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crystalsage
@crystalsage
05/03/19 05:50:31AM
218 posts

Dream about telekinesis


Dreams

@hop-daddy
I'll do my best to explain. Metal therapy was something that was used way back in the day. It is really hard to find much info on it. Most of what I have learned is through trying it out and talking to others.

The most noticeable effect is the release of that excess energy. It changes depending on what I am wearing and where.
When I was doing my research I actually ending up looking at conductivity vs. Resitivity. Metals, crystals, and the human body all conduct energy in different forms. From what I have found it is why we pair well with crystals. However metals are actually more conductive which is why we also pair well with them. It has to do with temperature. The hotter anything gets the harder it is for energy to pass through. I believe that is why salt baths work well. Slat is a metal and it is very conductive. Size also matters. When energy passes through an object it brings up the temperature. When a object gets hot it can still absorb energy but the energy will not pass through it. It's why Crystal's need to be cleaned and break if they are not. Imagine a balloon that gets continuously filled, it'll burst. Metals can handle more energy than crystals and the human body. It takes much longer for them to get so hot that the energy gets stored rather than released.
With that in mind I started to think about where I had noticable energy blocks, and also where I had energy leaking out. It seemed that the places coincided with one another.
So that necklace I had kept breaking because a lot of my energy was getting stuck in my neck between my shoulders. I felt great wearing the necklace because it was allowing the energy that was stuck in that area to be released, but it was too much for the necklace(it is a lapis lazuli necklace btw).
I noticed that from my hands up to my wrist there was also a lot going on energy wise. My right soaks up energy and my left releases it. When I first put the three metal bracelet(copper, nickel, and brass) on I felt the best I had ever felt. So I bought rings and extra bracelets and then I came across some interesting issues. The effects where not the same and I couldn't figure out why.
However through talking to people and some trial and error I began to think of the human body like a circuit board. If the connections are not in the correct place the energy cannot flow properly.
That got me to thinking about my necklace and how having multiple bracelets was not working. One of the energy workers I spoke to said it was because I was grounding too much. Essentially I was draining all the old energy which was good. However I was draining out all my energy without replacing it.
So I stopped wearing all the bracelets all the time. I bought a copper necklace, a silver necklace and some silver studs. I alternate between those only really tough days. The silver is really good for emotionally charged days. The copper is great for bodily pain and fatigue. Most days I pair the bracelet on my right wrist with the lapis necklace which I have since added a cerussite stone to. The cerussite is what brings in new energy after the lapis and three metal bracelet ground out the energy and I feel great.(cerussite contains lead, so I recommend finding something that does not. Right now it works grest but I am currently looking for something safer) I am in SF almost every day and while the energy gets to me a little it is nothing like it used to be. If fact the energy that I pick up is manageable. I am also able to understand it a lot better.
My very long point is that it is important to figure out how the energy in your body is flowing. Then you can manipulate it with metals and crystals. Less can me more. I am told gold is great. But it has to be as close to pure as possible. Same with the other metals. Like anything when you add other stuff to something you change it's vibration, or energy signature and thus change its effect. I'm told 22k is fine. But it is expensive. Brass and gold appear to have similar effects and brass is much cheaper. They are supposed to be good for healing the soul energy. Honestly haven't tried it yet.
Also when I have bodily pain I have copper disks that apply directly to that area and after a couple of hours the pain is gone. After a couple of days it doesn't come back. Applying metal disks to injured areas is actually one way metal therapy was used way back when.
I have also learned that when doing energy work it is better to take off the metals. It is much easier to feel what is going on. Although I do think that as I progress that will change.
Hope this was helpful.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
05/02/19 03:11:15PM
218 posts

Dream about telekinesis


Dreams

@hop-daddy have you ever tried using metals?
I added them to my kit a few months back and they have been a game changer. I have learned how to use the better over that time. The basically help you ground. Different metals are better for different types of grounding. Doing combos can be amazing. You don't want to wear them everyday though. Maybe after a few consecutive days leave the bracelet, necklace, or whatever at home. They should be taken off at night. Although in the beginning these guidelines don't necessarily apply as they help you get to a good base. I live the healing bracelet which is copper, brass and nickel. There may be a little green coloration at first but that goes away. It can typically happen if you wear it while sweating. Then there is silver which is great for emotional grounding. When paired with stones like cerussite which brings in new energy as you ground out the old, you can wear them longer and the effect is more balancing without a lot of effort.
When I am experiencing an overload and I put the bracelet on I immediately feel the effect and I am able to calm down more easily. The best thing I got was some silver studs. When I have headaches from emotional overload they take out the entry quickly.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
05/01/19 08:23:57AM
218 posts

At times confused, often simply overwhelmed


Empath

@zacharias what countries? @awakeningbucked I can relate to some of your experiences. I was also told I was too sensitive and often created worlds in my mind where I could be peaceful. I hate conflict but can rarely avoid it. I denied many things that happened because they seemed to be impossible. And PTSD, yup.

My point is that you are not alone.

