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crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/28/18 08:10:17AM
200 posts

Flipping between emotions


Empath

Sick = sink
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/28/18 08:09:35AM
200 posts

Flipping between emotions


Empath

I'm not sure. I've spoken to different friends and they have all been going through some type of emotional strain.

I thought it might be me picking up on that.

Of course I've also been in the city a lot.

But, usually I feel bad after being in the city for so many days. I have been there all week and I feel great.

I was honestly thinking it was because I was growing as an empath. It felt like the energies where passing through me faster and those drastic changes where the strong energies that would usually make me sick. Instead there was this surge of of emotion and then it was gone. It also didn't ruin my day like it normally would.

Lol, it feel like I was cleaning a sick of really dirty dishes, some of which were truly disgusting. Once all the dishes where done the room felt clean and shiny. I was also met with a nice environment.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/26/18 08:10:18PM
200 posts

Flipping between emotions


Empath

I'm in the same boat lately.
For me the changes have been quick and drastic. One minute I'm fine then I am suddenly overcome with either anger or sadness. After a few moments it goes away and I feel fine. It's like nothing ever happened.

I was actually going to write about it yesterday but I never got around to it.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/17/18 05:06:08AM
200 posts

Being an empath and PMS


Empath

@sovanesh

I go through a similar thing with a friend of mine. Whenever she us going through PMS I start feeling these burst of it.
It can be frustrating. The more I talk to her the stronger it gets.

It is said to be normal.

Many years ago studies where done on groups of women. It was found that if a group of women spent enough time together they would all end up on the same cycle.
https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-27375/cycle-syncing-is-it-a-real-thing-why-does-it-happen.html
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/17/18 04:56:34AM
200 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

Actually a choker is exactly what I want. I'm just having a hard time finding the right one.

I did more metal therapy last night. I must sat I feel great this morning.

For me when energy is being released from my body a lot of heat is produced. Does anyone else feel this?
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/16/18 02:40:56PM
200 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

@tigerlily
This new realization has opened up a new way of thinking about and using crystals.

I am not completely sure what side you need to hold it on to release the negative energy. I am learning that everyone is different. So I do not think there is a universal set of instructions.

For myself I notice that the negative energy comes out of the back of my neck. Which is what makes things difficult for me. It's hard to find necklaces that center anything on the back of the neck. So at night when I lay down I place stones there.

What I can share is this. In the work I have been doing with metal therapy I am coming to an understanding of how energy moves.

If we think of it in terms of electricity, which is essentially energy, conductivity becomes important.

Conductivity simply being ease at which engergy can move.

To use an example for clarity I'll tell you about my necklace. It is a black kyanite stone, which I never used to be able to wear continuously through the day. It would get to heavy with energy. I would have to take it off to give it a break. I have recently added a copper necklace to it and now I can wear the necklace all day.

Another thing I am noticing that as I make progress using stones and metals at time it can seem like I have gone backwards. However what is happening is that my awareness is growing. Which is why, while it may feel at times like I have gone backwards I still feel differently.

@chesire-cat.

I agree with you about the black stones. They also seem to be able to hold more energy than most other stones.

I would also recommend looking into metal therapy. It's a could pairing with stones.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/16/18 02:17:43PM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

@@tigerlily

Sorry for the late response. I've been distracted lately.

I'm sorry to hear about your baby. I can't imagine how that must have been for you.

I do use crystals and stones. In fact I love working with them. I use them as a part of my regular grounding work.

I just hadn't done my grounding work in a few days. I realized later that night that I was overloaded with energy that needed to be grounded.

I agree with hop-daddy as well. A lot of what he said was right on the money.

I think that along with my own issues with time of year just got to me.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/14/18 04:20:29PM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

Thank you to every who responded. It was truly a great help. I was able to end the day with very high vibrations.

Go Team Empath!
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/14/18 04:19:03PM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie

Thank you. I speak of that time in the past and the people involved a lot. It just comes out that way. He is still living.

