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Kate T
@kate
08/16/16 05:45:11AM
152 posts



I would personally like to say that yes it exists and it has effects on people, however, as we all know, what goes around comes around. The power of magic that backfires is far worse than the first fire shot at someone else. A person has all the capabilities of getting over it as much as it might harm in the present, but once it does so, it helps the individual and digs a hole for the attacker. Similarly, such doings attract negative forces and in all honesty, you as an attacker will affect the people around yourself, slowly driving yourself to exclusion and madness ^^ And here I got out of the empath sphere only.

These people feel "burned" when "scanned" or talked to about such things, and nevertheless have to deal with blockages and other bs. Imo, I'd just mind my own business and let the law of attraction and karma do their job for revenge and grudge channeled in the ways of 'black magic' suggest a big imbalance, and from here we can move forward to talking about love and how many problems it can solve when delivered at the right time.

Just a quick insight but everything is fixable and responds to higher frequencies. And why not, to lower ones as well *cough*

There's that nice concept of the Japanese people, the art of repairing a broken piece of pottery so that it ends up looking more beautiful than before: Kintsugi.

Kate T
@kate
07/01/16 04:55:16PM
152 posts



Really interesting, love this subject ^^

Ever since very young I've had a very good hearing to the point i had to always ask my parents to lower the volume on TV, Radio or when talking and I was simply not a fan of high pitched voices or verbal fights which unfortunately i got a lot of (my parents had a lot of disagreements). I also had issues in clubs, at the metro or with certain high pitched kitchen blenders, and i still do. On the other hand, I can perceive distant sounds and whispers to a certain extent and in certain situations my hearing can get really acute (a few moments before falling asleep). It is no secret and my family knows closed doors won t help when they want to talk IF by any chance I happen to be curious. I believe that this trait is merely my ability to concentrate on a certain sound/frequency and isolate it. I do have a very good concentration.

My least good sense is the eyesight as well, due to the hours I've worked/spent/lost time in front of the computer and some genetic sensibility.

My sense of smell is off put by unnatural fregnances even though i wouldn t characterise it as the most sensible. Not sure how you call the ability to sense the environment around you and what moves. I know i've always been catching small fish under rocks bare handed and lizards, or following stuff through high grass using this "sense" ^^ :)) especially when i was small. Martial arts and those movies or clips about shaolins absolutely fascinate me. It unfortunately used to go a bit wrong as soon as night came, and i know i was afraid of the dark due to the fact that i could sense stuff of which origin i was unsure of.

I am sensible to a whole other range of external stimuli around me however among which the thoughts and intention of the other one, due to which i can now appear intrusive, as I try to no longer let them affect me negatively or affect my decisions to such an extent.

The traits made me a big lover of nature and animals and a partial hater of human gatherings, where non-verbal talk was being lost big time and I went through a lot of misunderstandings or ended up feeling really drained and had no idea how to stop it without stopping being myself. It's safe to say my sensibility made me insensible in a way, if you get how that works xD High defenses from an external point of view but essentially i was still internalizing everything.

All these taken together were more of a handicap for me in the society i've grown up with.. with a few exceptions, teachers and adults that saw in the "quiet kid that liked to read and look at people" potential. I had to read a lot about psychology and human behavior to be honest... to come to understand myself better as well.

Maybe they are just a sum of good hearing/perception/etc... other elements, who knows.

Kate T
@kate
06/22/16 09:02:08AM
152 posts



Interesting. Well, I am glad you found something that resonated as "not quite good" and which you can try cutting out form your diet and see how it feels after some time. Other than that, those are the general rules someone who wants to become healthier can follow and apply to their own habbits. I have not faced similar problems as you, but I have this weird thing, as if, in more tensed moments or when I am pressured and I can;t move or have to stay in one place, I feel like I m not getting enough oxygen. It does come from a build-up of anxiety that I manage to control/release through thoughts only, so it is allright. Only one someone else noticed it and asked me if I am ok lol. It's just part of me being more responsive/sensible to stimuli.

Kate T
@kate
06/19/16 05:23:56AM
152 posts



Hello!

About the geographic tongue i read that it might disappear over time but the exact cause and what determines its apparition are yet unknown...

In regards to your diet, how do you eat those eggs? I understand the healthiest are hard boiled, which can be eaten more often, though sportsmen do it for energy purposes. I know that not eating more than a maximum of 3-4 eggs per week is more ideal. Are they only chicken eggs? We have quail eggs as well, which are believed to be much healthier and suited as treatment for a wide variety of respiratory problems. The origin of the food you are eating is by far the most important factor. If the chicken/beef meat was produced in one of those places where they get injected with tones of growth hormones and antibiotics, they are not going to help you much.

I am not an expert on nutrition, but I have managed to keep a healthy diet and never had any problems related or that stemmed from it, and this includes keeping myself physically fit as well. I am typically high-energy (i have a faster metabolism) and don't need things such as coffee or energizers no matter how little I've slept xD They just throw me off sometimes, or cause me to be sleepier. But I enjoy drinking a good coffee (with milk, and sugar...) once a month or even less. That's about how often i drink say wine or beer or whatever. And in small quantities... but then again, that's just me, i don't have to impose it upon myself, it's how I feel about it. I enjoy natural juices/smoothies much more, such as a combo of apple-banana-orange-beetroot-ginger. It is amazing. Or tea (a lot of Linden tea and some others where i was younger, we had a "family tradition")

I find that your own body and what it craves at times are the best indicator of what you lack or need, if you know how to listen to it. Well as a female I always kept a closer eye on my stuff. For example, I had a few (more) problems with the thyroid, do have more sensible lungs, and also had a few hormonal problems (breast cyst) which is kinda genetic. While at the moment none of them is causing me problems anymore, I haven't taken any hardcore medication either more than I tried eating/drinking the right things and exercising. Maybe this is why I'm not keen on coffee/alcohol/fatty or excessively sweet food.

The best advice I can give is try to keep it diverse and avoid those foods that are too high in energy or your doctor has told you not to eat. More than anything, try avoiding commerce meat/processed/canned food if you cannot find a local/trustworthy meat producer. Try more boiled or slightly cooked vegetables like carrot, home made tomato broth, bean pods. How do you feel about fresh fish meat (best are the oily/fat, cold-water ones)? Avocado? Nuts& seeds? rich in oils... almonds, walnuts, pumpkin and sunflower seeds, peanut butter? Are you avoiding fatty cooking methods and going instead for olive oil, steaming, baking, grilling?

How do you get along with dairy products (yogurt, milk, cheese)? Again, not those from packages and additives from supermarkets. More like the ones you can find in the open markets.

How do you drink your water? Bottled/filtered/directly form the tape?

Some doctors have started linking diet with your blood type as well, since it is a well known factor certain health problems have a bigger preponderance in those respective blood types and especially if the RH is negative.

I believe many health issues can be solved with a positive attitude and healthy lifestyle, and those that are genetic, kept in place this way.

More than anything though you should visit a medical specialist, maybe a Gastroenterologist. (unless the one you mentioned is already, but you can always look for a second opinion if you feel the advice you've been given hasn't helped you in the long run) I know there might be costs, but there will be higher costs if you leave anything that is affecting your life to such a degree untreated. Are you currently taking any kind of medication?

I understand living alone might be hard... in fact, emotional issues are the ones causing the real problems that manifest in the diet as well, in everyone's case :( Do you have a job, or are you looking for something? Finding something you can use your energy on but which will not press on your health negatively might help you more than you can imagine, and can also provide a social environment.

Kate T
@kate
06/16/16 10:43:50AM
152 posts

I wish I could understand more


Empath

Hello.. thank you for your answers Rene.. and sorry for my late ones ;)

I believe I have felt and met certain people in my life that were more than open to the psychic realm or impressions, but they opposed it a lot, which naturally created a "push" response in my attitude and due to which i might have messed up certain relations with some people. Not to be said, however that i was the one seeking to "prolonge" the link, it more than often is the other person doing the first steps or being more curious since i got used to just hold/control myself...

The "push" has never been however about actively talking about the subject, more about first touching the problems from within that keep popping up at the worst of times from anyone who leaves them untreated. People hide and run a lot from these hidden things however, which is a bit surprising for me. I can't afford to do that, for example. In fact, to preserve my nature... and my sensibility, actually to prevent myself going off the track, i always had to have a more "special" kind of life in the sense that addictions such as drinking or smoking, wasting myself in clubs or having sexual partners... had to be cut out. Also the food i eat, the friends i keep... I did many other things though, i do not believe I lost anything or better said, not much, maybe only if I will miss that moment when "I know" it's time...

I do mistakes as well, as I am learning. Never having been able to openly talk about everything with someone though, well, this was not necessarily harder as i developed a self-sustaining attitude (someone compared me to a playable creature in a game and said "you have too much defense, too much resistance..." lol) which can become a negative trait as well in the sense that while looking at my stars i jump in the middle of some situations others wouldn't and try (hope to) emerge with more gains than what i've lost. Or so I like to believe.

In fact from being this "sensible" person the fact that i can sense what is wrong in time makes me very good with kids that are normal or with deficiencies, and animals, and a couple (more) other circumstances. It also works strategically speaking: in a game you know the opponent's next move ^^

What it is, is that it's tiring. It is a constant way of functioning at a level you are getting information all the time and having to control yourself or deal with the other one's things a lot, if somehow you involve yourself too much. You become needed so to say, but then you have to get out. It's ok as long as the experience applies positively for both (all) parties, but otherwise, if you give more than you receive...

To be mentioned is that the important people will respect such traits, but others might try to take advantage hardcore. It is also easier (for the one in tune with others) hurting someone... or manipulating as well, which doesn't end well. What really is there (inside), and it is said (by someone else who might notice/see it), will resonate regardless of how many defenses someone builds.

Another fun fact is that i was less interested in these things than for example scientific things and the natural world, but I had to delve into them when i noticed i can't do what i feel i should without having to ward off the people that play the leech. In fact, without my inherent things (i'm too patient, i want to help too much sometimes) i might have been considered a bit ruthless, shaped this way by the things i went through... i couldn't care less and it is more important still believing in the magic around you NO MATTER what happens, and never stop making connections because life and what happens is interconnected more or less and that is the beauty in it. And I love to say or think this. It actually gives you more satisfaction.

So in the end, I see the people who give up patience, kindness, hopes, due to some unfortunate factors, or because society says so, the real sign of weakness. Weakness is not art, not inspiration, not being kind and wanting to help or do good. Why have the values been shifted however I fail to understand, and how they resonate with some i fail to understand even more. Are some of us truly made of different things, and are our vibrations that different, and what determines it?

My environment has also been pretty restricting in terms of personal development and hobbies (it is in part due to the family as well) and I went volunteering or with international or regional projects and so on. More than anything, I want to be in a position form which "stepping in" and changing is what I am supposed to do (from the other people's perspective as well)... well :/

Kate T
@kate
06/03/16 02:26:32PM
152 posts

I wish I could understand more


Empath

Hi Rene... thanks for responding xD

Concrete question... hah, well, to put it straight, I am well aware of my ability to hear thoughts on a daily basis. It's not continuous by any means, it's not overwhelming either, albeit i suspect it used to be back ago when i had no idea how to control anything much. I also noticed a huge difference in my mind when returning in a city from the mountains/a trip to wilderness. It just so happens at certain moments when i get an insight about the person i am talking to, but not always then either. It's not... how to call it, schizo LOL or idk what else. I am pretty much normal from other points of view except i have these (confirmed from more than one friend) moments of synchronicity. It even happened in the dreams department, but other than a few exceptions they remains myself xD. A lot with my father as well, in a way that surprised him as well, and me too. Mentally talking (maybe as a self-suggestion of sanity) I have always been among the best in my school and college atm.

I grew up from being very suspicious about these things (spirituality in this way - the same as my environment/parents were) to believing in some more due to the things i have gone through and the desire i had to know/read/understand more about how the world works. And i used to think, not that i still don't judge, that people exagerrating with spiritual stuff are, plainly put, crazy, imbalanced and not the type of people i would like to have in my life.

It is funny however, when I think about it, my first best friend I ever had has a really strong spiritual streak... imagination, creativity, love for animals, and was passionated about spirituality, again, at a age at which i barely understood what she was trying to tell me and i kept being resistant towards it. She even made "aura reading" tests and guessing in tarot cards when we were in the 3rd-4th grade, and believed or wanted to believe in spirits. She uh... we grew up separate ways though, as at one point i grew more accepting and balanced but she... well... made some very weird choices... to be honest, she became a whacko in a way. Put herself together at one point again, but having seen her in those postures... well. And she became a quite popular girl too, in general and high school. I forgave or gave up any negative feeling in the end. There are still a couple of things I do not understand.

We did have a beautiful friendship while we were young, though.

Why I am very sad is how little people i find to function in the same parameters as myself. I don't have to be told things to know or guess them for example, and I can tell emotions apart miles away even if I am talking to the other one who is in front of a screen. Oh, yes, discovered synchronicity in thoughts and others are from form being conditioned by distance or screens. I tried training myself, actually, to learn to discern and very important, not cleanse my own fears that i might mingle with the information i get or even worse, send it to others (And they will feel it)

I even suspected at one point I met a soulmate... it is one of the most hurtful links for me though, and I just hate it for the fact that we fights for stupid things, and, in my opinion, for him not being honest. I find the absence of honesty, the other not being able to confess to you at some point one of the worst things. Too coward to accept the aftermath of his doings or talk about it, yet not able to correctly follow a better path towards trust either. And the problem with my impressions/opinions is that, even if i cannot explain them at a given moment, they prove themselves later on, even if they are denied by the person in cause. As we all know, denial is not the first step to changing something...

This text that i have written is my question :( ... i need a feedback of some kind... i can't stop thinking, how can people be like that, contemplate and see how society is becoming colder how you "can't trust people", "they are so mean" and yet, when they are given kindness and patience and care, they rip them apart with those self-imposed mantras/self-defeating ideologies. What is the gene that makes some people so differently wired, in a less humanitarian/good sense, and more in a bad one?

I cannot help but combine a bit the subjects, tell about myself and then a different experience as there are so many things i'd want to say but it's not the place nor the time and who the heck reads these :P So basically, I'm just writing fragments. And by the way, what do you call that noise around people's "head" area? ^^ Quite strong around those with more artistic tendencies, but, far from being visual, i perceive it as noise, thicker atmosphere... or liability to being "scanned" xD. I enjoy doing that though (scanning), in a way. I am just trying to understand. And I just get hurt in environments or among people that do not permit me to detach or feel in it a threat.

I know I had the tendency to drift off, to retreat, too much. But, I needed it, and i still do, a lot. Because the moments when i should be/have been doing it, I was not correctly let to. I guess I am talking about meditation of some kind. Battery recharging.

Kate T
@kate
05/28/16 11:42:59AM
152 posts

I wish I could understand more


Empath

It is so complicated I don't even know very well where to start with.

First of all, I am worried about what I can generate. I have some powerful energies running under the surface and I can influence the people around me the same way that i can be influenced as well, and it took me years to learn to control and reduce my "sponginess" and inclination to attract the negative energies in a social setting or environment. Coincidentally, I've always had a big need to express myself artistically or verbally as well and thus I don't only paint, draw, sculpt but also had some nice experiences with a theater crew! :) I also have a never ending love and curiosity for nature and animals, though I read with interest about all scientific fields, and I really wish i could work for the betterment of our environment and implicitly, us.

Now that is only a small resume, as way too many things happen around me. I cannot and have never told anyone about my own... spiritual quests and right now I am annoyed at myself for not being able to correctly put myself out there and make people understand my intentions. While I do value privacy and I do not trust easily by any means, it was so hard to combine my 2 realities, the psychical and spiritual life with the daily one... I want to sketch some quick notes: I can and have correctly predicted events, I can feel certain outcomes, I scan people and can tell the type of thoughts going through their head and especially if I or a person I know is related to them, this form of scan i would describe as sending a thought on the same frequency and knowing whether is right by feeling if it "clicks" or not, i.e. does not have "echo". I've talked and met some very interesting and different people, some part of Reiki courses, another energy therapuetist lady that treated sportsmen and others and had some amazing gits on the same lines of "identifying an illness hidden or forming" and their cause, and some more weird ones... sometimes, i do thank god to my individuality for I just won't let myself fall into someone else's projections. I did struggle with that too though. Apparently and as I have found out, my grand-grand mother had psychic gifts and did readings for the people in her village during the WW2, and my mother also has precognitive dreams.