I would say learn your triggers as well as you can. Sometimes the emotions we pick up can get those triggers going. The rest takes time. Welcome to the club. 🙂


updated by @crystalsage: 05/01/19 08:25:29AM
crystalsage
@crystalsage
04/30/19 04:33:31PM
218 posts

Dream about telekinesis


Dreams

@hop-daddy and @moonshine. I use a combo of crystals and metals to help with that.

I have a necklace that I kept breaking and it is because instead of getting to my electronics the excess energy gets absorbed by the necklace. The break always looked like it was cut and burned.Copper and black crystals really help with absorbing the energy.

I was talking to an energy worker I know a short while ago and I was actually asking about why I kept breaking my crystals. We began to discuss the different kinds of energies and it made sense to me. It was something I was noticing but didn't quite understand.

He said that there was physical, mental, and emotional energy. I agree with these but do believe there to be subcategories of each. His point was that emotional energy is much stronger and also much harder to get rid of. It's why sometimes I clean my crystals and they still feel like they are not completely clean. The same things we use to clean physical and mental energy do not always clear emotional energy. I like to experiment so I tested out his theory and I agree. I also found more balance and have since been able to wear my necklace for longer than I ever have before. It's been over a month now. I have never worn it that long with out it breaking.

So far I have found that emotional energy is essentially like heat. The more there is the hotter it feels. The chill that can happen when meditating is a sign that it has gone out completely. Of lot of energy blockages in my body are also that same energy. The easiest way to describe physical energy is thoughts. Which sounds strange but I'm talking volume not mere existence there of. The more clouded your mind feels, the more it seems like your mind is racing and you cannot control it the more excess mental energy you have. When it comes to physical I think it is the heavy feelings that way us down and make us feel tired.

When it comes to clearing them. For me different kinds of meditation clear them all but in different times and ways. Fire, i.e. candles, are really good with emotional energy. Water and sleep work well for mental. Water also works well for physical especially cold.

My overall point is that if you maybe experiment with clearing all of the different energies it may help with the power surges. Also different stones clear different energies. Stones with lithium are good for emotional energy. But remember if you use grounding stones pair them with something that fills the body with energy. There is such a thing as too much grounding.

About telekinesis. I think that is another way of not only clearing the energy but using it. I think we all have that ability. When we are in high emotional states it is usually due to an unintentional overload of energy. Which is why the unintentional teletype events, telekinesis, telepathy, etc, happen. For me I manifest much more easily when I am really upset. I am actually learning to focus and use the energy I absorb because I find that the more I do it the better I feel and deal with life.

@hop-daddy can't believe it has been a year since I made this post. How time flies.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
04/29/19 10:17:01AM
218 posts

Differentiating between your own emotions and outside


Empath

@mariposa and @michelle. I also get it in my head and solar plexus. When it comes to physical pain I get it wherever they feel it.

Sitting with the feeling often helps me determine the source. When it is not mine I usually feel a lot of strong vibration. Or I see the person when I would normally see myself. It's almost like I become them.

@michelle I've been there with addiction to the feeling. It can be very harmful. Although I often wonder if it is a two sided addiction or if somehow that person has a tight hold. I'm curious to know what you think. I have know toxic people who I could just not get away from. When I finally did leave it was like they were also going through a sort of withdrawal.

@mariposa you say you learned from a young age how to block out others. Would you mind sharing how? I think when we are younger we know more about how to handle this than we realize and forget as we get retrained how to live by the world. It sounds like you were able to hold on to some of that knowledge.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
04/29/19 06:39:17AM
218 posts

Being surrounded by empaths


Empath

Fasting was hard for me too. I started off very slow. I would go 8 hours and the stop. I increased it a couple of hours at a time until I was able to do whole days. A lot of it was mind over matter. I also have a rule for when I fast. If it doesn't feel right I stop. I notice that when I fast I process energy a lot faster.

Every thing else I mentioned just helps me ground. Different things work at different times. I think it just depends on the kind of energy I am being h in t with.

Lately I have been working on accepting those energies. I take a deep breath and absorb them so that I can use them. It has actually been working. Although at times it can be very difficult. The idea is to change my view 9f the energy. It changes the affect and I am able to use that energy in my body the same way I use the energy I get from food.

Not sure if I answered that question all the way. Lmk.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
04/29/19 01:13:17AM
218 posts

Being surrounded by empaths


Empath

@michelle thank for the compliment and the info. I never really took the time to look up emf.

@moonshine the whole heart palpitations and picking up on others sickness has happened to me before. I have also acted out the emotions of others.
I think the heart thing is actually energy we are feeling. Maybe that's why the test doesn't see anything. I have noticed that when I sit with it the feeling goes away.
On the whole pissing people off sometimes. I actually hate when it happens. However over time I have been training myself to be okay with sometimes rubbing people the wrong way.I don't do it on purpose, it is just a fact of life sometimes. Only because I feel better when I allow my self to be.