As far as old wounds go, it's been interesting. I've been doing a lot of work clearing my energy. In doing so I have noticed that a lot of old stuff is coming up, but with a greater sense of clarity. I am doing less self blame and more understanding. It's like as I clear old energy from my body those experiences are being removed with them.

I also realized that when I wrote this post it had been a few days since I did my normal clearing practices. I can normally go a few days without that happening. But as I said this time of year has a lot of memories for me. I was also in the city a lot as well as around a lot of people who I know to have very low vibrations.

It all was adding up.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/12/18 02:42:33PM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie

I celebrate my birthday every day of the month for many reasons. However there are two main reasons. The first is teach myself that I am worth, and should, be celebrated. The second has to do with how I viewed my birthday growing up. Because of how things worked out I always found myself sad that day. I wanted to change that energy. I wanted to learn to look forward to my day.

I must say it has been fun!

I have a daily budget. Some days it is not about buying a gift so much as exaggerated self care/love. So I may do something simple like watching a movie I love at home. As long as the mindset is celebratory.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/12/18 02:35:20PM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie
People do forget bdays. However my dad and I have the same bday. I would think that is harder to forget.

The relationship has never felt mutual. He's just never really cared for me. I do come from a relationship he had before he got married. That side of the family is very traditional. They still believe in concepts like bastards, so to them I am one.

So growing up during this time of year when my friends where preoccupied with family stuff. I was not. I was an embarrassment. As I got older that sort of changed but whenever someone was around that wasn't family it was like he regretted having me around. He didn't want anyone to see. There are family members I meet to this day who never knew I existed.

So when I had the opportunity I moved away from my family. My goal was to create my own family and surround myself with those who would love and accept me.

As I am much older now I thought all those things where in the past. A couple of years ago I was committed to establishing some kind of relationship with him.

While I can accept his flaws, and I recognize we would never have a conventional father daughter relationship there are other things I cannot accept.

I love my father because he is my father. However as a person no matter how hard I try, I am not okay with who he is.

I was considering moving home this year. Then I realized I already am home. I have a life here one I worked hard to build. Moving back would make it easier for me to connect with him, but that is because he doesn't try. I'm the one who picks up the phone and calls, not him.

I spent a large portion of my life in a state of abuse. There where those that cared, but they could not get to me due to the circumstances.

When I was finally able to get away a good friend told me that it wasn't my fault. I was a child and powerless. He also told me that from the time I left to now, I was no longer powerless. I could either allow myself to be put in the same type of loveless situations or I could chose something else.

I have followed that advice to this day.

I love my father but it is not a healthy relationship. I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that it may never grow into one.

Which can be lonely. But feeling lonely is a lot better than what I feel around him and my mother (she a different story).

Also I'm really only recently noticing feeling healed. It took years of work, but I'm okay with what is. I do still get triggered, however that may be a life long reality and I can handle that.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/11/18 04:51:12PM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie I do want talk. There is stuff going on surrounding my parents. This is the time of year where some of my worst memories are usually made with them. My dad mainly.

Starts next month with him forgetting a birthday we share. And me feeling lonely and forgotten all through the holidays.

A few years ago I started celebrating my birthday every day of the month. It has turned my birthday into an extremely enjoyable time. Nothing too crazy. But it makes me feel loved.
There's more but I gotta work now. Bbl
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/11/18 01:13:57PM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

I want to thank everyone for your kind words.

I think you're all right in different ways.

I do have bouts of depression. It's gotten better over the years. Even this moment is better than last year.

I was trying to pinpoint exactly what is going on with me. A few thoughts came to mind. Historically this is a time a year where lots of unpleasant events occurred.

I have been around a lot of emotionally overwhelming people lately.

I want to write more, but I cant really think straight right.

Once again thank you to everyone.