Worst of all though and coming back to the original story, I am neglecting myself. Then, or more exactly, now, I am also neglecting my sleep, my eating hours to talk to someone who probably does not appreciate half of it, and yet i still do it, even though i usually keep a considerable distance, as i might have fallen for him, because, well, it just happened. I can also get sudden images about people or pieces of information about something they hide or deeply wish for, and being sensible with that has been my second nature, as I simply cannot promote or spread hate if i receive or see. What I also cannot do is having a similar life to everyone of my age. I am not coming by any means from an extremely religious or weird-oriented family and in fact I appear pretty much normal, if not for some quirks. However, I know very well how many hours i have dedicated reading about less... mainstream subjects as I felt pressured to maybe by my own desire to become a better person? I mean, i was my own worst enemy... still am probably... ranging from esoteric subjects to this one (empathy). I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs and even though I am 20 and thankfully been gifted with good looking genes, I never had (and refused to more times!) any physical sexual relationship, because i have this... i don t even know how to call it, huge inner stubbornness that I will know and be ok with finally accepting someone in this way when the right time comes, and I had to find countless reason to explain my family or my friends or be veery vague about it to escape the "you're old enough get a boyfriend already!" remarks... ah, fun times. I do not waste myself in clubs either, I like other types of human interaction and fun, I guess my presence can get just too serious sometimes especially when dealing with emotionally unstable people.

I will get back to the subject I started that, despite all this, I might have fallen for someone even though we fight way too much and for way too many stupid reasons. And yet I can't stop caring, like a promise that i never articulated but it's there even though sometimes this link to him feels draining, and annoying, and useless. It starts with an image of this person that I got at one point in the past, a deep desire (his) of not being left alone, and to describe the image, it was a hug, and him crying in an airport, and... at the moment, however, i took it as a projection. While the setting might have been real, the person he was hugging/crying/telling that they ll meet again was his fear. Well, he did open up to me a lot... he's a third culture kid, had to go with his parents in a lot of countries and leave his natal one and his friends there and, well, he did miss a few more things. So I linked the sudden image to what he told me, and the pull was pretty strong. I simply have this understanding for him that he also had for me when it came to certain subjects and yet there is something that gets in between and, probably, while I feel the situation is not only strong but also serious, he's been trying to minimize everything, with some not so cool results. I also want to say that it's a long distance thing and it is also probably the idea that we can't meet... him with his things and college me with mine and yet it is weird how 2 people can get so close at times that I couldn't really get him out of my head. And yet I feel hurt, a lot, by this thing. I'm not even sure what i am trying. I am also being pretty vague while describing this, I know... sometimes I think, maybe I am exaggerating and it s only me perceiving my thoughts and feelings so strong. However, there is a big however here... We've had a few coincidences going on, thinking the same things, saying and writing the same things on more occasion, which did make us become closer. We're playing the strategy game lol... yay... And the bomb he dropped that he kept being under the impression that we've met somewhere before. And i have had similar feelings about simply knowing who and when to trust and I was right, people that i have never met. In fact, one of my actual best friends, also sensible and loving animals and following Arts, only one year bigger than me that has studied abroad as well, is someone I met for the first time 7 years ago on a forum and we just knew we could trust each other. And it is not the only thing that happened in this category. They happen, and they are real, and you can take them as a gift. Most important for all, i want and appreciate friendship, honesty, and love but, not the passion for the opposite gender type of love coming from such friendships.

Then I remember from past experiences, that i do things that seem out of the blue and weird and later make perfect sense and help a situation arrange itself. Well, not all, of course. Or maybe, what do I know. And I realize this one has a meaning as well, but it s so obscure at the moment it's weird and i struggle not to also let another negative feeling that i perceive as lingering about kick in. I wish I could have helped him somehow without him remaining "indebted" or whatever. Oh and there also is another problem with a girl he's never met but which seemed very prone to online relationships with all kinds of desperate people and many if not most of our fights started from this topic, and while it's been decided we do what we can/want with our lives it still remains a push-go thing between who's more moral and who judges the situation more... it's weird and it will remain weird. Getting a grasp of myself in a more serious manner (thus, mentally speaking) I believe I should just get rid of such connections with people that are effectively toxic and bring so much sadness and are prone to fighting. That "other girl topic" has grown into a serious problem, for some reasons. And yet, your guts also have something different to say. How funny. How sad.

The stubbornness.

Are we made of stars? More than we imagine but then again, I wish to understand more about my own capacities, and why I hurt/neglect myself like I struggle with (not!) doing. The city I am staying in right now is not a helping hand by any means, as it's a stressed and polluted environment essentially, though, a welcomed change from my natal town, albeit it doesn't foster my creative tendencies either, but now with college... i guess for a limited amount of years it works. I can also be perceived as pretty "out of there" by some, and it's kinda true, I can easily space out in all kinds of situations :))

I believe I just wanted to talk about a small part of what is going on in my life at the moment, form a perspective that the society has, for some reason, placed in the taboo category. For me, life has a strong spiritual layer i cannot ignore or mimic not feeling, and I can see a situation from more perspectives. I tend to measure myself (and my inner blockages if i get them for whatever reason or without realising) while interacting with kids and animals. There are so many things to tell about or discuss... scattered impressions and feelings about the society and the world in itself and some "hidden truths" and they are all beautiful in my opinion, but first there are these physical (or maybe just psychical? and personal) barriers that must be overcome.

I would greately appreciate any kind of answer, as abstract as it might get or just a tiny bit related to what i have written, but at least, an opinion, or personal experience about your own efforts or weird happening that made you ask yourself: why am I doing this? Where am I heading to? Should I trust my intuition?

Well...

Thanks for reading


updated by @kate: 02/08/17 04:29:26AM
Kate T
@kate
12/02/15 12:32:34AM
152 posts

Best Tips or Stories for/of Self Discovery?


Empath

From experience i know that if i start writing anything form my bio, it just feels like i don't explain enough it won't be ok, and if i do, i'll write a kilometric post! So instead, I am going to resume what helps me get in tune with myself and identify blocked energy or problems in my life.

First comes centering, calming down, slowing the pace, thinking about life and being somewhere where people do not project frustration or expectations onto you, but just love, simply for what you are, simply for having trust in your own person and what you are going to do. A place you can call home. Where you gladly go sleep and respect your body because you know that the moment you close your eyes a colorful set of images, dreams, ideas or warnings come to you. (Then again, i draw and paint so I tend to visualize a lot but forcing it consciously would be... a burden)

Another element is nature. When around nature and animals your real way of being comes out and usually animals go straight for your heart and see you as you are. Moreover, they react to your raw emotions, so you get to realize them better, because little to no people react to them normally anymore, and thus different nets of toxic behavior are created within the society under the mask of "everything will be ok". It also has to do with the flow of energy that occurs naturally as everything is interconnected and, obviously, you'll feel one hundred times better after horse riding in the woods for a couple of hours for example rather than watching TV between 4 walls at the 6th floor in the middle of a polluted (smells, sounds, minds) city.

Expression. Express yourself, find an artistic pursuit of some kind, maybe some acting workshops or photography if graphical art is not ok, with lively people and different mindsets. It's so refreshing, you might find something you like even though in the first place it seemed hard or not appealing. Throw in games. Childish games if you want. The kinds that make your mind alert while having fun at the same time. Because we all know what society does. It kinda puts our senses to sleep, or we do this to them because we have to protect/close when we have to deal with so much stress daily coming under so many different forms. A captured deer that needs healing/to recuperate from a car crash say, has 50% chances of dying just from the stress of being handled by humans and being put in an artificial habitat, between 4 walls/in an enclosure. Going back to the topic, I'm not even throwing in bad diets and little to no exercise yet in there either and one can already consider it has an unhealthy lifestyle :D

Of course these are the down sides, being the intelligent human beings that we are we have the opportunity to choose the better option/product of our minds or use the technological process in our favor (positively, finally, in a sustainable way, not destroying every green corner and patch of forest that we see)

I am mentioning these things because I believe, even with the native openess or psychic sensitivity that runs in the family too say (because it does in many cases.. or maybe not so many? talking of course about premonitions that materialized and have been expressed before they happened by the one who sensed them and so on not just projection, out of the body experiences and etc; or generations of healers... ^^), one has to take care of it through the lifestyle in itself and this means reducing certain things to a minimum, 1st toxic people and influences of this mental kind, 2nd environmental, 3rd diet and etc. It is not possible in so many cases though and i realize that, to some, empathy and these things came not from the start and they had to fight to keep them, but opened towards them after hardships and pressure.

And last but not least, travel if you can, go into an exchange of experience of some kind. Travelling helps a lot to be honest because it physically puts you out of that bubble of thoughts/energies/patterns of your environment. Challenge yourself, do not shy away from information or new things. Dream. Hope. Never lose it ;), because how things are at the moment, you are here to become something better, not to give up. Think about your heart and what you want, not what others want from you, then try to make a balance. We each have our own roles even if we still influence each other. Maybe write down your experiences. After years, drawing and writing will become invaluable to realizing where you came form and where you are heading to ^^.

Finally, for self discovery, you will need more time alone than other people. But, it is manageable, for it is a trade: you give quantity for quality!

Then again, it should remain a personal choice.

Kate T
@kate
11/03/15 02:42:28PM
152 posts

Traps of the online environment


Empath

I feel this is a sensible subject for all of us more or less and i seem to find myself in a trap i have been trying to escape from without much success. Going beyond the daily need to access internet for various sources of information though, what do we do when it evolves into obsession and starts destroying our lives more than other drugs such as nicotine or alcohol do?

It is not my case and hopefully will never be, but i have talked with people who admitted that online games and addiction to them has destroyed their lives. It became their free time, and the people they talk to there their only friends.

Interestingly enough, even there certain people asked or said that something about me makes me feel trustworthy, and proceed to tell me about their lives and thoughts or ask personal questions (regarding themselves)... it felt me feel like a good person in a way, but soon i started to realize i was falling into the same direction myself regardless of how clearly i saw my every step and let my curiosity be fed. Well, when i say falling into the same direction i mean basically spending more time than i should and ignoring college homework and the such, which is a big minus for me and probably will prove to be extremely negative if i let it affect me further. And yet it came form a desire to talk with people, see other cultures & so on, since in real life people have become... well, colder than it's the case in my opinion. I could probably try and find many reasons for me spending more time than i should on a mmorpg (had some pretty stressful experiences at a college dorm last year... now it isn't the case anymore, but i guess i searched for ways to distance myself form that environment when i found myself in it. I won't ever and i never indulged into physical pleasures or drugs to escape something, from overeating to smoking, drinking or clubbing. So i guess I chose the mind way), but they are all worthless for it only matters why i can't simply say no and end the vicious circle and need to take it gradually.

And if I thought before that the people obsessed with social medias, that need daily approval and to post pics daily are bad, i guess i found even worse cases of "i now abandon my life except job, and spend all the money i have here". Even when they quit one game, they find the need to go and find a similar one, and it starts again.

And for the people that are more sensible to energies and the such, these environments are so much more than just a little toxic, given the degree of competition and people who do not care for the other one, the "character" wall and not knowing each other in real life making some believe they can abuse other players verbally/or game-wise and escape the moral/actual consequences...

Another interesting category would be the online vampires who need attention or some kind of "online relationship", which is typically satisfied with multiple "partners". While these would make an interesting psychological study, i feel like i deeply resent what is going on and i find them far from positive, even though, i agree, friendships can also be created, and this is a fact. But, more often than not, this happens not on online games, but in places such as forums where people go not to escape reality due to a variety of reasons but to share common interests, hobbies, achievement and dreams for future. Well...

Now the real trap for empaths would be them thinking they are doing good work and helping people. It can be real in a way. And it is, you can help them, and they will essentially be more open in an online environment more than in real life sometimes! Because they'd need a special social context or a psychologist to ask certain questions or present someone your frustration and get a cheerful answer or a new perspective onto the matter. Many will keep away form talking with counsellors for the obvious reasons, starting from shame to thinking they are crazy or not having money to spend on such things.

But helping others means learning to guard yourself, and voiding to involve yourself without having the other one's accord. Thing is you don't go to an online game for these things. You go there to have fun, you don't even think these could actually happen (but yes, they are very real and they do) and thus you risk becoming addicted to the same game you initially went just for fun. Gives you the sense that you balance what you cannot do (yet) in real life (helping people, unconditional acceptance, nullifying the "you are my patient" idea, giving it a sense of spontaneity which makes it flow more easily, in a way.... yea, in a way.) Even though you realize there is another element to it (i.e: you being able to feel the other one's energy or intentions) it still feels like a toxic environment essentially (thinking about certain but very popular games at this point, such as CS:GO).

Again, I am personally trying to distance myself from these places.

We are all a little bit (or a little bit more) crazy deep inside, and different, and yet chase similar ideals, such as love, care, recognition. The road you take is the one that is important, and one should not be ashamed of a slower start in life especially when you were simply born in it.

I wish to hear, from the people that once had to deal with online addictions of any kind, how did they change their environment and get over it? :)

Thanks for reading ^^


updated by @kate: 01/15/17 01:32:45AM
Kate T
@kate
10/14/15 11:29:08PM
152 posts



I usually feel the emotions internally. I can feel how they come from the exterior but i usually form bonds with people even if for a brief moment and usually just look straight at their hearts for other external layers are but distractions many times, or do not reveal a true purpose. External energies are a different thing. If they are sudden they might remain exterior depending on my defense mechanisms or openness towards them at that certain moment, but i usually do feel them and some might get internalized though i used to not know what to filter more exactly (as i was not listening to myself)and fact is that internalizing them (such as other's fears or enthusiasm or sadness) creates problems.

This applies for thoughts as well, if they are related to me, i feel them and the other one's mental attitude. It created some issues when i was younger and i even kinda 'scared' some people and ended up trying to make others get away from me or rather said try not to become too emotionally involved with people because little had any idea how to deal with me. It was already hard enough for me to feel all the energies around, so I would be pretty honest and i had to spend more time alone than others xD At the same time though, i never truly felt alone. Over the time it became better, but i discovered something else, that as we grow up and as we embrace and live in more and more stressful and polluted environments we forget about these instantaneous exchange of energies and we have our energy centers and mental attitude messed up as well. We reach a point where identifying what truly is within someone heart becomes hard, the same as with opening up towards a new idea or human being, relaxing becomes hard because of all the unfinished things that hang on our shoulders or have been mentally/emotionally pushed into a corner and they keep coming up in the quiet moments, we start feeling the need for drugs (loud music, nicotine, caffeine, video games...) to sustain ourselves or remove the feeling of tiredness and so on and so on. For me nothing of these feel natural or normal. And the same way that I form bonds with people but they are more unstable, i can form with animals and those are so much more fulfilling from certain points of view. I even found that people who have syndromes such as DAMP or autism/adhd are able to form bonds much quicker than many "normal functioning" people but are much more sensible to the flow of energies. While they might generate problems for themselves (such as hurting themselves or trying a crazy thing at one point...), if you can control yourself and they feel your calming energy then they will not act against it but accept it (of course it depends how advanced the illness is), something that "normal" people might very easily step on due to the mental attitudes or ideas that they caught over the time, and this again isn't healthy or normal either, but this is life i guess, and yet we all have the chance of cleansing ourselves. We all have a certain kind of mental problem/blocked energy inside ourselves , xD

I do not understand why people are so confused about what is good related to the heart though, and why do many oppose or are taught to oppose a natural, positive exchange of energies? Religions tried to give names to such things such as negative spirits, but essentially we all realize this comes form deep within and it is ourselves coming into this life a bit confused about what we should filter in the first place so, this opens up a few interesting questions about our origins and role/need to do here in the given context ^^ And this inner opposition that the humans have, and the need to balance it.