I am also a misfit. Always have been. I also get along better with other misfits. I have some good friends although it does not always feel that way. I can't talk about this stuff with most of my friends. My empathic friends are like me and tend to disappear for long periods of time. I get that it is usually due to a need to recharge but it can get lonely.
Also going back to acting out others emotions or picking up on their sickness. I use a combination of fasting, metals, meditation, and crystals to help me. I haven't found a method that always works yet. I have learned that are different kinds of energy which get cleared different ways. Sometimes it also depends on the strength of the energy and your connection with the source.
I have also learned to change my perspective with regards to how the energies are affecting me. Some days are better than others. lol

Hope you're all doing well. Take care.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
04/28/19 03:38:34PM
218 posts

Being surrounded by empaths


Empath

I think the honest answer is that empaths are still just people. Just as imperfect and just as clueless at times.

For me personally I do the best I can. However I know that when I am face to face with an empath or someone who is open to the subject I get overly excited. It is just so rare to be able to talk to an actual person. As far as the whole getting upset and the post about being an empath, and even the competitiveness to it. I think it could be many things. One we are just imperfect people. I also think we expect to have all the answers. Another reason could be this one size fits all mentality that is sometimes apart of the human condition. Another possibility is that some believe what they believe so strongly that they may take offense to being questioned. I honestly don't mean that part in a negative way. It can be such a hard life. When we find a way of believing that makes it easy to get up in the morning having someone question it is almost like messing with our survival.

Finding balance to live a life as close to normal as possible can be a personal journey. Sometimes others can give you the answers you need. Sometimes they can only offer examples of experiences had that have worked for them. It is up to each individual to decide what works for for them. And if someone gets upset with something you have done or said, as harsh as this may sound, I have to say so what. For me I have to be able to live in this world as best as I can. Others are not always going to be happy with me just as I wont always be happy with others. The best I can offer is an apology when needed and to be as mindful as I can without sacrificing myself. I have found that it does no one any good when you give up your own happiness and comfort for others. It only makes me resentful, which can make me dangerous. It's better to live honestly and possibly piss a few people off, then live a lie which will only cause more problems than need be.

I like this post. Thanks for sharing it.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
03/08/19 01:06:05PM
218 posts

Is this a sign???


Empath

Just to add to what has already been said. When I am around people like that hematite helps a lot if you can stand it. I carry in my pocket when I know that difficult person is going to be around. The first couple of days can be a little disorienting but if you can make it through that energy shift. Things change. There was a girl who would make everyone sick at work. There was something weird going on with her energy. When I went to the store a piece of hematite called out to me. It made me feel weird for a bit. My stomach kept turning and I kept having to use the restroom. However my instincts said to ride it out. Once I noticed the discomfort was gone I also noticed I could talk to that girl with no problems. She actually never affected me again.

Not every likes or can handle hematite, as I have recently learned. But it can be very helpful.

Glad you are figuring it out. I also wonder if you are able to build a protective grid around you classroom so you can make that a safe space for you and the children.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
01/16/19 06:41:42PM
218 posts

Could the way we define emotions be the reason?


Empath

Good feeling, bad feeling

We are brought up to recognize certain feelings as good and certain feelings as bad. I wonder if it is because of this that certain difficulties arise.

Good feelings are often also safe feelings. Since the mind has not paired an alert response to most good feelings, we do not become triggered when they arise.

Bad feelings are often a sign that there is some sort of unpleasantness in store. When they arise we become triggered.

Below is an article that briefly goes into how triggers work:

https://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/psychpedia/trigger

So when I feel sadness, I feel the urge to get away from it. Past experiences have taught me that when I feel this emotion it is because something awful has happened. So I become triggered and once we become triggered we experience our trauma again.

It would be similar for anger, pain, and all the other "negative" emotions. My personal memories of them are not good. So my reactions are equally as bad. I go on high alert.

When feel happiness it hardly registers. In those moments I feel safe. There is no need to be on alert.

As people who take on more emotional stimuli than most, could it be beneficial to change how we define emotion?

The fact for me is that these emotions are coming. The overload has this annoying tendency to be hiding right around the corner. Avoiding never works for long. Grounding is great, but what about those difficult moments? What about the times when familiar techniques just don't cut it?

My goal over this last year has been to find coping strategies that work more consistently for me. What I have been finding is that the more accepting I am of all the emotions flooding my way the easier it is to handle. Lately my view of emotions has been changing.

I find myself welcoming in my least favorite emotions. Treating them almost as if they are lost children who need help finding their way home. I am even beginning to see the benefits of even the most painful emotions.

I think that we cannot view emotional states in the same way others do. We have to learn to feel safe with every emotion because that more apart of us. At least IMO.

What do you all think? Has anyone had similar or different theories?


crystalsage
@crystalsage
01/11/19 09:59:07AM
218 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

@michelle thank you for that info. I'll have to check it out.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
01/03/19 12:45:30PM
218 posts

Do you get what you need out of meditation?


Empath

I just curious to know what everyone's stance on meditation is.

Do you feel like it is useful?

If it is no what are your struggles?