The post made smile and then laugh which is what I needed.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/11/18 10:37:17AM
200 posts

Seasons


Empath

I've noticed something today that I never noticed before. 

I think this is my season to be sad. What I mean is that some are affected by the moon phases, others the planets, and so on. I think this time of year is when I am most vulnerable.  

I'm not completely overwhelmed, just unreasonably sad, and angry for reasons I cannot say. I know a lot of it doesn't belong to me which helps. But there is so much going on in my head that, while it's not hard to interact with others, I just don't want to.

All I can hear and feel is a lot of screaming and crying. 

To help I've been grounding a couple  times a day. I am on date two of a three day fast, gives me that extra boost.

What I need from the community are any kind words you wish to share. Or whatever you wish to share. I think it'll help.


updated by @crystalsage: 10/13/18 10:13:09AM
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 05:41:53PM
200 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Metallotherapy uses how the different metals affect the body, to heal it.

Copper is a popular one. There are many products ,that are meant to ease pain, which contain copper.

I recently bought some rings and bracelets. I was really surprised at how much they helped.

The back of my neck is where energy can get stuck. I have been placing a peice of copper right where my neck and shoulders meet and it feels great. I tried it today while I was overwhelmed and it calmed me down almost instantly. The only problem was that once I removed it the effect only lasted temporarily. Since I had a collared shirt on, I figured no one would notice I taped a peice of copper to my neck.

I began to relax. The tension in my head released. I could just feel my self slowly getting better. I liked it so much I went back and added another peice.

I'm still in the research and experiment phase. I am enjoying what I have been learning.

So far everything I have tried has worked. It's hard to find a lot of info online but it's there.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 05:21:56PM
200 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Cbd is one of the found in marijuana plants.

It's typically used for anxiety/depression or pain. It's not psychoactive, so you can work or whatever else you feel like doing.

@hop-daddy post a link to cbd gummies he found. Because it is taken from hemp, it can be sold anywhere in the US.

There are also topical creams that have some of the same results.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 05:16:38PM
200 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Black tourmaline
Black kyanite
Jet(which is actually tree fossil but gem stores sell it)
Selenite
Malachite
Shungite

This is pretty much what I use. I place them along the length of my spine, under my feet, in my hands, or around the solar plexus area.

I find them more effective when they are cold to start. Once they get pretty warm I remove them
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 09:08:46AM
200 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Basically I have found that if I get my body into a healthy state physically, than when I get hit with overload it doesn't knock me out.

In fact I'm overloaded today and it's noticeable. However some more recent changes I have made have really turned things around for me.

I was around a lot of pain yesterday and am still around lots of pain this morning and it is taking its toll.

My favorite new addition are my Tibetan healing rings. I feel like these things have opened up a new world. People's outlook toward me has changed as well as my ability to handle the emotional rollercoaster that is being an empath.

Wish you the best.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 09:02:18AM
200 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

These are things I've tried that have worked for me.

Salt baths
Crystal's
Metallotherapy
Diet change
Cold showers(with focus on the spin, the cold helps energies release more easily)

Sitting with the feelings(hurts like hell sometimes, however it does give the energies the space to do whatever they need to do)

Copper on the back of the neck
Icepack on the back of the neck.
Fasting
Few days off and some solitude if possible
Cbd if possible
Big bowl of fruit
Body cleanse
World fast( no TV, phone, people, food?, no noise for at least 8 hours)

And imagination (creating a safe place or person in you head and being with that moment
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/02/18 03:12:06PM
200 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

I'm 31, I started fasting a few months ago. I really enjoy it.

I fast to give my body a break. The goal is to give my body time to focus on inward healing.

I do water fast. I've tried the juice fast. I don't like them. I don't feel the same benefits.

I usually flush my system beforehand to get the most out of my fast. My fast usually last for 2 days although my ultimate goal is to go three days.

My body gets cold while I fast but it feels good. It's the same feeling as inflammation leaving a swollen body part. It's never been about losing weight for me.