This is what I have felt and i can feel from people and again, it goes internal more than external :( All our encounters should be channeled or transformed I believe

Kate T
@kate
09/18/15 12:52:01AM
152 posts



If you are still having problems with trying to channel or "quiet down" what exists within you then maybe this is not what you have to do. In fact, you might need to release them. Your pains, fear, life stories. One of the first steps is accepting that they left a mark and opening the memory inside you. Accepting the lower frequency but know that you are moving towards something better, let your mind free/do not try to consciously control your sensations. More than ANYTHING, at your point (after failed medicamentation, therapy sessions, etc...) search not only the help of the environment (go in nature, near water, under trees, walk, climb, keep moving) but maybe also of another person in the first stages, someone from a different background who will come and listen to what you sense or think or have inside and wants to help (maybe yet another therapist xD? I don't know)I used to have the noisiness problem when I draw, paint... sensed it "around other people's heads", or when I returned from the mountains/countryside into my city. Sometimes(many times) it is the layer created by the human mind that has a certain feeling depending on what dominated people's lives, and it can get much more unnerving than anything from nature which you accept instinctually. More that these ones, electronic devices, strong antennaes and radio waves/high-pitched frequencies can have a worse impact in the long run. Most of the time you forget about them. But because I have had the occassion to travel abroad every year and in different places and having this sensibility/sponginess/6th sense I could not tone down but LISTEN to it and INTEGRATE it, I find myself having "mild" longings(really can longings be mild lol) for different places.Prayer, as well, works. I do not desire to push buttons but, generally speaking, I do not understand why all this fuss against a religion or another. From my point of view (and I have read and studied about many) THEY ALL have important lessons and principles one can learn from and they are there and have been created in times when women were raped on streets in daylight and wars and conflicts existed on a daily basis... and the human needs rules to co-exist... and the notion of respect towards life forms.These aside, after trying to clean yourself, BuriedAlive, then you can move to being in the present and building in the future ^^ And this insomnia might come from your worries and fears, from desiring to make a living and trying to think about the future but still having unsolved issues with yourself, thus remember, you yourself are the basis and nothing can't be built without a basis.Kit Kat's list is very helpful too.About the book thing though, I sometimes have this feeling that immersing myself in the "world" of the book is yet another form of escapism I shouldn't embrace right now :/ which is weird because I never had something like this before and I like to read, but I guess there are periods and periods.In my case, even watching a documentary about dolphins (example!) helps me relax and enjoy the moments so much.Also, some time spent with a loved one, friends that think/feel the same... brings balance, if it is the right person :)Also when chosing your meditation techniques and music (you could start with the progressive chakra opening ones) again, go after heart/feeling, not rational mind. The latter you use in trying to keep your thoughts gathered in one place/protect during meditation, stuff like that... many times it's too much too (In my case at least).
Kate T
@kate
08/24/15 08:51:22PM
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ps: sorry for the many typing mistakes ... phone version apparently is a bit buggy and did not let me scroll upwards after writing a paragraph, or edit the post ;))
Kate T
@kate
08/24/15 08:32:21PM
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Thank you Chuck for your comment :)I wish I knew though what am I more exactly picking up from that place that I find it so obsessively off-putting as far as meditation and a normal heart chakra activity (no idea how to describe it otherwise! ;)) ) are involved. The air is stiff, I do not like it. After already one year of trying to work with all when I feel it now it feels like I want to retreat within myself and that's it, and it's even more toxic in the long run for I will search or need forms of expression I never desire to have or had (don't need to use people as emotional sponges, drink, smoke, swear, etc...). Another way after which I "measure" a place is simply how much inspiration I can get ^^ I draw, paint, sculpt, take photographies... green places especially make all these processes more normal- and obviously there I find it harder to do that >_> In the sense that yeah, I either try to consciously start it, "create my own space", or else...But this principle is opposite to what has worked for me until now and keeps me well and going, that of needing to manipulate the intuitive processes or your environment and such. I highly refrain from doing that since i know very well the people's reactions, and i hate this place for the very fact that i sense little ways of keeping safe from developping your negative traits instead of positive ones. I also find everything different from the idea of simply dealing with yourself and inner nature or blockages, daydreaming, etc... no. I'll be pushed to mess it up, try to change the people i come in cintact with as it deeply unsettles me. And I do not like to involve myself as much. Not in these conditions. Then I might become like the people I criticised in my mind (or maybe I just wish something different), that even though seem to have certain gifts remain on the "outskirts" and simply observe, afraid to act, or maybe conscious it would be a pain. Still not a good choice though.I just ultimately feel I want to go away from it!!! :( Of course, opportunities are multiple but..... something about having to go abroad with studies "to prove something" makes me feel annoyed as well, with all my curiosity about foreign cultures and actual desire to do that ^^.Like a nest of low energies capped with radio waves this is how it feels :/Might there be someone making me feel like this, or I am picking the lower frequencies and let them affect me too easily? :( It oftentimes happened to say one thing, get ignored while the process was changed, but then in the end it somehow happened anyways just as i said. I was never taught to trust my intuition honestly. And yet, after mulptiple episodes in which i correctly predicted different aspects related to myseld and others, saw through lies ot possible harmful events like through clear water... I changed my opinion. This is why it s hard to pin down the exact problrms that what i am picking might create, but i woke up with these ideas and feelings, snd last time it happened it saved me from not being able to go to an exam for i somehow woke up with the idea that my name was written wrongly, just a few days before the sheets should have been submitted. Dressed up, went to the school to ask: so it was... and this is just one example...The "alarm sign" floating above certain events do not differ at all. The same feeling of "rather not" is there. IT IS possible to channel and change it. But it involves a lot......And I like my mind free for goddamn's sake xD (should I mention I hope they are just inner fears? pff, doesn't look quite right after all I try to make the opposite happens)Also, not sure how many do this, but I would compare the "project to see what you get back technique" like a bat does with ultrasounds to find its way ;)) Like when you ask a question and sometimes can feel the difference between yes or no, as in the thought in itself does not meet with blockages or unwilling people...
Kate T
@kate
08/23/15 03:09:33PM
152 posts



I actually wrote a lengthy answer and then deleted it while on the phone... oh well xD

To start from my own experience and end with what you could so, daydreaming is very important in anyone's life and it is bad that Society only encourages children and not even then to daydream. For an empath/psychic this state of being means accessing different layers of reality or spheres of Information and it is cleansing generally ^^ found that only after i tried to block this tendecy of mine of spacing out sometimes and havig mental conversations in my head, and saw how bad i feel without my meditation/daydream moments. Sometimes, if inexperienced you might also pick up negative things so it is very important to stay grounded or avoid getting depleted of energy.It also enables you to detach from yourself and analyse your own situation, dreams, future, enrgetical blockages... quite a lot of things to be honest. For it to work this way you must feel safe in your environment though, or follow thepath someone you trust had already tried.

Now the thing with daydreaming and abilities in generalis that you do not activate them consciously and trying this is a mistake. You do not need tomanipulate the process. You letthe subconsciousness/intuition/genuine reponsesand a low percentage of will to havethe upper hand. it depends on what you are doing, but if its strictly "daydreaming", then yea, the above.

About movies/books... we all daydream or daydreamed at one pointabout them and us being characters in it and so on, hehe.

I feel like "see dead people" there has a negative tone. What would this mean to you? We rarely imagine deceased people/relatives just like that, and usually it happens in dreams. Death is just another step.

Well, yeah, stuff happens with a reason. A too free mind can be a pretty bad thing. I guess you maybe need a change of scenery in your working evironment right ? you say it impedes your work, so how does this daydreaming tendency go for you, like... an ADD, or you simply become bored?

Kate T
@kate
08/23/15 05:09:45AM
152 posts



It is nice that your way of describing the situation is so bright and clear and it feels like you can see your path and accept what has happened as part of the responsability of helping the consciousness, as you have mentioned.A bigger responsability you have to keep in mind though is helping yourself as well instead of constant giving, not in the egoistical sense of course (for giving love can also give you back a sense of empowerment) but you must search for and establish/lean towards proper living conditions that are free of emotional abusers no matter how close family are or you think they should be, spiritually. Once you manage to get there, you can always return and help your father in more ways other than being the constant emotional support. Moreover, to do that, there must be an area you would like to work in or that might get you better opportunities, right? Try to follow that dream.Well, it must have certainly not been easy... but I wish you luck, and love :)
Kate T
@kate
08/19/15 04:47:51AM
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Hmm... a good word for how the place makes me feel is almost... dysfunctional for some reason. Mental and non verbal communication, the balanced noise and spectrum people should naturally have around them, the natural inflow of creativity in certain places that you should have... they are being reduced to a minimum, to almost 0. What is this? :/

I believe i have problems with it because naturally i do not accept such things and seek to find ways out, but i am very unsure of howmuch i should react as my... enthusiasm and curiosity in general haven't been that well received by that many either, althoughit definetly started getting better than when i was younger.I use to stare into space for long period of time while having conversations in my head but sometimes i will look at people in that way that they will look back at me so scared and wondering what i am thinking about them and only then i am able to realise they might havefoundme intrusive, even though i do thatnaturally,and when i was a kid people didn't mind:/. What i do not understand is why every other being sees this (looking at someone's heart and noticing the kind of thoughts someone has)as something positive (children, certain older people or those who prefer honesty in their relationships, and animals, everythign related to nature) but not acertain group of people. i can't bethe one doing the wrong stuff always can I?I do not confine to old negative patterns and thus i appear highly different and with a different beat even to the people who never thought of such things previously; even if i do my best to hide it under a dignifiedpers. that totally isn't sobotheredby all the things and unsettlednessgoing on around^^ xD

Well, i still want to overcome the feeling but i do not know how other than go abroad with my studies >_>

Kate T
@kate
08/19/15 12:36:45AM
152 posts

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Hello people :)I come here with an issue... well, I think I might have a big problem with the direction I am headibg towards... on maybe not necessarily the direction but the context and environment in which I must go again. I use to have all kinds of "mental warning signs" related to decisions that might negatively influence my own or someone close's future... or change it drastically. Sometimes it might be another step that must be taken, and yet... it does not herald positive growth but a period of harder things to deal with.This is the kind of feeling I have right now related to the city I must return to for studies, and to be even more specific, in this city, the capital of my country that is, I cannot work with myself or with people normally or the way I could to build something positive. It all starts from the thoughts woth which people come here "I am here for job and money" not because it is a beautiful, clean city with nice landscapes and chill people. It is, in all honesty, the opposite, and I find it hard to meditate at all, and above everything, I also jad a pretty negative experiemce at the dorm I stayed in, and met people of my age more stressed out, annoyed, tired, closed up than I've ever seen, that tried/did drugs and so on. I am pretty sure that in the long run staying in a place filled with old people would have had a better influence for at least their perspective on life would have been... more encompassing (less "I mainly exist on facebook" oriented too, the social media thing and obsession is a damn issue).So while I am a bit unsure; my inner refusal to return but moral obligation to do that, and where it might come from. I felt the athmosphere from the first time I came anyways; stiff, one of the less "therapeutic" places. And lots of fear, even though communism ended 20 years ago. Well, this one is common in many places here so nothing new. But... I tried not to let myself be run by that and follow my will as I want to build things like everyone but honestly, the interest here to do amything out of niceness or deep desires even in the NGO s sector is so damn low it feel "muddy" to even try to feel what is going on around me more, but instead you are always opposing somethimg or need to cut the links to the environment or nature and retreat in the shell which is very bad (trees, haha, if you are lucky and find a place with green areas). In short, I do feel like a fish out of the water more or less. And it does not feel as if I should build something here either. I feel sad because of this, and I obviously wish I could change it, but then I realise I should sacrifice too many things and I have to take care of myself as well.Even the stray dogs here are like drunk and don't react normally xD Well, with so much empty eart below our feet (tunnels, subways) no wonder the energies are more scarce and less balanced. There is also a thing I read about that is called the Hartmann grid. I found it out after searching for an explanation for my bad sleep... the city in itself isn't that bad though for meditation or other practices, but it is essentially draining in my oponion and not sustaining growth. In short, it'd better be a short-lives experience,well, I know I am not staying here anyways, but even so I wish I could understand why is there such a big warning sign about this place as far as taking care of my empath/"kept under the key" psychic faculties is involved ^^ Have you ever experienced that? Might I be just a brainless risktaker...:(I have tried many ways to try and change the way I perceive this message but it stays fixed on the idea from above so it is clearly not a goid place for me or for what I should do I guess :/
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Kate T
@kate
08/13/15 08:50:17PM
152 posts



Aryi, as much as I like logical thinking and I agree that one's attention should not focus only on Cecil himself but the declining of animal species in general, something inside me warns that such attitudes ("we are superior, we should care more about ourselves than animals and nature") comes from a very fragmented perspective that generates the exact problems we have within the society. Sure we should fix the problems of humans too... but are we are not paying enough attention to them already? What makes you think we are not? Mass media, education, everything in our lives targeted the human and its past and present from a very universally-detached point of view, more than it taught us to love and respect each other and understand that WE are an integral, important part of this nature that some are trying to protect. When have people started expressing concern for nature for the first time? Like, only 15 years ago, after those sick wars of egos? With the exception of some more... illuminated rulers such as King Ashoka who, according to the writings, was the first to advocate conservation measures for wildlife 200 hundreds years BC ...I do not know of humans to have paid attention to this issue since they always had enough resources at hand and, again, because of the lack of perspective no one was gonna do anything about it until the last drop of oil had been extracted.I do not know who got so mad at the human race but I think people can and deserve something better. If they/we fck it up again then this shall be it and they do it with their own hands, the same way that through history those "evil rulers" were not more but products of the very society they were raised in. When will we realise we influence each other in actions and thoughts and should become more responsible of them? In practice, not in theory. Some japanese ways of being and teachings are very helpful when it comes to this by the way ^^ And they can be pretty wise, environmentally speaking, even though in practice japan has "green space" problems due to over population.Haha, I guess one can never tackle a subject alone for nothing has just one root. You see, I wasn't born a human/society lover myself. I had these huge reservoirs of imagination and personal ideas about things, I loved being around animals and family more and I tried to cut every conflict and such... but then something happened and won my heart, i have been working with myself too, and I thought that those people who do good still deserve something better
Kate T
@kate
08/10/15 06:19:21PM
152 posts



Following Paul's idea but on a different path, i cannot help but feel such subjects are just lures for the public that has no idea what is happening with the planet, fauna and flora generally behind the "beautiful curtains".

If you think this is the first marked lion with a name to be killed illegally and for fun, you are in for a series of disappointments. If you think this is the first big cat to be killed for fun, you are in for an even bigger dose. Now extend this circle. The african lion is one of the less endangered cat species, there are still enough roaming around. Let's only stick to hunting, not even going to mention deforestation because this is an even bigger, more imminent threat to species (just some very few examples, see the Orangutan, Asian elephant, Tiger -or Leopard, especially the Amur ones-, Snow Leopard, Giant Panda, Macaws, Gorillas, different turtle species...). Take your time to read about Bear Gall Bladder industry in Asia (it is one of the singlemost horrible and gruesome things i have seen in my life, occupying the same place as the Foie Gras duck torture, what once were american horse slaughter houses, animal testing labs and Hitler's Gulags). You know what, forget about Hitler, he was a sweetie. Think about Middle ages iron maiden torture.

Going back to poaching, do you have any idea what is happening with the Black and Sumatra Rhinos?

Do you know how fast the number of species has declined over the past 20 years? Do you know about the fish migration issues (such as the Sturgeon) due to dam constructions and river-course altering, or about the Shark Fin industry, where sharks's fins are cut and then they thrown into the water still alive (but "disjointed") to die slow, painful deaths?

Did you know about illegal Dynamite Fishing?

We can't do much or anything you say? In fact, we can do everything. First and foremost we can spread the knowledge and make people feel, realize, open their eyes. Is there anyone penetrating your mind and telling you to make a living through exploiting the rainforest, cutting down trees, throwing garbage everywhere, against your will? No, but if only you knew about the implications of what you are doing in present and time. Didn't we claim to be "superior" beings able to transcend lower frequencies and desires? The Comic Books have become reality too by the way. 20 years ago people walking to work with gas masks all day because of the air pollution and 0% visibility, towns encircled by rivers that have become yellow of pollution were a SF scenario. Now take a look at Beijing on Google and enjoy the SF becoming reality. But you cannot act upon that which you do not know about. Or from a will that does not come form deep inside. An even more important question is how many resonate with the illegal hunting and natural balance declining more than with these mass waves and ideas spread mainly by mass-media (it's the last trend...). If this is only one of the very few first times you are thinking about Earth's situation, balance, energies, problems caused by humans, there is a high chance you are still not resonating with the cause because you have been concentrating on yourself. Have you ever started crying upon seeing the forest and natural environment where you had fun as a child being cut down illegally? Have you ever felt the desire to change anything regarding these aspects? Cecil has received quite enough love now that he is no longer around. And things will probably keep receiving the attention they deserve only when they are not there anymore. It is not through human voices that they cry.

Sure, the situation is not that critical and without a possible comeback, yet. See the Yellowstone Park successful projects or the Andean Condors one. But in fact it kinda is critical. Pollution, especially. But I am deeply worried at how people are being rendered passive by their own means of attaining freedom and knowledge too (aka internet, mass-media...) or how all the consciousness energy is being pumped in a pretty damned weird direction. Correct me if I am mistaken and some will say that the mass has been controlled for ages by the more egocentric, but we would still live in caves if we truly agreed or liked with this idea, wouldn't we? There is no such thing as end either as far as the universal mechanism is involved... practically everything should get recycled and reborn at one point?

Other kinds of unimportant subjects being tackled: people being killed by animals (lions themselves too), storms, thunders, etc... this isn't nailing it. That's not the point. It's not as if the lion took a gun and shot the human because he held a grudge against his good looks... incidents happen, it is a natural circle, and they confuse you with prey because this is what instinct tells them, that or you are seen as a threat from various reasons (cubs, protecting territory...). The problem is what we are doing to nature in general as sentient beings that desire to be independent and snort at the sound of predestination, chained events or having to do certain deeds before we can consider ourselves free. We claim one and do another. We want one thing and we end up doing the opposite... we are opposites ourselves in fact, the opposition is inside us, and one has to learn to balance it, earthling or not :P

I would like to add that i do not desire to attack and place judgement for one's decision or attention that has been focused on other areas, but deeply i am, in fact, seeing the barrier that has been instilled between human and nature as one of the most negative things and i desire to chase it away in the people i interact with the same way i instinctively do with other kinds of bad energies, and it cannot be changed for i haven't reached these inner mechanism myself either...

So basically I am criticizing all this worthless fuss for just the unlucky one that did a mistake and became the target of the public fury. The problem is not here, in reality, it has other roots, there are other far worse things going on. Also, I cried too many times as a child not knowing anyone else to care as much as i did for animals and such, or because i was misunderstood, or did not understand how this was useful in any way as a part of my character... uff. It's like the Cassandra syndrome: no matter how many times you tell a valid warning or concern to someone, that person won't truly internalize it until he/she literally hits his/her head. Now if this doesn't sound typical for an empath...

