I agree, I e felt like that on many occasions on a spiritual level, as much as in a real sense too, I'm actually not afraid to allow people to treat myself or others in that way either.
If there's more people on here with tf journeys, numbers and anything else relatable please share, I think one of the things I learned about the number where the 11's are concerned, though it's about tf, enlightenment, one person I heard from a satanic number too, but I want to do some digging on that I've not done, I kind of see it as now that I've grown from alot of experiences, wherever or whoever the healing came from, I remeby, myself included, used to not wish this journey on anyone, I did however wish it on everyone more recently, and I thought 11 is a number that's associated with the higher self right? But if we don't assume ourselves to be of a higher self but another, be it a person, a guide/mentor, general people or God or whatever we choose to believe in, then we can absolutely heal anyone else, it would be selfish in my personal opinion to believe in it solely for the twinflame journeys, I'd need to refer back to what those numbers means cause it's been a while since I did that.. I tend not to retain much unless I note it down or people remind me..
Even where we talked about other stuff like the holy trinity, I believe in Jesus, I sympathize with him, and understand his life from my own teachings and upbringings, but if people wanted to believe he was an empath, and I do too, I kind of feel where I had mini experiences with the physical empath side, that this could have well been my punishment or reminder or suffering caused to myself for acting according my Knowings, what did Jesus do? He tried to warn people, out of love and compassion, he tried to teach them that what he was, how he was and what he knew was real, and so suffered I. His life continually, even upintil the point of crucifiction, in my beliefs, when he was placed on the crossed, the people saw pain and suffering, yet no remorse or sympathy, in the same sense we go through that but others don't see it, when we come out of the states of all the energies we've been carrying, we are ourselves, we have pain and suffering but we have the strength to carry on, I kind of see it like that.
There's nothing wrong with wanting to believe in Jesus in whatever way we choose to, but if we want to keep Empathising with him, then it's like a calling to him, to carry his burdens, and he becomes the sole power, if the mind and body isn't built up to manage that, it begins to affect everything around us.
My litanies are my life line, I do believe that, they are what give me strength and agility, I know own it will be tough but I will come out if it I. The end knowing angels, people, guides and God are always with me, there's a great combattor in my faith he was well known for his excellence in his leadership and management when soldiers were out on the battlefield, being an empath is like that in reality and spiritually, he always knew how to target his enemies, whatever they may be, it doesn't have to be as serious as that, I love him and he was known as Khalid bin Waleed, people looking into his life will be amazed, his greatness is studied if not my mistaken on the special gifts he had and there was an article or something I read on once that I'll try and find and share, but he's who I think of when I feel like I'm being cornered, he gives me the ability to open up my mind to new situations, knowing my enemies just as an example and I know whose going to attack me from where. That how people and energies on spirit sense tend to take. A back seat and I get my rest to prepare for another take and how I continuously keep going without burn out, even if I do, by the time I'm doing cleansing and understanding, I've forgotten about everything like it was nothing, I can take more on.
Which I feel like I've been assigned my next assignment on light work around a person whose beastly but also has a connection my sister, everything that I'm taking seems to be myself separating what was from both these people and and what was me, she always looked up to me, though it's difficult because my sm refuses any contact with her because of a past, I feel like I've taken on his karmic cycke because he refuses to follow one of the basic principle of not holding a grudge against anyone and the impression it's caused myself and others, the separation of ties the prophet also warned against, the ingratitude that shows through his charactwr, though he has no intent, I understand his side and believe him, but he doesn't see how it comes across to others, if we believe sincerely in the ways of the traditions where myself is concerned, those should be acted upon and they become ingrained and become regular and consistent practices, I don't fully believe them or understand them so I don't or can't act according to them where I outgh to. implement them in my life, and some of it is like stage set up to open his understanding and sneses but I can't ion anything h for anyone if they're not willing to open they're own mind..
Sorry for that ramble, but I'm loving this thread keep it going if we can?