Fasting is what inspired me to switch to a vegan diet. I noticed how certain foods affect my mood. I would go from being able to handle anything which is rare, to being overloaded 10 minutes after eating a peice of bread.

The only thing that does not kill my stamina are fruits and vegetables.

I also like that I smell better in general. Not to say that I smelled bad before lol. I've just noticed that my sent, skin, and energy have greatly change. I also sleep better and ground much easier.

I have honestly come to view some foods as addictive. Regular coffee drinkers, for example, go through withdrawal when they go without coffee.

Imo I don't think we should be consuming things that take the body through withdrawal. At least not regularly or in large amounts.

Now this change is still new, and I am still going through my withdrawal period. So I have days where I break my diet. However the pain that follows is motivating me to keep the commitment.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/30/18 08:39:27AM
200 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

Energy doesn't leak out when I'm overloaded. It just seems to go deeper and get internalized. Then I implode. 😂

Or at least that's how it was. I don't implode anymore but the energy can get stuck.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/30/18 08:33:36AM
200 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

I'm not completely sure what it is about processed food.

I remember having a conversation with a cook about pasteurized foods. He said the process actually kills all the vitamins and nutrients that the food comes with as well as harmful bacteria. Then vitamins are reintroduced into the food.

Then I think back to a seminar that was lead by a dietitian. She explained that the problem with supplements is that not all people are able to process the. Sometimes the body simply doesn't recognize them.

With starvation mode the body takes certain steps to survive. My new diet is making curious about exactly how starvation mode is triggered. Is it just a lack of food or is it because of lack of nutrient being recieved.

I've never really done well with pills in general. I seem to process and benefit more from natural food and remedies.

I think it's possible that my body just can't process, those kinds of foods.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 03:29:18PM
200 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

@hop-daddy.

It's not just meats that get me. It's also bread and pretty much anything processed.

To get my proteins in I consume a lot of nuts and seeds. I also did a ton of research before deciding. It is possible to achieve a balanced diet on fruits and veggies. There are a lot of fruits that are good sources of protein and fats. Avocado for example is a good source of both, as well as lots of dried fruits.

I hear you about the biology part as well. In some articles it says that it's better to look for food sources that our ancestors would have had easy access to.

I just know I feel great!
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 01:16:45PM
200 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

@hop-daddy and @cat-whisperer

I favor my right but I have always been ambidextrous.

I enjoy coloring as a relaxing pass time. When I do it I actually use both hands and it just seems to be instinctive.

I have also always heard the left. So all this time I have been using the left.

However a few days ago I was holding a crystal in my right hand that needed to be cleared. Before I could put the crystal down I felt the energy flow out of the crystal into my body. I was actually a bit upset because I had just cleared that same energy out of my own body. I was also curious so I began to experiment.

I picked up crystals I knew where cleared. Held in my left hand I felt myself giving energy to the crystal. In my right hand i felt the energy pulled into. (Which feels much better when the crystal have been cleared)

I have made a lot of other changes. Diet, sleeping, time off taken to heal, I've added an aspect of metallotherapy and how I interact with people in general. These changes have made my sensitivity stronger, and I have had to coach myself through the changes.

So now I am really testing this new realization.

Since my right seems to be soaking things up, I have all my blockers on the right. I'm curious to see how I feel once I get home and over the next few days.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 10:59:30AM
200 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

Okay, so I have fasted with great results. 

I have learned that a vegan diet suits me best. Also one that contains no processed/ boxed foods.

Everything I eat is either a fruit or vegetable with some herbs. Basically a plant based living diet.

I have allowed myself cheat days where I can eat what I want. However it is becoming less worth it to eat that way.

I feel a thousand times better and I still fast once a month now.