It's ok if they choose one subject to start making the people more conscious about the issues... but are the people really going to get it?

Kate T
@kate
05/17/15 04:32:25AM
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Weird/negative encounters


Empath

Thank you for the answers... I have heard indeed worse stories of roommates, including from my actual rommate and from friends (freshman here :D)... and she is leaving in a month and so am I, as it has been planned, but, I have to be pickier because I want to do so many things and help people and it is an impossible task doing it from an unhealthy environment :( I know how energy gets caught in my "layers" and... it is very unhealthy for me (and for the other one!) to block a natural flow and thus change occurs or try to occur around me when negative patterns are involved. I have actually managed to help my roommate not have nervous breakdowns in months (she used to have on a regular basis, she takes medicine for that, she recognised I am the nicest roommate she had until now; but she still had one 3 days ago and now brings me crackers :))) It's also a bigger responsability though when you can access other people's hearts... and even though one of the first lessons is accepting your own "shadow" side and keep a balance and work with it in a good direction, I still do not want to go to that extent when I will have to break rules as they have been broken before me and mess up someone). I have had problems because of this energy signature until i learned to control it a bit more and because i simply channel stuff. I have both wonderful and nasty experiences, and many strange ones too, and i pretty much believe that the law of physics have so many more perks to them :)) I am also picky because... if I get off balance it will also bounce on the people that are involved with me. To a certain extent, this happens to everyone, but for me it's... I dunno... Everything deserves a warm quiet "nest" to return to from the agitation of outside. This agitation is important too, one needs obstacles but really, I don't think I should create even more when I have the chance not to. In fact I accepted to go to this dorm (I had two other options: the studio, rent apartment with a girl...) to see how it is, and...it seems I was a tad unlucky in terms of encounters. But I will stil try to blend the spiritual side with my everyday life, undercover more or less, and this won't change ^^ It's been better from all points of view until now except for certain people's... anxiety, or fear towards a more open way of being (and I don't want to impose it though, it's in the process of interaction...)

I still felt like listening to some advice ^^ from people that feel similar things...

Kate T
@kate
05/16/15 08:24:55PM
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Weird/negative encounters


Empath

Aww, the edit button does not work on phone.. well, now, I wanted to add that I know I might not be perfect either... but at least I have clear lines as far as verbal/physical violence goes, something clearly not existant where I am; not that I couldn't abolish them a little being among girls and such and having done karate and others ^^ But the simple thought of getting involved or feeding such people furthermore is just... uggh. I am simply not made for such environments and yet, I guess I still have to learn to detach from negative patterns...
Kate T
@kate
05/16/15 08:08:38PM
152 posts

Weird/negative encounters


Empath

Such simple answers ^^ But I am afraid I can't take other people's shit anymore. I'm deeply disappinted with the lack of everything here: from humanity, education, friendlines to minimal knowledge of personal hygiene and daily life stuff like "you do not fuc**** put a metal bowl in the microwave". I'd rather live in a pack of wolves somewhere in the mountains, then at least I'd have a positive longing for human interaction instead of feeling like I could watch this place crumble and say "they deserved it". I find restless kids, aggresive dogs and agitated horses easier to deal with than this level here. At least they still recognise healthy energy - these people here are broken, and I am sorry to reach this conclusion, but trying to help, being neutral, being friendly, not caring apparently nothing works :( except if I listen to my intuition probably, then I wouldn"t end up in places I hate. And it is very rare thay I use "hate" instead of don't like... one question though: isn't it better to sometimes just leave it for god's sake, to stop listening tend ng to other's opinion when your vision is different regarding your own person, instead of watching yourself getting drained and tired?
Kate T
@kate
05/14/15 06:07:30PM
152 posts

Weird/negative encounters


Empath

I do not even know where to start from... but I know I just hate the environment I am in right now, once again. I don't know why I keep listening to others instead of myself. Why I don't cater for my own well being more. Why I have to meet stupid, weird and twisted people again and again. From the happy go lucky person that i was or could be, I'll soon develop a bad form of social anxiety if this keeps going on, as if I didn' t have to fight off depression too for similar reasons. Right now, to make a resume, my roommate voluntarily told me that she had to see a psychiatrist, had and has nervous breakdowns, had countless abusive relationships (and she keeps getting into them obviously even though she thinks very high of herself that she can see and accept stuff about herself) and has a pathological problem that makes her hands shake most of the time. Her eating habbits are pretty horrible and so were her sleeping ones. I won't even start mentioning about mess in the room and how she was literally the most ill-talked of the whole dorm, and I started to understand why, though I had to move because the other girls were even worse from other points of view, such as total lack of mutual respect or any kind of understanding and me not being able to get enough sleep and being late for college. Now also add the fact that the city/capital in itself is... ok, maybe not horrible, but a very inappropriate place for meditation or creative pursuits. And all you see most of the time are tired people with sad faces and lack of ambition or passion for what they're doing, or simply, shallow, who have forgotten the unspoken language of body, mind... :( and it's like a spreading plague... I really don't feellike I need someone to suddenly have a mental breakdown, pick a broomstick and said that she won't let me sleep all night because I woke her up after she closed the door and locked me on the outside by mistake after I accidentally broke a mirror of hers and even told her I am buying a new one (and up until then she behaved as if we're friends and told me all kinds of stuff). And she's only a friggin college student with a not so good economical situation, not a friggin raped, war refugee. But it seems that both a stressful society + negative influences and war are able to create equally horrible, messed up people and erase any traces of humanity.
I won't even start about how mad I am at people in general acting like sheep with no personal opinion andlll money mongers. It really looks like we're different alien branches trying to co-exist (and basically only one or two branches actively care for that :)) and the other one/s should "do a nick" and get out once and for all for their own well being)

Now joking aside (or who knows? lmao), how do you deal with such things? I'm not doing any major in psychiatry so I won't transform my dormmate special cases into subjects for my studies, but it's like they are pleading you to treat them in the lowest way possible so that they don't suddenly believe they are superior just because the other one is kind and does not treat the like a muck, the same way others do. I think a good deal of today's society is massochistic. Think only of how many with ongoing health problems give up and abandon themselves in the realms of internet, eat unhealthy stuff and so on, walking with an atrophied consciousness while something inside me gets revolted at so many things. And about myself, it won't and i'll take care of it so that it does not change... but... I don't understand what is the point in everything. Why choose restlesness, hypocrisy, agitation instead of peace or love? Now seriously... why is there so much energy wasted in all directions, so many trivial matters being made huge things, and why are there so many people so feeble in heart and mind and easily swayed away from (pure) principles? Also, how can people forget things so easily??? From universal laws to others... it's just uugh, I don't like it at all, I just don't :( "Normal" people would call you a child that hasn't yet "seen" "life" for talking about a better vision or cause, as if giving in and becoming a hopeless sad worker is so much better, yeaah, totally >_> (and after having said these then just proceed to complain about how unlucky are in life once again). My life is neither sad nor unlucky, but my own imagination and principles are being pressed down by weird and unlucky encounters somehow because I chose them more or less after being warned... Internally I am close to going back to not liking people at all in general like I felt when I was little (on the other hand I get along exceptionally well with animals and kids...) and obviously with those people that are more artistic & from which you can sense love or understanding & co ^^ And for some reason, there aren't many... I am trying to fix some of my views upon certain things but...


updated by @kate: 07/18/17 12:40:31PM
Kate T
@kate
05/14/15 12:37:25PM
152 posts



Of, I like this mindset more than "the world is a bad place, people are mean, you have to adapt and act accordingly". If I had a cent everytime I was told or heard that... I wouldn't be a millionaire but I'd sure have some money in my pockets (because, pss, I heard tha Money has become the main God people have been praying for in the last centuries, hasn't it?)And everytime it sounds bad, wrong, stupid. The world is far from being such a horrible place and one should realise that everything reverberates or happens depending on what you have deep inside, on your will, passion... and indeed, see the wonders of nature, the feeling of wilderness and so on :( How many times haven't I looked at the starry sky and my heart got filled with joy and my eyes became a little teary, thinking of all this imensity and general balance that we "should" obey a little more if disregarding it seems not to work in our favour at all as a species... ? Thinking of the other world that there must be, of places untouched by hatred and such... and, I dunno, simply getting a warm feeling of richness ^^ In the last period I have seen so many sad and tired people in the capital, that have SIMPLY forgotten how to communicate, the body language and all the colors and fuzzy signals of every creature's mind are being blocked and toned down that, man, doesn't this feel wrong as well.. ! Because they are not happy. They are not working to fix themselves, they are doing it for money thinking they get a peaceful mind and heart but it is the opposite, as aiming fir the peace of mind and heart will bring you the necessary things... and this is not concentrating on the negatives anymore... this is the sheer reality which many comment upon and observe but do NOTHING. It's... I don't know, but indeed, it is something that springs from deep within: I try to fix things, be myself, give love, channel... how many times have I not gotten weird looks, for example, for playing and talking with all the stray dogs or other animals I could find (with time it got better, people are more like aww, this is nice now. When I was younger it was... -.- people were more afraid. and no dog bit me to this day and neither have I had any related medical condition) I am not perfect either, but at least I know that the "star" I'm looking at is bright and not shadowy. And people that seem to oddly oppose that, appear as well ^^ If only people learned to tap with their own inner richness and believe in a better place not in a bad one, if at least in their minds and consciousness they would attack/tackle the real problems of the society and react towards unjust words and thinkinf ... always, there must be both shadows and light, but it is not ok when the values are high for the first one only.
Kate T
@kate
05/04/15 10:57:20AM
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Haha, I actually might have underlined what i felt like talking about starting from your topic xD and I did not necessarily mean you stopped at something less :) You were referring to the tendency of giving events nuances depending on internal blockages (and I really enjoy these buddhist and taoist stories: they have this beautiful meaning in them and belief in something better and that things are not bad by essence and do not move towards it either)

I for one feel like I am trying, but I still can't let go of the need to feel more in control than not... and obviously, life likes proving the opposite :)) But just like in the story you shared with us, i discovered it brought me better things, when change came unexpectedly and i did not tried to consciously direct anything... I'm thinking that learning stillness is in fact also about about accepting that nothing is actually stillor stays in one place, and you have to learn to let go and cleanse yourself. Off... endless journeys :D

Kate T
@kate
05/03/15 05:05:36AM
152 posts



I would also mention the importance of trusting your guts when something that seems or could be called allright from someone else's pointview might bring in fact a negative outcome. In such situations when you feel compelled to act against or do something about it t it isn't a matter of "this one and only is negative" anymore. Same as when you see someone yelling or doing something that would generally not seem good, but deep inside you feel as if it should happen or else it would bring more suffering. These are some things that I have felt and I believe they are an extent of the principles elaborated by Trevor.While it is indeed good to be impartial and centered, so much that you can think that (maybe not the best example xD) "hey, that ruler did some horrible things to his people and country", but then you know that "he lived and was raised in that very country though... and had those psychological scars and he didn't like the system he was raised in and under which people around him were sad" and so on... it is hard to "judge" one person and not an entire sum of factors (even though we often tend to ignore the bigger picture).The questions remain valid of course... what is "negative", aren't these illusions and etc... but for example, I personally have a bottom line and when it gets hit it means a big NO and asks for a lot of opposition from my part, and that is, destroying our planet, little by little (and I would want my future career to revolve around this, and it already started to ^^). Yes, not even the desire to work with it or generate a context in which it can be changed... just opposition to the thought of cutting down something big for money. And only after that maybe trying to find a way out. However, I haven't yet been able to find a context in which destroying your own planet before you are even able to leave it is a good thing, and as long as other creatures depend on it...Can we really detach ourselves from this and say "in all the greatness of the universe, a little planet with little people..." and I for one cannot. Well, you might get a glimpse of it, but in essence it feels as if everything counts, no matter how small... My vision isn't whole either probably, but there are certain things that, well... when it is in your power to change a bad "illusion" into a better one (showing love or understanding to someone if it feels right, to start with), how to step aside? Not feel alone? Aren't there also certain callings you can't get rid of no matter what and that disregard age, and they essentially modify the stillness and set things in motion...
Kate T
@kate
04/13/15 02:08:59PM
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I do have similar experiences (as a college dorm student :)) ) and when communication simply didn't want to happen we simply didn't speak, and thus no fighting whatsoever. It was a bad situation though (nasty people, literal lack of respect, many negative emotions and messed up sleep patterns) so that I left next semester and I was so glad... but guess what next, someone who did drugs and everything, went to psychiatrists, had to put orthodox music to calm her nerves, yet went almost every day to disponivle guys and so on... and I am telling you, I saw that even after these, she understood more than my previous dormmates (4th college year after all) and we could establish some normal rules. Then came the psychological/energetical ones as she told me about her problems and a bit of a hard life. She also had a horrible reputation in the dorm. And yet, I she let me help her. And i didn't care for what others said or whispered. She then helped me as well (she works a lot to make some money so she can leave to another country; she send me all kinds of links and job offers) All I did was advice and listen to her... and yet after about 4 months I realise that it is affecting me a bit, in the sense that having such an agitated person beside you and those negative energies cluttered in the room despite my efforts, well, it's something that at one point gets on your nerves. I know I am moving in 2 months as well though ^^ and i will simply search to block them or free them, not lash out at that girl or even worse, numb my senses. And during holidays and not only I return home, so... all in all, that place (and the capital in itself) are unfortunately not too good for meditation and such for obvious reasons (so many agitated and rushed people, so little nature, green spaces or trees, radiowaves above, empty soil under you... *subways*, so little knowledge of the spiritual side of life :( )And in the end, for *me there is one solution (as of now): try to work it out, understand the lesson, and leave. Otherwise it is like a stone on your heart. There is a difference between running away from obstacles and understanding how to hop or instead of turning away, avoiding them. It is also a gift of those who stay in touch with their nature and embrace truth that they can figure out easier what might bring ease of heart or a hurtfull experience, what hides a positive outcome and where there is just disastruous or unproductive temptation.So if your heart starts saying "no" every damn time the thought goes through your mind and logic can't deal with the inflow of negative energy, then yes, it is time to go away from it (not before analysing the problem though). One of the worst things a being can have is not having a place to call home. Every bug and snake and bird has a hiding place to which they can safely return. One should ensure that this little place they have provides them a piece of rest as the world is messy enough sometimes and we need our solitude.. ! ^^ (ps, too much internet and time spent in front of devices does affect the energy flow so it's only good in moderation and not the best answer to stress -huh, yea, I should start taking my own advice...-)I have tried meditating abitwith some semi-precious stones my family received as a gift from south africa, but I had more luck working out and grounding myself with the stones that I liked and picked up from the seaside, so I can't say too much about this one ;)) ) Albeit many people say stones help them, I am personally unsure wether I shouldn't learn to, in fact, deal with the energy or change it, not redirect it to another source... well, it all comes with time I guess. I'd end up saying that life is beautiful with all the ups and downs, and it is a poor choice to let yourself dragged in a stream of negative things without putting up a fight! So important are peace of mind and caring! but caring with the limit imposed by the need to remain healthy, physically and mentally...
Kate T
@kate
04/10/15 02:20:49PM
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As far as I've seen, it is a general tendency within the society and somehow people do not realise the effects it has >.> It's a bit hard to categorise it I think (the japanese culture for example is based on hiding your true feelings and being polite, but on a deeper level people realize it) while in some western cultures it does not come as a tradition but ... well, I don't know out of what it comes or why it is encouraged more or less indirectly, but people generally have wounds and few are confortable with them or have the courage to work with the "skeletons in their closet". This is why bringing up a heart/personal matter is avoided by many, many times up until the point this low-vibration energy/thoughts gather inside there and create blockages... making true friends becomes harder, following your heart becomes an obscure objective, it's hard to get rid of bad habbits, keep being physically healthy, laughing at yourself without getting mad, and so on... and I'm saying these because i found myself in very similar situations (and I also tend to be kind of a procrastinator, yay xD). Now the 'problem' is I've always had this type of energy that reaches to someone. I'm also quite willful and can't really stand injustice, but that's a broad way of speaking... well, that i suffer when bad things are done and I can't stomp my foot in them would be more appropiate :( (such as the forests around our mountain side house being cut down illegaly). Through not looking at someone's projections and outer layers I thus always get a feeling of how a person feels, the type of thoughts he/she has, empathy, I sense rage and even internal blockages or pressure points sometimes (did I mention I love working with animals and kids? xD ) The "problem" is that whever I get in touch with someone both my and the other one's possibly hid problems come to surface, and sometimes I get some weird instinctual reactions from people, but I never felt bad about it and it felt more like growing. I felt very bad however when I tried to block myself or sleep so little so that I wouldn't have to feel everything anymore (obviously it has other undesired results), or even not care for my health properly, but fortunately something deeply rooted within my mind prevented me from smoking, drinking, over eating or anything similar, and I am very glad.... I tried working with it instead, and little by little it got better. Obviously one had to cleanse and take care of oneself too. It also implies having sympathy/empathy for the other one, some kind of respect I did not have from the start. In fact, I was very disappointed with people when I was younger and consequently with myself... so, I don't know, for me it works the other way around: I either tackle the heart of the problem before it becomes a problem, like an instinctual opposition or desire to channel that which does not seem ok within someone or even within an environment. I also draw a lot and i sometimes measure my inner state through that; obviously, blockages mean less fecund imagination or loss of desire to draw/paint/take photos at all :/ There are other things as well.... well this is what I learned until now, and, of course, many times it hurts, as well... but I have this hope and I know I can regenarte quicker, while others do not have the safety net. Sometimes I realise I might give too much, consume myself for what others think I shouldn't but... eh, it's complicated xD There you go, these are my thoughts... I know how it feels to try and build something without a real basis (thus built on appearances and false ideas) and if the reality call comes unexpectedly or falls hard on your head, it can endanger your entire way of being or sanity. I guess I feel better knowing that I act true to myself and endure some things rather than know I don't do anything to change or help someone who is falling... well, i only started analysing it as of later xD
Kate T
@kate
03/30/15 11:54:40AM
152 posts



Correctly assessing people's energy and your surroundings. Well, while that's not perfect either, or at least not for me, still: you stop at no mass-media-induced bulls*it, no fake appearances, no "just me" way of thinking, no "i don't care" attitudes (because this would hurt more than caring in itself)... and with a dose of optimism and some more wisdom, you won't stop at a situations that seems insurmountable either: because you feel those certain rules to which everything abides... what goes around comes around, there are no actual barriers, nothing stays in one place, one always has choices... even though, yea, it is not easy following life philosophies without fault ...