If it is what do you do that you find useful?

crystalsage
@crystalsage
12/31/18 11:24:58AM
218 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

@hop-daddy

I haven't done enough research on it yet to really be able to say anything.

I just noticed that this time of year feels heavier. Like there are a lot more energies than normal.

I was also looking into different pagan customs many of which seem to view this as a time of year to be connected with our ancestors.

There is also this dream that I had of a relative who passed. But I felt his spirit before I saw him.

Sometimes the thoughts just come to me, usually when I look into it I find info that confirms. This time it is a little different.

But since the beginning of the solstice I have felt the heavy energy that started around October lift.

I wish I knew more. Now all I can think about is next year.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
12/31/18 11:16:11AM
218 posts

Having a really difficult time recently


Empath

@stefficat11

Feel it. All of. Every ounce of pain hatred shame.

I know how that sounds, and no there isn't much glam to it. The truth is doing so hurts like hell.

However, once I allowed myself to feel it. I noticed that it got easier. The pain slowly became less, as well as the fear and everything else.

What also happened is I was allowed to feel safe, and good again.

Not all at once, but little by little every day, just sit with a piece of it. The next day sir with a little more and so on.

It's when we try to turn it off that it gets worse. It's if you let the body feel it, it'll know what to do.

First few days may be hell on ice, fyi. But I promise it gets better.

Also when it gets to be too much, just breathe and slowly disconnect. When you are ready go back.

Good luck.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
12/27/18 02:41:42AM
218 posts

Friendship - finding it incredibely difficult to find friends that are "on the same wavelength"


Empath

@tigerlily I live in the northern California area. The level of emotion can be rough but I am running into more and more empaths lately.

I am originally from the Chicago area.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
12/23/18 12:18:02PM
218 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

@michelle

My friend used tuning forks for me. Which might be a good option if loud noise triggers you. This was more about the vibration than the sound. She would hit the forks and then place them in spots where she could feel energy blocakges.

I did this for spiritual reasons. I'm trying to open myself up more. I cried after she was done. A lot of old sadness came up and was released. But she sees clients for many different reasons.

She does also use crystal bowls.

@goodenergyhealing I like the theta waves too. I also like listening to other binaural tracks when it has been a long day.

@zacharias I did a speech on music therapy. It is a great field. There are lots that can be accomplished using it's techniques.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
12/23/18 09:17:38AM
218 posts

Sound therapy, who's tried it?


Empath

Hello friends, 

First I have learned lots about myself regarding this time of year. So I needed to take a step back in order to get through. It has been interesting. Did you know that this "holiday" season was thought to be a time when those who passed on could visit this world again?

Anyway that's a topic for another post.

What I want to talk about is the use of sound therapy to remove energy blockages. A friend of mine studies this and reiki. She was kind enough to give me a small session and it was great!

Has anyone else had any experience with this?


updated by @crystalsage: 12/23/18 12:07:11PM
crystalsage
@crystalsage
12/23/18 09:08:53AM
218 posts

Friendship - finding it incredibely difficult to find friends that are "on the same wavelength"


Empath

I have been going to places I feel would attract other empaths.

For example crystal shops and other types of store that deal with the alternative world.

I stay away from the "normal" friendships as much as possible. Most of the people I talk I am able to express at least some of my differences to. It is a requirement for me to be able to do so. If I cannot then I stay away from those people in my personal life. It is how I maintain a healthy state of mind.

I have recently found one other person who is also a empathetic. We meet up once a week and just talk freely and it is lovely. It makes it easy to go to work and not talk about my true self. As well as having others in my personal life I can at least talk about crystals or metal therapy with.

Now I also live in Cali, this seems to one place where lots of us are if you are willing to look.

As for before making it a point to place these types of people in my life. I did not do very well. I was always lying about who I was so I could not grow into my truth. That sent me into depressions, and made me feel overwhelmed and lost in this world.

Imo, I think you have to look for people who allow to feel safe being you. It was not easy for me to find them, and cutting out the toxic people did cause me to feel sad and lonely for a while. But now I am comfortable being me. I am more willing to explore my nature because I don't feel like I have to hide. The more I am able to explore, the more I am able to get an handle on things.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/28/18 08:10:17AM
218 posts

Flipping between emotions


Empath

Sick = sink
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/28/18 08:09:35AM
218 posts

Flipping between emotions


Empath

I'm not sure. I've spoken to different friends and they have all been going through some type of emotional strain.

I thought it might be me picking up on that.

Of course I've also been in the city a lot.

But, usually I feel bad after being in the city for so many days. I have been there all week and I feel great.

I was honestly thinking it was because I was growing as an empath. It felt like the energies where passing through me faster and those drastic changes where the strong energies that would usually make me sick. Instead there was this surge of of emotion and then it was gone. It also didn't ruin my day like it normally would.

Lol, it feel like I was cleaning a sick of really dirty dishes, some of which were truly disgusting. Once all the dishes where done the room felt clean and shiny. I was also met with a nice environment.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/26/18 08:10:18PM
218 posts

Flipping between emotions


Empath

I'm in the same boat lately.
For me the changes have been quick and drastic. One minute I'm fine then I am suddenly overcome with either anger or sadness. After a few moments it goes away and I feel fine. It's like nothing ever happened.