This feel like good living. It's not easy still miss a lot of foods. However the results are priceless!


updated by @crystalsage: 09/05/18 11:12:30AM
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 10:55:10AM
200 posts

Tibetan healing rings


Empath

Just added a copper necklace to my set. I'm in the city today around a lot of intense people and I feel fine. I can feel the energies pass through me easily. Some don't feel so great, but they are not getting stuck.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 09:24:35AM
200 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

Has anyone noticed a particular fondness for either their left or right hand with regards to energy work?

Is there one side that you notice is better for giving vs. Recieving energy?

Do both sides function about the same for you?

I have noticed for myself that my right hand tends to suck up any energy it comes into contact with. Great when I'm playing around with crystals. Not so great when I am out in the world. 

When I need to get ride of excess energy it's much easier to do with my left hand.

I am also wearing more of my protective stones on my right and there is a major difference. 

crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/25/18 09:20:33AM
200 posts

Tibetan healing rings


Empath

I actually bought it in a store. However when I went home I looked it up and there are several places to find them online. Here's one on etsy.

https://www.etsy.com/listing/589160942/tibetan-triple-mixed-metal-ring-brass?gpla=1&gao=1&&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=shopping_us_e-jewelry-rings-bands&utm_custom1=2ae72acf-8533-4655-9862-9dbfdc2eb46c&gclid=CjwKCAjw_IPcBRAjEiwAl44QkZ8aBDThrpbpIpkgnRvJxTZ8YYIsnb_8AnZ7T9CWkXrFmFtitsgXwBoCzUQQAvD_BwE

There are different versions. So there's brass,copper, and nickel, which is what I have.

There is brass, copper, and silver.

There is copper, gold, and silver.

I eventually want to try all three to see what works for me best. I also want to look into getting a copper necklace for healing.

I'm glad your crystals are working for you. That sounds amazing.

I actually paired the ring with my black kyanite and tiger's eye. Usually I have to take off my stones a bit for when I fill the energy building up too much. I find it gives them time to release the excess energy. Then I can put them back on. I never had to take them off. It was like all the elements where balancing each other out.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/23/18 10:02:45PM
200 posts

Tibetan healing rings


Empath

So I bought some new rings and a bracelet today. They are made of brass, copper, and nickel and they are a version of healing rings.

I did not actually go into the shop for these items. I went to get some new crystals.  However when I saw the brass ring I knew I had to get some. I had actually been reading up on the benefits of brass, so I was excited to have an opportunity to give it a try. The shop owner pointed out the three metal rings and I was intrigued .

I worked in a difficult location today. It is actually a place I love going, but there is a person there I do not care for and I was going to be working directly with him.

His energy is usually impossible for me to deal with. He is insecure, it's extremely hard to hold a conversation without him trying to start an argument. There is so much more but it's not worth typing.

Long story short, I could handle it. I wasn't getting tangled up in his energy. I was just in my own. I tested it by taking the jewelry off for a while to see the difference. I wasn't able to stay disconnected like I was earlier.  So I put the jewelry back on and I felt this cooling sensation run through my body and I was calm again.

Has anyone else tried the three metal combo?

crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/22/18 07:36:58PM
200 posts

Crystals


Empath

@tigerlily
It could be you need to clear them out.

When a stone is in a store it picks up the energy from all the people who come in and out, and anyone who was handling the stone.

There are several ways to clean.

Salt baths
Burying in dirt
Leaving in a pot plant
Sunlight
Moonlight
Running water

It could also be that the stones are clearing out your energy. Sometimes the first time one connects with a stone it can be a bit of a shock. Especially if there strong need for the stone.

In my experience the shaky feeling doesn't last. It is just a sign that energy that does not belong to you is being drawn out.

I still say clean the crystals often. I like to use selenite to cleanse mine. It's the easiest for me. I have a huge slab and I just keep all my crystals near it.

I believe it to be a personal act, cleansing. So I would suggest finding a way that works for you. You may also want to spend time with each stone individually in order to build a connection with your stones. Setting a purpose can help during this time.