It's just that the world is a beautiful place. I couldn't live if i knew i had no access to this "way" of sensing the world around... it's just how i navigate, what makes me happy and what I am. No reason to hate what you are, but yo have reasons to find an expression for it. Even the most aggressive person could find peace within an army for example or on the battlefield protecting one's country. It is wrong to believe that someone who sees the light in the someone's soul doesn't have a place among so many lost people that all essentially search for the same thing: inner peace. Happiness and sadness are extremes, both positive and equally important. But what one needs more than anything is reaching a balance...

I don't know... i really wish more people understood and stepped beyond the fear of working with themselves, getting over the "skeletons within" they'd have to deal with. You can become something different when you open at the right time. Your thoughts are clearer, you mind processes things quicker, you take better decisions, your dreams and what you think manifest faster, you become more aware of your body... you must be then more responsible that's true...

Kate T
@kate
03/05/15 03:04:46PM
152 posts



Usually hands are an important energy "discharger/detector" (remember how many feelings you get from holding a child's or your loved one's hand).
In many asian arts such as Tai Chi or Qi Gong you use hand motions to cleanse yourself. Similarily, remember the martial artists breaking bricks not with their feet or head first, but with their hands.
In many cultures, including my own, there is something known as "hexes" and negative energy that gets transmitted to you by someone else that is envious about something (related to you) and this manifests as a sudden change of disposition or literally sickness, especially in children or even animals (in latin countries this is usually more common). To help someone that has been affected by this you say a prayer and massage the person's forehead (which coincides with the third eye that easterners/the asian people talk more about religiously-wise -the chakras & co). So here again you have the power of thought and the hand as a medium.

The japanese people also have a very interesting belief about hand-written charms as having a big effect (depending on the case).

So what I want to say about this is that what you might feel should not be abnormal :D Also think about massages /energy massages. When doing it, you feel the tensed areas through touching. Energo-terapeuts (not really sure how they're called in english) also use hand motions to channel energy or to create paths. Animals respond very well to energy expressed through the body/hands as well (dogs, cats, horses...) So yeah... try writting. Try drawing. Try related things when you feel stuff accumulating :D

Kate T
@kate
02/08/15 09:37:44AM
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The work that needs to be done...?


Healers

Hello! I was not sure where i should put this topic as in encompasses more than just the healing gift of my/our empathic nature :( But i hope it's ok here

Before anything I know that i modify the energy of a place and that this happens wether i want it or not, even though i tried controlling or diminshing it. I have observed how this somehow provokes instinctual reactions within people. Some people have seen certain things that work interestingly for me (i.e: my best friends, my roommates, my parents/relatives...) in the sense that the law of attraction manifests faster. I do that, i want that, i work for it, it comes in a way or another. On the other hand, i do a mistake, and it is treated much worse than it is in reality (as if 100000xx other people do not do 100 worse things, such as when I am passionate about an idea or explaining something to someone, and i prefer treating and getting to the root of the problem, not avoiding it). I thought countless times why this happens but then i found out this could happento absolutely anyone, and all one's need is a clear mind and will. This comes from understanding what you are, who you are, what you want to do, and always learning, keeping both your mind and curiosity awake and your power of discerning good from bad/consciousness intact. Which means... basically opposing a lot of external factors from today's society.

I might be lucky because i always had this outer shell and had my own filtrers... i could spot lies from a mile, or discern good from bad thoughts if they were directed at me/friends/relatives. I never had problems with stray animals and when i was little i used to play with the dogs from the parking xD For me it was obvious why they barked or were aggresive with certain people: it was always about what that human being packed inside. If there was no kindness or warmth towards the animals they were facing, and instead aggresivity or fear, well, even i as a human being wouldn't react too well to that.(But few families are like "learn to love animals, you see, they actually have a quite clear way of being and psychology, and many times it it because of the humans that they got to be aggressive..." instead of "a stray dog! don't ever touch him or get close to it, they can kill you in an instant without warning!"). I also use to have a calming effect on kids (and i love being with horses for some periods of time; they are naturally high-spirited sometimes in their disfavour given that they have to work for people, so the energies blend well...)

I even went to one of my best friends' home whose mother really liked alternative medicine, gemstones & co... and she said i am like a crystal xD and what she meant i understood was that i used to transform/channel energy myself

But going back to the point, i always affected my environment and it has always affected me, but I am afraid something is starting to happen... or has been happening for about 2-3 years or so. Ok I know things happen much earlier than that, but ... It's just that i do not feel at peace and good anymore with the direction that my society is going and this has never happened. I am not fully aware of others even though i've had the occasion to travel abroad every year, but the energies i feel in a lot of cities form my country are absolutely... ehh xD It's the 3 S words: strain, stress, struggle. While funny people are playing around with ideas about how bad religion is for humanity (instead of realising that they are doing like in that saying with the gun: when someone gets murdered, do you blame the gun, or the one who used the gun? The same with religion: can you blame the idea of religion in itself, or the people using and twisting it in their favour, those ideas that were originally created thousands of years ago during some ill times to prevent people from literally killing or abusing each other in daylight?).

It's like the world is becoming more cruel and detached from the real values and nature, and from their own hearts. Technology steals away calm and real life interaction and experiences and only a few retain this empathy that does not change regardless of what is used (you can feel one through computer, telephone, or simply when thinking about him/her... and that's just it). At one point it looked as if we were heading somewhere nice, but suddenly people fell so easily for the deceiving look of a black cloud that i cannot understand it. In my own capital for example there are good aspects, but one of the most basic ones are ignored: it is almost impossible to meditate and recharge, this is how charged the atmosphere is with all kind of stimuli, like electric devices, radio waves and constantly agitated people that come mainly for one thing in there, because it is a pretty plain otherwise: to make money.

Trust is pretty much gone from people's hearts, and creativity lacks way too much: more and more literally think like robots. If you don't boast about something, it will likely go unnoticed, way too many have already forgotten to look behind appearances. It is like the lessons of yesterday or the well known, old/ancient teaching some teachers still try to teach you get erased. People fail to see in depth. I wondered about these things since i was little and saw some things that literally made me question the way society works and whys and hows, but i never knew that the more you grow up the more closed you become. So I chose not to. And now it brings suffering. Then I also suffer for the ones close to me: I want to protect them. And for how unknowing and easily manipulated people can be. And yet I'd rather suffer for being a minority with my thoughts rather than give up to ill ideas, as that would make me feel worse than anything else. Maybe from this point of view, i have a huge ego, but i only learned to respect myself and other human beings for what they have to give when i delved into these branches: psychology, empathy, psychichness, astrology... and as the saying goes, you won't loose something you worked for without afight :D

So i heard quite some things... directly or indirectly... masses of energy, the natural energy of a place, energy grids, related stuff. Saw people with some amazing abilities and i cannot help but wonder: is it only me who is having this weird feeling about a deep pit we should all avoid? That someone should make masses of people question their ideologies and, yet again, that they are searching for love, praise and confort through the wrong means?

It's not wrong to fight either... in fact i believe little things are right or wrong, and yet i think there's one factor that should be the bottom line for everything: the need to protect our environment in the long run. All until your very own resources get destroyed, until water becomes more expensive than blood, until you interfere with weather, natural cycles, and the fauna/flora that is also trying to live with your f****-up consciousness (for 4 years now, i have been watching how the forest from around our house from the mountains is being cut down illegaly, and i swore i have to do something about it when i grow up)

SIMPLY, why, and for what, are my questions?

Also, if stuff like thiswas shownon TV at least once a day instead of some Bra commercials, i think i would be so happy (yep, we are pretty much atoms compared to that Giant ^^ and now one should know that worm holes are even bigger). Like, seriously, someone should start making people question themselves and their environment... and also, their own reality. :( It seems it's something that needs to constantly be done... none of us is the wisest or most intelligent. Facts are there could be more intelligent life forms than we could realise. Sure, I've met really cool people as well, that made me joyfull. But I've even met people from such communities (with knowledge about energies& co) that were really unrespectfull and a bit exagerrated/ or had a tendency to loose energy and thus vampirise people, so not even knowledge makes you wise or more correct in your action right away. or they went past someone's boundaries and then started judging (or I might simply/personally not like this one, i had a tendency to judge as well :) )

I wish i would know about your opinion as well! It never hurts to know other exeriences/points of view...

~a 19 y old student (with ageless thoughts) on a rainy Sunday evening ^^


updated by @kate: 09/01/18 11:14:03AM
Kate T
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01/29/15 02:47:36AM
152 posts



And I don't know why I forgot my childhood favourites, Backstreet Boys... They are still kinda touchy, i think their songs are actually pretty sensible.

Kate T
@kate
01/29/15 02:30:55AM
152 posts



One of the songs (along with it's vid) that made me cry a lot (and still does) is Whiskey Lullaby by Brad Paisley and Alison Kraus... I do not smoke, drink, never had similar happenings in my life or cheated, and yet, everytime I hear it my heart breakes. But I still think it is a beautiful song.

Another one that I cry at is Take me away by Globus. The message really resonates with me I guess xD

For some reason The Islander by Nightwish also had similar effects. I didn't even know english too well when I first heard it (in fact, when I first heard all of them), but the rythm and the fact that I caught the main idea (I always pay attention to the music and just reaaally little atrention to the lyrics) were enough. Well, I guess clear hints are always more than enough for us...

Other songs that bring out stuff
like that would be Sakura Drops by Utada Hikaru, Angels by Morandi, and more songs from Linkin Park (numb, breaking the habbit...)

However, loving the fact that you put Hero in there... I also really enjoy the likes of Enrique Iglesias, Ricky Martin or Darren Hayes (and Alexander Rybak, hehe :D )

Kate T
@kate
12/25/14 02:37:17PM
152 posts

How to deal with heart emotions?


Empath

Hello everybody and happy christmas/holidays! :)
It might probably be weird that I'm starting such a subject now but I guess that on another hand it is a time of actually listening to your heart a bit.
I don't know how to name it but I had to work with some horribly difficult people up until now and I others barely understand it, while, of course, asking the same things from me. I think I have accumulated quite some sadness in there as I can't remember how many times I've put my heart or hopr into something and it's like it has just been consumed instead of used for anything good . Even though I feel when something is bound to fail I still try to help and now I wonder why, why do I have to bring myself to such an emotional state trying to make more people governs their life, what it means to be calm, to not swear, to not gossip like it's the end of the world, to walk without masks and accepy kindness and sincerity instead of bashing them like they're some sort of weakness. I feel fed up by the community I'm in but it would be futile to name all the things that are happening and how sad I can be upon meeting so many lost people and being unable to at least be strong myself and showing them its better to first search within yourself and then in others... I try to recuperate after a hard year yet again when I think I finally can something happens, I meet someone that likes to throw with sticks and stones and then I have to start it all over again.

I don't know, I'm just so deeply sad and disappointed in others and in myself a bit maybe that i can't help but feel like i'm not understood at all, like only kids and animals and a few other rarer people realise what's truly good in this world and how stuff works... that the premises for a disaster gather beforehand and nothing happens just "suddenly" and "out of nowhere" and "because life has something against them", the way gifts of heart and mind are pittied and instead lies and thefts of all kinds are better off in a freakin post-communist society, where you will never see happy weird grandmas giving a dragon necklace as a gift for example, as if playfulness of spirit or happiness are a crime when you're older than 10, and sleeping around with 3 different guys and having tantrums and being a jackass is much more socially acceptable. And I'm honestly just observing these around myself and I cannot help but say one thing: it's like I'm a spectator watching beings stabbing themselves and then wondering why is god doing this to them, and now not being young anymore I have to play my role which... cannot be and is not the same. I'm deeply .. fed up with everything, and I don't even need much, I'm pretty self-sufficient, sometimes i just don't want to describe anything at all, but again, but again, I don't only feel not understood, but misunderstood :( I have had the ocassion to travel abroad with different activities and I've met such wonderful people and settings... so this is probably why I criticise what I see here and feel so depleted by my own environment in a capital where everyone goes because of money and necessity....
But that's another thing, I constantly wish to be in other places. Even within myself seems a bit better, even though I actually really enjoy to make new friendships with people and movement and all... it's literally weird to be truly happy and calm here, to know your path, its like you're an extra terrestrian of some kind and I feel so freakin annoyed I can't find words for it!!! WHAT IS HAPPENING? I know I should be glad I wasn't born in a poor african country or in the time of public executions or that I don't have god knows what desease and that my family is ok and all. But it's not like that... my path would have been different from the start in such cases. Being in a sad society where it feels weird to be happy and talk freely saddens me a lot because I have to build different kinds of things and I can't. From the agitation I sense when meditating to the things I still haven't clarified within myself... and because I don't want to share my hard thoughts with the people that can't take it I have refused possible boyfriends (well not entirely but stil...) since I've known myself. I don't know why but ever since I was little everything around myself was real and serioys, and yet in all this and after doing my job I could be happy: happier than many other people, happy watching birds, a tree, a dog eating, happy helping people that needed it and happy seeing other people choosing good over bad or helping a stray animal.

But it's hard to be like that or standing up for something you believe in... at one point you simply wonder why? how do you guys deal with these?


updated by @kate: 05/08/17 05:08:02AM
Kate T
@kate
12/22/14 01:22:47AM
152 posts



It's definetly not just you, and as soon as i started observing a pattern when going to certain cities and returning to others, i searched around for more info to understand the phenomena and the reasons after i cleared my mind a little as well. So what i noticed before coming across what others have written is that there are 2 kinds of energy to feel (well not only, but there are 2 major ones): the natural energy generated by that area if it wasn't totally detroyed (and which can start from a tree and extend to an area as big as a metropolis) and the energy generated by the people inhabiting that place.

I have also noticed that those places where the air was more relaxed my inspiration for drawings comes easier :D It is the same with other forms: you can not meditate that easily in a crowded area, and you must create a space around you so to say, you must shield more or less in such places, and it is very important to clean yourself, but more important not to force it or destroy the links to certain places or people (as i've seen it can be done with people forcefully doing one thing because they read about it, but did not integrate that information inside them correctly, because they also have to give themselves time). I believe it must be at least 50% a subconscious impulse, the necessity of cleansing yourself, your own body vibrating against a form of negative energy before your conscious mind even has time to realise it, because i came across such things like this one as well (feeling/hearing the car coming fast and avoiding it, feeling something is goin to fall, feeling someone walk after you, feeling you should say a thing, help someone or not). Of course, i also have my right to choose, to do a thing or not, to do more or less, even now my instinct is subject to my consciousness which has the last word, and it took me many years to actually trust my instinct because it meant accepting a lot of things that were different about yourself.

When you do your "homeworks" you are able to forsee a lot of things to a certain degree and feel where you foot might sinks or stay dry.

But going back to the subject (;))) there is also the energy generated by the people. If we talk about a metropola in a poor/underdevelopped country for example, where nature is continuously destroyed, and you go there because you want to realise a thing but you are different, you realise money si not everything, you understand what would help you move further, you want to make friends and you are an open person, well, you might get knocked a bit by the following: people rushed, not paying attention to details, stressed, smiling more rarely, went there for the financial aspect of life and subsequently aren't happy or able to function on different planes... and then they think life has something against them. Less or no spiritual values, little listening to the voice inside yourself.

That's what i felt. It's not only this of course, there are indeed some more ok aspects, but... they are not the predominant ones unfortunately.

