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Camq
@camq
12/07/17 05:47:09PM
6 posts

I'm so suicidal right now


Empath

I keep being used! I keep picturing myself swallowing all the pills in my house but I don't want to die.

I just want to stop feeling this way. I can't trust anyone. I'm so tired.
Camq
@camq
12/04/17 04:09:15PM
6 posts

I'm so confused.


Empath

@hop-daddy

Tysm for replying and sharing your thoughts. I've actually done that test twice, plus some others and for all of them I scored very highly.

I guess I was skeptical because it's scary to think that for so long I've thought there was something strange about me...and now there's a word for it. It's scary and exciting at the same time.

Many times I cried myself to sleep because I felt I always created problems. I would tell people that what they're doing hurts only to be told

I'm too sensitive.
I'm like wet bread.
Don't take things so personal.

But then I think, why do I feel fine when one person pokes fun at me and not fine when another person does the same thing?

Why do I hide from things that I fantasize about showering with my love and care? Because I know how passionate I am and how hard I feel. Seeing them hurt would kill me. I fear for my life if I lose my mother or my father. I'd be admitted. My mind would split.

When I was young I cried because I didn't know how I would survive the world.

It's crazy.
Camq
@camq
12/03/17 01:01:41PM
6 posts

I'm so confused.


Empath

Warden:
I understand that that I went to a psychic reading before him it was a group session and almost everybody in the room was an empath and energy worker or some sort of a psychic and all that energy in one room my whole body was vibrating and I felt extremely nauseous. I have worked for toxic people and was always unhappy and would gain a lot of weight. When I quit one of those places I dropped 40 lb in like 3 months without doing anything to try to lose that weight. I hope you can figure out what to do to help bring you some piece. It does sound like the first thing you need to do is find a new place to work good luck and much light and love

Wow, that's insane. 40lbs?! I'm glad you're out of that environment. I'm trying to do the same. At my work place it's very dog eat dog and it doesn't sit well with my spirit. It makes me nauseous.

I'm actually leaving sometime next week to another department. Ty much light and love to you as well 😄😄😄
Camq
@camq
12/03/17 12:05:43PM
6 posts

I'm so confused.


Empath

angeldelight:
The way I discovered I was an empath, was mainly due to 'feeling' emotions that didn't feel like mine or didn't fit right within my life at the times I felt them, same with my thoughts, at times it didn't make sense why I would think certain things or have certain thoughts that didn't feel like mine. One has to be very aware and alert of the self internally as externally to be able to recognise if they are empathic or not, might be different for others but that's my story.

Don't feel tge need to inflict pain upon yourself, it's understandable how tempting it can be in frustrating situations, but try and face what triggers you to feel this way rather than running or using a temporary fix.
I'm trying my best to be aware. I've realized I tend to mirror others moods around me. But it seems it's only if those people have some sort of importance to me.

I don't know. Maybe I'm HSP? I know that for sure. I'm writer, nature puts me at ease, I have different feelings for different locations that I've been in my life that I can't explain. Each location just has a unique feeling that if I were to describe it to someone it would have to be in the form of music or colors.

For so long I've thought I'm just messed in the head.

And I'm always trying to read people?Their face, their mannerisms and I don't know why... It's not as if I'm doing it consciously....I just do it.

I keep finding myself giving relationship advice and life advice and my life and relationships are far from decent. Yet people still come to me to talk about it.


Idk maybe I'm not an empath. Persons keep aligning them to Psychics and I know I definitely cannot read minds.
Camq
@camq
12/03/17 11:52:46AM
6 posts

I'm so confused.


Empath

Warden:
I don't know a lot about you so I can't say if you're an empath or not. But you are obviously sensitive to others energy and need to learn to control what energy you allow yourself to pick up. I suggest getting some protection stones as well. Like obsidian or another black stone. Your bosses sound horrible I would find a new place of employment, it sounds like a toxic environment not good to be in at all. Please no matter how hard it is to write if that's an outlet that makes you happy do it! Where I know how self harm can temporarily make you feel better there are better ways to do that. As cliche as it sounds try meditation and maybe some oils. Exercise can be helpful too. It sounds like you're attraction toxic ppl you may need to smudge yourself daily to cleanse off all that negative energy. I know I babbled and may not sound the clearest but these were my thoughts.

Thank you so much for replying dear. I'm gonna see what I can do.

I have been in a room with my previous bosses before and the energy they were giving off has sent me to the doctor before.

I felt insane not knowing what was wrong.
Camq
@camq
12/03/17 10:01:14AM
6 posts

I'm so confused.


Empath

Since I've gotten older and I've been forced to interact with persons within my age group (19-27), I've been asking myself more often...what is wrong with me?

If I'm not having confrontations with people for hurting or disrespecting my friends, I'm having confrontations with people about not wanting to be mistreated anymore only to be told I love playing the victim because I'm always crying from the anxiety and fear and stress these people inflict upon me.

What's wrong with me? Why can't I stay at work on bad days?

Why do I feel the urge to hurt myself because I feel I've been burdening my good friend with all my problems and he hadn't replied in almost 3 days.

I hate myself. I want to disappear. Why do I feel so much?

Why does the thought of writing stories bring me comfort but I can't push myself to get up and do it?

I'm just so tired. My managers told lies on me and made me get demoted and I can't breathe because I tried so hard and everyone told me I did a good job.

Why do I try for everyone but myself?

Am I an empath? Am I truly? Or am I just a self-absorbed person. Am I just broken?

I don't want to talk to my friends about this. That I've started hurting myself again...but it's the only thing that eases the frustration.


Am I really an empath?
updated by @camq: 12/10/17 12:20:23PM