Some stones like selenite or kyanite don't have to be cleansed like others. Unless they get warm, like a necklace would from you body heat. However, they tend to release the energy they have picked up once they cool off.

Sounds exciting. Have fun and let us know how it goes.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/20/18 01:46:13PM
200 posts

Herbs knowledge anybody?


Empath

@kate, thank you so much for taking the time to write all this info.

I do like the Sea Buckthorn. I am going to look into finding that, if I can.

I hear you when it comes to the media. I have recently changed several things about my diet and it has been wonderful. I honestly think they don't actually care about people. Even when they say they do. It all seems to be about making money.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/16/18 02:46:21PM
200 posts



I like to practice mindfulness.

It's where one just sits with any feeling. For example you say you feel twisted. Then you allow yourself to feel that, rather try to make it go away.

Try to more of an observer. For instance you can imagine each of your thoughts are like clouds in the sky. Watch them as they pass without trying to understand in that moment. Just watch and/listen.

Focus can be difficult at first. However I have found that if I let my mind do what it needs to do without my interference, it starts to come.

I hope that made sense. I tried to right it as clear as possible.

Another technique for focus is to pay attention to you breath as you meditate. So pay attention to how your breath feels going in and out. Is it cold hot, easy, labored? When you noticed that your mind has drifted, understand that is okay and slowly bring yourself back to your breath.

Good luck.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/16/18 01:55:34PM
200 posts



@spiritualskies

Have you tried meditating on the energy? Maybe it will allow you to zone in and get an answer.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/13/18 07:25:04PM
200 posts



I forgot to add that looking at a list of emotional states can help as well. Sometimes it is difficult identify what is being felt by name. For example

https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-worksheet/list-of-emotions
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/13/18 07:16:09PM
200 posts



I ask myself questions. Especially when dealing with empathy overload.

So if I get angry I list all the reasons I may have gotten angry.

This practice also allows me to establish who the anger belongs to.

Or

I work out a list of my needs. I have found this to be the easiest way to get in touch with myself.

Sometimes this can be difficult to do. When that is the case I use daydreaming, or some form of entertainment to help me.

When we daydream, watch a show we like, or read a book, even play a game, we find satisfaction because a need is being fulfilled.

For example I like to read books about groups of friends. From that I have learned that having a solid and consistent team at work and in my personal is a strong need of mine.

Another example I daydream about being a strong empath. Not because I'm power hungry but because for me that symbolizes freedom. If I am strong enough to control it then, maybe I won't get overloaded.

Having a clear idea of what one needs developes trust not only in self but also the world. When one knows what one needs, one can easily establish boundaries and protect the self. This can translate into a calmer and stronger connection to the self.

Lastly

I have found that raw journaling can help. What I mean by that is to simply write every thought as it comes. Do not worry about grammar, or even what is being written. Put the writing away for a day or so, giving one time to get some distance from the mindset. Then read what was written. This process can show what the emotional state was while writing and help to start reconnecting the self.

Hope you work it out.

Also I'd like to add, that sometimes the mind just needs a break. Numbing can allow that to occur. As long as one is aware and it does not become a long term, it is not always a bad thing.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/13/18 09:53:40AM
200 posts

Depersonalization, schizo, or spiritual?


Empath

It sounds like your fear of becoming schizophrenic is triggering panic attacks.

Anytime something happens that could he related to schizophrenia you may be going in to fight or flight mode. When a person is in that mode their senses become intensified. I believe that includes the sense that allows us to feel energy.

When a person's sense are open that wide it can be overwhelming.

I would try:

a salt bath

Burn some incense (pick a sent you find calming)

Meditation (with the understanding that as one meditates lots of things may come up. This is just the body purging)

Lowering the temperature in the apartment will allow the energy to shift.

Using large crystals can help aid meditation. Feeling a chill is good as it allows energy to move from the body.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/09/18 12:12:49PM
200 posts

Signs


Empath

@warden.