Now have you guys heard of the Earth Energy Grid? Or what about the Hartmann one? what do you think about it or their accuracy?

Also, the energy... definetly modifies according to the nature. The more trees, the better (ok, not going to mention certain schools/libraries where the "air" is awesome :D; not to say the monasteries...). When I little we used to travel across the country during our holidays with friends or not (well not too much but enough to experience a lot of places) and the first time my parents drove me through the capital, through a huge area/long streets where i could see NO TREES OR GRASS at all i became stupefied and endlessly questioned my parents how could those people stay there, weren't they stressed, wasn't the horrible sound made by the cars not good, wasn't the smell of gasoline and other things too much for them?

So there are the little energies and the big ones... and we can be a pretty big modifying factor

Kate T
@kate
12/10/14 11:22:04PM
152 posts



I too have some wonderful experiences with animals! Yet for some reason I've suffered a bit due to my affinity to them for some reason, people from my society never saw it as something good, cool, positive, more than strange and not suited to a girl like me, for reasons i still fail to understand

But apart from that, I've always been the kind that attracts dogs and calms animals when agitated :) My godfather breeds shepherd dogs and a lot of them are pretty anti-social with strangers, guarding-oriented. Some of his dogs even bit my brother as he was just playing in the huuge backyard and he had to go to thehospital, and another one even proceeded to almost jump at my father from the back if someone wouldn't have interffered at the right moment. They even have some metallic things at the entrance in the kitchen so that they don't wander around there while there are guests.

And there I was, a 12 y old creative animal-lover kid. Of course that on top of the hill there was this shepherd tied to its cage because he had guests again and a sign saying "attention, bad dog". So the little me saw that and naturally wondered if the dog really is that bad, and i ended up playing and feeding him like we were best buddies, so i actually wondered if he had another one that was "bad". And then i came down, with the jacket covered in spots of course because the dog jumped all over, and asked "Hey, where was that bad dog again?" and when i told them what i did they looked at me as if i fed a shark or something :))

Then he also had a pretty aggresive female shepherd at one point (he still has her). And naturally i tried to befriend her and after a while... she simply threw herself at the ground with her belly up and waiting for a good scratch :))) my parents smiled, but my godfather thought i was making fun of him or something because they were talking about how she's kind of unapproachable...

But i trusted my instinct :D I used to play daily with the pack of dogs from my parking, feed them, observe their behaviour... it was all very interesting for me, moreso because i thought their hearts were kinder. And I have so many cool memories, like when i took care of a female and her puppies, when a very cool looking striped lost pitbull stayed in that area for a few months and knew all kind of tricks and i loved it, with the funny old alpha male that had such and amazing heart and big deep eyes and a funny way of walking, and used to follow me when i went to different places... and when he did that the other dogs came as well and people would look at me like i was crazy :))) so i kind of had to shush them away which saddened me :(

We once walked to the market in the center of the town and 2 dogs followed us... well... me, and they were quite annoyed because they even waited us to come out of the shop!! So i had to stay in there for like half an hour or more and pretend to run away so that they returned home... which again kinda broke my heart so i still remember it.

I also remember coming from school once, it was night, and suddenly one of the dogs come whining towards me with 2 paws covered in blood and shaking all over so i couldn'thelp but wonder what could have happened; and he followed my every step not letting me to go :)) . Then I looked around the corner and saw 2 dogs from the same pack, and he, well, probably picked a fight with them... then a lady from a shop "pssst"-ed me and told me to bring the dog inside (which was a pretty big dog by the way, and people actually fed them around there so they were friendly, especially as they saw how i used to play with them daily) and we bandaged him and put some solutions on his wounds... and started talking about animals. I was in the 5th grade or something.

I also once started a "campaign" at my school (4th grade i believe :)) ) and actually convienced my classmates to donate only how much they want so that i can buy food for some other dogs... xD And I brought them my share of sour milk and croissants (i wonder how they're called in english :D) daily... i had a best friend for 4 years that loved animals as well... but then kinda changed her priorities and i was pretty sad for a period of time but, oh, well...

We also had a family general practitioner and her dog always hid under a piece of furniture when people came into the living room. If anyone tried to approach him he would growl, snap back... with everyone, except 2 people: me and another girl

I also had a best friend dog in another town by the countryside where i sometimes used to go along with some relatives to relax during summer weekend and do all kinds of activities. The dog came everytime.(her name translated in english mot-a-mot would be something like "she-wolfie" or something :)) ) Then one day my relatives sent me to buy some thing from the market, yet it was evening and there was an aggresive pack of dogs on the road. I saw them, i think i became a little scared, they saw it and some of them started running towards me growling like i was a cat or something! I was like stunned for a second, then i started to run, and then guess who came from behind and started to fight with them to protect me.. the same dog i loved and fed and played with when i had the occasion. I was scared and run back to our house and wondered if my dog would return... and she returned without blood and such, so i was relieved

I recently (2 or 3 years) started training my hand with horses as well... and they react well to calmness too! I just can't stand seeing how many mistakes people and even trainers do when working with them, and then wonder why the horse bucks 'n stuff... ugh. That's one reason i prefer trust and subtle communication, natural horsemanship over spurs and complicated, pain inducing bridles or neck ties.

Right now I'm doing some volunteer work at the only place for abandoned horses in the country (yeah, i know, but nope, we're actually not small at all, but shush, not gonna say my position, i don't want to attract even more bad stuff to my country even though this is the reality more or less xD)

I was unfortunately only allowed to have a parrot, so this is why i analysed and liked every animal i saw. I also used to catch lizard, frogs and fishes bare handed. I would have loved to experience with wild animals as well or work with goats and such, but unfortunately where i live there are no wild animals sanctuaries or veterinary clinics for anything else other than pets and of course, none accepts volunteers that do not follow the medical/veterinary career. And that's (almost) on a national level, you won't find the things you have there in France, Germany, USA, England... and I've always been like, WHY ME... :))

Apart from that i showed my classmates how i could approach stray dogs and at first they found it interesting and then started to make fun of me as if it was something strange that they shouldn't have accepted. Erm, i guess i won't go into other related details >_>

I just want to say that i would have loves to have the opportunity to work as a volunteer anywhere, from aviaries, to Zoos, Aquariums, Sanctuaries, just for the sake of interacting with animals and teaching people about the importance of having nature around.

Even now I didn't choose this field of working (studying foreign languages as i found them more useful and because even though sciences appeal to me as well, and of course, because of social setting&pressure >_> and the image i would have made if i chose to follow an underdevelopped branch, unlike this of foreign languages) aand of course the urge to act in this environmentalist direction is still there and big, so this week I'm becoming involved with WWF as someone invited me at the Day of Open Gates or dunno how it's called in english :D

Naturally, i grew up from the kid i was back then and delved into other branches as well, such as empaths, spirituality, astrology & co, as i noticed that my sensibility extended beyond animal-whispering so that i couldn't essentially escape dealing with this side of mine... i mean, i would freakin have headaches when walking in hypermarkets due to the radio waves and i would simply feel where the air was more "stressed" or not xD And I was the type that didn't want to pass my problem to other ones so i tried to solve them by myself, never telling anyone. Then I learned how to cleanse myself, how to protect myself, how to become more open, i met some very interesting people and more than everything i could function on an earthly level as well.

Yet the desire to work in the environmental are is so big i simply can't help it but try to get myself involved once and actually try to raise the awarness... which would be something i'd love to be able to do, yeah, anyways...

We also have a house in the mountains, and for some reasons we have found, over time, all kind of animals in our yard: hares, snakes eating frogs, snake skins, tortoises around the fence, moles, field mice, lizards, so many species of bugs i don't even know where to start (fireflies, horned beetles, bees, huge moths, different species of butterflies and small colorfull insects, centipedes/millipeds & co, a falcon pair nesting in some trees at a few metres near us, and outside our yard (which by the way isn't that big at all), a river full of fish, birds such as wild ducks, ospreys, herons, black storks... i have also photographed 2 species of trotoises, 3 sp of snakes (puff adder, water snake and natrix natrix), hedgehogs, wild boars coming at our altitude only during winter and deer. A lot of deer. And of course, at higher altitudes, bears and even lynxes.

And what do they do today to this area that has protected species? Mass deforestation of course, because f*ck police or moral values! You should see the garbage left (and near our gates as well) by those poor people that have no other career choices to feed themselves or their families...

I felt like i can't start talking about my experiences with animals without touching this less happy subject as well guys, sorry :(


updated by @kate: 04/12/17 11:14:56PM
Kate T
@kate
11/21/14 06:19:49PM
152 posts

What's up with the FEAR?


Empath

I erased my post once and i think i regret it a bit, but maybe now I can fare better in calming the whirlwind of questions inside my head, and actually, they are not questions at all i am afraid, they are observations, transient observations just like the human nature I HOPE. It's really... there are a lot of things to be said, but in essence it's just one or two.

So what's up with the Fear around? Ok so it's not something personal anymore. I've become freakin' tired of seeing so many closed-up and rushed people around me, that have no spirituality in their life and who do not have any idea why they are here and what they should do. I got tired of the people that want to avoid instead of doing something, that think they can mimick being something else while in reality they're moving backwards.

I think I'm starting to realise why there are so many people obsessed by sex and similar things. They are so sad and down that this is the only thing that passes through the muddiness or creates even more. There are so many people that give up so easily and let themselves be influenced by the media and people around them I cannot stand seeing how easily everybody accepts to get depersonalised or deshumanised. And depersonalisation is a very bad side-effect of our today's society.

I'm currently in my "i'm staying in the dorms" period of life and far from being all cutesy and nice, i feel like my head is going to explode, and I'm so pissed of i feel like i should punch some people in the face and settle down things faster once and for all, no more words. I've never felt so many black clouds in a city before and i cannot help but hate the ones existant in this one either, and it's a capital for god's sake, and I'm so not planning to stay here, though i kind of have to cut through it 3 years from now on. And it's not easy to cleanse yourself either, it's actually the hardest part, and if you do something, if you are happy and your heart transmits that, people actually look veery surprised and it pisses me off once again. This is the worst of the things: the fact that people think sadness and isolation are more normal and natural than happiness and content. This is a problem of the place I'm currently in, and i do not know if this is a problem where you live as well. And these people are supposed not to be like that :( I wouldn't even run around the tail about this if i felt there's nothing under the surface, but there are so manyt things, yet... ugh. I'm so saddened by what is going on around me i started crying today again, for the fact that i have to socialise with these people and for the fact that i feel it: they have so much fear inside, and cover their inner voices and succumb to the noise around. My head has become noisier as well, I'm starting not to like it. Ok, that's the point where i feel a bit frustrated i erased my last post, because now I'm less outraged and more tired. WHY fear if i may ask? All my childhood I had an "inhibition" when it came to people. I'd rather have talked with objects, or animals, or people much older than myself who had good thoughts. As I grew up, i started seeing kids as truer being even though i didn't like them in the past. To be honest, i didn't like humans at all, and neither did i like apes& the likes, and even though i expressed myself through writing, painting, drawing, i just couldn't draw humans. I only came to aknowledge the human naure upon opening and reading things from a spiritual point of view and getting in touch with the fact that there are people who try their best to be better and overcomes their flaws. I met some really good people and I've grown so much that now I want to do good and help, not only people but cut through patterns that are ill. And as I find myself growing, trying to bloom, i see that the waters have retreated and the soil is deserted again, and i ask myself when did that happened, and why is it happening, after the "shower" i got, or after the short showers i get. I cannot stop but have a feeling that inter-human relationships are getting diminished (and no, the more you stay on the so called social medias the more doors you shut in real life, you know, the moment you step back from the technology that gives you a sense of inclusion you find yourself in a world of confusion, because we have become some slaves of the technology we mastered; with only a few exceptions) and less and less know about the true essence of friendship, of love... not able to commit, create beautiful situations or friendships... a shadow thought pops out and wonders wether things have always been like that and I'm grossed by it. If there is something that creates shadows, it's only our mind, and even if something existed in the past, it's only us that's bringing it again into the future, and you are free to STOP it any time, push the discouragement back, or torn it apart, channel it differently.

I think there is a problem with forgetfullness as well: is it me or people forget unnaturally fast these days? It's just that as time passes some people seem like they prefer to totally cut themselves away from their past, cover everything up, change their hearts, they think they move on, but in fact they just shrink? I do not want to judge though, what i know is that every time i judge something i will get to experience it at one point as well :))) In fact this is one of the reasons i dwelved into occult things. It's like a missing key. And it's a pretty beautiful one from my point of view. I just had this sensitivity since i was little and it wasn't hard for me to catch underlying notes, hidden thoughts, unspoken impressions & the likes. But at the same time i had to live more truthfully as well and i've been criticised a lot for it, until i developped a better looking social shell. What I think gets across, but so do other's emotions. I'm also a curious being and i need to have mental stimulation, so this was just the good thing. And yet... i really have a lot of other things to learn. But i do not like what is going on in this society of mine, and what gets on my nerves are the people not doing anything... and the kids that grow seeing this behaviour as something normal, ugh xD

Yeah, just another normal end of the day thinking session..

Really, why is it easier to spread negative waves in this world and not those of love and care? Is it just habit?

the rhyme written at one point inspired from here, such an accurate vid about the current situation that i happened to come across :) :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XerOBejxoU


updated by @kate: 01/09/17 05:02:39PM
Kate T
@kate
11/15/14 07:47:46AM
152 posts



I guess fire has always been known for the purifying part, not only for the fact that it destroys... the same is true about water, it can cleanse or make everything more permeable, dissolve boundaries...

When i was a kid i used to joke around trying to put out light out matches with my thoughts or make them last longer... I'm not sure how it turned out, but my weirdest experience related to fire was after a liturgy at the church (it was a holiday of some kind, and i don't go too often, i believe i was 16, but i just felt like going, i mean why not, it was a good opportunity to get in touch with myself) and i was alone there with my thoughts and waited to get out the last, and while i was getting ready to leave the man that was selling stuff at the little shop within the church came to me, grabbed my hands and put them on his chest, looked me in the eyes and told me not to use/handle fire for an hour!

I honestly thought he was sincere... but then of course i wondered if should test it to see wether the man was actually delivering a message or just a bit insane :)) I was tempted to simply ignore it, but i believe i waited l about 50 minutes or somethin' and then light up a match... and honestly, nothing really happened as far as i could tell. I tried searching on internet to see if that's actually a custom i was not aware of or if it's something strange that only applied to me right then, but i found nothing xD

The other thing i know is that i don't really like fire and water made me feel better many times (swimming, sea-side... it's like you suddenly gather yourself, although i do like Sun a lot as well. I'm not that comfortable around fire. It's just that in my family there've been a few weird things related to fire: our grandapernt's huge country side house was burned to cinders due to someone's ill mind and our apartment once caught on fire and it was one of the most shocking experience of my childhood xD I've never really been scared of fire and all, but i was very mistrustful of it. I love the feeling of campfires nontheless. But even then the thought of being carefull so that the fire doesn't get too big will cross my mind even though i'm might not be the one entitled to maintain it.

Kate T
@kate
10/29/14 03:06:00PM
152 posts

Tossed between heart and mind


Empath

How, just how can one balance the 2 of them when there are so many possibilities around? What can you do and how do you know you don't mess up your entire life when you know you chose something which the majority agrees upon but which doesn't give you that inner satisfaction even though you can't say you don't like it or anything, and throw it away for a deep feeling that you want to do something else similar as domain of activity, which you find so appealing and good, as if you know there's something in there for you, but yet upon which the majority doesn't agree too much and they are right for certain obvious reasons that in my head i honestly can't feel they would apply...?

How do you accept someone in your life when you want peace at any cost and yet you are off-putting some things that should happen at this time, also because you don't want your mind to be taken off of future career, college life & etc...?

In a way, my life has always been about trying to find a balance... and step by step i manage to reach my goal. But I am very conservative with my energy, and this is why i cannot accept anyone into my life, from boyfriends to close friends. Well that doesn't mean i don't get lucky with some people, and also horribly unlucky with some others of my own age. I also don't want to depend on anyone emotionally, but i can be very profound and that's a problem, especially in our society, it seems >_>

There are some things that i tried to negate and yet i never could, no matter how people affected me in the meantime: the love for animals and nature, drawing, crafting, needing my alone time and meditation, thinking about my own stuff and readings things from all kinds of domains, from medical to civilisations (well basically needing to think about something all the time, but being relaxed as well, not stressed or hyper)

But it's hard to balance the spiritual side with the mundane life, and even harder to try and convience people it is not good to separate them and put everything in little boxes. I do have a lot of will, but i can get demotivated fast, depending on what kind of people i come in contact with (too much). Humans are simply weird.

So as someone who feels so many things from the people around and evironment, did you ever had false feelings or something like that? (i can't trust my intuitive side 100% yet, even though it saved me more times than i can imagine, i did punch myself really hard, unwantingly, and suffered, more or less from it, for some reason)


updated by @kate: 09/05/18 01:19:41PM
Kate T
@kate
06/29/14 01:13:20PM
152 posts

What to do with the people that simply won't leave you be?