I was actually going to write about it yesterday but I never got around to it.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/17/18 05:06:08AM
218 posts

Being an empath and PMS


Empath

@sovanesh

I go through a similar thing with a friend of mine. Whenever she us going through PMS I start feeling these burst of it.
It can be frustrating. The more I talk to her the stronger it gets.

It is said to be normal.

Many years ago studies where done on groups of women. It was found that if a group of women spent enough time together they would all end up on the same cycle.
https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-27375/cycle-syncing-is-it-a-real-thing-why-does-it-happen.html
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/17/18 04:56:34AM
218 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

Actually a choker is exactly what I want. I'm just having a hard time finding the right one.

I did more metal therapy last night. I must sat I feel great this morning.

For me when energy is being released from my body a lot of heat is produced. Does anyone else feel this?
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/16/18 02:40:56PM
218 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

@tigerlily
This new realization has opened up a new way of thinking about and using crystals.

I am not completely sure what side you need to hold it on to release the negative energy. I am learning that everyone is different. So I do not think there is a universal set of instructions.

For myself I notice that the negative energy comes out of the back of my neck. Which is what makes things difficult for me. It's hard to find necklaces that center anything on the back of the neck. So at night when I lay down I place stones there.

What I can share is this. In the work I have been doing with metal therapy I am coming to an understanding of how energy moves.

If we think of it in terms of electricity, which is essentially energy, conductivity becomes important.

Conductivity simply being ease at which engergy can move.

To use an example for clarity I'll tell you about my necklace. It is a black kyanite stone, which I never used to be able to wear continuously through the day. It would get to heavy with energy. I would have to take it off to give it a break. I have recently added a copper necklace to it and now I can wear the necklace all day.

Another thing I am noticing that as I make progress using stones and metals at time it can seem like I have gone backwards. However what is happening is that my awareness is growing. Which is why, while it may feel at times like I have gone backwards I still feel differently.

@chesire-cat.

I agree with you about the black stones. They also seem to be able to hold more energy than most other stones.

I would also recommend looking into metal therapy. It's a could pairing with stones.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/16/18 02:17:43PM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

@@tigerlily

Sorry for the late response. I've been distracted lately.

I'm sorry to hear about your baby. I can't imagine how that must have been for you.

I do use crystals and stones. In fact I love working with them. I use them as a part of my regular grounding work.

I just hadn't done my grounding work in a few days. I realized later that night that I was overloaded with energy that needed to be grounded.

I agree with hop-daddy as well. A lot of what he said was right on the money.

I think that along with my own issues with time of year just got to me.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/14/18 04:20:29PM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

Thank you to every who responded. It was truly a great help. I was able to end the day with very high vibrations.

Go Team Empath!
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/14/18 04:19:03PM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie

Thank you. I speak of that time in the past and the people involved a lot. It just comes out that way. He is still living.

As far as old wounds go, it's been interesting. I've been doing a lot of work clearing my energy. In doing so I have noticed that a lot of old stuff is coming up, but with a greater sense of clarity. I am doing less self blame and more understanding. It's like as I clear old energy from my body those experiences are being removed with them.

I also realized that when I wrote this post it had been a few days since I did my normal clearing practices. I can normally go a few days without that happening. But as I said this time of year has a lot of memories for me. I was also in the city a lot as well as around a lot of people who I know to have very low vibrations.

It all was adding up.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/12/18 02:42:33PM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie

I celebrate my birthday every day of the month for many reasons. However there are two main reasons. The first is teach myself that I am worth, and should, be celebrated. The second has to do with how I viewed my birthday growing up. Because of how things worked out I always found myself sad that day. I wanted to change that energy. I wanted to learn to look forward to my day.

I must say it has been fun!

I have a daily budget. Some days it is not about buying a gift so much as exaggerated self care/love. So I may do something simple like watching a movie I love at home. As long as the mindset is celebratory.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/12/18 02:35:20PM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie
People do forget bdays. However my dad and I have the same bday. I would think that is harder to forget.

The relationship has never felt mutual. He's just never really cared for me. I do come from a relationship he had before he got married. That side of the family is very traditional. They still believe in concepts like bastards, so to them I am one.

So growing up during this time of year when my friends where preoccupied with family stuff. I was not. I was an embarrassment. As I got older that sort of changed but whenever someone was around that wasn't family it was like he regretted having me around. He didn't want anyone to see. There are family members I meet to this day who never knew I existed.

So when I had the opportunity I moved away from my family. My goal was to create my own family and surround myself with those who would love and accept me.

As I am much older now I thought all those things where in the past. A couple of years ago I was committed to establishing some kind of relationship with him.

While I can accept his flaws, and I recognize we would never have a conventional father daughter relationship there are other things I cannot accept.

I love my father because he is my father. However as a person no matter how hard I try, I am not okay with who he is.

