is probably obvious to others.

Do you find we have an "odd" way of helping people at times? Like it just happens and sometimes that includes spontaneous forms of conflict due to truth rubbing up against facade?

I think I need to learn some things from this site and others about disconnecting energetically. I found out I had to get off of social media a lot more. I am already feeling a lot better. I was picking up on the desperation there and had all these peoples' stories and lives in my head - and all the stuff they were not saying.

CatW1966
@wileycat
01/30/18 03:44:58AM
5 posts

What am I?


Empath

CrystalSage  - I love your response and that you mentioned DBT. I have felt like a bag of emotional and mental illnesses and complexes and now I am beginning to see the empath connection in all that. I loved hearing someone mention DBT in terms of dealing with being an empath. I have had to use some of that to deal with overwhelming emotions, which of course, has always been pathologized in our culture.

That link you posted looks very interesting.

WanderingFrog - Have you ever taken the MBTI personality test based on Carl Jung's typology?

I found out I am an INFP and that has been very helpful in understanding how I operate in a cognitive level and why I tend to capitulate into hermit mode with a cup of tea in a homey environment when I get overwhelmed by a more extraverted intuitive function along with an introverted feeling function.



updated by @wileycat: 01/30/18 03:47:54AM
CatW1966
@wileycat
01/30/18 03:37:09AM
5 posts

The super blood moon eclipse over North America


Empath

I am very into astrology and if you are at all, you will find a lot of insight and information by doing a youtube search on the Full moon eclipse of this month. Today, I am watching some to try and get with the best intent of it all.


updated by @wileycat: 01/30/18 03:37:35AM
CatW1966
@wileycat
01/30/18 03:25:33AM
5 posts

Have you ever lived or spent a lot of time in a known "vortex" area?


Psychic and Paranormal

Hello -

I am new to this forum after finally taking seriously the fact that I am an empath and I need to start handling that. I took a lot of quizzes online and my astrology natal chart was read by a semi-famous astrologer who pointed out my extreme psychic abilities and that I need to be careful of the environments and people I put myself in or around.

For the past 2.5 years, I have been living in a small, strange mountain town in Southern Colorado that is considered a known vortex area.

Previously, I was not sure I believed in such a thing, but after moving here, I now do.

I often have wondered if the intense feelings I get are a result of the geological factors involved - living at the base of very large mountains in vast valley that was considered "the bloodless valley" (a sacred, peaceful area) to the native peoples who were here before. And underneath, there is a large aquifer. Though I have never seen anything and am not a big believer, many claim alien contact and other types of sightings.

Anyway, the biggest problem I have living here is that I feel almost constantly like my functioning is jammed up in strange ways and like it is hard for me to get "worldly" things done here or concentrated on enough. We do have a lot of slackers in this town and I sometimes wonder if I am picking up on the laid back to slack energy here - or, or including, other factors that I cannot see.

It has taken this long to feel like my own energy has overcome whatever energy was in the house I moved into.

I either feel strangely wound up here or dead in the water with my energy. I do have issues with bipolar and chronic fatigue that come and go but this is different. This really effects me in odd ways. It's like feeling a low level of being disoriented. Like I will start cleaning my house and two hours later I can't continue because something is interfering that makes me feel confused, dizzy, and off-balance in a strange way. Maybe it's simply that I've never gotten used to the altitude.

My saving grace, is that I go often to the nearby hot springs. I feel totally grounded and normal when I get in the water and the sauna.

Like I mentioned, I've always had issues with depression, Fibro/CFS and anxiety/hypomania, but it is so amplified here in a strange way. It could be altitude, but I often feel it is something else as well - as if the odd energetics here are putting me on high alert over something or confusing me. I've never felt like this anywhere else.

This is also a place of strange synchronicities for me and odd karma. So I am trying to learn not to be so open to everyone around here as it causes me too much stress in the end.

Just wondering if anyone else who is an empath has ended up in a vortex type area and had strange things amplified in how they feel, experiences, etc. and how did you handle it? Sometimes I think I like it here and other times, I imagine myself moving away and saying to someone, "The place was beautiful, but I felt really off-balance there in a strange way and couldn't get enough done."


updated by @wileycat: 01/30/18 03:37:56AM