Empath

Ok, I think I have a veeery "tricky" question: you know those people, who pop out of a sudden in front of you, even though you hadn't even thought about them during the last... um... weeks, or months, and starts talking trash because they simply want to cause bad, but especially, to make you feel bad? [well, i guess everyone went through that. But how many times must it take for the person to stop and for the situation to go away?] I know someone like that, unfortunately, and i thought that by being kind and trying not to care about what she does she'll get the idea. But i was wrong. It seems some people are... very clingy. Well, this is where i don't know about what i should do. I try not to think about it, but the energetic imprint is there, and it's annoying. So I try to act upon it, but when i do that, i practically enter on the same length as her, and she literally resists any good thoughts or... normal thoughts... or normality that is. She has those inner turmoils and it seems she likes keeping them there like they are jewelries. During school she had sudden bursts of anger, not towards me but in general, and she's kind of strange. Her face is pretty strange, she's kind of short and stubby, and what i want to illustrate with this description is that she doesn't really get compliments about her look, which for a girl I understand it's hard, but is it necessary to do something like she does on a energetic level?

What i want is to literally block her. She just stays there, right before our high-school freaking final exams with which we will go to College (which we have tomorrow), and attacks me on internet even though i was talking with someone else on a group and never ever adressed her, and i was actually telling people about how to write something on a specific official document! And the problem is now my concentration is kind of gone, and she affected me a little once again. And I literally don't want her there. My luck is that i got on the same classroom with her. Yeah, my luck... but the other thing is, this isn't exactly normal, because it's been a while since she had this thing inside her even though i literally have 0 contacts with her and we were only classmates. I never did anything to her, because i knew how she was...

What could i do about her? And maybe about myself as well?


updated by @kate: 02/05/17 07:04:24AM
Kate T
@kate
06/04/14 12:44:04AM
152 posts

Reoccurring dreams


Dreams

I'd suggest you try searching more thoroughfully within yourself and practice in trusting your intuition, if the online resources can't open up certain feelings/ideas that you bottled up and appear as problems through the nightmares.

Then again, maybe it is not something you keep at bay within yourself and you shouldn't, but maybe about what you don't do/refuse doing in your daily life that keeps you from walking on an ascending trail. Maybe it is about having to do something with your environment, maybe you maintain a toxic relationship with someone you shouldn't anymore, and as we all know, sometimes, letting go or forgetting is the best solution, when growth is needed and everything else has been consumed. Maybe you are tired, and you should do something for yourself more, from a physical point of view as well (exercise, getting rid of negative energies, your general mindset about life & co)

Well, these are just a few tips and starting points, maybe it would be better if you could describe your nightmare? :d

Kate T
@kate
05/08/14 03:26:05PM
152 posts

How do you classify/deal with those sudden shudders?


Empath

Thank you so much guys! I've got to tell the funny thing that happened after i posted this :))

Ever since we started school after the Easter Holiday, she has been behaving really nice and normal, finally. No tantrums or losing control over herself episodes & co, and i don't feel drained the same way i used to feel. Though i realise it still isn't normal to say this. I actually feel how i am drained by other people now, and the problem is that... the problem is in my class, again -.-" I've got no idea what i so wrong with people. I'm literally sick (literally, my immunitary system hasn't been too good in the past year because i felt so stressed and pressed all the time) and these are the first people with which i haven't been able to create something more agreeable and connect and find my place in a way or another. There have been so many negative things going on and I've been the target for so many temper tantrums, that i started wondering how can people even walk through life with so many dark clouds inside them? I imagine itmust be a very heavy feeling they don't even realise, not that i don't have my episodes too...

I'm honestly confused. I don't even understand how i should judge or understand people anymore. The only logical beings in my head right now are children, old & calm people and animals. Way too many people act like stags in rut period, and even worse, actually. I don't know if it is the right place to tell what happens usually in my school environment (which is pretty fallen in morals). People imitate sex scenes on the teachers desk, girls go to some of the boys to be touched everywhere and then start "screaming" like they didn't ask for it, they couldn't care less about their future or non-verbal means of communication except yelling at each other all the time and talking only about 2 principal subjects: nail polish, boys (to name it 'delicately') and gossip and "biting back" the other people they perceive as competition, even though we only have 3 more weeks together and after that we will go to college, they still act like they are bewildered and snap back at teachers and so on. Not to mention the boys still play with a football ball in the classroom, knocking down the flower pots and making the walls dirty and 'head-shot-ing' some classmates in the process :))

I don't even know what to say anymore, other than the fact that they are strange, an di wonder why life doesn't slap them already. Of course, i won't even mention the teachers who couldn't care less about the psychological dynamics of our classroom, those that also hold back the good kids... all in all, i just don't understand it anymore. I struggled so much with them, and tried to change the way things work, but i've constantly been hurt by all kinds of observations, and in the end we all reached the conclusion that i should have done what i felt like, not what others told me to do or not and how to judge people and it would have been better.

Anyway, i feel like i don't understand them. First, there was a problem with me and the lack of confidence in myself. But after i learned and saw how things truly work, and after i went through a series of happenings, i changed a bit and became more accepting with people. yet what they continued doing was... damn, if i may ask, just why are the negative areas and patches so strongly binded together and why do people try to deflect a good energy? What kind of environment/exposures creates these gaps in the human brain?

For example, I know i can sense a series of things. The radio waves inside big hypermarkets (which made me dizzy when i was younger and i really didn't like these places xD but now i learned how to deal with it: it's on a psyhical after all...). I could sense(actually, hear) certain movement detectors in some shops, when something is charging, when a TV is open inside an apartment while walking by the door on the outside and etc... these are just some that i realise i can tell apart on a conscious level. Then I know i can read people and animals generally. When people talk, i learned to pay more attention to the non-verbal signs i got from them and then keep the things i learn about them this way and act like i know less than i do.

This is actually very handy with animals and kids, but i can't understand why many people, again, seem to get so scared about it. They should know deep inside themselves that, wherever they live and whatever a society might be and might do, there are some essential traits that should not be forgotten, such as how to communicate this way, in a non-verbal manner... meh... :( I feel a little alone with these ideas, i don't know. I honestly feel they are right, but why are people so stubborn about what doesn't do them good?

Also, I'm talking from an east-european point of view. Maybe in the States or UK there are other concerns and society on the whole, and maybe the empaths living there have to deal with other things... haha, sorry for responding so late, i tried re-writing this message countless times but everytime i made it kilometric ^^". There is so much i want to say and so many thing i think, but i can't really talk with anyone here about more than a very small part, it would seem strange to people... I mean, when i was younger, my classmates categorized me as weird just because i used to draw a lot and participate in projects of this nature, and because i had quite a few hobbies and been interested in different cultures... honestly, they even excluded me from their groups and such because they could only recognise certain things, and they also saw the fact that i was good with animals as a very strange thing (we were young, 1-8th grades, but even at those ages, they had a lot of mean things stored inside them! i remember i cried a lot when i was younger because of what they were doing, but i still had too much pride to tell my parents about it when I felt i had to deal with it, and not burden them... or anyone at all actually) and i think it's because there have only been 20 years since communism ended and there still are fear-compacted areas... again, too many people that shouldn't be anymore are still numb about such things... um, has anyone came across similar thoughts/observations until now?

Kate T
@kate
05/06/14 01:35:44PM
152 posts



My mother reacts the same way in Churches and the way she describes it to me fits perfectly: she feels overwhelmed by other people's negative things. She also told me that she could stand being in a church for more than a few minutes if we were in a monastery or something where people would go there with pure thoughts, not to transform it into a daily gossip place that has nothing to do with the religious aspect more than it has to do with them wanting to be seen in a certain way in other people's eyes, ie, as religious/good people & co.

In my case, the same happened when i was little. It was weird, but i've got to say that it never became so unbearable in a church. The feelings of other people were more overwhelming in classrooms at school, or in buses, or anywhere where more agitated were put together in a small place. For me, churches have always been places when the noise form outside diminishes. Where turning to yourself was something normal and when you could think about your stuff, and cry if you feel like it and be honest and think about truth because this is what you are supposed to do and nobody will butt in. And everytime I feel so good and cleaned, i simply become more peaceful, but at the same time I'm not detached from people or anything, quite on the contrary, I am aware of them. The bad stuff doesn't really stick or simply gets filtered. Your own desire to reach a balance and seek spiritual growth is bigger than the feelings of the people around. But it doesn't have to be something extraordinary. Something you really wish for, someone dear you pray for... should be enough to guard you.

Some people found that they "received" other people's stuff because in their mind they did not truly desire to separate from others, they were still "open" about them, yet ungrounded. It happens on a subconscious level, but this somehow indicates that you've had healthy relationships with people, or you simply need more interaction (or more exercise... daily walks, and walks in nature help alleviate theproblem). Another situation... The mind should be "separated" into certain drawers, and some situations require that you only open the drawers containing certain information/desires/ideas/conceptions/visions to apply in a situation. When you go to a Church and you feel like "ah, i'd have some fun, i'd go to a party, i'd do that, i'd do xyz..."(which is normal from time to time :)) ) or if you still seek an answer in people/certain people, or if you have always been compelled to go to church because your parents said so, which i don't really agree with truth be told, you should be prepared to feel more "impure" and earthy emotions. Or you could try to find a better place for yourself. Maybe you need to go to another church. Why don't you take a walk and see what suits you better?

I have quite a few in my town, and there is one, not too big, but pretty and the location gives me a very good vibe, and they have this huge old painting that was gifted from Jerusalem. I'm not sure if the feeling comes from it, but all in all, everytime i walk past it to school, if i happen to be in a more "stressed" state I just snap out of it and remember that i should not embrace such a scattered way of being... Quite interestingly, there's also this bigger and beautiful monastery on my grandparents' town, in a forest who's first quarter is in the city. I don't manage to get the same feeling... and i don't manage to balance myself out. It only worked once, when i was with a friend of mine because she had some problems with her mother. Well, I guess you cannot force it: if it doesn't come, it means the answer is, at that time and moment, in another place, or you have somethign else to do, or for the moment your state is... ok enough. For the most part I'd say i alwys feel a difference when going in and out of a Church, and it is the single place where I always perceived the difference as being directed towards a positive line.

These are some things that i think i caught over time. I guess some perceptions will change as i grow up, but for the moment... i felt like sharing them. Not that sure how these thinking processes go in an American society though, here when i am the majority is orthodox and our churches are more "private"/smaller than the catholic ones.I am also the kind of person that will go to other people to find an answer when I become too tired or something really, really not good is happening. I know i could always isolate/close myself from external influences (i guess this was a protective mechanism) and in turn i had a lot of hobbies, and i was always drawing and crafting things, and be very good with animals. With kids i became good in the latter years only), so what i had to learn was to become more open and perceptive... ^^" and, yeah, probably this is why i presented it in this light. Sorry for my english, it still isn't that good...

Kate T
@kate
04/21/14 03:57:25AM
152 posts

How do you classify/deal with those sudden shudders?


Empath

Well, not exactly shudders, but a sudden feeling, as if something electrical just passed thrugh you, and it kind of instantly made you worry what could be going on.

Now although my "sensors" play a primary role in my life, and i kind of trained myself to first let them be and listen to them because life was generally a pain if i did otherwise, i must alsso pass the infrmation i get through a logical/rational filtrer and find a reason. Usually it's there, you just know it. But some other times, like it happens to me and it's become so bugging, it's permanent and there everytime i dare to think or focus about it. It's something I am connected to because it's part of my life right now (ie: school... ) but this other bugging "electrical" feeling is coming frm my deskmate with which i had big problems, even though i tried to solve them countless times and draw clear boundaries.

I know about her that she has a pretty interesting energetic capacity, in the sense that she can make herself felt in this electrical way that I'm talkign about, but she had some huge problems with an abusive alcoholic father and money and her own rather closed native disposition, that she became what you can call an energy vampire, concentrating on extracting what she needs by verbally abusing others and starting fights around to get attention. Of course she ended up being ignored by all her classmates and in my rush of optimism and thinking it won't affect me, i tried to uplift and help her. Aaaah, bad move. The other problem was that i could see through her easily, and she didn't like it, even though i am very gentle generally speaking with these matters, something that i worked with while doing volunteer work with kids and generally towards animals.

But she saw both an enemy and an opportunity in this situation, thus when i started feeling really weird and uncomfortable around her, i wanted to talk with her: no use, she had other bigger problems, like her ego, even though she turned to me for advice a few times, such as why she can't sleep well during night and has nightmares, how accidents happen to her and so on. She clearly does not realise she is provoking these things, or rather, these things happen to open her eyes about what she's doing wrong. or if she did relise, she doesn't really do anything in the behaviour sector... she got some nasty habbits as well, such as lying, making up stories to draw attention, being boisterous, blocking outside influences or advice and other countless things.

But I described this because what bugs me is why do i get these weird feeling from her? I tried a few tricks i read about as being allright, such as imagining myself and her in 2 different "transparent boxes", or just distancing myself from her, well, basically what someone does after someone does a lot of bad things to you and definetly doesn't want your good, and even stealing your work or ideas... and not only that, but she simply made me feel agitated, as if she was giving me her internal state T_T f course, it's not the first time this happens with somebody else for me, but it's the first time i concluded this is being very toxic to myself, while all she does is actually taking adantage of my more composed energy and treating others like crap every time she finds something she thinks she is superior about... the problem is my tricks don't work o_o maybe it's something abut myself too? such as curiosity? something prompting me to help her athough i definetly won't end up with anything, straight away, as far as i've seen; quite on the contrary? I tried mving away from her, but she started behaving so good and finally acting normal that i felt bad for her :)) and decided that maybe she has changed. She definetly changed since i came to know her more (since i moved to her) and i feel good at least that even though she did some bad things to me, she didn't end up being the black sheep of the class and they don't do so many mean things to her anymore...

And yet, now i was watching a video about something, and somehow she crossed over my mind: it was a horrible feeling though, because i was being so peacefulla nd feeling good and with my own stuff and thoughts, and suddenly, i got that "electrical feeling" inside me which totally changed my internal state, and it was as if i saw her: i honestly got pretty agitated, maybe because i couldn't grasp what and why, and tried to distance mysef from her again. Well, in the end i managed to, but i honestly didn't like it. What annoys me is that the mechanism i had befre doesn't get "activated" anymore. I used to be horribly picky about who i let pass certain boundaries, but now I am working with what i can do, what i should do and finding a balance, and integrating the spiritual aspect into the daily life, and it's pretty hard, but the problem is sometimes i don't get the reason behind these feelings that i get from certain people... it's also about the environment at school and the classroom, it's like it's a storm of charged stuff, and i wouldn't even mind a real storm or something overwhelming that is natural, but these feelings about the environment are really, really negative and pressing...

When i tried explaining them the first time i moves there, people wouldn't really believe me, and i naturally tried t change myself a bit and adapt, but soon enough real problems started appearing, such as classmates doing outrageous things and yelling at teachers and being violent and stuff became real. And I knew ages before, the feelings were lingering, but ah, people don't getting it when they should get it and then paying for it is another story...

Now do you get those "shudders" from certain people, suddenly, as well? How do you manage them? What is their cause in your case, generally speaking? :) this is definetly nt the first time it happens to me, but the nature of what i felt earlier alarmed me and i wished to talk about it before it goes away... because i know they are real, but i still don't want to believe that that girl, my deskmate, is going through something really bad, again... we're not even in the same town at the moment, and i can definetly not help her, whatever the cause. One thing I realise is that my curiosity and the fact that i might have been the pushy one in the first place caused this, and i have to stop it ;) But how? Simply by not letting myself think about her anymore? I think i will have to do some "inner work" once school is finished, in 2 months, and put the boundaries in their place... but i don't know, i'm playing on my gut feelings :(


updated by @kate: 02/15/17 11:51:16PM
Kate T
@kate
03/09/14 04:45:44PM
152 posts

The lessons animals teach us


Animal Empaths

Indeed Diana... I somehow alway felt more natural around animals too, and some people saw it as a really strange thing. They have no idea how amazing it is and that animals are not the only ones we can perceive... yet I cannot help but wonder, if evolution really works, how come so little people understand such feelings/are open to going through such experiences that are always better for our soul?
Kate T
@kate
03/09/14 05:00:15AM
152 posts

The lessons animals teach us


Animal Empaths

So has anyone felt the different way animals react according to your energy? I also feel like they all have a lesson to teach us, such as the joy that dogs embody, to the presence and assurance that horses give you, to the calming effect that swimming pisces have in a aquarium or the wondeful vibe of watching dolphins play around and communicate with each other on documentaries or at a delphinarium. The family sense and empathy of elephants. Not to talk about the disconnecting feeling of watching birds migrate or undertstanding that concentrating on the essence is the real way of withstanding anything, and regenerating yourself, like snakes and crocodilians do.

With each animal's survival technique that works there is a lesson to be learned about which truly brings balance to us as creatures living on the same Planet Earth, even if some do not agree we are the same or say that we are superior. I say we manage to complement our brain power that gives us the "superior" hand with just as inferior acts of being and behaving, like murder, promoting craziness and detachment or disrespect in front of real values, destroying each other's balance and ultimately, our own resources, the earth, and ourselves.