I was considering moving home this year. Then I realized I already am home. I have a life here one I worked hard to build. Moving back would make it easier for me to connect with him, but that is because he doesn't try. I'm the one who picks up the phone and calls, not him.

I spent a large portion of my life in a state of abuse. There where those that cared, but they could not get to me due to the circumstances.

When I was finally able to get away a good friend told me that it wasn't my fault. I was a child and powerless. He also told me that from the time I left to now, I was no longer powerless. I could either allow myself to be put in the same type of loveless situations or I could chose something else.

I have followed that advice to this day.

I love my father but it is not a healthy relationship. I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that it may never grow into one.

Which can be lonely. But feeling lonely is a lot better than what I feel around him and my mother (she a different story).

Also I'm really only recently noticing feeling healed. It took years of work, but I'm okay with what is. I do still get triggered, however that may be a life long reality and I can handle that.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/11/18 04:51:12PM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

@pinkypie I do want talk. There is stuff going on surrounding my parents. This is the time of year where some of my worst memories are usually made with them. My dad mainly.

Starts next month with him forgetting a birthday we share. And me feeling lonely and forgotten all through the holidays.

A few years ago I started celebrating my birthday every day of the month. It has turned my birthday into an extremely enjoyable time. Nothing too crazy. But it makes me feel loved.
There's more but I gotta work now. Bbl
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/11/18 01:13:57PM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

I want to thank everyone for your kind words.

I think you're all right in different ways.

I do have bouts of depression. It's gotten better over the years. Even this moment is better than last year.

I was trying to pinpoint exactly what is going on with me. A few thoughts came to mind. Historically this is a time a year where lots of unpleasant events occurred.

I have been around a lot of emotionally overwhelming people lately.

I want to write more, but I cant really think straight right.

Once again thank you to everyone.

The post made smile and then laugh which is what I needed.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/11/18 10:37:17AM
218 posts

Seasons


Empath

I've noticed something today that I never noticed before. 

I think this is my season to be sad. What I mean is that some are affected by the moon phases, others the planets, and so on. I think this time of year is when I am most vulnerable.  

I'm not completely overwhelmed, just unreasonably sad, and angry for reasons I cannot say. I know a lot of it doesn't belong to me which helps. But there is so much going on in my head that, while it's not hard to interact with others, I just don't want to.

All I can hear and feel is a lot of screaming and crying. 

To help I've been grounding a couple  times a day. I am on date two of a three day fast, gives me that extra boost.

What I need from the community are any kind words you wish to share. Or whatever you wish to share. I think it'll help.


updated by @crystalsage: 10/13/18 10:13:09AM
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 05:41:53PM
218 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Metallotherapy uses how the different metals affect the body, to heal it.

Copper is a popular one. There are many products ,that are meant to ease pain, which contain copper.

I recently bought some rings and bracelets. I was really surprised at how much they helped.

The back of my neck is where energy can get stuck. I have been placing a peice of copper right where my neck and shoulders meet and it feels great. I tried it today while I was overwhelmed and it calmed me down almost instantly. The only problem was that once I removed it the effect only lasted temporarily. Since I had a collared shirt on, I figured no one would notice I taped a peice of copper to my neck.

I began to relax. The tension in my head released. I could just feel my self slowly getting better. I liked it so much I went back and added another peice.

I'm still in the research and experiment phase. I am enjoying what I have been learning.

So far everything I have tried has worked. It's hard to find a lot of info online but it's there.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 05:21:56PM
218 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Cbd is one of the found in marijuana plants.

It's typically used for anxiety/depression or pain. It's not psychoactive, so you can work or whatever else you feel like doing.

@hop-daddy post a link to cbd gummies he found. Because it is taken from hemp, it can be sold anywhere in the US.

There are also topical creams that have some of the same results.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 05:16:38PM
218 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Black tourmaline
Black kyanite
Jet(which is actually tree fossil but gem stores sell it)
Selenite
Malachite
Shungite

This is pretty much what I use. I place them along the length of my spine, under my feet, in my hands, or around the solar plexus area.

I find them more effective when they are cold to start. Once they get pretty warm I remove them
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 09:08:46AM
218 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

Basically I have found that if I get my body into a healthy state physically, than when I get hit with overload it doesn't knock me out.

In fact I'm overloaded today and it's noticeable. However some more recent changes I have made have really turned things around for me.

I was around a lot of pain yesterday and am still around lots of pain this morning and it is taking its toll.

My favorite new addition are my Tibetan healing rings. I feel like these things have opened up a new world. People's outlook toward me has changed as well as my ability to handle the emotional rollercoaster that is being an empath.

Wish you the best.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/05/18 09:02:18AM
218 posts

Can a Narcissist be an empath?


Empath

These are things I've tried that have worked for me.