I believe in signs too, but I also believe we manifest what we want.

I've noticed for myself that whenever I have a strong desire for something I am shown a way to that thing. I would view your signs as you bringing what you want into your life. It feels like the universe is just helping you get there like it did the first time. It all sounds exciting.

Good luck to you.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/08/18 09:35:17AM
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Then there was this coach for the boys track team who's name I can't remember right now.

HE WAS BEAUTIFUL...with a face like that he didn't need a name...lol jk.

Then there was Omar who a lot older but he looked like this famous singer. Talk about better than a poster. Omg. If you didn't think about his age, girlfriend, and child, then he was perfect for young high school me.

Then there was this counselor, janitor, or maybe he was a security guard. I was never really sure I just know he was cute with a capital C.😍
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/08/18 09:25:22AM
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Phillips lasted all the way to middle school. For a while there was no on worthy of my heart. Then came Greg.

Oh sweet Greg. He was a football player. He had a great smile and a great body. But also I was invisible to my love...lol

We also had the same last name which was a concern. Now I was told the two families where not related. Although being from a small town you never know. We could never truly be, not confidently anyway.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/08/18 09:20:07AM
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But before that there was Thomas from second grade.

He was really tall with big teeth. Now that I think of it he really wasn't all that cute. Can't remember why I liked him.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/08/18 09:18:26AM
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Phillip from the third grade. He was a long haired rebel that boy was.

I used to stare at him all day. Whenever he'd talk to me I'd get super nervous and just giggle. Lol

Fun topic
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/05/18 04:24:57PM
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What's your favorite?


Empath

Just curious. What's your favorite thing about being an empath?

Mine is feeling the positive energy from people. I work in catering and some of the guest at those events are filled with so much excitement that it's almost like a high for me.

Your turn! 😀

crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/05/18 04:13:53PM
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Thank you everyone for all the helpful comments.

@hop-daddy definitely going to check out those books.

@womanwhowalks thanks for the advice. I have been learning to do a bit of both reading around to get help and also going with my instincts. It's a journey but it's never boring.

I feel the energy in my body quite a bit. I also noticed today how much of my thoughts are simply interpretations of the energy I am feeling around me.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/04/18 05:42:31PM
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Anyone know of any good books on energy. So far I haven't found anything I think will help me understand. Where I am at it is hard to find others that are willing to teach me. Ive learned quite a bit on my own.
I get really tired the next day. Actually more like sore like I spent the day before lifting weights.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/03/18 11:40:44AM
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Empath

@hop-daddy. Thank you!
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/03/18 09:36:47AM
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Spacial energy?


Empath

Hey everyone. 

Today was a difficult day. Or at least the first two hours of work where. 

So I temp with different companies. It's what makes working easy for me. A couple of months ago I worked at this place that was difficult. I was there for a week, and in order to survive the week I had to play a sort of game with myself.

I basically wore metaphorical mask every day. Which worked so well they wanted me to keep coming back. However I can only wear a mask so long before it starts to eat me up. So I called my company and told them that I would not work there regularly but I was willing to come back after a break.

Well today was that day. I only lasted two hours.

I've started working with my chakras pushing out old energy and the closing up afterwards. This practice has worked everytime I have tried it so far. When I was struggling with it today I thought maybe it no longer works for me (that's happened before, sometimes what works today only works for a while.) But I kept trying. I was even trying to modify it to see if combining techniques that I knew worked would help. It was the same.

I was starting to have a panicky attack which really threw me off because there was no real reason to. I was working independently for the most part. I was doing a good job. However everytime someone spoke to me, with the exception of a few people I felt sick. My ears felt like they where popping and my stomach began getting big and hard, which should not be happening at this point. I wanted to cry, throw up, and run all at the same time. 