Think of what happens in Ukraine right now. Does anyone really think about the environmental consequences of using nuclear bombs? No. They don't. Money matters, social matters, artifical matters prime. And I believe they never felt tears running down when they saw a part of the forest they were accustomed to since little being teared down illegally by money-seeking people and leaving behind a mess and huge open areas of forests with previously great biodiversity (all kinds of weird insects, little mammals, reptiles (3 snake species and all kinds of lizards), amphibians, birds of prey, deer, hedgehogs, boars, singing birds/aquatic birds...). And with everybody being corrupt, nobody doing anything, even though old and precious trees were involved in the deforestation. And for what? So that the mayor's daughter could buy herself purses directly from Dubai.

And that was a corner for my soul, it gave me balance, i played and walked in there, listened to the sounds and the trees, imagining i will find elves if i go deeper into the forest while reading LOTR ( :))) ) or trying to imitate birds and find caves or weird signs. I used to play around in the river, finding turtles and once a huge water snake, and catching little fishes bare handed because they used to hide under the rocks.

So has anyone felt anything magical while being around animals? I have been passionated about animals, zoology and archeology since i was little, and i watched countless documentaries ann had many encyclopedias i used to read.I usually accompanied the "studies" with drawings.

[story starts! ;)) ]One of my most energising experiences so to say was last summer when i went to a horse riding equestrian centre,a nd it was amazing. I don't know why i was attracted to a certain dark bay young Lipizanner from the Maestoso line they had just bought, and we bonded. I never did that with a horse before, because i hadn't had the chance, and i never actually ever been so close to a horse until those 3 weeks i spent there! but one day I simply hold his head in my hands and suddenly my heart felt full of love for that buddy and i knew what that was. And I entered in his stall to groom him and he stood there so relaxed, so i started scratching him and he almost fell asleep and closed his eyes. I never gave him treats or anything. So when i wanted to finish he followed me through the stall and when i stretched my hand and said stop he stopped with a funny expression and when i let my hand down he approached again and wandered after me. He was so sweet! My instructor was really surprised and watched us through the window. The little stallion that i befriended previously broke 2 bridles and a fence and acted like a wild horse, because the guy that usually broke horses in used force, trying to control horses through a healthy respect mingled with more fear than was necessary. And many horses were quite reluctant to go into the shower, although they should have perceived it as one of the most relaxing routines, including this stallion (Merlin was his name). Merlin however followed me like a little doggy and i didn't need anything to make him go into the shower, and we both enjoyed the cleaning ^^

My instructor saw how close we got, so one day he asked me to mount him to test and see if he learned something (he was almost 3 years old, and Lipizzaners shouldn't start such a complex training unless at least 3-4 years old anyway) and he had no problems listening to the instructions and he had such a fast gallop xD (lounged) It was amazing, out of all the horses there this one was the most receptive (he was still young, again) and after we finished the lessons the trainer came and told me this was the third time he was mounted, and i was the second one apart from him that did it.

When the other saw it they thought god knows what would happen to me because Merlin was thought to be pretty reckless and crazy and still young with a lot of training to go... and i was so happy!

I definetly learned to be more confident in myself, more centered, more perceiving, open, friendly and balanced!

It was strange to impose my way of being with horses like that where everybody never saw horses as being so sensible and easy to deal with. And then there was this lady who came to me (she poseesed a white lipizzanner there and came daily) and she was still suffering after a fall she had a few months back, and she was verifying and treating the horses like they were her kids, and started talking with me about the law of attraction, universe, energies & co... Imagine my shock when i saw that she could sense stuff too! :)) And so many other things happened... i actually befriended everyone, i learned to do all kinds of things, like tacking them, picking the hooves, feeding them, and there were also families coming there ans askinf for details and i acted as a guide pretty often and enjoyed it so much, telling htem all i knew about horses! And the guys saw it and once, when dome foreigners came and because i was the only one around at that moment knowing English and french, they let me enter the ring and i hold a lesson while explaining them what they had to do! And the next day they even let me give a lessons for 5 minutes to some guys from Arabia! It was the most amazing thing ever! I even got invited to a party held at that centre and when the day ended they gave me a lift to the centre fo the city to be able and reach my grandparent's house at which i was staying :D and sometimes i would even stay with them and have a drink at their usual places and talk and laugh... it really was special. More than anything because i could show them what empathy towards animals is, how good it worked, and they understood and accepted me.

I was once trying to calm down another horse and i was just standing there trying to transmit him something else than the agitation he was used to, and one of the grromer saw me and asked that lady who told me asked me about the law of attraction & co "What is she doing? The horses won't respect her like that, they won't even pay attention" and she told him "That's just how she is, more sensible, let her be that way" or something similar and of course after that the scenes from above followed where i got invited to the party and hanged with them at the end of the day for a drink and talked and laughed :D

There were other people coming at the Centre previously just as attached to horses & co, so they probably saw a similar behaviour to mine previously, but definetly not expressed daily by a 17 years old girl who has never been around horses before for more than 2 hours! (I actually managed to convince my parents to go to 2 state Horse Studs but it wasn't the same kind of experience, although it was beautiful too)

I can honestly say that more than anything, the riding lessons also did wonders to my stomach area/solar plexus chakra and to my back (i have scoliosis unfortunately, and although it is notthatbad, or at least not that visible, the energy has problems around the stomach and i have to concentrate on it more than others to balance stuff) and to the third eye/crown area.

I also had a lot of lovely experiences with dogs, such as random buddies i've never seen before following me on street or while going to school and stuff like that xD I also have an affinity with kids. Or had. In the last period i've been quite stressed, nothing out of the ordinary happened.[/story ends :)) ]

Sooo... what about you guys? What kind of lessons did you learn/give? :D Have you ever had the chance to manifest empathy towards animals?

(unrelated p.s. thought: i will soon go to college, and i plan buying a Bonsai :)). I think they're lovely, and i was thinking, from what i've read/heard that they act like "emotional metres" and need attention and balance in order not to wither... i've always been very curious about them!)

I sometimes feel weird to talk about such things. I'm not even used to directly voicing such thoughts even though this forum is a very wecoming place for it.. I met various people, from Reiki practicioners, to an amazing bio energy therapeut who used to treat athletes & co... It is just that i think what if people don't believe in me or such ideas, if they are afraid to give up their ego and see the real situation in front of their eyes, or what if they try to transform a message into a bad one by infusing weird beliefs or ideas that have been deply rooted... (such as, "this is too weird" or "it's just your imagination, stop being a kid, the real world is different")


updated by @kate: 05/09/17 01:27:39AM
Kate T
@kate
02/23/14 09:01:54AM
152 posts

Uhh... stomach problems!


Empath

Ok guys, i have no idea how the scenario had to become like this, but my seemingly continuous problem with the environment seems to never cease.

All i can say is that it is like having a foot in a basket full of leeches and trying to walk and live everyday as if it was normal.

Only that this sick feeling is primarly recepted by the stomach, and it hits like a punch. I haven't gone there for a week now because i had a contest and the teacher made it possible for me to stay home, and now that i know tomorow i'm going to the same place it makes me feel like i'm swallowing something nasty. The general air of the environment packs everything that no one would ever desire: fear, health problems, restlessness, frustration that sometimes transforms into violence between classmates(man, those daily verbal fights!) and what it really is bugging i how everything turned out like this, as i came here an year ago with good thoughts, a very good image, and a lot to do and stil to study!

I really don't want to name all the bad happenings and how mean these people could become (not only towards me, but towards others and teachers too!), and i do not personally have anything with them, but i cannot escape this feeling that i am drained and mye nergy is replaced by somethign really nasty.

I am usually very open, cheerfull, artistic and i love nature and animals, yet from the smallest things in life to any non-verbal means of communication, these things do not exist for them. I feel like a stranger in an oasis of people struggling with illusions and thinking violence is the best means of escaping them. The problem is, once you show them a better path, they react like God knows what you wanted to tell them, as if you wanted their bad! I understand many have family problems here, and money problems, and other and other problems, i don't know what was in my head when i moved here, i know i only have 3 months until i can finally go to college and summer holiday, yet this doesn't truly help me...

But what is the reason, and my real problem? :(

I felt such a push in this direction that i started studying astrology (western, chinese, vedic), psychic fenomenas & co and came across various articles and also information about empaths (in books & internet). Of course, this is something only i know and that my parents know about vaguely as i won't risk blowing up my cover and efforts into trying to combine these to aspects and balance my life ( I did have feelings like premonitions, i can read people, animals, energies of certain places) but the problem is the energy I'm getting from the environment constantly gets in my way of attaining a correct balance and i cannot even meditate! It is simply very disrupting, and my stomach is the first instance to receive this message, and it affects my energy levels and happiness overall. I try to cope with them, but i will never accept all the bad things directed at me out of envy and absence of understanding, as they are simply not open, well, with th exception of about 4-5 people that i perceive as being more allright but we do not really have anyhing in common... i still have my friends and i can normaly socialise during breaks (god-given giiifts!!) but the problem still is there... I just cannot function at my normal levels, be collected, prepared for college... it's like I AM NOT LET TO! Like i have to fight for it everytime, like it is something wrong and i should become just as agitated and confused because for them this is something more usual than being peaceful and happy. Here peaceful and happy are synonymes to being weak, or stupid. I wish to 'clean' myself, to forgive them and i try to block myself from having bad thoughts about them, but such things aren't even respectd or taken into consideration! I try creating boundaries, but this is something they do not respect either. It's like the law of the jungle here, only that in a jungle it would have been better, energetically talking. I thoughts i could overcome these obstacles, but it proves that it was more than i could handle :(

And I should have accumulated energy for the time that comes, for moving out of the town, it should have been such a nice year with nice memories and although there are a few in this classroom too, the bad ones totally exceed them. And my stomach continues to feel horrible everytime i think of my classroom.

Now i affected everyone around me, my friends, my family, the first ones being my parents and my brother... i come home and realise i'm so angry i sometimes leash out (or i used to) and afterwards i start feeling so sorry about it... and it is a very abnormal thing about me, i never did somethign like that, and it creates a lot of tension! Not to talk about the tension inside myself... offf. I have no idea what i should do, except strive not to let these things affect e any further, although i should have directed my energy towards completely different things!


updated by @kate: 01/14/17 03:56:33AM
Kate T
@kate
02/23/14 04:03:51AM
152 posts



i never really liked arrogance or allowed myself to feel "i'm better than you, so you are stupid", and i actually tried to diminsh every tendency i had in this sense because i just didn;t like getting this vibe form people, that i am arrogant and such.

Yet, although i tried my best, i also accomplished some things at school and with my college plans, and did certain things which of course boosted my self-awarness and overall happiness, which translates as confidence, and some people actually perceive confidence as arrogance -_-"

This is something that really bugs me, while i try to be nice and i work with myself daily and restrain my own thoughts in trying to become a better person, do empathy exercises and dwelve into the more esoteric area of life, yet you become envious at every step that i take further, just because you have a lot of internal negativeness you thought would be suited to be released to burden the person that happened to be next to you!

I sometimes feel that if i was a male, healthy confidence would have been better accepted and welcomed :)) As a female you are expected to be weak, excessively receptive, and dependant, not too assertive... or at least this is more promoted in, well, my society. Fortunately, times have changed :D and yet...

People told me lately i seem very confident as i walk & co, and i strived to simply be confident without making another one feel down, and i do believe that the more you search and understand yourself and the more hidden aspects of life, the less you become afraid to follow your instincts and gut that never seemed to fail me, and which ultimately bring true happiness... i gotta say something about confidence, and i have a feeling it starts fromt he stomach ;))

I discovered that acting and horseriding do wonders, but in a very natural, healthy way, in the sense that one becomes peaceful with oneself... or these are what help me be more balanced. And males also appreciates more confident females. So yeah, no matter what others think, as long as it works for you and the confidence is bringing better rewards (and also focus, which is very, very important for meditation, healing, channeling and others) then don't let others bring you down just because they want to feel better in a selfish way (and too often, people judge their "worthiness" comparison to others, where, again, the majority of othersis made of people wandering through life with their eyes closed, not knowing where to go, when to stop, what to follow, managing to hurt a lot of people, and feeling good because some people dictate this and this is what television and media promote... loss of individuality, unhealthy herd instinct, sluttiness, confusion)

This is my subjective point of view :) From what i've read in your case, seems like you have a pretty interesting life and that you were extremely lucky with people, yet, try to not be so dependent on others, and thus risk getting in muddy waters, because you cannot be friends with everyone! Do not be fooled by plain words that are there just to flatter for personal gain, as extracting confidence solely from others can become the ticket to your own undoing. In the sense that if something happens at one point and someone wants to take advantage of your "openess", and messes up some things by putting a bad word (life brings unexpected obstacles, and you won't probably stay in one single place all your life, thus through journeys and changes you may meet different peole with different oppinions and that project different things), then you will have to learn how to stand by yourself and function from inside out, following what you feel and respecting yourself for who you feel you are with goods and bads, not for what others tell you you are.

At 21 everybody feels confident, has a big head... it's the cyrcle of life ;)) Sometimes this is how one can accomplish certain things, but remember that balance is the key, and no one is better than the other as everyone has it's own unique role in this world.

So in the end, i find "arrogance" to be a stubborn way of thinking that you are better that the others, and extracting this energy by projecting negative thoughts upon the, while confidence is that natural energy you have by doing and accomplishing certain things, the energy extracted from your memories, or healthy ways, without needing to make others feel down.

Kate T
@kate
02/16/14 06:01:53AM
152 posts

Dreaming about ghosts and a medium Dog


Dreams

I woke up so abruptly from this dream last night, and it was so vivid, yet i felt so scared, because i couldn't understand where it was coming from. Although i do not like subjects releated to spirits at all, i usually do not get nightmares. This one, however, was quite... horrible.

So there i was, in my dream, i suddenly woke up in a very well known place from my town, where on the right side used to be a big theatre and on the corner a very nice Church. The theatre and church weren't there though, and in my dream i wondered where did the restaurant go too, and although i tried to bring the image of the church there it was very diffuse and i couldn't, but instead, there was a house there, eveything ina gothic style. There was like a pressure all around me, and everything was in black, white and grey.

While i was walking around being really suspicious and quite tensed, i saw some bushes and tried to walk away from that corner where i was staying, but suddenly there was a dog that appeared, small, lean, fox-like eyes, and he was golden with white (closely resembled the little stray dog that barked at me 2 days ago because, well, that's what he does with other people and cars all the time when someone walks on "his" part of the street ;)) ) i tried to approach him, but he started barking, so i tried walking away, but he was trying to direct me to a certain path. I didn't want to, so i suddenly got "teleported" a few metres on another street quite close to the first one, but i was rapidly brought back on that same corner with the dark-green bushes and the dog there... and everything became more diffuse, and everything started moving including the sky as if i was ready to pass out, but i looked at the house in front of me and i suddenly got teleported to it...

Now the ghost part comes, and i literally still have shivers. Inside, there was a very weird and charged atmosphere, and i felt like i was in a freshly abandoned house with a distinct atmosphere where old people used to live. The Dog was there with me too, and suddenly became very aggresive, started barking, i looked at him and wanted him not to hurt me, for a second i thought i saw a weird girl waiting in a corner of the room. I wanted to go out of there, but before almost touching the door, i got teleported again in the middle of the room right next to a chevalet with a painting, a white sheet covering the colors, palletes and pencils, and the golden dog totally changed. He jumped in a chair and was calmly watching the painting. In the painting, there was a couple, with very definite features, a girl with curly long, dark red hair and a guy... they were very fox like, again, looking for something, wanting something, and started moving in the picture! I actually got curious, the pressure lessened up a little, but in the next moment, the dog got possesed, he raised up his head, light was coming out of his eyes and mouth, he let out a shriek.... and i felt my chest area burning, and how my senses were leaving me, like i was entering a floating-like phase... it was horrible, i got so scared, and in that moment i suddenly woke up!

And the sensation was still there, probably because i was still scared, but managed to reason with myself and calmed down quite fast. The problem is, the atmosphere was horrible, scary, full of pressure, and everything was very fast, and fragmented: i wanted something else, but the way the dream had to go... these were the last images i remembered in the morning, but there was another dream too, quite nasty, where i had to stay around many other people and had to catch a chicken and keep it inside a box or something... and it was a dark room, ah, nasty one too... :(( although, fortunately, i never felt like totally losing the control over what was happening, so i wouldn't classify them as nightmares.

What could it have been?


updated by @kate: 09/03/18 09:27:45AM
Kate T
@kate
02/10/14 11:42:09AM
152 posts

Normal protective techniques not working?


Empath

Hey, I'm glad you responded :) Hmm, i do hope life in college will bring some positive changes... or at least i will work for it :D. did you have certain habbits/meditating techniques that helped your focus/attention/keeping yourself separate from others? Somehow, for me, everything mingles together ina w ay or another, so if there is something "heavy" hanging in an area of my life, it definetly is felt in the others too...

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