Salt baths
Crystal's
Metallotherapy
Diet change
Cold showers(with focus on the spin, the cold helps energies release more easily)

Sitting with the feelings(hurts like hell sometimes, however it does give the energies the space to do whatever they need to do)

Copper on the back of the neck
Icepack on the back of the neck.
Fasting
Few days off and some solitude if possible
Cbd if possible
Big bowl of fruit
Body cleanse
World fast( no TV, phone, people, food?, no noise for at least 8 hours)

And imagination (creating a safe place or person in you head and being with that moment
crystalsage
@crystalsage
09/02/18 03:12:06PM
218 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

I'm 31, I started fasting a few months ago. I really enjoy it.

I fast to give my body a break. The goal is to give my body time to focus on inward healing.

I do water fast. I've tried the juice fast. I don't like them. I don't feel the same benefits.

I usually flush my system beforehand to get the most out of my fast. My fast usually last for 2 days although my ultimate goal is to go three days.

My body gets cold while I fast but it feels good. It's the same feeling as inflammation leaving a swollen body part. It's never been about losing weight for me.

Fasting is what inspired me to switch to a vegan diet. I noticed how certain foods affect my mood. I would go from being able to handle anything which is rare, to being overloaded 10 minutes after eating a peice of bread.

The only thing that does not kill my stamina are fruits and vegetables.

I also like that I smell better in general. Not to say that I smelled bad before lol. I've just noticed that my sent, skin, and energy have greatly change. I also sleep better and ground much easier.

I have honestly come to view some foods as addictive. Regular coffee drinkers, for example, go through withdrawal when they go without coffee.

Imo I don't think we should be consuming things that take the body through withdrawal. At least not regularly or in large amounts.

Now this change is still new, and I am still going through my withdrawal period. So I have days where I break my diet. However the pain that follows is motivating me to keep the commitment.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/30/18 08:39:27AM
218 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

Energy doesn't leak out when I'm overloaded. It just seems to go deeper and get internalized. Then I implode. 😂

Or at least that's how it was. I don't implode anymore but the energy can get stuck.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/30/18 08:33:36AM
218 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

I'm not completely sure what it is about processed food.

I remember having a conversation with a cook about pasteurized foods. He said the process actually kills all the vitamins and nutrients that the food comes with as well as harmful bacteria. Then vitamins are reintroduced into the food.

Then I think back to a seminar that was lead by a dietitian. She explained that the problem with supplements is that not all people are able to process the. Sometimes the body simply doesn't recognize them.

With starvation mode the body takes certain steps to survive. My new diet is making curious about exactly how starvation mode is triggered. Is it just a lack of food or is it because of lack of nutrient being recieved.

I've never really done well with pills in general. I seem to process and benefit more from natural food and remedies.

I think it's possible that my body just can't process, those kinds of foods.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 03:29:18PM
218 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

@hop-daddy.

It's not just meats that get me. It's also bread and pretty much anything processed.

To get my proteins in I consume a lot of nuts and seeds. I also did a ton of research before deciding. It is possible to achieve a balanced diet on fruits and veggies. There are a lot of fruits that are good sources of protein and fats. Avocado for example is a good source of both, as well as lots of dried fruits.

I hear you about the biology part as well. In some articles it says that it's better to look for food sources that our ancestors would have had easy access to.

I just know I feel great!
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 01:16:45PM
218 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

@hop-daddy and @cat-whisperer

I favor my right but I have always been ambidextrous.

I enjoy coloring as a relaxing pass time. When I do it I actually use both hands and it just seems to be instinctive.

I have also always heard the left. So all this time I have been using the left.

However a few days ago I was holding a crystal in my right hand that needed to be cleared. Before I could put the crystal down I felt the energy flow out of the crystal into my body. I was actually a bit upset because I had just cleared that same energy out of my own body. I was also curious so I began to experiment.

I picked up crystals I knew where cleared. Held in my left hand I felt myself giving energy to the crystal. In my right hand i felt the energy pulled into. (Which feels much better when the crystal have been cleared)

I have made a lot of other changes. Diet, sleeping, time off taken to heal, I've added an aspect of metallotherapy and how I interact with people in general. These changes have made my sensitivity stronger, and I have had to coach myself through the changes.

So now I am really testing this new realization.

Since my right seems to be soaking things up, I have all my blockers on the right. I'm curious to see how I feel once I get home and over the next few days.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 10:59:30AM
218 posts

Vegan diet


Empath

Okay, so I have fasted with great results. 

I have learned that a vegan diet suits me best. Also one that contains no processed/ boxed foods.

Everything I eat is either a fruit or vegetable with some herbs. Basically a plant based living diet.

I have allowed myself cheat days where I can eat what I want. However it is becoming less worth it to eat that way.

I feel a thousand times better and I still fast once a month now.

This feel like good living. It's not easy still miss a lot of foods. However the results are priceless!


updated by @crystalsage: 09/05/18 11:12:30AM
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 10:55:10AM
218 posts

Tibetan healing rings


Empath

Just added a copper necklace to my set. I'm in the city today around a lot of intense people and I feel fine. I can feel the energies pass through me easily. Some don't feel so great, but they are not getting stuck.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/29/18 09:24:35AM
218 posts

Left, right, or both


Empath

Has anyone noticed a particular fondness for either their left or right hand with regards to energy work?