So I went outside and called my boss. I told her I needed a pep talk and then a flood of tears just started coming out. I was shocked. I'm not empathicly overloaded, in fact I have found a great grounding technique that makes me feel like I have hit the reset button. I practice this technique throughout the day, mostly because it feels great. While the day was difficult it was not bad enough to cry the way I did. I mean I cried like I had just suffered a great loss (I put it that way, because it was truly the way I've cried during a loss, but during the exact moment of finding out about the loss.)

After leaving the building the feeling still didn't fully go away. It wasn't until I was completely out of that neighborhood that it was gone. It was like it never even happened. In fact I'm back to being happily grounded. What's funny is that I haven't even done my grounding practice yet. And I honestly don't feel like I need to.

What I am wondering is how others have dealt, when in similar situations? I am also curious if it is possible to shift the energy of an entire neighborhood the way we shift energies in our bodies? Could we help by focusing on clearing the energy of spaces?

I'm experimenting on this idea with my house. 

crystalsage
@crystalsage
07/30/18 09:44:34AM
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Just add, I feel more protected. I'm not so open anymore so I'm not just picking up any and everything I come into contact with.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
07/30/18 09:42:36AM
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Chakra work


Empath

Okay so I just wanted to do a check in.

I'm still focusing on clearing and closing. I'm in no rush to move to the next step whatever that is.

I feel great. I've been doing this before I go to sleep on the train on my way to work and I feel the difference. Again sometimes when closing clearing and closing certain chakras things come up. Initially there where a lot of things from the past coming up. Now there are a mixture of things coming up. For example difficulties I experienced throughout the day are expelled.

The most interesting thing that's happened so far happened last night. I noticed that different people with whom I interacted throughout the day where located in different areas of my body. I wonder if that is why it is sometimes difficult to identify and detach from the energies of others? Maybe it was a lack of awareness that they could be located in different areas. Has anyone else had this kind of experience?

I am still paring this work with my fasting. It feels like the two practices seem to work well resetting my energy.

I just feel less tired, less weighed down. It is also getting much easier to tune into specific people at will. Even in a crowd. I've also noticed that I'm bothered less and less by places with lower vibrations. And I am less fearful.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
07/27/18 02:29:26PM
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@hop-daddy

I'm glad you're feeling better.
I have stomach issues too. Fasting helps me a great deal with that.

I have tried acupuncture and I do like it. In fact it was my last treatment that helped me solve a major problem I was having with my left shoulder through to my arm. I can't afford to go often but when I can it is like a treat.

2 steps forward and 1 back is the story of my life. It's a big part of why I work so hard to get a handle on things. It's like on one hand I have someone watching out for me, because if I didn't things would be very different. On the other hand there is something very present that just won't let me be. I have been slowly breaking ties with whatever it is but I have to be very careful to not get to down for too long. When I get down and stay there it's like every step I took towards freedom never happened.

The way I'm see it, it's like this bad luck energy has been with me for many years so it may take just as long for it to be completely gone. I seriously hope that is not the case. However being realistic with myself in that way keeps me from getting discouraged.

It's like the better I'm doing the more the energy around me turns vicious. When I'm not doing so great things are calmish.

One day I would like to have happy daysssss, months even. I would like to be around people who see me, empath and all. And I would just like some overall peace.

I will say all of this has made me stronger and more open minded. I stand up for myself more as well as others. I do my best not to judge while at the same time making sure my boundaries are respected.

One day.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
07/27/18 12:58:03PM
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Chakra work


Empath

Been doing more work with my chakras. I've been focusing on clearing and closing.

I've been doing this by focusing on each one and mentally pushing out old energy. Once this is done I focus on closing in order to protect.

One thing I have noticed with my heart and throat chakras is that a lot of pain is coming up. Most of it is old. After I feel more at ease with my pain. It's not that it goes away, it's just not debilitating and get to be more honest.

When I work with my lower chakras lots of anger comes up. Again it just feels honest.

Haven't fully made it to my third eye or crown. Just been touching base with them briefly. When I do I feel calm and clearer.
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