Flipping between emotions
Sick = sink
I've noticed something today that I never noticed before.
I think this is my season to be sad. What I mean is that some are affected by the moon phases, others the planets, and so on. I think this time of year is when I am most vulnerable.
I'm not completely overwhelmed, just unreasonably sad, and angry for reasons I cannot say. I know a lot of it doesn't belong to me which helps. But there is so much going on in my head that, while it's not hard to interact with others, I just don't want to.
All I can hear and feel is a lot of screaming and crying.
To help I've been grounding a couple times a day. I am on date two of a three day fast, gives me that extra boost.
What I need from the community are any kind words you wish to share. Or whatever you wish to share. I think it'll help.
Okay, so I have fasted with great results.
I have learned that a vegan diet suits me best. Also one that contains no processed/ boxed foods.
Everything I eat is either a fruit or vegetable with some herbs. Basically a plant based living diet.
I have allowed myself cheat days where I can eat what I want. However it is becoming less worth it to eat that way.
I feel a thousand times better and I still fast once a month now.
This feel like good living. It's not easy still miss a lot of foods. However the results are priceless!
Has anyone noticed a particular fondness for either their left or right hand with regards to energy work?
Is there one side that you notice is better for giving vs. Recieving energy?
Do both sides function about the same for you?
I have noticed for myself that my right hand tends to suck up any energy it comes into contact with. Great when I'm playing around with crystals. Not so great when I am out in the world.
When I need to get ride of excess energy it's much easier to do with my left hand.
I am also wearing more of my protective stones on my right and there is a major difference.
So I bought some new rings and a bracelet today. They are made of brass, copper, and nickel and they are a version of healing rings.
I did not actually go into the shop for these items. I went to get some new crystals. However when I saw the brass ring I knew I had to get some. I had actually been reading up on the benefits of brass, so I was excited to have an opportunity to give it a try. The shop owner pointed out the three metal rings and I was intrigued .
I worked in a difficult location today. It is actually a place I love going, but there is a person there I do not care for and I was going to be working directly with him.
His energy is usually impossible for me to deal with. He is insecure, it's extremely hard to hold a conversation without him trying to start an argument. There is so much more but it's not worth typing.
Long story short, I could handle it. I wasn't getting tangled up in his energy. I was just in my own. I tested it by taking the jewelry off for a while to see the difference. I wasn't able to stay disconnected like I was earlier. So I put the jewelry back on and I felt this cooling sensation run through my body and I was calm again.
Has anyone else tried the three metal combo?
Today was a difficult day. Or at least the first two hours of work where.
So I temp with different companies. It's what makes working easy for me. A couple of months ago I worked at this place that was difficult. I was there for a week, and in order to survive the week I had to play a sort of game with myself.
I basically wore metaphorical mask every day. Which worked so well they wanted me to keep coming back. However I can only wear a mask so long before it starts to eat me up. So I called my company and told them that I would not work there regularly but I was willing to come back after a break.
Well today was that day. I only lasted two hours.
I've started working with my chakras pushing out old energy and the closing up afterwards. This practice has worked everytime I have tried it so far. When I was struggling with it today I thought maybe it no longer works for me (that's happened before, sometimes what works today only works for a while.) But I kept trying. I was even trying to modify it to see if combining techniques that I knew worked would help. It was the same.
I was starting to have a panicky attack which really threw me off because there was no real reason to. I was working independently for the most part. I was doing a good job. However everytime someone spoke to me, with the exception of a few people I felt sick. My ears felt like they where popping and my stomach began getting big and hard, which should not be happening at this point. I wanted to cry, throw up, and run all at the same time.
So I went outside and called my boss. I told her I needed a pep talk and then a flood of tears just started coming out. I was shocked. I'm not empathicly overloaded, in fact I have found a great grounding technique that makes me feel like I have hit the reset button. I practice this technique throughout the day, mostly because it feels great. While the day was difficult it was not bad enough to cry the way I did. I mean I cried like I had just suffered a great loss (I put it that way, because it was truly the way I've cried during a loss, but during the exact moment of finding out about the loss.)
After leaving the building the feeling still didn't fully go away. It wasn't until I was completely out of that neighborhood that it was gone. It was like it never even happened. In fact I'm back to being happily grounded. What's funny is that I haven't even done my grounding practice yet. And I honestly don't feel like I need to.
What I am wondering is how others have dealt, when in similar situations? I am also curious if it is possible to shift the energy of an entire neighborhood the way we shift energies in our bodies? Could we help by focusing on clearing the energy of spaces?
I'm experimenting on this idea with my house.