Is there one side that you notice is better for giving vs. Recieving energy?

Do both sides function about the same for you?

I have noticed for myself that my right hand tends to suck up any energy it comes into contact with. Great when I'm playing around with crystals. Not so great when I am out in the world. 

When I need to get ride of excess energy it's much easier to do with my left hand.

I am also wearing more of my protective stones on my right and there is a major difference. 

crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/25/18 09:20:33AM
218 posts

Tibetan healing rings


Empath

I actually bought it in a store. However when I went home I looked it up and there are several places to find them online. Here's one on etsy.

https://www.etsy.com/listing/589160942/tibetan-triple-mixed-metal-ring-brass?gpla=1&gao=1&&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=shopping_us_e-jewelry-rings-bands&utm_custom1=2ae72acf-8533-4655-9862-9dbfdc2eb46c&gclid=CjwKCAjw_IPcBRAjEiwAl44QkZ8aBDThrpbpIpkgnRvJxTZ8YYIsnb_8AnZ7T9CWkXrFmFtitsgXwBoCzUQQAvD_BwE

There are different versions. So there's brass,copper, and nickel, which is what I have.

There is brass, copper, and silver.

There is copper, gold, and silver.

I eventually want to try all three to see what works for me best. I also want to look into getting a copper necklace for healing.

I'm glad your crystals are working for you. That sounds amazing.

I actually paired the ring with my black kyanite and tiger's eye. Usually I have to take off my stones a bit for when I fill the energy building up too much. I find it gives them time to release the excess energy. Then I can put them back on. I never had to take them off. It was like all the elements where balancing each other out.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/23/18 10:02:45PM
218 posts

Tibetan healing rings


Empath

So I bought some new rings and a bracelet today. They are made of brass, copper, and nickel and they are a version of healing rings.

I did not actually go into the shop for these items. I went to get some new crystals.  However when I saw the brass ring I knew I had to get some. I had actually been reading up on the benefits of brass, so I was excited to have an opportunity to give it a try. The shop owner pointed out the three metal rings and I was intrigued .

I worked in a difficult location today. It is actually a place I love going, but there is a person there I do not care for and I was going to be working directly with him.

His energy is usually impossible for me to deal with. He is insecure, it's extremely hard to hold a conversation without him trying to start an argument. There is so much more but it's not worth typing.

Long story short, I could handle it. I wasn't getting tangled up in his energy. I was just in my own. I tested it by taking the jewelry off for a while to see the difference. I wasn't able to stay disconnected like I was earlier.  So I put the jewelry back on and I felt this cooling sensation run through my body and I was calm again.

Has anyone else tried the three metal combo?

crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/22/18 07:36:58PM
218 posts

Crystals


Empath

@tigerlily
It could be you need to clear them out.

When a stone is in a store it picks up the energy from all the people who come in and out, and anyone who was handling the stone.

There are several ways to clean.

Salt baths
Burying in dirt
Leaving in a pot plant
Sunlight
Moonlight
Running water

It could also be that the stones are clearing out your energy. Sometimes the first time one connects with a stone it can be a bit of a shock. Especially if there strong need for the stone.

In my experience the shaky feeling doesn't last. It is just a sign that energy that does not belong to you is being drawn out.

I still say clean the crystals often. I like to use selenite to cleanse mine. It's the easiest for me. I have a huge slab and I just keep all my crystals near it.

I believe it to be a personal act, cleansing. So I would suggest finding a way that works for you. You may also want to spend time with each stone individually in order to build a connection with your stones. Setting a purpose can help during this time.

Some stones like selenite or kyanite don't have to be cleansed like others. Unless they get warm, like a necklace would from you body heat. However, they tend to release the energy they have picked up once they cool off.

Sounds exciting. Have fun and let us know how it goes.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/20/18 01:46:13PM
218 posts

Herbs knowledge anybody?


Empath

@kate, thank you so much for taking the time to write all this info.

I do like the Sea Buckthorn. I am going to look into finding that, if I can.

I hear you when it comes to the media. I have recently changed several things about my diet and it has been wonderful. I honestly think they don't actually care about people. Even when they say they do. It all seems to be about making money.
crystalsage
@crystalsage
08/16/18 02:46:21PM
218 posts



I like to practice mindfulness.

It's where one just sits with any feeling. For example you say you feel twisted. Then you allow yourself to feel that, rather try to make it go away.

Try to more of an observer. For instance you can imagine each of your thoughts are like clouds in the sky. Watch them as they pass without trying to understand in that moment. Just watch and/listen.

Focus can be difficult at first. However I have found that if I let my mind do what it needs to do without my interference, it starts to come.

I hope that made sense. I tried to right it as clear as possible.

Another technique for focus is to pay attention to you breath as you meditate. So pay attention to how your breath feels going in and out. Is it cold hot, easy, labored? When you noticed that your mind has drifted, understand that is okay and slowly bring yourself back to your breath.

Good luck.
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